Monday, March 09, 2009
One of the dreaded set backs of weight loss is loose skin. I kind of was under the impression if you are on a reasonable plan, drink all your water, use lotion like there's no tomorrow that you won't suffer this drawback. Humph! Either that isn't true or I have done something wrong - Again!
I went to the dreaded "Plus Size Women's Clothing Store" to buy some pants that I could wear to workout because my others were too big - I had to keep stopping to readjust them so I didn't flash the world. Of course I went in with requirements; not spandex, have pockets, at least knee length, which pretty much limits what you can get. But hey! They actually had something! Then I thought well maybe today is my lucky day I will try on some slacks for work, so I grab a pair of the same size that I bought last time - why would I do this when the ones I bought last time are falling off???
So I head to the fitting room. I try the slacks on...whoop they fall to the floor so I go back out and grab two pairs each a size smaller (2 different sizes). Back in the fitting room I try them on, each whoops to the floor. As I am taking off the smallest pair I dare try on hubby comes to check on me, some beast inside of me asks him to go ....How dare you!... get another size smaller...they are just on the far wall. Ha! Ha! I told you it was a beast!
So there I sit in a fitting room, actually of decent size, bigger than a handicap stall. Sitting in a straight back chair surrounded by mirrors. I hate full length mirrors but I especially hate being surrounded by them. So I use this chance to investigate the changes that have led to these pants falling to the floor. Eeeeewwwww! Okay what do I do about that??? I think that actually looks worse than the fat that used to fill it. But wait! If my pants are on you can't see them - ah, that's the key, "Where's those pants?! They were just over there!" Wow, fear and disgust can really bring out the beast in us :) No response. I have to cover this....okay back into my pants. Then whack I get hit in the head with the dreaded pants to try on flying over the door. Too late! I ain't putting them things on...I have things to hide!
Can you say, "Panic attack" ? Really, that's all it takes.
So I have been thinking about this for two days but keeping myself carefully covered. Is there any chance of losing massive amounts of weight and not having that dreaded elephant skin? Why should I lose weight if I am still going to have to keep myself covered? And how do I keep that beast inside of me of freaking out in the decline? Stay Tuned for more in the transformations...