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# The inexactitudes (is that a word even?)

### Saturday, July 07, 2012

I'm a numbers person. I love math. I love algebra. I love (and work with) geometry. I've done blogs on the numbers, the stats, the calorie calculations.

BUT

Yes, there's a big but to go with my big butt.

The body is so much more complex. The basic equations give us an approximate answer, not an exact answer.

The most basic equation of weight loss is the calories in must be less than calories out. And it works - to a degree.

It is troubled by the inexactitude (yes, it is a word, even though the spell check doesn't recognize it) of knowing exactly how many calories out occur. It can also be troubled by the small inaccuracies of calories in.

BMR (basal metabolic rate) is a good general idea of how many calories we burn without taking activity into account. But it does have flaws. One of those flaws is that a number of people are higher or lower. (I personally think of it like those bell curves - the kind some teachers graded with. The most people are pretty much right on, a smaller number are a little over or under, an even smaller number are notably over or under, and the most rare people are way over or under.)

Add to the BMR the activity level - sedentary has a multiplier of 1.2 or 1.25 depending on where we look, and people have varying levels of sedentary lives depending on the demands on them to walk, carry things, get up from a chair frequently or not. Add again the deliberate activity - 30 minutes of activity can burn more or less depending on our current weight, fitness, what we do, how intensely we do it, and so on.

We don't really know our own personal EXACT "calories out" number. (The best ways to get close are found in the sort of equipment used in the research studies around which the basic BMR equations are generated. Some equipment can give us a closer answer, assuming all conditions are met for accuracy.) Which means we have to use the general equations to even get a starting point.

What happens if a truck driver knows the average truck is 12 feet tall and so drives under a freeway overpass that says there is 12 feet and 6 inches of space when his specific truck actually happens to be 13 feet tall? He sheers off part of the truck's roof in a very damaging manner. Unfortunately, while the truck driver can know the exact height of his truck (in fact, it is often posted prominently on the truck and the trailer), we don't have that luxury.

Next, take those nutrition labels we rely on. Numbers are rounded for convenience. If something has 1.82923 grams of protein, we see 2 grams of protein. Every time something is rounded and the result used in later equations has small hidden errors built in.

2 + 2 = 5

No, it doesn't, you say? But if 2.47392 is rounded down to 2 because it is less than 2.5 and 2.49248 is rounded down to 2 because it is less than 2.5, adding the rounded values together and getting 4 is less accurate than adding the real numbers together to get 4.9664 and rounding that up to 5.

Every food package and nutrition label we get has those sorts of errors built in. For a little fun, take a variety of nutrition labels and do this math:

grams of Protein times 4 =
grams of Fat times 9 =
grams of Carbs times 4 =

Add the results together and compare to the calories. They "should" be equal. And they might be in many cases. But even the calories might be rounded, now that I think about it - or why would everything seem to have an even 10s amount (150, 130, 270, 90)? Y'know, I actually wonder about the 4s and 9 now - are those rounded from actual numbers that aren't exactly 4 and 9?

Things can even say there are 0g of something ... so long as there is less than 0.5 grams. Never mind that 0.4555 is more than nothing, it shows up as 0g. (Or from those trying to be a little more accurate, they actually say "less than 0.5g.)

So we can't be 100% sure of our calories out or our calories in. (And I wasn't even including the little extras - stuff like whether we lick the bowl clean or not, when we pace a room rather than sit, and so on.)

If we focus too much on that, we can go crazy in the details. If we use that as an excuse to give up, we forget that the basic equation is still accurate to a degree. There IS ALWAYS a point where too many calories in consistently equals weight gain. (And a point where too few consistently leads to malnourishment.)

What is the answer? Learning our body and learning our unique needs. We start with the numbers, because those are reasonably accurate for enough people. We watch the actual results compared to the expected results. We make minor adjustments. We watch the actual results for changes.

How does this work in practice?

Using myself as an example, when I first started out I aimed at about the middle of the calorie range SparkPeople came up with. My goal was set to a date that gave a pound a week loss. In three months I lose 24 pounds. That was nearly 2 pounds per week.

What did that tell me? That I was burning more than the average. My calorie differential was never more than 300 average throughout those months (less, in fact) yet I was losing as though I had a 1000 calorie differential. I now eat closer to the top of my range and allow myself more leeway to go over if I'm truly hungry (like yesterday when I went about 500 over).

And the results tell me that's working fine. Another 40 pounds down in 6 months (a 1.5 per week average) and 3 more pounds in the last couple weeks. In fact, contrary to what many people might expect, eating 500 over yesterday didn't show up as a gain on the scale. Instead, after three days at 183.5 the weigh-in this morning gave me 183. (Bearing in mind that I didn't go 500 over on "junk food". Ice cream, sure, but otherwise just more of my normal snacks / foods and keeping the nutrition balance in-line and sodium respectable.)

Today I'm nowhere near as hungry. Doing my Strength Training at the gym, I felt up to raising my weight amount on quite a few machines and did quite well. Looking at those results, I'd say my body needed the food for some muscle repair and building - and NOT eating when I felt that hungry would have done me a disservice.

Unfortunately, I can't promise others that they can eat the way I do. In fact, I know most people cannot.

What each person can do is start listening to their own body. My body can't tell YOU how to eat, work out, and achieve your goals. YOUR body has to do that.

In addition, the more honestly and accurately you view YOUR eating, YOUR working out, YOUR goals, the more clearly YOU can see whether the current path is working well for you.

Always hungry, real physical hunger? Check your critical numbers to be sure you aren't actually starving yourself.

1) Goal. Check the goal amount and goal date. Look at your current weight. How many pounds per week will that take? Try calculating the date for different pounds lost per week - 1 pound, 1.5 pounds, 2 pounds. Could you be happier taking twice as long but not feeling hungry all the time?

2) Fitness. The fitness tracker expects a certain number of calories based on how many days and how many minutes. If you've never set it or you're routinely doing more or less, try adjusting it. Personally I've had to up the number of calories burned to keep up with my increased ability to burn - which means my calories in goes up even as my weight and my BMR goes down.

3) Start tracking different nutrients. Blood sugar low is only one possible reason for hunger. Another is a need for certain nutrients. If I don't get enough iron around that one time a month, I get hungry at odd times such as right after finishing a meal. By tracking and paying attention to how your body feels, you might learn that you feel more alive if you get more of something or feel duller if you're not getting enough. (My mother many years ago learned that she needed more than the recommended amount of vitamin A - her eyes would ache and blur easily if she didn't get the extra. If she got enough, she felt great.)

In other words, accept that things may not be completely accurate and experiment a little. LITTLE! This isn't an excuse to double your daily calories, after all. It is a freedom to test bit by bit and see what works best for you, what fits your life and your efforts to achieve a greater level of health and fitness.

 TANYA602 7/9/2012 4:23PM I agree so much with the part about it mattering what you eat. I've been working on math planning the last two days so your blog has my head spinning! And in doing my own reflections this morning, I know that I have to stay within my calorie range with the right types of foods. The fitness isn't an issue for me so much.I will have to come back and make some more notes from your blog in my journal so that I can think about this more.Numbers! love them! Report Inappropriate Comment
 ZANNBEE 7/8/2012 2:23PM Great! Report Inappropriate Comment
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 HEAT7918 7/8/2012 9:48AM I find this very helpful and glad I'm not the only one who gets frustrated! Report Inappropriate Comment
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 MILLIE5522 7/8/2012 5:36AM I have kept a record of the number of calories I have eaten every day for the last year and a half. Using that information and looking at my weight loss it seems that my average metabolic rate (including exercise) is 1870 calories a day. I have lost weight before and the same number came up. I know it is an average number but it does help me to predict with some accuracy how long it will take me to get to my goal. If I can eat an average of 1370 calories a day I should lose a 1lb a week. SP has helped me to balance my nutrients so I am never hungry (if I stick to the plan!)The hard part is when I am faced with social situations where refusing the alcohol/snacks etc becomes an issue. I hate drawing attention to the fact that I am watching my diet/calories. I try to "save" calories for these kind of days but its not always possible.I really enjoyed your blog....I shall read your others too! Report Inappropriate Comment
 RUNNERRACHEL 7/8/2012 3:16AM Great blog! Love the way you think and see things Report Inappropriate Comment
 SBNORMAL 7/8/2012 3:11AM It is a math problem, to keep all of this together. Report Inappropriate Comment
 FITKIZ 7/8/2012 1:41AM I love when you go into your number-crunching mode, you sound hilariously like my husband. Overall, I think you're absolutely right though. When I was tracking, and eating the calorie range SP gave me, I was losing 1.5 pounds a week. Of course, I was breastfeeding a very active little girl and was constantly hungry. I think that's part of the reason I stalled out, it was just not sustainable for me while I was providing extra calories to someone else. I'm back, with some tweaking to my numbers to account for the extra I give the baby and I'm expecting this run to be longer-lived than my last 4 month loss streak. Report Inappropriate Comment
 HOPEFULHIPPO 7/8/2012 1:38AM LOL I always joke with my girls that 2+2=5 when you get out of grade school so that's funny you used it as an example. I have yet to figure out the calorie in/calorie out detatils...I love numbers too, even though sometimes (okay most times) I'm not very good at it....I just like the complexity of it and the "coinsidences" that seem to surround it....or patterns. For example: My hubby's bday is 13, My girls are 23, 3, and 23Now MY birthday is the 8th..I tell my family "hey, if you take my 8, minus the number of people in the house (5) it comes out to 3. Thus making ME the glue that holds all you 3s together!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHokay, so that was silly, but you get the point.great blog. I'm going to have to come back and read it again :o)"big But for big butt" LOLOLOLOLOLOLYou crack me up. Report Inappropriate Comment
 SPARKFRAN514 7/8/2012 1:25AM Comment edited on: 7/8/2012 12:18:42 PM Report Inappropriate Comment
 GOING-STRONG 7/8/2012 1:05AM Great blog... I love how you used the example with 2 + 2 = 5. Brilliant!Also I never noticed until you pointed it out that calories per serving on labels are almost always 10, 15 20, etc. You are right! What the heck happened to the 4's?? Report Inappropriate Comment
 SWEDE_SU 7/8/2012 12:18AM i'm not a numbers person, but the "formula" here on SP has me convinced. it works! i've always piled on the miles for weight loss, but in these months of steady weight loss i've learned how important nutrition tracking is, too - even bought a scale here in sweden because the packages are labeled differently! great blog, as always! Report Inappropriate Comment
 FRANCES-AGAPE 7/8/2012 12:09AM blogI too love numbersYou explained it all VERY WELL BLESSINGS ! Report Inappropriate Comment

# How does a non-social person make friends?

### Friday, July 06, 2012

Online.

...

Okay, so that wasn't a joke with a punchline. I hope that's pretty obvious.

I've mentioned my best friend in the past. Last night I mentioned a second friend. What isn't always obvious in the way I talk about them is that I've never met either in person. I met them in the online game WOW, one among the many friends I have made there. I talk to them via IMs and phone calls.

The last real-life friend that I met and knew face-to-face was someone I first met when I was 19. He remained a friend until sometime not long after my divorce when a specific situation brought it to my attention he was doing drugs. (He was a recovering addict when I first met him, but I'd believed he was staying clean until then.) Whooeee am I leaving out a lot of story ... but that isn't the focus of this blog. Ultimately, I don't regret walking away from that friendship.

Before that ... hmmmm ... I sort of had a "best friend" before I went to school, but it was more that she was my age and our mothers were friends, so we always played together. I started 1st grade and she got put in kindergarten, and we rarely saw each other after that even though we only lived a few blocks apart.

Now, I'm not shy.

I had MANY acquaintance-level friends, people I'd eat lunch with, play games with, talk about all sorts of things with, meet at the park, etc. In high school I didn't belong to any of the cliques, but I hung out with people in all of them. I knew people who were jocks, cheerleaders, druggies, brains, geeks, special ed, and was friendly with all of them. I was on the outside by choice, not because I was excluded.

I still have no problem walking up and talking to people, being personable, "making friends" with folk I may never see again. I am perfectly capable of being friendly and tend to draw people in that manner.

Nor am I anti-social.

I don't hate others or lack some sort of conscience when it comes to how my actions or inactions affect others. I don't feel some burning need to escape society or hide away.

Sure, yes, I gained weight to be "invisible". That was focused on avoiding male attention - something that gets annoying when the ones most likely to approach and be vocal about it are pervy old guys (*SIGH* and weight doesn't work to stop those guys anyway). And I did withdraw from real life more and more, but from pure laziness and lack of funds to do anything or have decent clothes for going out anywhere rather than an actual aversion to people.

Which is why I call myself non-social. I could live like a hermit as long as I had the internet for interaction. Unlike a hermit, I'd be friendly and hospitable if people showed up.

Now, the internet. Social EXPLOSION of a sort. I find it very very easy to be friendly online. I've made friends in every forum, every circle, that I've moved in online. But there's whole different friend distinctions. Everyone gets called a friend, but obviously everyone isn't on the same level at all.

And here we loop around to my two friends.

As I said, I've never met either in person. I've seen pictures, I've talked to them via phone and chat. For the most part it is like a long-distance friendship. I know one heck of a lot about them and they know more about me than others. Yet it lacks that "we went here together and did this" history. (Unless you count "we did this dungeon together in WOW". Yeah, yeah, didn't think that counted the same way.)

They are the only two people outside of my family or coworkers who have my phone number and are likely to call it. They are as close to "real-life friends" as I have. But somehow there's a distinction.

Expand beyond them and I have a lot of friends - from the game, from a variety of online forums, even random people who would IM based on a Yahoo! profile page back in the day. Only three ever have been given my phone number - well, four if I count the aborted attempt at online dating back when I was getting divorced that lasted 6 weeks before I broke it off. Maybe a dozen have ever had an email address or IM.

The problem I run into is that "online friends" can be anything from someone who added me to their list or circle that I added in return up but have never actually "talked" with all the way up to the two friends I talk to all the time about all sorts of things.

Making friends online is easy. Maintaining and building past a certain point ... not so much. Even the two closest friends have a certain distance, not just physical, but emotional.

In the rare times I actually feel lonely, that is the lack that I feel without being able to express it well. In the few times I ponder what it would take to someday meet a Mr. Miracle, I wonder how I'd make the leap beyond that distance.

After all, where am I meeting men at all so Mr. Miracle stands out? Most people I meet are online. I'm not meeting people at work. I'm not really interacting with people at the gym beyond the greetings to those who are more regular and those who work there. I'm not interacting with people beyond employees of stores and businesses I go to. I cringe away from the typical men who hit on me at bus stops or on the bus (and can get pretty rudely abrupt when they don't back off).

Heck, where am I meeting ANYONE in person that I'd ever build more than the two key friendships I have?

It's worse than that, really. I blame myself, but both key friendships don't just have a perceived distances, but they are imbalanced. I'm the ear, the vent, for their issues, troubles, and problems. I give advice when asked or just support when advice isn't needed. I'm the rock in their chaotic, drama-filled lives. I cannot IMAGINE meeting someone and telling either of them anything about it. Both know I'm losing weight, eating right, working out, but unless they specifically ask me about it, I volunteer nothing about my progress.

... I now have a tune playing in my head. "I am a rock. I am an i-i-island."

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I've built walls,
A fortress deep and mighty,
That none may penetrate.
I have no need of friendship; friendship causes pain.
It's laughter and it's loving I disdain.
I am a rock,
I am an island.
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Not quite, but my best friend often claims that he has broken down a lot of my walls. All I can think when he says that is I've let him get through the ones I felt were safe enough to let him past and he can't even see the highest wall between us. Some walls I let him past with a gate rather than letting the wall be battered down.

ACK! This has gotten way way too long and somewhat mopey almost.

(For what it's worth, this isn't a cry of needing friendship or hugs. It's a delving into my screwed up psyche trying to figure out what I really want.)

The conversation with my friend last night had me realizing I'm not doing anything to meet real people. I'm so social online that I'm not befriending people offline. Most of the time I avoid any interaction with those online that could potentially extend to meeting offline. Any activity where I might be social with people offline, I don't open myself to trying to build something more than polite and friendly chit-chat.

In those rare moments that I want something more, want a best friend that I can gripe and vent and complain to, want a romantic interest, want something more social, I think up a goal like "Get involved in a hobby or activity that encourages or requires social interaction". (And, yes, there was a point just before 1 am that I actually had that typed in ... and then deleted it before posting the update that I did.) The rest of the time, I'm sure I'd be as likely to accomplish that goal as sleeping eight hours every night, getting up at 5 am daily, cooking every meal from scratch, and becoming a vegan. In other words ... not at all.

Coming nearly full circle, I ask myself the question "How do I be the kind of friend it would take to build the kind of friendship that wouldn't feel like something was lacking?" The answer, sadly, isn't 42.

 MKPRINCESS007 7/8/2012 3:26PM Hey there.........you have definitely sparked (no pun intended) a lot of discussion and thought here. I found your blog via a friend feed, and it brings up an interesting question/thought. Couple of things that I thought as I read...........1) my Mom used to say that if you "get through life" with one really good friend, then you have accomplished something. Now, lets keep in mind that she didn't have the internet to support her connections. 2) Speaking of the internet, well, it is a double edged sword. A blessing and a curse, which is what I tell my 12 year old son when he is getting consumed and I drag him away to participate in "real life"......he's always glad I did to be honest. 3) I, too, am an introvert and so some of the extension beyond the work place, or the travel group that my son is a part of takes a BIG effort for me to work on those relationships. I think all in all, the bottom line, is that if you are HAPPY then there is no right or wrong. If you aren't, that is another story. I didn't meet my husband at a bar, an online dating service or social event. I met him in a LONG line and the rest is history. Wishing you all the best!Karen Report Inappropriate Comment
 POETLKNG2LOSE 7/7/2012 9:04PM Unlike you I don't have a plethora of online friends only a few through Facebook and my friends on Sparks. i just am not comfortabel with doing that online. Maybe because I don't want to listen to someone spout off a bunch of swear words online. I only have a couple of good friends who i see every couple of months and some people at church who I feel close to you. I talk to people to say hi or a few words but that's all. I am more of an introverted person. I too have been looking for the right man to come along. I am not into bar scenes at all. I am just waiting and praying; cause i am lonely too. Report Inappropriate Comment
 TANYA602 7/7/2012 7:39PM I think there are parts of your blog that we all could've written in one form or another. In the past half dozen years I've made friends at work and had things go astray. It's almost as bad as dating someone you work with. Sooooo.....since my life seems to revolve so much around the hours I put in, I've become something of a homebody and I wish I could have even more time to myself. I have a few close friends, and DH is my best friend. To me it's more about the quality of the relationship, and I get this message from you, as well. Report Inappropriate Comment
 CRYSTLE4HIMTX12 7/7/2012 7:33PM I've never meet a stranger yet my circle is really small so I can kinda relate. Report Inappropriate Comment
 SPARKFRAN514 7/7/2012 4:10PM blog like always and gives everyone who reads the blog something to take that we can work our selves have a great week end Report Inappropriate Comment
 RSWIFE 7/7/2012 2:14PM I like the reference to Hitchhikers Guide to the galaxy. I too am pretty much friend free at the moment. I do believe it is a choice. I am not anti social, and I am lucky enough to be married to a terrific man. But a friend that is another woman my age is something that I don't have either. I just feel that sometimes there are too many strings attached to that relationship. I just don't have the time in my life for that kind of drama. I like online relationships. You only have to give what you can. Sometimes I wish things were different. But they are not. I hope you find what you are looking for. In the meantime Sparkers are here for ya! Report Inappropriate Comment
 MUSOLF6 7/7/2012 8:58AM Report Inappropriate Comment
 KARL1266 7/7/2012 7:20AM I find it rather amazing (and truth be told a little un-nerving) that you are able to tap into some of my deepest thoughts or concerns. I, too, have many friends online through the various forms of social media and gaming sites that I frequent. I have, on the otherhand, a limited number of friends in "real life" that I could call and discuss anything with. In fact I can count them on one hand!I am a very shy person who doesn't like social gatherings. I find it easier to spill my guts online with people who don't "know" me. So I certainly can't give you any advice since I'm practically in the same boat as you. That being said, however, some of the suggestions others have posted here sound reasonable and plausible. I've been given the same type of advice before so here's to hoping you find what your looking for! Report Inappropriate Comment
 ANGELWENDYMAMA 7/7/2012 1:54AM Hm.. Social places to meet men.. are social places to meet anyone.. but mostly go to a gathering about something you're interested in.. I have found 'Cons" which is short for conventions and what they are nicknamed for a weekend or week long gathering.. which involve camping or staying at a hotel and may be focused around a certain spirituality including paganism or earth spirituality - Native American beliefs, family gatherings, drumming, dancing, folk dancing or folk music, camping in general, historical re-enactment - all times - Medieval, SCA, Civil War, etc, kinky stuff, etc.I have one good in-person friend outside my husband. We both have children and I have only seen her when we drop off our kids for the other to watch.. and at her Mom's funeral.. We don't have time to ourselves, so this is what we can do.. but we pick up and talk like we've been in touch forever when we do talk.. At least Facebook helps us stay somewhat in touch with what's going on. I trust her with my son and she trusts me with her two little ones. But I do seem to have trouble making real life friends.. I just don't have time to get out and meet anyone any more. I have friends at church, too, just not really close ones... Oh, and I sing in a women's chorus and those people are my friends, we just don't do anything outside of singing together. Report Inappropriate Comment
 SYZYGY922 7/7/2012 12:53AM Some of my best friends are people I've met online, too. I just don't click with people I've met in person very often! I'm currently on the lookout for more local friends, but it hasn't happened yet. Report Inappropriate Comment
 GOING-STRONG 7/6/2012 10:55PM As an adult, it is very difficult to establish a close friendship as it takes a lot of time and energy! Most people use what spare time they have to do household chores, relax a little and spend time with kids/spouse.... then the day is done! We have lots of acquaintances and very few close friends in our lifetime. I wish I had more time to interact with others but I have come to the realization that "it is what it is". Report Inappropriate Comment
 SBNORMAL 7/6/2012 10:10PM Being friendship can be difficult, I know it is for me, that is why food has been my friend. I am trying to get out more and socialize. Also I am trying to return to church. Maybe join a walking club or a class at your gym. Report Inappropriate Comment
 FRANCES-AGAPE 7/6/2012 9:09PM Dear One, You are not alone !Luckily, you don't have the shyness aspect to deal with.I wrote my own woes last year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4316368Online friends are better than no friends at allWE ARE HERE FOR YOU !BLESSINGS ! Report Inappropriate Comment
 AMYTRIPP 7/6/2012 7:15PM I think you'll probably find many Sparkers and others who thrive in online communities are much the same as you. I know I am.My best friend is someone I met online - we chat three times a week. She called me for a quick chat today when I was at work. We've met once, but do plan on spending time together in the future. It's a strong friendship that I'm grateful for.Maybe I'm wrong, but I think the types of people who stick with something like SP are often those that don't have a huge social life, or a huge circle of off-line friends. Socialization is easier when you can erase what you typed before you press 'post.'*shrugs*My last 'best real life friend' turned out to be someone far from who I thought she was. It was scary and heartbreaking and made me hesitant to get to know other people. I don't cultivate friendships offline because of her. How screwed up does that sound?If you're happy with your life the way it is, don't worry about any of it. If you need more, then take the steps. Just like with everything else in life, it's a choice. Report Inappropriate Comment
 TALENKARR1 7/6/2012 7:02PM i am the same way the only reson I realy have any riends is because my sister drags me into to them I am boderline agriphobic. and with out my sister I never go any where Report Inappropriate Comment
 DURANGOREDDOG 7/6/2012 6:56PM Hi Blue,I know you have a very outgoing, sharing and encouraging attitude on line. You've been there for me when I post.I'm a lot older than you so I've seen friends come and go as we have moved from place to place. But I have several close friends that have been with me through thick and thin over the years even though we are miles apart. Sometimes we don't communicate for long periods of time but then after a little catch up the time evaporates and that friendship is still near and dear to my heart.Over the last 15 years I didn't make close friends in the community I now live in due to long hours at work, rules that you could not be friends with people you supervise and living in the country on 40 acres with no close neighbors. I should have made the time. I must say that now that I am retired I am looking to make friends and find myself in the same situation you are in.There was a song in Girl Scouting we used to sing:Make new friends but keep the old.One is silver and the others gold.It is so true. My friends mean the world to me. And even some of my close friends have passed away. But friendship requires time and effort and friends must be chosen wisely. Often you meet someone by chance but by realizing you have something in common that draws you to want them in your life. Sharing interests and time together cements the friendship and then it is really up to each of you to keep it going. It is easy to say but now that I have time and I've beaten my illness these last 3 years I miss my far away friends and the friends I have lost and long for some new friends to spend time with and go places and share things with. I've found you have to put yourself out there in organizations, church, work, volunteering, etc. You have to go to functions not expecting too much and yes, it is often my chance that you meet someone that you would like to know better. If you do meet someone interesting then it is up to you to carry the friendship farther and pick up the phone and invite them to do something else together. Most of the time a wonderful new friendship will blossom but sometimes not and that's okay, too. At least you are trying. But you won't find others playing games on the computer and spending time on SP that are physically in your area to share life experiences with. I've started putting myself out there. I joined a couple of groups of ladies with similar interests, begun to volunteer for some charity work and plan to start attending churches in my area to meet new people. Peoples faces are beginning to be familar now as I attend some of these functions and as time goes on and we work together on different things in the group I know some of these ladies will become my friends. I know it will take time but these things will get me off the couch, off the computer and around other people.You are already in situations where people are familiar to you. At the gym take it one step further and ask someone to join you for lunch, coffee or to get out of the gym and take a long walk together. Although we may be content and not feel lonely there is definitely something missing when we don't spend time interacting with other people. So I encourage you to join me in putting yourself out there. I've found often when I do something volunteering to help others I end up helping me. You have been an encouragement to me on SP and I hope this will help you in some way.I do consider you a spark friend and admire you for sharing yourself online with others. That is something I find hard to do. I have yet to blog. lol Comment edited on: 7/6/2012 7:01:50 PM Report Inappropriate Comment
 MERMAID888 7/6/2012 6:00PM Gahhhhhh! So much of this resonates with me. There is point after point where I want to shout, "Yes, me too!". I do have some real life friends, but our bond seems to be through gaming (about once a month-ish we get together). One or two know me really well.I have been examining it and I know that some of it is laziness on my part...and some may be this fear of real commitment based in some kind of shame? My friends do not believe I suffer from a kind of anxiety over deepening relationships (and of course I am a flop when it comes to establishing "relationships" with men). However, I'm not all that unhappy with my life. I am performing this dance between actively seeking more...and really trying to improve myself sans friends.I could go on and on...but I really just wanted to say I wish we lived close enough to meet in person:) Hugs! Report Inappropriate Comment
 RADAZZLE 7/6/2012 5:25PM Sheesh! In many ways, you sound like me! LOL Although I do have at least 2 real-time friends I call my best friends (one - my very best friend, who was almost a soul mate - moved far, far away to another state about 10 or 11 years ago and distance has changed the relationship... although we still can tell each other anything, and the other is a really good friend but doesn't always "get" me) and I have one cousin with whom I am very close, I find it very difficult to make close friends. Acquaintances, yes, really good friends, no. I spend a lot of time online, too. Until I found SP I spent a lot of time on Facebook playing Farm Town partially because I was able to have interaction with friends there. I joined a purely social all-women's group (the Red Hat Society) several years ago. The women are friendly to me, but I can't say I've made any real friends there. One big difference between you and I is that I do let down my guard and share myself. Maybe too easily. But I am also one people come to to vent and share themselves. But I still don't have many friends who are constant friends online, either. I did have a couple I was pretty close to (and both I actually met one time each), but over time the frequency of contact with them has dwindled drastically.Maybe I haven't found the balance in sharing of myself and being the ear to listen Maybe what I talk about isn't interesting or just eventually becomes boring. I don't know. Every so often I try to figure it out, but just go around in circles. Recently I joined a real-time support group for Weight Loss Surgery Post-Ops. Lots of nice people there. Have only been a member for a short time. I haven't been able yet to attend some of the more social things they do, but am hoping as time goes on I will be able to do so. Hoping I will be able to make some good friends there, but only time will tell.I know that to be really happy, ultimately, I have to feel complete even if I don't make any close friends. At least I hope it's possible, since I do think that having others (not just family) to care about and who care about is an important part of life.I hope we both find our solution to this! Report Inappropriate Comment
 LEFTSOX 7/6/2012 4:48PM Is the answer "Two Dollars and Fifteen Cents!" ...Sorry my Tank Girl is showing! LOL I do believe the answer is one of those things that just happens. I have several long distance friends and people i see on a regular basis but i don't have anyone to really BE ME with. Even my poor hubby can't handle the full force that is me (He doesn't cus so I have to watch my mouth!) but he is probably the closest. I don't worry too often over having friends who are "perfect" but I enjoy the few times I get to talk to my out of state buds and the random stranger I have things in common with....Point is I think it has more to do with chance than actually hunting down a good friend. Report Inappropriate Comment

# Slightly belated July goals ... or NOT!

### Thursday, July 05, 2012

Seems I got a little sidetracked after doing my State of the Blue and didn't come back to setting my July goals. So here I go ...

The first is easy - I always set it to a goal of the next 5 pounds down marker just to make sure I'm moving along smoothly. The last is a redo of the one I didn't remember to focus on in June. But I feel like I still need at least a couple more to work toward. Hmmm ...

== July goals ==

1) Weight stably at or below 180 pounds.
2)
3)
4) Complete the exercises for the 1st Habit - Be Proactive.

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Okay, I've had this blog entry open for 6 hours now. Admittedly I'm at work, but two breaks and lunch have not cracked my mental shell to decide on July goals. I'm posting it now incomplete and will have to edit in the goals when I can decide on them.

Hehe, home from the gym at last and time to put some more thought to this.

As an aside, I was talking briefly to the gym's manager this evening about how far I've progressed in the 6 months I've been a gym regular. She happened to ask me how much more I planned to lose. I honestly didn't know what to answer. My original goal that I put into SP was 160. I've put 155 on the ticker, I think.

But to me those are complete guesses and don't mean much. I have no idea what I'll weigh, nor do I ever plan to focus my "maintenance" around a weight range. I'm aiming for functional fitness. I want to be fit enough that my physical condition is never a limitation in my choice of activities, whether that's a night-club for some salsa or sky-diving or staying up half the night for a gaming (or anime or sci-fi) marathon.

In fact, as we moved on from that, she asked if I did weight training. I told her I did and that I actually am more excited when I can up my weight on a machine by 5 pounds than I'll ever be seeing that the scale has gone down another 5 pounds. I was thrilled on Wednesday because I finally completed all three reps on a Preacher Curl machine at my latest weight.

ANYWAY ... rambling and meandering ... and still not coming up with anything particularly meaningful.

Of course, I've been distracted through much of the evening by a friend. Oy, my history of friends is a story in itself and it's not getting me any closer to figuring out some goals either. And here it is edging on 1 am. I don't think this blog is going to see more than the two goals. If something comes to mind this weekend, great. If not, at least I have a lot more mental focus on being proactive.

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 READYTOBETHIN46 7/6/2012 4:46PM Two may be all you need. I like that you talk to the manager at the gym. Do you know why she asked you about weightlifting? I was just curious why she would ask you that...maybe you are starting to really get shapely! That is what I am ready to do!Don't focus on the number...focus on the action! Have a great weekend. Comment edited on: 7/6/2012 4:47:16 PM Report Inappropriate Comment
 SA9CHI 7/6/2012 12:12PM I like your idea of setting 5 pound weight loss goal for the month. Hope you don't mind if I use your idea! Terrific progress and hope to follow in your footsteps! Go GURL!!! Report Inappropriate Comment
 TALENKARR1 7/6/2012 11:25AM My monthly goals consit of 10 lbs. weight loss a month getting rid of one bad habit, and gaing one good. If two is all you can think of that's okay. Your not super woman. Even if I think your pretty super myself. Report Inappropriate Comment
 MNJONES2 7/6/2012 10:03AM You always do a great job - I am back from vacation and my goal is to get the laundry done.... maybe a bit of gardening before company comes next weekend!! Report Inappropriate Comment
 AMYTRIPP 7/6/2012 10:00AM Two is a good starting point - and a good goal list if you don't come up with others. Report Inappropriate Comment
 DENNETJ 7/6/2012 9:24AM You are thinking about your goals that is a great start. Report Inappropriate Comment
 ILOVELIFE2012 7/6/2012 8:29AM I think it is a great start!!! You'll get there..... when it is the right time!!! Report Inappropriate Comment
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 SBNORMAL 7/6/2012 5:40AM Maybe that is all that you need for the month is two goals. Report Inappropriate Comment
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 RUNNERRACHEL 7/5/2012 10:18PM Read your blog this morning and was checking back to see if you'd edited your blog and added the other goals...whatever you decide Report Inappropriate Comment
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 GOING-STRONG 7/5/2012 9:06PM Maybe add some sort of fitness goal? Report Inappropriate Comment
 KALANTHA 7/5/2012 9:02PM You have 2 to work on. You can always add others later. Spark on! Report Inappropriate Comment
 TMCLEOD4 7/5/2012 8:55PM I know you'll rock whatever goals you choose! Report Inappropriate Comment
 MARYSTAN 7/5/2012 8:08PM July came rather quickly! Since it's summer, do you have any fun things you have always wanted to do, but didn't? Great job goal setting Report Inappropriate Comment
 SWEDE_SU 7/5/2012 7:59PM Sometimes you need to let your brain work when you aren't looking, and before you know it the answer just appears! Report Inappropriate Comment
 JACKIE542 7/5/2012 7:31PM Something well thought out is better than just writing something down. Take your time. I am sure it will be worth it. Report Inappropriate Comment
 2BEABETTERME 7/5/2012 6:43PM Sometimes things in my brain fall into place when I am doing other things. You might come up with some if the best goals without even trying! Report Inappropriate Comment
 POETLKNG2LOSE 7/5/2012 6:42PM You can do it; just give yourself time to think on it more. Sometimes our brains do not want to cocoperate with us on anything. I had that trouble last week doing the PowerPoint. Of course staying up intil 2 in the morning certainly didn't help me to think any clearer. I made an appointmnet with a tutor for my thesis assignment this time. Report Inappropriate Comment
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# Desire to change; desire to stay the same

### Monday, July 02, 2012

I wish I knew an easy way to link one of the SparkPeople Inspirational messages right into my blog. Gonna try something and hope it works.

I don't typically go through the motivational quotes page. But I do the SparkPeople Web Search for the SparkPoint every day and there's always a different Healthy Inspiration. I'm silly and usually use one of the words for the search, such as "desire" today, so I always read it.

Okay ... so I hope that works. This was the one I saw today.

This quote made me think about something - dare I say motivation again?

What is the "desire to stay the same" but a motivation? It is the motivation behind habits, it is what drives us to detour into a fast food drive-thru on the way home from work, it is what pushes us toward the couch to watch our favorite shows. It is what keeps our current (or past) lifestyle stable and routine for us.

Thinking about lifestyle for a moment - I looked back at what "staying the same" might have meant for me.

I could make a full package of Hamburger Helper and not have to worry about putting away leftovers. I could eat that with a 32 oz mug of milk with about 2-3 times the normal amount of chocolate powder mixed in or multiple scoops of ice cream mixed in. I could work 8 hours on a computer, walk home, sit down at my computer and go right to playing WOW for the next 8 hours, getting up to make dinner, use the restroom, and maybe get a chore done here and there. Then I got up to go to bed and started it all over. I literally logged over 40 hours a week in-game.

For a long time, I thought that was what I wanted, what I really desired.

When I set about making changes in my lifestyle, I had to consider what parts of those desires were healthy for me. I had to recognize that EXACTLY "the same" wasn't ever going to be healthy and narrow down what pieces of "the same" I really desired, which would continue to motivate me.

I wanted to eat whatever I chose. I wanted to spend at least as many hours of my life playing as working.

I ~STILL~ eat whatever I choose. I just limit the portions and the timing so I'm not over-feeding my body. (For example, I had a double decker taco and caramel apple empanada from Taco Bell yesterday. Loved every bite - it was fresh and delicious. I also had a mini ice-cream shake - a cup of ice cream and a half cup of milk mixed together. All while meeting all my nutritional needs for the day and staying within my calories.)

I ~STILL~ spend many hours "playing", but I consider my workouts and walks part of the play, I add fun activities like reading at the park or my planned ice skaing, roller-blading, and hiking. I play a computer game no more than 2-3 hours in any single night and usually only play a couple nights a week - and find I enjoy it more because I'm not just logged on to avoid life and real people.

In a way I've turned my desire to stay the same into part of the desire to change. I have to eat well in order to eat what I choose. I have to broaden my play in order to actually enjoy the time I spend playing the game more - as I only log on when I really WANT to play that game.

 KEEPITSIMPLE_ 7/7/2012 9:41PM Great blog! You are exactly right! Report Inappropriate Comment
 SWEDE_SU 7/5/2012 7:58PM Thank you for sharing - you've done such a good job of changing your approach! We learn to make choices and make them fit the "new me", with tracking and accountability. Report Inappropriate Comment
 POETLKNG2LOSE 7/5/2012 1:04PM Thanks for sharing that with us; desire is the main reason behind everything. It drives us to eat more than you should, sleep more and become a hermit by the tv or computer to avoid the real world. A desire to be rich will cause us to become workaholics; it goes on and on. My desire is to lose all my weight and graduate from college. Report Inappropriate Comment
 SBNORMAL 7/4/2012 10:15AM I review your blog almost everyday and your new pictures are great!! What a wonderful progress report. Report Inappropriate Comment
 IMELECTRIC 7/3/2012 9:40PM This was well put. Especially when I look at you pictures and see the huge difference. Report Inappropriate Comment
 TANYA602 7/3/2012 4:54PM I think the other "m" word here is moderation. You have done such a terrific job keeping it real - meeting goals isn't about deprivation. I've learned to add more fruits and veggies, limit alcohol (especially beer), and yet I am not starving. Granted, the weight isn't melting off, but with more increased activities I am toning and shaping. I love the examples you set! Report Inappropriate Comment
 SPARKFRAN514 7/3/2012 11:10AM Great Blog thank you for the ideas to get our own desires in place as we journey the hiking trail of Spark. so often we follow a diet reach the goal weight . we have to have the desire to continue to stay at our goal.. Food is not the only habit we need to change and you reminded us this though your Blog thanks for taking the time to share your thoughts with us. Report Inappropriate Comment
 MOM_TO_AKI 7/3/2012 5:12AM Thank you for sharing this. It can be a difficult road to change our habits but rewarding. Report Inappropriate Comment
 GOING-STRONG 7/3/2012 12:11AM I used to spend HOURS playing computer games but came to the conclusion that using my time that way didn't further ANY of my goals... so I went cold turkey and quit. Haven't regretted it one iota! I now have more time to read, cook, exercise, do chores, etc. Still need to find time for movies! Report Inappropriate Comment
 ANGELWENDYMAMA 7/2/2012 11:48PM WOOHOOOO!!! Report Inappropriate Comment
 FRANCES-AGAPE 7/2/2012 11:13PM You have done a TERRIFIC job transforming yourself And it all STARTS on the INSIDE for sharing - it is INSPIRING !Have a Wonderful Week WE can do it!BLESSINGS! Report Inappropriate Comment
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 AMYTRIPP 7/2/2012 9:31PM What a great perspective. Thanks for sharing your thoughts with all of us. Report Inappropriate Comment
 HOPEFULHIPPO 7/2/2012 9:20PM thank you for sharing this...what a way to look at it with a different perspective. Love it :o) Report Inappropriate Comment
 RUNNING-LIFE 7/2/2012 8:35PM Really well thought out blog! And it's so true: We want to change our lives but in order to do that we need to change our habits. And that's not always easy to do because of our desire to stay the same...It's a vicious cycle. Report Inappropriate Comment
 ZANNBEE 7/2/2012 7:21PM Great blog! Report Inappropriate Comment
 SBNORMAL 7/2/2012 6:31PM Balance is something that I also have to learn and making better choices for myself when it comes to food. Report Inappropriate Comment
 TRULYVISIBLE 7/2/2012 6:31PM Like the inspiration quote and how true it is. I think we stay the same because if is safe in the sense we know what it is like. We change when it feels more uncomfortable than safe.Good blog, thanks Report Inappropriate Comment
 TALENKARR1 7/2/2012 6:01PM .....You keep making my insperational file. lol thiss is something to realy think about! Report Inappropriate Comment
 2BEABETTERME 7/2/2012 4:48PM LOVE that quote! I also love your shift in attitude. It is refreshing to see someone who believes no food is off limit, I completely agree! With this outlook, I do so much better and indulge less because I know I can have something any time.Keep up the great work! Report Inappropriate Comment
 MUSOLF6 7/2/2012 4:22PM Thank you for this great blog.... Report Inappropriate Comment
 TNYTERROR 7/2/2012 3:55PM Thank you for this.BTW I love the idea of a "mini-shake." :DI can't wait until I am like you and can work actual workouts as my "play" time. I know what you mean about the computer gaming thing. Honestly, sometimes I think that Video Recorders and computer casual games were the WORST inventions ever!! Case in point: the state of unhealfulness of Americans and especially, American children. Report Inappropriate Comment
 ELEMENOPEO 7/2/2012 3:52PM Good thoughts - sounds like some balance is doing you good. Report Inappropriate Comment
 SKAHONEY4U 7/2/2012 3:45PM I am also a gamer. I've played WoW on and off since launch. I quit it this past February (2 weeks before I started sparkpeople) because raiding heroic level content was giving me panic attacks. I've played almost every MMO out there (original EQ, EQ2, WoW, guidwars, SWTOR, warhammer, age of conan, shadowbane, ect. ect). I think that gaming was one of the MAJOR reasons I gained so much weight (100+pounds, I wasn't overweight until I started playing MMOs). I too have had times where I spent 40+ hours a week in game. I didn't exercise, I ate convenient horrible junk food, drank gallons of soda to stay awake. In the games, I could be whoever I wanted, and real life was on hold. I didn't have to deal with what was going on in my life. Guys liked me because I was smart and played games, not for what I looked like.I've barely played any games since I started sparkpeople, occasionally some SWTOR or diablo 3 (and I did a scroll of resurrection for Children's week because I am obsessed with achievement points), but mostly they either bore or frustrate me, so I have stopped. I read, watch tv, play on sparkpeople/facebook, SWIM, exercise, do crafts, play with kitties, cook, ect. I will most likely play WoW again when mists of pandaria comes out. I am vowing to myself to put my health first, though. Plus, I still have time to keep to my healthier habits, so I will be more likely to be able to stick with them. Report Inappropriate Comment
 ALWAYSOWNIT 7/2/2012 2:53PM This has totally hit home for me.For a long time , I have been thinking about having a better schedule for my family (Change) but rather find myself loitering on Facebook(Things as are) .It is clear my desire to have the things the way as are is much more than I want change.(Do I see instant gratification the main reason here).So the answer is if I really want to change ,I need to have very strong reasons.those reasons needs to be my reasons why I think that change will be good for me.Yup,some brainstorming time for me.Thanks for the great blog. Report Inappropriate Comment

# Six months into 2012 - State of the Blue's Fitness

### Sunday, July 01, 2012

Another three months of 2012 completed, so another review of where I've gotten to fitness-wise.

My 1 April 2012 update is here: www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo
urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=4815690

My original 1 January 2012 starting point is here (including comments on some of the measurements): www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo
urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=4648619

Height = 5' 7.75"
Weight = 200 pounds TO 184.5 pounds (15.5 pounds down)
Body Fat % = 42% or 27.89% TO 38% or 27.47% (or 33.1% per hand sensor)
BMI = 30.63 (Obese) TO 28.26 (Overweight)
BMR = 1641.325 TO 1573.9

Neck = 15" TO 14.5”
Shoulders = 44" TO 44'
Chest = 40.5" TO 39”
Bust = 46.5" TO 45”
Ribs / Strap = 38" TO 36”
Bicep = 14" TO 14”
Forearm = 11.25" TO 11.25”
Wrist = 6.75" TO 7”
Waist at Navel = 40" TO 39”
Hips = 48" TO 45”
Seat = 46.5" TO 45”
Thigh = 26" TO 24.5”
Calf = 16.75” TO 16.5”
Ankle = 9.5" TO 9.5”

Fitness testing:

Resting Heart Rate = 61 bpm (machine) TO 54 bpm (in bed) or 64 bpm (machine)
Target Heart Rate = 124 - 150 bpm
Blood Pressure = 115/75 TO 109/64

(Using www.topendsports.com/testing/hometes
t.htm
for instructions and scaling)
Situps = 31 (Good) TO 34 (Excellent)
Modified Pushups = 4 (Below Average) TO 5 (Below Average)
Squats = 22 (Good) TO 40 (Excellent)
Step = 145 bpm (Very Poor)* TO 96 (Good)
Vertical Jump = 8" (Below Average) TO 9.5” (Below Average)
Sit and Reach = +1" (Average) TO +0.5” (Average)

Aerobic fitness check:

Heart rate before walk = 90 bpm TO 60 bpm
Time for 1 mile brisk = 15:10 TO 13:53
Heart rate after 1 mile brisk = 127 bpm TO 140 bpm
Time for 2nd mile brisk = 14:45 TO 13:48
Heart rate after mile 2 = 140 bpm (original) TO 135 bpm
Time for 1 mile normal = 17:02 TO 16:07
Heart rate after 1 mile normal = 109 bpm TO 103 bpm

It shows in the numbers, but I do really feel I've gotten into a groove (a positive one, not a rut) with my fitness progress. I haven't mentioned it here, but the gym manager has more than once stopped to tell me I'm doing great and one of the personal trainers regularly comes by to high-five me when I'm on the elliptical. They've seen these 6 months of progress happening day-to-day.

I may only have gone from 4 to 5 knee pushups, BUT I seriously felt more able doing the fifth than I had last time forcing the fourth just so I could do better.

The situps ... I feel like I could have done more, but I did my crunches and obliques yesterday instead of Friday and upped my weight on the ab crunch machine Friday, both of which led to a small amount of pulling under my left rib about halfway through. Having the number I did be in the "Excellent" range was a pleasant surprise!

Squats was definitely a surprise. I knew I was doing more on the Leg Press, Calf Raise and Leg Curls, but wasn't connecting that to doing squats. I think I could have done 5-10 more, but really don't want to mess up my knees by pushing, and apparently the 40 I did is already in a good range.

My left foot has definitely been feeling better. The most annoying aspect is when it is more sensitive and feels like my sock is crumpled under it when it isn't. It actually has felt notably better since the Packard Summer Scamper and all the walking before and after rather than worse, so that's promising.

I've managed to avoid any other injuries, thankfully. I do notice a lot of things here and there like my left calf is tighter than my right even after all my stretching and my upper left arm does have a bit more limit to motion than my right, but all within livable parameters.

All in all, a very good six months of progress - making me quite pleased and determined to see just how much further the next 3 months will take me.

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 JIBBIE49 7/2/2012 7:10AM Love seeing you featured in the Spark Mail. What an inspiration you are to so many others. Report Inappropriate Comment
 KSCHRAUT 7/2/2012 7:08AM Congratulations! You are doing awesome! Report Inappropriate Comment
 PENOWOK 7/2/2012 6:49AM How awesome!! Report Inappropriate Comment
 SERASARA 7/2/2012 6:42AM Report Inappropriate Comment
 AATKIN01 7/2/2012 6:38AM Congratulations. keep on going! Report Inappropriate Comment
 SASSYLJB 7/2/2012 6:19AM Geat stats! Keep up the great work! Pics will be coming soon? Can't wait to see what the next 3 months hold! Report Inappropriate Comment
 NCSUE0514 7/2/2012 5:15AM Report Inappropriate Comment
 AHTRAP 7/2/2012 12:54AM Amused that your wrist measurements went up, in opposition to just about every other number. Some fantastic numerology all around, nicely done! Report Inappropriate Comment
 NANDA82 7/1/2012 11:20PM Wow you have such great numbers! I hope you stay injure free so you can keep up the good work. Have you rewarded yourself for these accomplishments? You definitely deserve it. Report Inappropriate Comment
 MISSY455 7/1/2012 11:17PM You are doing amazing! I am sure with your determination you will continue to see progress! Report Inappropriate Comment
 ALWAYSOWNIT 7/1/2012 11:09PM You have been and always will be my biggest inspiration . Report Inappropriate Comment
 PS10711 7/1/2012 11:06PM WOW-In addition to all your progress. You are also an EXCELLENT record keeper. Wish you had been part of my school study group. Your notes had to be amazing.Keep up the great work. Report Inappropriate Comment
 TIFFY0906 7/1/2012 10:39PM Report Inappropriate Comment
 FRANCES-AGAPE 7/1/2012 10:32PM Girl, your Progress is Your numbers are You are VERY inspiring Have a WONDERFUL week BLESSINGS! Report Inappropriate Comment
 GOING-STRONG 7/1/2012 10:28PM Hurray for you! Very impressive stats... looking forward to your report next quarter! Report Inappropriate Comment

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