Friday, May 10, 2013
It's been a long long time since I last logged in, but I wanted you all to know I haven't given up.
Life has been crazy complicated and stressful this year. My Mom has been either in the hospital or nursing home for rehab since the end of January and I've been with her 2-4 days a week, up to several hours a day depending on where she was and how she was doing. Consequently I had to cut back on my time in the gym, rely more on available grab-and-go fast food and scramble to try to find time to take care of myself.
Mom is doing somewhat better, but we still don't know if she'll ever be able to regain enough strength to be able to live alone again. There may be more scrambling in the year(s) ahead if/when it becomes necessary to empty out and sell her house--something I really don't want to think about yet! It's all been an emotional roller coaster, at times simply so overwhelming that something small like having to log into Spark People everyday was just one thing too many to cope with.
I have tried to keep the lessons of Spark in the back of my head.
I am quicker to recognize the reason behind my choices, forgive my transgressions and not make too many excuses.
I had gained back 17 pounds since my low of 222 last summer, but lost almost 3 this week.
I rode my bike to work twice this week following some encouragement from a co-worker.
I'm trying to focus on interval training when I do get to the gym, and have been "working out" with the weeds in the garden the last few weeks.
I might even start logging in more regularly to do a quick tracking of exercise minutes and water as time allows.
I will never give up!
Wednesday, January 02, 2013
Day 7 and I kicked ass at the gym! It's also my first day of REALLY staying within my calorie budget -with 3 calories to spare.
Was down just over a pound this morning, thank goodness -although I feel like it was all the wishful thinking I've been doing to get my head back in the game that has lightened the load a smidge. We'll see if it's still gone tomorrow. This time around I want to -scratch that- PLAN TO log my weight weekly and anytime there's a change. Up 'til now I was only logging the loss changes and not keeping good track of the upticks.
Have several more stressful days at work this week and next -gonna use the gym the work all that out of my system so I won't have to take it home with me!
Saturday, December 29, 2012
I decided yesterday that it was day 1 again.
Good old day one -my best friend and ally, you are always there when I need you. Always so forgiving and non-judgmental, throwing your arm over my shoulder in comfort and support, saying "come on, I'm with you! Together we can do it!" and then giving me a good strong push toward day two.
Day two is just as enthusiastic, she grabs me by the wrist, swings me around and soon I'm flying into day three without a second thought.
The holiday feasting is over, the days begin to get longer. There's snow on the ground and work to be done. The first thaw will be here before you know it! Had my ass back in gear at the gym yesterday, and will be there again on Monday morning.
Sunday, December 02, 2012
Doing well, but the darkness is starting to get to me. Three weeks more before the days start getting longer not shorter.
I've been sitting by my Happy Light every morning for 15-30 minutes, but I only see actual sunlight for a few minutes each morning and it's dark before I leave work. This weekend has been mostly over cast, some snow Friday night, rain today.
I'm envious of people who live in sunnier climates.
Makes me think I might want to become a "snow bird" when I retire, and go somewhere south from November to February.
Wednesday, November 28, 2012
Optimist: someone who figures that taking a step backward after taking a step
forward is not a disaster, it's a cha-cha.
Love this quote! So much more reassuring to not think that we aren't making progress, but that we're dancing.
Days 18 & 19 were over calorie goal due to evening snacking again, but still not a binge. Mostly it was boredom, maybe some emotional comfort seeking. I think some of what I keep trying to shove to the back burner has been spilling over the frontal lobe; in less than desireable ways of course.
Today is a gym day.
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