Sunday, September 16, 2012
I was doing so well last week - 2 pounds lost, which is quite a miracle for me, feeling good, on track with Sparkstreaks, tons of water, running 3 times a week.... then Friday happened - and I apparently left the planet for about 24 hours. My daughter had a friend sleep over and we went out to eat then to Main Event for some bowling and fun. So at dinner I ordered a salad with no dressing. It came with dressing - but I was not that hungry so had a few bites and all was good. Then my husband - clearly not understanding the essentials of being a supportive spouse - ordered a massive platter of onion rings for the entire table. WHAT? So, naturally, before I even thought about it I had one whereupon my brain shut of. That was it - 9 onion rings later I started thinking again and realized what I had done. Ugh! So, one little slip up - no biggie I can handle this. Saturday morning I was back on track - suited up to run, little girls sleeping, had my oatmeal and non-fat latte... then they woke up. Pancakes, they both begged - with Bacon!!!! So, I made homemade pancakes and prepared about 6 slices of bacon - just enough for the 10 year olds, not enough to share with Mommy and Daddy. Perfect. But then there was just a little batter left ... just enough for a small pancake. Apparently my alter ego took over again and my real brain left the building. I was already done with breakfast! But I went through the motions of a 1/3 cup pancake... manageable. But then we had REAL Vermont maple syrup on the table --- two tablespoons is way to much for one little pancake. So I had another because the girls had not gotten to the bottom of the serving stack yet. And then they both only ate two pieces of bacon... well you can see what happened next. Oh well. No lunch for me! I never did run - other than errands all day. Then for dinner - our daughter was off to a sleepover and my husband arranged for a celebratory dinner... to congratulate me for my recent promotion. Lovely restaurant - ordered sea bass. All is good - but half a bottle of wine and a full bread basket later and I've now eaten a 2,000 calorie dinner.
Now it's Sunday and I am present and accounting for my last 30 hours and realizing a few things. First, I can't eat just one of anything decadent. As soon as I have one really unhealthy item my brain shuts off and I go into insta-binge mode. Second, that really these food items did not make my life any better.... the white bread from dinner was not all that satisfying. OK, the real maple syrup was probably worth it, but otherwise, my life is not better nor am I a happier person for indulging, rather, I am now regretting it and wondering how many days of careful eating and exercise it will take to make up for my little binge .... now to refocus and not let this become a permanent derailing of my efforts!