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No longer peaceful

Saturday, July 22, 2006

So today as I was basking in the shower thinking about getting on that frightening scale... I realized that My strict diet had slipped so much in the past month because of HIM and I dont have the motivation I used to. But I stared at myself in the mirror and inspected myself from every angle just to find mre places with too much fat or too much skin and just overall unappealing. And at that moment I saw myself in a whole new light. My inner hero needed to break free. And if I was ever going to stop HIM in his tracks and think twice about dating HER.... I was going to have to out-beauty HER. Its possible, I know I can after coming this far. This is no longer love from a distance, no longer a casual glance... this is WAR. Once I get down to my target weight, Im going to the gym to pack on muscle and endurance more than ever before. Im willing to fight t the death for HIM and I need to prepare to do it. I want to be stronger, faster, harder, and ready to take her on. not asking for body builder muscle... just for the strength to kick some serious ass. Once I hit 150 (hopefully by november) It will be all out weights and running. One year from now, I hope to be able to wear a bikini or at least a two piece and not feel like a lard bucket! War, Judy... WAR...

I will take you down!


Size 14's

Friday, May 26, 2006

Yesterday I went to walmart to do just a little shopping and got the urge to see exactly what pants size I was down to after all this time. I picked up a size 16 and a size 14 pair of jeans and headed off to the dressing rooms. Well standing in front of that mirror I held up the 14's and said to myself

"Oh man these are never going to fit, look at that tiny waist!"

well I got the nerve to pull them on anyways. I was shocked that they didn't stop when they hit my thighs. In fact, they made it all the way up and buttoned. Moreso, they werent squeezing me into oblivion even if they were a tad snug for my taste. I was so thrilled I just cast aside the 16's as a thing of the past.

Needless to say, I smiled a bigger smile than I have in ages! I dont think I wore a size 14 since nearly middle school. What an exciting day!