Saturday, October 22, 2011
The Oktoberfest 5k was last weekend. The virtual race I have scheduled for next Saturday (5 Nov). But as of today and a 4 mile walk, I've finished the 5k Your Way Training Program and gotten the trophy.
Which left me looking for a maintenance program. Er ... hmmm ... couch to 5k, nope. 5k your way, nope. Walk and jog? Oh, heck no, I want to keep walking, not bounce and jar myself.
O_o Is there really no ongoing "keep in shape for further 5k walks" program? Guess I have to set something up for myself in my Other Goals.
( If someone knows better than I do and I'm just looking in the wrong place, please speak up. I'm wrong plenty. I won't be sorry to be wrong about this.)
Friday, October 21, 2011
I've said before that I had to actively work to keep and add weight. Just to give a peek at what a typical day / week of meals were like:
Starbuck's Tall Hot Chocolate w/ Whip
Two pastries - usually Glazed Old Fashioned, Apple Fritter, Apple Bran Muffin, and/or Blueberry Muffin
If someone brought free munchies, as many as I could take or as large a piece as I could get
Or 2 King-size candy bars from gas station store across the street
Pack of gum - usually finished off in a day
Subway footlong - no skimping on toppings, 3 Double Chocolate cookies, Chips if I craved salt (not as common)
Super Burrito, Super Nachos, other Mexican dishes - all easily 3-4 servings if not more
Chocolate Milk - 1% milk, very generous on chocolate powder, filled a jar so about 18 oz
Another Chocolate Milk - 1% milk, very generous on chocolate powder, filled a jar so about 18 oz
Entire Rice-a-Roni or Pasta-Roni or Hamburger Helper makings (unless daughter wanted half)
Sometimes added can of tuna and frozen peas/carrots to Pasta-Roni
Can of tuna, few tbsp of mayo, squirts of mustard, stirred up and either Tuna Melt under broiler on two slices of multi-grain bread or shredded cheddar mixed in and microwaved (same as Tuna Melt minus bread)
Out to eat if I had spare money - more Subway, double whopper / Big Mac w/ fries and shake
Bowl of ice cream (probably 2-3 cups)
Chocolate syrup if I had it
Truffles or other chocolate if I'd bought that
Half or entire bag of Chips Ahoy or Oreos
Cookie dough (why bother cooking it ...)
Sometimes weekends were almost no solid food and just refilling that jar of chocolate milk. Sometimes I'd pick up Triscuits or Wheat Thins and eat huge amounts with cheese pieces. Sometimes I'd buy pre-made salads such as Caesar's and eat the whole bag's worth (2-2.5 servings).
There were the odd days in there where I had one glass (in the 18 oz range) of milk and nothing else but water. But the above is a more accurate picture of what I ate the majority of days.
^_^;; I should actually run one of those through the menu planner some day just to see what sort of calorie surplus I was living at.
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Now, this isn't something I normally come right out and admit to people. But in the process of trying to figure out one thing semi-related, the more I realized how important belief is.
I am not Christian. I am not any particular religion. I was raised as a Jehovah's Witness (they are Christian, even if they are quite different from the more classical versions). My children were raised Jewish (eldest, whom I gave up for adoption) and Catholic (I took them, I went through their whole baptism and communion, for my mother-in-law). One of the two raised Catholic is now an atheist, the other sings and is active in a youth choir.
On a technicality, I am probably also considered an atheist, but I consider that inaccurate. I don't believe in God, but I do believe there's a whole lot more to our universe and world than what pure science can measure. At the closest description, I believe in each of use being unique spiritual beings who use, live in, control, and experience through bodies. Somewhat New Agey, I suppose.
So, the thing I was trying to figure out -
I go to other's SparkPages. Sometimes in their comment or their blog they mention how much they are struggling. I have no problem looking at past blogs or the groups they've joined, seeing that they've professed a faith in some way - and recommending that they include asking their God or animal spirit or Earth Mother or whatever form it takes for assistance on their path.
Sometimes I feel like I have to explain myself. How can I be there, telling them to "ask Him to lend a hand", when to me it's just a word?
Because it is a belief. And my strongest belief is in our own power as beings - what we believe has immense power in our lives.
God IS real to that person. My beliefs don't matter. The beliefs of the man or woman who prays or performs a ritual do.
People have gotten well in seemingly miraculous ways. We test almost all drugs with control groups who get placebos, and there are nearly always at least a few who feel better or improve.
A strong enough belief in something has great power.
Sounds like we could believe ourselves skinny or healthy, right?
BUT, what that led me to realize is how often we can actually believe conflicting things. We start off a new week looking at the fitness page and the nutrition page and this week we're going to do it. Yessiree, Bob, we BELIEVE!
Then we take twice as many of one food than we should or skip a day of exercise. What happened? Dig down deep and we just might find that even stronger than we believed we could do it, we believed we would fail. We believed we don't have what it takes. We believed we aren't strong enough. We believed the inner voices that said we'd never really stick to it were right.
In order for our beliefs to have power, they can't be pushing in opposite directions. Before our belief that we can do it this time can win out, we have to identify and address the reasons we believe we can't. We have to prove those beliefs wrong to ourselves and let go of them. (Definitely not easy. Letting go of something we believe, even if it's the inner child telling us Santa is real, is TOUGH.)
Sometimes we can just modify them - instead of a blanket belief we arent's strong enough, we can acknowledge we aren't physically strong, but we are strong enough mentally and emotionally. From that, we can believe that our fitness will make us physically stronger, while also believing we can stick to the program - and both beliefs can work together to help us move forward.
Ending off with a Belief quote that is fitting:
Men often become what they believe themselves to be. If I believe I cannot do something, it makes me incapable of doing it. But when I believe I can, then I acquire the ability to do it even if I didn't have it in the beginning. - Mahatma Gandhi
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
So without really paying attention, a few items I picked up in groceries this past weekend are what I categorize as "diet foods". One was breakfast sandwiches. I thought I grabbed normal egg, muffin, cheese, canadian bacon style - but had managed to grab the (Light*) box. I also picked up a couple of pasta meals to try out without noticing they were a Weight Watchers brand.
Sounds like I should be eating better, yes? Well, yes and no.
I had to make myself finish the breakfast sandwich. By halfway through, the flavors had lost any appeal. I do not like egg white only. I've tried it in the past. That's what this sandwich had. It also had a pretty drab muffin with a chewy texture, the tiniest possible piece of cheese. Basically, halfway through the taste wasn't what I wanted, and finishing wasn't satisfying except in feeling full.
I made the pasta meal more satisfying by toasting a slice of bread and buttering it. Otherwise the sauce was just not quite there. The chunks of tomato were the most memorable part.
"Diet foods" may very well work wonders for some people.
Not me. I'm far too flavor and texture oriented. These make me go back to scarfing (eating fast) just to finish it because I needed to eat and not because I'm thoroughly enjoying my meal.
So, yeah, not doing that again.
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