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Staying upbeat...

Monday, November 24, 2014

I mostly have that under control these days, but I'm not gonna lie...I had a bit of a set back this weekend. I just got to feeling a little down about my weight. Frustrated with myself. Just for putting it back on in the first place. Dang it. I worked so hard to lose it the first time. Anyway, I had been doing so well and really felt like I should have lost 2 pounds this past week, but I just couldn't get under that 193 (it was 192.8 this by the way). I was getting down and frustrated and really wanted to just give up. A few months ago I would have. But my husband agreed to measure just one area (my waist) a couple of days early. It was 2 inches smaller than a month ago. That helped. Then when I put my workout clothes on I took a minute to just feel how loose they are. Same thing with my post workout clothes. There's such a big difference there, in fit and comfort level.

In conclusion....we must remember those non scale victories because they matter. I do have to say that it is a very good thing that my waist was 2 inches smaller or I may have just snapped. Honestly, I didn't do very good with my diet yesterday, I didn't do very good with my exercise either, but I survived and managed to be 1 pound down this week. I'll take that. I never claimed to be perfect.

I'm feeling very tired today, I'm guessing as a result of my diet over the weekend, but I expect to bounce back soon.

Have a wonderful day Spark Friends!

  
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CZESTES 11/24/2014 1:27PM

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I keep seeing myself as the person I used to be. Every time I do laundry, it seems so odd folding the tiny clothes and putting them away in my room. When I walk past a mirror, it makes me look again, thinking someone else is there. Applaud your 2 inches! Keep in mind that muscle does weigh more than fat and even if the scale doesn't move, you might still be changing. You are getting healthier and stronger, which is much more important than what number comes up on that scale. Keep on track & keep pushing, you can do it!

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HAPPYOHIO 11/24/2014 1:24PM

    What a great reminder that we shouldn't always let the scale get us down just because the numbers don't show our progress. How awesome that your clothers feel more loose - and you're down 2 inches! PROGRESS, not perfection! :)

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JENSTRESS 11/24/2014 11:16AM

    That is the worst part of losing and gaining. Just the blame. It is our fault that we weigh what we do. It is based on our genetics and things too, absolutely, but it is our fault. However, that means we get to celebrate the success of losing THAT MUCH MORE because we were responsible for that TOO!!!! (At least that is what I keep telling myself!)

I keep also trying to tell myself that if I did it once, I can definitely do it again. So can you. It is just trying to keep it in perspective. I'm thrilled that you lost those inches. That means that your weight, though maybe not where you want it to be, is shifting to losing more fat and such. That is great. I can't weigh myself too often. I do get discouraged otherwise.

I keep telling myself no matter how discouraged I get with my not perfect body, or perfect size, or perfect weight, that I am better than I was a year ago, and better than I was even a month ago. If we can keep going we will continue to improve. That is what I keep trying to tell myself. I'm doing EVERYTHING I can, I will only keep getting better!

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Frustration...

Sunday, November 23, 2014

When you don't lose weight as quickly as you would like or were losing it is so frustrating. I'm currently on a mini plateau and it seems like no matter what I do my weight doesn't change. I found myself really getting worked up about it. I took a deep breath and reminded myself of all my non scale victories. I'm due to measure this coming week and I am hopeful I will see a change there. Also, I'll think about jogging today to see if it jump starts me. Have a great Sunday sparkles!

  
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CZESTES 11/23/2014 8:13PM

    Everyone hits plateaus, the key is to keep at it. Reviewing and making changes seems to help me. I keep logs, as I have found certain foods or lack of sleep tend to mess up my plans.

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SMALLSTEPSNOW 11/23/2014 7:04PM

    Keep on keeping on...... plateaus are one of the MOST frustrating parts of the entire process... of loosing (significant) amounts of weight...... but you have all of the tools and insights --- and you will get there, I have no doubt!

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JENSTRESS 11/23/2014 1:33PM

    I agree with Kim there, and also, I get like this too. Some weeks I swear it is like I drop so much, and other weeks it is like a half a pound. I'm getting closer to my goal (or will be in the coming months) so I am really trying to get accustomed to the slow downs.

I also tell myself that I am doing EVERYTHING that I can to lose the weight short of paying someone thousands of dollars to suck it out of me. (Not happening!) So, if I am eating right, exercising and logging food, the weight will move, it will just take time and THAT is okay. Because if we are in this for the forever journey like we say, it will eventually get there too!

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KIM_POSSIBLE77 11/23/2014 9:16AM

    Look at what you are eating....are you getting in all your numbers? I find that sometimes if I'm at the lower end of my calories my body holds onto my weight. Just remember it will happen and to keep pushing!

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Embarrassed....

Saturday, November 22, 2014

About my picture I posted. Seriously. I can't believe I posted it, but I did and I could cry just looking at it. I know from experience that that tummy isn't going anywhere....it will get smaller, but it will always look like that.

I have decided that you should see the whole me and I am not going to be embarrassed about it any longer. It is what it is and all I can do is continue to take care of myself.

It was hard to post that, but not as hard as it is to not be able to get on the floor to play with my son, or run around the soccer field with her, or being scared to go to an amusement park because my feet can't hold me up all day.

I said this time is different and I meant it. I keep saying I feel stronger this time and I aim to prove it.

Check me out....belly and all. I'm loud and I'm proud to say I'm doing something about it!!!

Rock on Spark world....sexy spare tire and all!

  
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EL-KABONG 11/23/2014 3:12PM

    Not sure what you are embarrassed about. Did you not want people to see your tattoo?

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CZESTES 11/22/2014 10:58PM

    Don't sweat the small stuff & the belly skin is small stuff. Keep pushing and you will get there. I have the excess skin in my belly region, it doesn't look like the 20 year old (prior to childbirth) me & never will. I am good with that.
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KIM_POSSIBLE77 11/22/2014 1:47PM

    I totally understand the feeling. In the spring I'm doing a bikini challenge and will be posting pictures...it takes all the strength we have sometimes, but look at how strong you are!

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JENSTRESS 11/22/2014 1:17PM

    Keep working, keep going and never quit and that picture will become something even more beautiful and a woman even stronger for facing it all!

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WORKNPROGRESS49 11/22/2014 12:15PM

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LOVENHWOODS 11/22/2014 11:43AM

    Good for you!! You are beautiful inside and out!!

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AZMOMXTWO 11/22/2014 11:35AM

  we all need to work on something

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MOMTO6CUTIES 11/22/2014 11:20AM

    Awe don't be embarrassed. That is the picture you are going to change. You will post another beside it and be 'awed' at all of your hard work! You can do it!!!!

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PHHHISC 11/22/2014 11:10AM

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FORZACHANDMATT 11/22/2014 11:07AM

    You're beautiful

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DYANNE4293 11/22/2014 11:06AM

    br who you are and don't let the world define you! You are beautiful!

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Gobble gobble gobble...

Friday, November 21, 2014

Fat turkey fat hen
We're not here for living
We're here for thanksgiving
Gobble gobble gobble
Fat turkey fat hen

To the tune of "The more we get together"

There are about a billion Christmas songs. I thought you'd like to have this little thanksgiving ditty in your head. haha.

Any who....something has been on my mind lately and it is quite off subject....

I was looking through some of my pictures from my healthy days. I had worked so hard and a frequent reward was a haircut. I got my haircut and I had on a shirt that didn't fit me before and my husband wanted a picture of me in it (it was a freeby shirt from a company that he uses that was really kind to him and he wanted to post it on their forum). I posted it on here because I was so happy that I fit in it. I was happy when I got it too because it was a small and I was thrilled that the owner of the company estimated me that tiny. After having been estimated at the size of a house for so long, it's the little things that count. Anyway...it was a good picture for me... My hair was done that day by the stylist and I never styled it like that again because it wasn't me, wasn't what I wanted, but still....I was so happy with that picture that I didn't care if I looked good or not. But my coworker saw that picture and said "wow, you look old". When I protested she said "no seriously, you look 50".

Now....let me tell you what I heard...

"Oh my gawd! You look so freakin old! You better not lose weight again because you're gonna look like you're eighty!".

I'm not gonna lie, it hurt my feelings. Pretty good really. I mean, some things just shouldn't be said. That was a couple of weeks ago.

And now.....well now....I find I don't care. If I lose weight and I look 50, I'll take it. You know why? Because I want to live a long time and I don't have to be pretty to do that, but what I do need is to be healthy. And happy. I won't let her thoughtless comment "weigh" on me any longer. I know when I lose weight my face tends to get to thin while the rest of me stays nice and thick. And that's okay.

Have a wonderful day today and whatever you do don't like other people bring you down. It's not worth it. Period.

  
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RADOOGA 11/22/2014 12:06PM

    I was really upset for you reading this. For what it's worth, I think the woman is talking crap. You do look different, of course, but you radiate happiness in those pics, and are aiming for a better future. We all look younger with plumper faces (that's what collagen implants are for!), but you are doing something far more important than whether your face is plump, at least this way you'll live long enough to age gracefully, rather than looking perpetually 22 and dying prematurely. I hope she apologised. Kudos to you for staying strong xx

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RADOOGA 11/22/2014 12:06PM

    I was really upset for you reading this. For what it's worth, I think the woman is talking crap. You do look different, of course, but you radiate happiness in those pics, and are aiming for a better future. We all look younger with plumper faces (that's what collagen implants are for!), but you are doing something far more important than whether your face is plump, at least this way you'll live long enough to age gracefully, rather than looking perpetually 22 and dying prematurely. I hope she apologised. Kudos to you for staying strong xx

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KATBWIN 11/21/2014 9:06PM

    I don't know where that person coming from - jealousy or a lack of a screening mechanism between brain and mouth. But you are right, don't let the comment of one person derail you (so much easier said than done, I know). Losing weight and getting healthy is hard enough without someone sabotaging us. That why I love Sparkpeople because they support us doing good things for ourselves.



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THINNERME2009 11/21/2014 5:31PM

    Attempt to ignore that comment, How did YOU feel about how you looked??? That's what mattered and matters. You know that is what truly matters, not the comment. We need to do what is best for us, to become healthier and happy without ourselves. I have found out recently that my husband is concerned that as I lose weight, I will begin to wear "inappropriate" clothing in his words. I have known for a long time that he has issues in re: to self esteem and me. I have never been one to wear "inappropriate clothes". I am a jeans and t-shirt gal as I have always been, that part won't change. This time around, I am doing this for ME and I have decided it is something HE will need to work on within himself.

Also, I have seen your photos and not a single one of them on your page, makes you look old. No bring on the weight loss, you can do it.

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CZESTES 11/21/2014 2:18PM

    I had someone comment behind my back on how much older I look thin. Honestly, i don't care. I didn't do this to look good in a bikini or to be my 20 year old self. This is my attempt to feel better, to get off of the meds, to no longer be diabetic, to lose the stress on my back and joints, and to get energy back. It hurts to have bad things said about me, but screw them. This is for me!!!

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MOMTO6CUTIES 11/21/2014 1:38PM

    Awe.. what a comment from the co worker.

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ARUNNINGKAT 11/21/2014 12:12PM

    Sometimes people just don't have a clue how what they are saying will make the listener feel. I have a few comments in my history like that...probably a few as both the receiver and the giver. emoticon And JENSTRESS might be on to something... she might feel jealous or intimidated by you.

At any rate, I am glad you are not letting it get you down! You are so much happier now that you are committed to this journey and you don't want to let anyone take that away from you! emoticon

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JENSTRESS 11/21/2014 9:37AM

    What a person with foot and mouth disease. No, I mean, foot IN mouth disease.

First, if it is the picture you have here, you DO NOT look 50. Short hair CAN age women (I never understood that but it can) but you look young! I would say that you look maybe 30. Maybe she was jealous because you had a thin face.

And when you lose weight, you will look great, feel great and who cares what anyone says.

I think that people get TOTALLY jealous when people start making changes that they themselves aren't willing to make.

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Why so serious?

Thursday, November 20, 2014

Why indeed?

Reading some old blogs I found a lot of funny stuff. I told on myself....a lot. Hilarious stuff right there...

I feel as though I need to find my funny bone again. Here's the thing...it's so different this time. The first time around I had a lot to learn about myself. Not just in how to eat healthy and exercise, but about a lot of bad habits I had built.

Finding my funny bone won't be easy, but I do think it will be rewarding. I can still be serious, but I love my funny blogs. They make this whole thing feel better, more fun.

Anyway, don't get whiplash looking for my new "funny" blogs, but definitely be on the lookout.

I shall astound with my profound hilarity! Well....perhaps I won't "astound" you, but I bet you'll at least chuckle.

Wishing you all a most spectacular day.

  
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KATBWIN 11/21/2014 8:51PM

    emoticon Can't hardly wait.

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CZESTES 11/21/2014 1:50PM

    I always love reading your blogs. Personally, I have to keep my humor or I'll crack. Keeps me sane and on track.

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JENSTRESS 11/21/2014 8:26AM

    I think we have to have the humor in this journey. If we don't, then what's the point? It is funny the things we consider when we have fat in certain places. Or just our sense of humor as well. If we lose that, then no point!!! We must have it!

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KIM_POSSIBLE77 11/20/2014 7:01PM

    I love laughing and hearing others laugh. Growing up with all the problems my family had laughter was something that helped us get through a lot. Can't wait to read some funny blogs!

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MOMTO6CUTIES 11/20/2014 6:35PM

    haha love your blogs.

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ARUNNINGKAT 11/20/2014 4:18PM

    Can't wait! A good laugh is good for our health! emoticon

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MARGOH12 11/20/2014 3:35PM

    ~Looking forward to the humour - being serious all the time is deffinitely overrated

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