Thursday, July 18, 2013
Just want to eat properly this week and exercise. One meal at a time.
Tuesday, December 11, 2012
because I have been having menopausal (I thought) problems and have been feeling very drained and exhausted lately. I was expecting for her to tell me something comforting and deal with my medical issue. After examining me, blah, blah, blah, did an office procedure (which I saw stars from, I should have pulled her tongue out of her mouth), I digress, all she tells me is that I am suffering because I am fat, fat, fat, fat. Isn't that nice to hear? You are FAT, that is why you have this. You are FAT, that is why you have that. I quote: "You are so fat, you really should have a sleeve gastrectomy, that would save your life". First of all, I am not dead yet, and second of all, the only sleeve that I am going to have is long sleeves, short sleeves, or sleeveless. I came out of there feeling sick to my stomach, humiliated, etc. I told her I changed all of my eating habits and lost 4 pounds this week, just eating healthier and walking. I couldn't do too much exercise because of this bleeding problem.
Oh but no, 4 pounds isn't enough. You have to be a size 2, with no fat on your body, and have bariatric surgery to accomplish that. I am so sick of tired of people telling me that. Everyone I knew ( I say knew), that was overweight had bariatric surgery. They are all a size 2, showing themselves off, not eating anything anymore and they look at you like you are a blimp because you eat food. Oh they never eat anymore, and their confidence is way off the map that they won't even bother with an obese person anymore.
It really upsets me, but I am going to continue eating healthy and exercising, and eating real food in moderation. I am going to be healthy but I am going to do it my way, not the way society wants me to do it. We all have medical problems, and not all is caused by obesity, but I thank God everyday for what he has given me, and I am truly blessed, and in His time, I will reach my goal with His help.
Saturday, August 06, 2011
A former coworker of mine posted some pics of herself on a website. She was morbidly, I mean morbidly obese. I am also morbidly obese, but I looked thin compared to her. She had the most beautiful face.
She had lost about 85 pounds in about 2 - 3 months. She is looking amazing. I asked her how she did it. She had a right sleeve gastrectomy, where they removed 85% of her stomach.
I cannot even fathom that. She said she feels wonderful and it was the best thing she ever did for herself. You know, she had me thinking about getting gastric bypass surgery. I was researching the newest operative methods of this surgery online, etc.
No matter what, I did this before, and I can do this again. I am not getting the surgery, even if I have to stay big all of my life. I will try and try, and even if I lose just 5 pounds, at least it is a start.
P.S. She does look gorgeous though :)
Monday, September 06, 2010
What a labor to keep this weight off only to find that I gained 30 pounds back. I am so discouraged right now. I started again today, really keeping track. I went to the doctor for a new prescription for high blood pressure, and they weighed me. The scale was always my enemy, but this was a horrible awakening. I felt myself getting bigger by the day. I still tried to exercise, but I know I have been eating late at night, which I didn't do before. When I lived alone, I did well, but now I find it so hard since reconciling with my husband. My mom passed away in April and it has been so hard emotionally. I lost my initial weight by being stressed out and worrying, that I didn't eat at all. Now, that I have regained my appetite a little, I also regained the pounds. I am still going to try, I have to do more exercise, but I feel so down lately. I wish I had the motivation I used to. I pray to the Lord, that He will guide me, help me, cause I know He will never leave or forsake me.
Friday, July 30, 2010
I find that as I have been exercising everyday and watching what I eat, logging in my calories and foods, tracking exercises and other goals, I should be jumping with joy. I know I want to lose weight today, not tomorrow. I have to have patience, one baby step at a time. I didn't get this way from eating an apple. I should be dropping some pounds, but I feel bloated much of the time, the belly is pudgy and hanging, it really bothers me. I tried on some white pants that I always was able to wear and they were snug, I just don't understand. I did way over my exercise points this week, and stayed in calorie range. This is so much harder than when I lost weight through aggravation, worry, stress, etc. I do not want to get discouraged, and I refuse to weigh myself, it seems that the weight keeps creeping up, instead of down. I will not give up, I will be patient, that is what I have to tell myself. I know I could do this again!
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