Saturday, June 30, 2012
Seriously, it feels somehow wrong that June raced by so fast. There went mid-month, Summer started and bam, tomorrow will be July.
On that note, however, it's time to do my review of June goals and start thinking what my July goals should be.
== June goals ==
1) Weight stably at or below 185 pounds.
It feels really strange to see these numbers on the scale, to be honest. I am now back into the realm of my past "heavy" back in the days when I would say I'd never weigh over 200 pounds. (Which I thought was true as I'd topped out at 198 on the day before my first daughter was born weight one ounce short of 9 pounds.) I typically bounced between 165 and 185 while married.
2) No more than one fruit bar and one fiber bar per day.
This wasn't hard to do - was just a decision I had to make and having it as a goal made it a good reminder.
3) Find out likely cost of dental visits (consult, X-rays, fillings, etc).
Found out the cost of the initial appointment (X-ray, consult, clean) and scheduled the appointment. Kept getting told my teeth were in amazingly good condition, but that was definitely relative.
The relative part is that 1) I haven't seen a dentist in probably more than 15 years, 2) I've been an incredible slacker at dental hygiene, and 3) I've always had a sweet tooth, so much sugar in many forms has been in my mouth. So "amazingly good" is two major cavities, one that might need a root canal, as well as about 8 more teeth with minor cavities. Gum-wise, most is reversible, but I have at least three areas that I let go too long and that will require regular cleaning and dental hygiene habits to keep from worsening.
4) Figure out a workable way to keep up with Friend Feed.
I'm still fine-tuning, but what I really had to learn is that I don't HAVE to Like / Comment on every status. I don't HAVE to go back 20 pages and make sure I've seen every single pound lost, point won, blog written. Instead, I usually try to go through one page at least once or twice a day.
Sometimes I hate the idea I'm missing things. I feel bad going to a friend's page to read their blog and seeing that I've missed several past blogs. But I'm not a superwoman and I'm not being paid to keep up with everything from everyone, so I have to fit it into my life and I have to trust that there are plenty of other SparkFriends out there keeping up with each other.
5) Complete the exercises for the 1st Habit - Be Proactive.
I did part of this goal. More than once through this month, I paid attention to my reactions to situations and aimed to be more proactive. but I wouldn't call this done. The whole thing of "where did June GO?" is that I really feel like I missed some week somewhere. I did NOT keep this in mind daily, doing the 30-day challenge. Nor did I accomplish anything in terms of my job situation.
Supportive Sparkler Team Challenge:
I had set our Team Challenge for June to be doing one thing consistently this month (with each of us choosing our "thing"). My "thing" was dental hygiene - which tied into the goal above about pricing out a dentist.
When I say I had poor dental hygiene, I mean TERRIBLE. I usually only brushed my teeth if they bothered me. I couldn't even promise that was once a week. I had a toothbrush at work and a toothbrush at home, but more often I cleaned my teeth with a fingernail (scraping) or finger (wiping). For a couple years I had a bad gum habit - a pack a day. (LOL, The most consistent thing before June had been rinsing with mouthwash since I joined the gym, because they have little containers by the sink and cups.
For June, I consistently cared for my teeth - fully brushing, flossing, and rinsing - once a day, every day. Yes, that's still not as much as recommended, but now that I've had the dentist appointment and my teeth cleaned, I'm working on twice a day.
I'll end with this - June's daily weigh-ins.
Now, my scale only happens to weigh in half pound intervals, not tenths or ounces, hence the clear breaks up and down. I weigh myself daily and record it on the site that graph is from as well as SparkPeople.
The white diamonds on that graph are the actual weight for that date. The red line is the trend, the direction my weight is changing over time. The green lines just show the difference more or less than the trend line.
Part of what I want to show here is how weighing daily could stress someone out even when they're losing comfortably. From the beginning to end of June, I went from 190.5 pounds to 184.5 pounds - a 6 pound loss. During that time I "gained weight" on 11 days, stayed the same on 7 days, and "lost weight" on 12. If I'd let daily weigh-ins drive my mood, I'd have been upset more than half the month. And for what?!
If I looked at my weight on a weekly basis instead, here's what I'd have seen:
June 01 = 190.5
June 08 = 188.0
June 15 = 187.0
June 22 = 187.5
June 29 = 184.0
I might have freaked out over that half-pound gain, which even showed up on my graph as a small plateau / gain in the trend line and been stressed that my whole month was messed up.
Instead, I ate more because I was legitimately hungry on the 23rd (after the high weigh-in for the second day) and on the 25th ... both days seeing a drop in weight after. What happened? Probably the fact I upped my weights on a few machines, tried out the StairMaster and upped the resistance on the elliptical. My body was adjusting.
Thursday, June 28, 2012
This is going to be uber-short for a change, mostly because I'm on break at work and just had to get this little random thought out.
There were more than a couple of statuses in my Friend Feed this morning that said something along the lines of the effort to find oneself.
The thought that went through my head:
** How can we find that which has not yet been created? ** We build who we are. We can't go backwards and become a self from our past. Even if we find that, we can't just copy it forward. We have to build our self in the now and for the future.
Then I went to do the Web search for SparkPoints and the motivational quote there was:
== The bad news is time files.
== The good news is you're the pilot.
== - Michael Althsuler
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
So along with the shirts and mug, with my SparkPeople order I got a free calendar (the office desk kind where you tear off each day and the weekends are grouped together).
My first day (Friday) looking at it was about tracking cholesterol. Thought about that, decided not right now. I'd added calcium and fiber at the beginning of June and don't want to throw another nutrient in while I'm learning the ropes of balancing those two. So far, so good, though I do bounce over and under - by my trend stays in a reasonable range. I might make cholesterol the next just out of curiosity, but that will be a couple months.
Today's was about thinking about motivation and writing in a journal about what motivates us.
Does this sound familiar? Well, okay, so my blogs haven't actually been about WHAT motivates me so much as about motivation in general. And one of the replies on my blog about even world-class athletes have meh days really resonated and has stuck in my mind:
JSLATE2K: I think a lot of people confuse motivation with being enthusiastic for, or excited about, something. None of us feel excited about the same thing day in and day out, but having a purpose that is in alignment with our core values is something that generally doesn't change.
A couple of the examples they listed made me shake my head - not me. Self-esteem has never been an issue. I am self-deprecating (I can put myself down and not think that makes me less - like calling myself a klutz) I don't achieve to my real potential, but I have something innately in me that believes in my worth and power as a being. Happiness also has never been an issue. I can watch a bird in a tree and be happy, it's that easy.
Then something kind of nudged its way to the forefront of my thinking.
** My motivation is, at its core, to grow. **
Everything I do is driven by a desire to make today better than yesterday and tomorrow better than today. I want to grow in ability, grow in fitness, grow in knowledge, grow in financial condition, grow in relationships, grow in so many things.
Any goal I set is a forward look at where I want to grow in an area.
Working out is growth in fitness and strength. Even those days I struggle with it, consider saying "screw it", I don't - because the only way to grow is to push against the resistance. Eating right is growth in health and physical condition. Putting aside savings and an IRA is growth in my financial future. Reading and studying is growth in language and understanding and knowledge.
What continually motivates me is measuring my progress as I grow.
Did I learn a new word? I'm excited and motivated to read more and find even more words?
Do I have more in savings this month than last? I'm excited every time I see that number and want to find ways to set a little more aside.
Can I lift more weight than a week or month ago? I'm excited and looking forward to the next muscle I'll be pushing a little harder.
Am I naturally including more veggies in my meals? I'm excited and watching for new ways to include other options.
In a sense, the mental idea I have for my motivation are the redwoods out at Big Basin. Death takes even trees on occasion, through fire or storm, and when they topple their rings are seen. I want my life to be like one of those trees, decades of living and growing recorded in the ripples outward to those I have a positive impact on.
So, no, my motivations are not fitting into a certain size, or seeing a particular number on the scale, any other measurable and quantifiable end result. My motivations are the steps along the way, the changes, the improvements, the knowledge that I have grown and am growing and will grow.
Saturday, June 23, 2012
I managed to drag myself out of bed at 5:20 am this morning. (Ugh ... ugh ... and ugh.) Had my granola, dressed, fussed with things to make sure I had everything I could remember I might need. Carried along a yogurt for an early snack while waiting for the bus and cottage cheese and pineapple that I ate around halfway there. (Over an hour bus ride plus 30-ish minutes to walk to site.) And I was out at the bus stop by 5:50 am.
Spent about half that bus ride with my eyes closed before I finally started feeling kind of awake. Me ... awake at 6:45 am?! Bleh! =P Teehee. Yes, I can be up early. It is simply not a preferred state of being. (At least I was asleep before 11 pm.)
I had a sweatshirt on that early as it was around 51F. By the time I'd walked the 1.7 miles from the bus stop to the site (31 minutes), I was feeling too warm and ready to strip that off.
Time seemed to pass very quickly. I got to the race grounds around 7:30, picked up my packet, got my tag and bib on, used the porta-potty, checked my bag, and headed to the 5k corral. Next thing I know, they're counting down minutes to the 10k start at 8:00. I took this picture of one dressed up group I thought had really cute hats - black feathers or orange feathers in them (don't know how visible they will be, sorry!):
After all the 10k troop had set off, they moved all us 5k people forward. What is it about a sign that reads "Strollers here" that makes every person with a stroller pretend they can't read so they can push forward into the 10 minute mile or faster pack? Didn't worry me - I like to start pretty far back and pass people as they begin to spread out, strollers included. Here's the pack waiting for the 5k start:
Gorgeous blue skies, temps were up to around 60F by now and not enough breeze to be uncomfortable. We were set loose at 8:10 am. I took this picture after I got home, but it's what I'd have looked like in the race. That is the XL SparkPeople shirt ( www.sparkpeoplestore.com/product.cfm
ive=N ) Definitely spandex snug, but admittedly I felt sleek in it.
I took a couple more pictures with my phone along the walk - a building on the Stanford campus I remember touring in the 80s and a fountain:
I don't have the official time, but the clock as I neared the finish line said 47:10 and I'd started toward the back of the pack, so possibly under that - which I think puts me pretty squarely to a 15 minute mile as desired. \o/
There were several young kids in this race too and I was rather impressed at one pair of boys who spent much of it running with each other. They'd get a good ways ahead, then wait on their parents to catch up. (Age guessing - maybe around 8 years old) They finished the 5k not too far behind me. Another person who finished very close to me was a little older lady who kept trying to get a few more little jog intervals right near the end.
Ultimately an awesome job and a fun run. (Those who did do fundraising did awesome - there was over $150,000 made for the Lucille Packard Children's Hospital.)
*Edit* Made this pic to add - my official 5k outfits:
Saturday, June 23, 2012
Sooooo, my shirts arrived.
XL exercise shirt? Good fit if a little snug, but I kind of expect that. In fact, putting on my normal XL workout shirt afterward, I realized I'm probably due to try some L shirts. It's looser than I though.
L T-shirt? .... I have an extra inch or more even around my widest point. This I did not expect. I'm not sure whether to order a medium T-shirt just to see what that works out as.
I should put up pics, but I'm planning to crash super early. Have to be up at an unnatural hour tomorrow for the trip to the 5k. So I'm cooking my veggies, eating, cleaning my teeth, packing my bag, and going to sleep soon.
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