Wednesday, December 17, 2014
...with myself. Truly. I made cookies for a pitch in today and frosted grapes. I had a cookie before bed last night, you know "to make sure they tasted good". Sigh. I brought my own healthy lunch with an ice pack in it so I wouldn't have to find a fridge at the meeting place. When I got to work I left it in my car knowing it was plenty cold enough. Then I decided to hitch a ride with a coworker to the meeting. The lunch still in my car, nice. Oh, and I nearly forgot to mention that I tested yet ANOTHER cookie when I got to work...you know, in case they went rancid overnight. OH, and I sucked down my water real quick, refilled it and stuck in the freezer so it would be nice and cold during the meeting....then left it there, it's still defrosting. I did manage to only eat (for lunch) one chicken leg (removed the skin), mashed potatoes without gravy, and 2 servings of green beans, and thankfully they had water there. I skipped the dinner plate size cookie AND the buttery rolls. THEN we came back to my office, where I proceeded to have another cookie, half a dozen frosted grapes, a ton of homemade pretzel bites with cranberry honey mustard....oh, and a donut hole. Seriously? Ugh. AND tonight is dinner night where I go out to eat with my family.
I am just so irritated with myself. I know that over the longhaul it really isn't a big deal, but I am frustrated with myself because I was so close to being in the 180's and I have my annual Drs appointment tomorrow and I really wanted to show them how hard I've been working. I have got to figure out how to eat supper, and still feel full, without going overboard on calories.
What I can say is that I didn't have a donut this morning, I carefully watched what I ate at lunch, and believe it or not I did better than I would have 2 months ago, a lot. So...I'll survive.
Also, I'm feeling a little bah hum buggy today. I think I need more sleep. Which probably isn't going to happen tonight unless I don't watch all 3 hours of the Survivor finally....hmm....
Hope you are doing better than me today and I am SO sorry I haven't read all your blogs. I am trying to get caught up and not doing very well, lol.
Tuesday, December 16, 2014
That can sometimes be my constant refrain. Last night I got into my workout clothes, but I am dying to work on the blanket I'm making (I have no idea why, I started it 12 years ago and plan on never being done with it, but once I get it out to work on for the winter I have a hard time putting it down). "I'll just do one row". Next thing you know I'm telling my husband that "I think tonight will be my one night off". I probably don't have to tell you that this is a darn slippery slope...
I sat there crocheting for a while...time is passing, watching a funny movie with my husband. The next thing you know I'm sitting on my bike pedaling away. John says "I thought you weren't going to ride tonight?". Hmmm.....I decided not to so what was I doing on there? A nasty (awesome) little voice said quietly in my head "is it really worth skipping?". Interesting words that. Not "Is it really worth doing?", not "Do you want to keep gaining weight?". You know, it's just 30 minutes, but it makes a WORLD of difference. NO, it isn't worth skipping. For the record I tried to do both...figured that would make me happy. I can read and ride, surely I can crochet and ride...
Ummm.....well, no. It didn't work, not even for a second. Seriously. Picture it in your mind and have a good laugh. After twelve years the blanket isn't exactly tiny, and now it's going up and down on my lap as I'm trying to put the needle through the hole. Oh, and I have two cats....let that marinate in your imagination for a minute. It was not pretty.
The moral of the story? Just do the thirty minutes, it's worth it and the sooner you get it done the sooner you can get back to this blanket called life.
Monday, December 15, 2014
Because my goodness am I SLOW. It's okay to be slow, I'm just sayin. Slow. I am down not quite a whole pound from last week. I am just so glad it's down. It could have been better, but I'm not terribly concerned. I am looking forward to getting down to 189, as when that happens I am going allow myself to schedule my haircut....and man oh man do I need a haircut! Probably what I should do is make a rule saying I can't wear my new boots until I get to 189. I bet I lose 4 pounds in a hurry, lol.
Honestly. I'm feeling better and better. It's getting easier to say no to junk food, although, I still have a long way to go on this one. The exercise is definitely the easiest part for me. When it will be hard is on certain days like Christmas Eve in particular. I have set a goal to do 30 minutes of cardio 6 days a week through the holidays. This is a BIG goal for me, previously I would have said 10 minutes on holidays. I can do this, I just have to figure out a way to fit it into days that I'll be out late. I exercise in the evening so this can sometimes be a challenge.
Well folks...have a great day. I have a busy week ahead of me.
Friday, December 12, 2014
...the world is in trouble. It's nearly equivalent to a woman taking off her earrings before a fight. Nearly. But not quite. I feel in a mood today. A low tolerance sort of mood.
I started to write about who, what, when, why, where; then I realized none of that matters. It really truly doesn't. Yes, I feel a little cranky and one more complaint may just make me snap, however, in the long run this/she doesn't matter. It only matters how I conduct myself. I am very non confrontational so hopefully this shouldn't be too hard.
Anyway, I also tend to put on lipstick when I feel pretty or want to feel pretty. So which came first today? Lipstick or pretty? I'm going to go with pretty. I went with a beachy look today, because frankly I need the sunshine. Lots of salt spray....and I was instantly transported to the beach.
One could say I feel "beachy" today. Bahahahahaha!
I think it's interesting that one item can make me feel pretty. Why don't I wear it every day? Honestly, it just annoys me. When my hair was short I wore lipstick more frequently....it is frustrating with the long hair because I swear one little hair will get in my lipstick and then smack right onto my glasses....how annoying to have a streak of lipstick right in your line of sight. Today...I'm throwing caution to the wind! hahahaha!
I told you....sassy!
Have a wonderful Friday my terrific friends and put on your lipstick (or whatever does it for you) and feel beautiful today, BECAUSE YOU ARE!!!
Thursday, December 11, 2014
What to write about today is completely unknown. I feel like yesterday my brain was over flowing and today, nada. There's nothing in there but a tumble weed blowing from one side to the other.
Well....I had a great workout last night. I did 20 minutes of cardio followed up by a "12 days of Christmas" workout that's mostly body weight and/or toning exercises. The first time I did it I got all the way up to the 8th day before I remembered that every time I moved up a day I was supposed to do all the moves under it as well. This time I managed to do it correctly, all the way to the 12th day which started with 12 squat jumps. I'm tellin ya, I didn't think I'd be able to complete it. I am so weak. It's shocking to realize that because there would have been a day back in 2009/10 that I would have killed that whole routine in 15 minutes flat and then jumped in for another round. Man oh man am I out of shape! This to me is just further proof that I need to continue down this same path, but not be afraid to jump off to a side path for a day. It's so easy to get focused on the cardio because I know I lose weight with it, but I'm trying really hard to do this better this time around. There's no reason to wait until I get my weight lower until I start strength/toning exercises. And sure, I do them every now and then, but I need to be serious about them and doing them on a regular basis instead of so hit an miss. This Christmas thing I'm doing is nothing fancy, and a lot of it is very easy, BUT it's a start and it's more than what I was doing, by a lot.
I'm feeling good and ready to get this day over with so I can snuggle with my kiddo and then kick my own butt!
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