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Why, why, why...

Friday, January 07, 2011

Why when I try to turn my life around does it feel the whole world is against me?

Why do I let little things bug me so much that they feel so big to me?

Why do I want to quit already?

I just need a break, way to much to think about, and way to much to change. I get tired just thinking about it.

BC, I just need a new brain.

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BLUECHEESE1 1/9/2011 7:35PM

    Hey Sweetheart, let's both take those baby steps together.. :) Never give up! Love you.

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SPARKLETIME1 1/8/2011 8:52PM

  Baby steps can work for you. emoticon

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LATTEGAL 1/7/2011 10:23PM

    Life can seem so hard to deal with sometimes. But hey you took the first step and wrote about your struggles and there are tons of people here to give you support. Just take one day at a time and dont try to do it all at once. You can do this!

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FISHINGLADY66 1/7/2011 9:42PM


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MSEMBERSTORM 1/7/2011 7:51PM

    Sometimes it can really feel like that. My advice is take a deep breath, close your eyes and know that it will be okay. It just takes time. Also one of my helpfull remedies is take a nice soaking bath, take some time for you and get a good night's sleep. Then in the morning put on your battle gear and charge!!!!!!!!! You can do this. Hugs

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CCHESNEY 1/7/2011 1:03PM

    Everyday you just have to make a choice. A choice to WANT to change or a choice to FEEL you can't do it. Because you can do it! You can do whatever you put your mind to. There will be times when you feel the world is against you, but when you rise above it you will be a stronger person because of it!

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MDMNINA 1/7/2011 12:52PM

    Well, I can't send youi a new brain, so I'll send you hugs and support instead! emoticon

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Finally Doing it....

Saturday, June 12, 2010

OK os it has been 10 days, but I am doing it. Down 7 in 10 days. I am just controlling sugars and carb. Still struggling with the carbs, but I will keep trying. Worried about next weekend's get away for our anniversary and the following week's MS150 bike ride. But I will do my best at guessing what the foods have in them.

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MSEMBERSTORM 6/14/2010 11:52PM

    Keep up the awesome work!

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FISHINGLADY66 6/13/2010 9:48PM

    That is fantastic! Congratulations.

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FITAT50 6/13/2010 3:45PM

    Wow, that is fantastic! Great job!!

I just came back from a week of vacation and did real good on food choices when I exercised (one of the hotels had a workout room) but if I didn't exercise my diet went downhill.

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JGMK55 6/13/2010 8:22AM

    Congratulations on getting back on track. Carbs are my biggest enemy, too. If I stay away from them (limit myself to less than 40 a day), I'm fine. If I cross that line, I lose control. Keep at it. You'll be successful - and way to go on losing 7 pounds!

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STEELMAGNOLIA10 6/12/2010 5:49PM

    You can do it!!! I have faith and CONGRATS on 7 in 10!! amazing.. You following the belly fat cure? I'm proud of you. You are in control.It feels good don't it? And as food for thought...LOL I tell myself when I see things happening slowly that it isn't about being afraid of going slowly but standing still. Love it and Hugs to you my friend...:) I'll be checking back with you soon.. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Just got to get back on the right path...

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Over the weekend I hung out with my family. My mom was all excited about the Flat Belly Diet. We looked at the book together and I noticed it was one of Jeorge's books. I figured following his plan before worked so well I would do this with my mom (even though my mom doesn't need it). I ordered the book and was excited to tell my dh. I thought he would be excited, but he said "it didn't work before". The plan works, follow it and it works. I think I am broken. All my family is thin and healthy. The do a great job at putting their health first. What happened to me? Why is my health the last thing I want to think about?

My thin family

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MSEMBERSTORM 5/19/2010 9:43PM

    Don't let yourself get down. Keep taking those steps you will make it. Sometimes it feels like we are broken but we aren't we are just on a different journey. Keep your chin up and keep up the fight. You can do this. Believe and breath!

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STEELMAGNOLIA10 5/19/2010 4:08PM

    yeah you are not broken. I have come from 1/2 short and 1/2 big. I got both. short and big. But it isn't about them it is about YOU! What you want ans how bad do you want to go to get it. I have learned that it is baby steps and every day I try to do something towards my health whether its a short walk or writing my food for the day. One thing a day isn't so bad as trying to be the wonder women who does it all. You are a very good person and dedicate yourself to others immensely. Now you need to take care of YOU so just like brushing your teeth schedule that YOU in your work week. Love you and I am here for support and friendship:) WE CAN DO THIS! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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FISHINGLADY66 5/19/2010 2:44PM

    Don't put yourself down. You are a very good person. Thin is not everything. You are working on it. So just keep going and be happy. emoticon I believe in you.

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MICKEYMAX 5/19/2010 9:27AM

    You're not broken. I come from a thin family, too. I know it seems unfair and can put more pressure on you (from yourself) but really we can do this together. I am relying on myself and Sparkers to pat me on the back instead of my fam.

Let's be excited together!!! emoticon

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Where did I go?

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

I keep getting asked where I went. I removed all my friends, took my page offline, and hid for months.

Well here the scoop. I was dealing with depression. I had done so well at create a healthy life and living my new live and then it all ended. Food is what I looked forward to, it gave me, my only sense of joy. So of course I started packing on the pounds again and this site change from my motivation to my realism that I was a failure. I would come to this site and leave feeling worse. So I had to go hid, go deal with the life, and figure out how to show my face. Well I am showing my face again, but I have not gotten my drive to be healthy back yet.

I do miss my friends, but can't quite cope yet. But I am getting closer.


emoticon for not giving all the up on me.

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MSEMBERSTORM 5/16/2010 9:21PM

    Hugs hun! We are here for you!

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FISHINGLADY66 5/13/2010 10:44PM

    Welcome Back. I will never give up on you. We are not here to blame or judge anyone. We all have our own seasons on life. Just come on in and read post and some article, if you want to, or just lurk around. I'll always be here when you need someone to just listen. We are your friends. We're here for you.
God Bless

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    I am so glad you are back. You are never a failure...ever! I believe in you. You can do this. Let's work together and reach our goals. How can we help each other?

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JGMK55 5/12/2010 9:45PM

    I'm glad you're back. I think we may all go through bits and pieces of (for many different reasons) levels of involvement. Do what you need to in order to take care of yourself. We'll be here for you.

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BRENDABUNNY 5/12/2010 9:29PM

    God Bless you we will never give up on you
Talk your time even if its baby steps emoticon

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My Yo-Yo's string is messed up...

Thursday, October 01, 2009

Why do they call it yo-yo dieting? All the yo-yo's I have ever seen always have the same length of string. The Yo-yo goes down and up the same distance over and over again.

My yo-yo diet has a broken string. It will NOT go down always the way. It gets stuck, I fuss and fuss to get it unstuck and in the while it is getting rolled back up and with all fussing the string gets longer. The longer my string gets the more it get caught and messes up on it way down, I fuss, it get longer, it come back up to the top I try again. Some how I need to cut that sting so it cannot go up and down and that is the yo-yo I want, one with no string at all.

Right now I am at the top again trying to fix my string so I can try the trip down again. Sometimes I think if I just stayed where I am it would be a lot easier, but this yo-yo is to big to keep on holding.

Hope your yo-yo string is getting shorter everyday.


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EDUCGRAD 10/9/2009 5:30PM

    I had that all summer,finally doing a bit better in that area.

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MSEMBERSTORM 10/7/2009 4:37PM

    I think we just need to put the yo yo down but well you know how that goes. LOL Big hugs gal!

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CUTIEPOSSUM1 10/5/2009 11:04AM

    Hi Jane! We must have the same yo-yo! :) Very nice blog! I know exactly how you feel! Dieting, exercising and getting healthy, it's just plain hard! Keep working on your yo-yo knot and I'll keep working on mine :)! Carrie

P.S. Having a lot of fun on Facebook with you!

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FITAT50 10/2/2009 8:00AM

    I hear ya friend! My weight went back up in July and I can't seem to get that yo-yo string going in the right direction.

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POOH_BEAR_69 10/1/2009 11:03PM

    I think we've all been there. It stinks when you feel like you never really reached your goal and the weight is creeping back on. I've gained back 2 pounds since I've increased my running... I can't explain why... Don't even have a guess, but my pants are looser, and my body looks better in the mirror. I don't know what it's going to take to convince the scale to agree with the mirror... Maybe I need to try sweet talking it... emoticon

I will be thinking about you as you work toward your goals... Best wishes always!


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NSERENE 10/1/2009 6:49PM

    Although I don't yo-yo with my weight, I can relate. There are just so many things going on in our fast paced world. It is so hard to keep up on all of our goals. You think you have it down and then you have a new challenge. Something has to give. I find myself trying to figure out how to simplify my life so I can maintain everything I set on my plate. I love you and wish you luck in fixing your yo-yo. But know that I love you and I think you are amazing!!

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MICHELEB609 10/1/2009 6:17PM

    I love this! We have to break free of that cursed string! My weight has bounced between 118 and 168 so many times I think I've gained and lost a few whole people! This time will be different. We can do this! emoticon

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ASIAMORA 10/1/2009 3:34PM

    I like your analogy.

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FISHINGLADY66 10/1/2009 2:33PM

    I love your blogs. They really give me something to think about.

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    Jane~ Great Blog. You are always so well written. I can totally relate to where you are. So let's cut that string and move on. What can I do to partner with you that will help out. Name it, we can do it. Wanna commit to getting 10 minutes of cardio in a day? It's a start. You can bike or walk or anything. Or would you like to focus on eating? I just joined the Mindful Eating Group. Check it out. Start with small things and build from them. Let's do it!
Hugs my friend,

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    Great blog. I am finally getting a hold of that old string. I went back up a bit but I am working to get it back where it belongs.

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JIM5399 10/1/2009 12:23PM

  I can relate to your yoyo, however mine did go down all the way, and when it went up it flew up.... but hang in there remember you are in control of the yoyo.. you can make it go down...

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