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Turtle Update

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Well here I am again...Since the last blog...I've spent several visits to the Wound Care Clinic with therapist Paula. By the time I got to her...both legs had large open sores on them...and she has put me in special "boots", which she removes...cleans the wounds and re-applies another boot. I've had the boots off for about 2 weeks, but need to keep pads over the wound area on the right leg. Now the right leg is back to acting up again, so I will be seeing her on Friday. emoticon

She has instructed me to get compression stockings 30/40 strength...Medicare covers them, because I have open wounds...so last Wednesday I got the 1st pair and have been reluctant to try to put them on...but because I have a recurrence on the right leg...she told me to get them on or at least something which will decrease the swelling. Part of the reason we have been stalling...is that I wanted to make sure the dead skin and toenails were cleaned up...not being able to clean them makes a nasty looking foot and a challenge to not re-injure the VERY sensitive skin. Oh...by the way...the "condition" is called "venous stasis ulcers"...so watch your legs if they swell...because it is not a fun thing and is extremely painful.

So yesterday...we cleaned the feet and toenails (Art and I) and soaked the skin to try to get the skin soft enough to scrub a little and soften the nails. We got 1 stocking on the left leg...which was very painful and only took us an hour or longer...they are very TIGHT stockings. emoticon We waited a little while and proceeded to work on the right side...after more than an hour of struggling and dealing with unbearable pain...we let it "rest" while he ran to the store...by the time he got back, I was in terrible pain (I DO have a very high pain tolerance) emoticon emoticon emoticonbut this was too much. We then decided to remove it and let the whole leg rest. When things had settled a bit we put on some stockings which had been my dads', but which are not so tight.

I will laying down for my computer time after I get done with this blog, so will not be typing...as I have found that to be very challenging emoticon. As for the folks suggesting sitting in a recliner...been there, done that....it doesn't work because I can't get out of it when I need to and that brings on other challenges emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

Now this turtle needs to get the legs elevated...so that's it for now.

Oh by the way...one good thing is that I lost 13 pounds between February and March...now to keep it off.

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BLUKENTUCKYGIRL 5/29/2010 6:14PM

  Kathy, I just came across your blog today as I was checking my friends list. I hadn't been active for quite a while but just recently decided to give it another try. I was reading your blog and this blog, though outdated, was of interest to me. I have also developed s stasis ulcer on my left leg and I do have a lot of swelling. So far I have been trying to treat it myself but think that I will probably have to end up going to a wound center. I put it off because I don't want to deal with those stockings. There is no way that I would be able to put them on myself and my husband is just too rough to let him do it. I also have trouble with the recliner chair. My legs are not long enough to sit back in it, and if I do get in it, I can't reach the lever to lay it back. They have electric recliners and remote controlled ones. They cost a lot but I am just about desperate enough to spend the money. How are your legs doing now? Has the wound center treatment helped? You might be interested in joining the group, "Living With Lymphedema" Just about everyone in the group is dealing with or has dealt with the stasis ulcer. The group has been a big help to me. Well, it was good to see that you are posting occasionally and I will try to keep up with you. Maggie

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JFROGDIVA 4/17/2010 10:37PM

    Kathy ~ I am so sorry that you are having to deal with this!!!! Take care of yourself & do what you need to to get healed so that you will be back with us!! I miss your smiling face!!!! LOL LOL!!!! You are in my thoughts & prayers!!!!
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BRUANNE 4/16/2010 8:54AM

    Kathy, perhaps a compression stocking of 15-20 would do some benefit and not be as difficult to put on. After my foot surgery I was told to get the higher compression but my insurance wouldn't pay so I bought knee-highs at the grocery store and they worked. It seems such a struggle for you to put these stocking on. Could you possibly "wrap" your legs with "Ace" bandages so you could control the compression?
I can see that you are doing everything you can to heal and that's about all you can do for now. Keep up the good work!!

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TEDDYBEARGIRL 4/16/2010 3:46AM

    I have missed hearing from you! I am so sorry that your legs are still causing you so much discomfort. I am praying that you heal quickly and that you can get the stocking on and wear them without too much pain!

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PATRICIA441 4/15/2010 6:35PM

  Kathy, so sorry you are going through so much with your legs and feet. emoticon weight loss, keep it up, the extra weight on your legs aren't helping you as I am sure you have been told. Hope you can work on getting the stockings on. One of my Son In Laws has to wear them as does as a DIL. Fran wears one on his foot and ankle when it swells sometimes when he has been walking a long time. You are not alone. Sending healing prayers your way. Hugs. Pat

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NEEDSHELP4EVER 4/15/2010 5:47AM

    Kathy, so sorry you are having this trouble and pain. I do hope they can find something that will help with the swelling without having to wear the very tight stockings, we have the same problem with mum's left leg

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POSITIVELY_EB 4/15/2010 12:12AM

    You're in my thoughts and prayers, Kathy! I've had to wear compression stockings - not fun!

Hugs! Beverly

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DEBBIEANNE1124 4/14/2010 9:00PM

    Kathy, I am so sorry you are going through all of this. I ahd no idea. It's also the same stuff my brother has been daling with and what put him in the hospital in the first place. He's ahd parts of his foot amputated twice. Please do everything the wound care nurse Paula instructs you to do.

Keep in touch, friend!
Debbie

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MEESHADACATDIVA 4/14/2010 7:33PM

    Kathy can you take the stockings with you maybe the therapist can help you with them. I hope you get control of this pain soon I know you have high pain tolerance but you shouldnt have to need it

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11-RENEWAL-20 4/14/2010 6:03PM

    Kathy...I am so sorry you are having so much pain. I will continue to pray that you heal soon. What an ordeal for you and Art! emoticon emoticon Sharon J

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Turtle News for Today

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

2010 has begun with my decision to get more active on Spark again, but not having much success with accomplishing that task. I have been seeing my cardiologist who is working with me to get the swelling in my legs and other parts of my body to go down to a healthy level. Also we have been working to get the blood sugar back to a healthy level and we are trying several methods to do that. After having blood tests done in January, he was pleased to tell me that my heart was functioning better, my lungs were clear....BUT my kidney function was deteriorating.

Making adjustments to the diuretics which help control the blood pressure and, hopefully the swelling, he suggested I try to find a way to get more movement. Walking has not been one of the strong points for me lately and the nasty weather has not helped either...in fact, I can find many things I'd rather do than walk...because it hurts. emoticon Playing on Facebook, doing my Spark things and generally sitting at my computer are much more satisfying to me. However, as we all know, that is probably not a great choice for someone who has legs that are swelling and look like they are Popeye's arms. emoticon I have been having much pain in my legs and now have an open sore on my right shin...,which is draining and the left leg is beginning to do the same. It feels like a very bad sunburn and makes it difficult to sleep and function well...can't stand to have it touched. emoticon

I saw my doctor yesterday and he says the kidney function is better and moving in the right direction...but the problem with my legs is due to the breakdown of my skin..,.the constant swelling has weakened the ability of the skin to serve it's purpose and the open wound will only get worse, if we don't do something to bring the swelling under control.

We also talked about my pain management and he has told me to try a different method...the Ibuprofen is causing bleeding in the upper part of the intestine and I am to speak with my PCP about another medication for pain.

This turtle is feeling very weary of trying to get things fixed, but since I'm not allowed to quit I will be bugging everyone more often.












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LADYSTRAWBOSS 4/5/2010 5:56AM

  Hi Kathy emoticon emoticon

Life isn't easy as we get older. I'm experiencing leg problems also if I sit too long and even if I don't. I notice that it get worse if I don't get enough water. That sounds contradictory to retaining water but it actually helps me.

Because of problems with my feet, I'm having problems walking and am seriously thinking of starting a water aerobics class. It's a lot of good exercise but easy on the joints. I'm also thinking of getting one of those peddle machines that just has the peddles that you can sit in a chair and peddle your legs or set it on a table for your arms. At least that would not put a lot of pressure on my joints. I've got arthritis I believe.

My mom has problems with her legs and breaking out in soars. She has for years, 20 +, used pressure boots like they use in the hospitals. She uses them at home in a recliner instead of elevating. She also elevates but the boots are more comfortable. She does this 4 times a day for an hour each. It does seem to keep the soars away completely.

Your life seems very active with watching grandchildren. What a blessing they can be. I haven't had the privilege of being around mine much to build relationships.

God bless, Karen



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LADYSTRAWBOSS 4/5/2010 5:55AM

  Hi Kathy emoticon emoticon

Life isn't easy as we get older. I'm experiencing leg problems also if I sit too long and even if I don't. I notice that it get worse if I don't get enough water. That sounds contradictory to retaining water but it actually helps me.

Because of problems with my feet, I'm having problems walking and am seriously thinking of starting a water aerobics class. It's a lot of good exercise but easy on the joints. I'm also thinking of getting one of those peddle machines that just has the peddles that you can sit in a chair and peddle your legs or set it on a table for your arms. At least that would not put a lot of pressure on my joints. I've got arthritis I believe.

My mom has problems with her legs and breaking out in soars. She has for years, 20 +, used pressure boots like they use in the hospitals. She uses them at home in a recliner instead of elevating. She also elevates but the boots are more comfortable. She does this 4 times a day for an hour each. It does seem to keep the soars away completely.

Your life seems very active with watching grandchildren. What a blessing they can be. I haven't had the privilege of being around mine much to build relationships.

God bless, Karen



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MEESHADACATDIVA 4/4/2010 5:28AM

    Come on Kathy You can do it

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TEDDYBEARGIRL 2/22/2010 1:54AM

    Hello Turtle friend!!! It was so good to see you post a blog on Sparks.....I am praying for you legs dear!!!!!! Bless you

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JEPSON 2/19/2010 2:36PM

    Kathy, I am so very sorry you are having so-o-o many problems. These problems weren't suppose to happen to us!!! We were suppose to ride into our "golden years" full of energy and in good health!!! Rats....it doesn't happen that way does it?
Hang in there my friend. I will be praying for you.

Bless you,
Paula

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DEBBIEANNE1124 2/19/2010 10:49AM

    Hi sweet Turtle!
For someone who did all that walking to go to that sports bar you sure did a good job with swollen legs and all. Please be careful and take it easy.
Hugs and love you!
Debbie

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11-RENEWAL-20 2/19/2010 7:06AM

    Kathy...We are here for you just as you've been here for so many of us in the past...it's your turn for all the support you need...there are many prayers being said for your health to improve. Keep tying and do not give up...LOVE YOU Sharon J

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BUGLET- 2/18/2010 12:02PM

    I'm so sorry Kathy, I hope things improve soon.. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SUNSHINE_GAL 2/18/2010 11:41AM

    Kathy -
You know we are all here to support you and please do "bug" us. I also have some swelling issues in my feet but I have noticed that it occurs when I'm sitting at the computer for to long. Once the swelling sets in, even if I get up and move the swelling doesn't go down. In fact, it's very painful due to the "burning" sensation I feel. The way I get relieve is to elevate them for at least an hour. The key is to elevate them above your heart so I use lots of pillows. I have also reduced the time I spend on the computer. I make it a point now to walk around the house for about 10 minutes in between computer time. I do hope your doctor can help you solve this problem, but in the meantime, take baby steps and just try real hard to walk a little. Even if it's just one minute, 50 times a day, that's a good beginning. Love ya and you take care of yourself. Please keep in touch.

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TRACYZABELLE 2/18/2010 9:20AM

    Kathy you know it is a struggle but all we can do is take it oen day at a time! I know about the legs issue-- I suffer too.. I too enjoy being at my computer but when I am sitting at the TV or in bed my legs are elevated--I have had skin eruptions many times-- if you apply a pressure bandage to it , it should heal better. WHen I do what I am supposed to with my meds and elevation, my legs feel better!.. I am always here if you need to talk!

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POSITIVELY_EB 2/17/2010 10:58PM

    You have LOTS of us here, Kathy!!!!!

Hugs!! Beverly

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JFROGDIVA 2/17/2010 9:19PM

    Turtle, you are NOT alone!!!! You've got a froggie right beside you!!!! You can do this...........just one step at a time!!!!
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LAUGHINGROSE 2/17/2010 6:40PM

    Hi, Dear Sister...
I know in the myriad books and newsletter I've accumulated and read over the years, I've seen something that talks about inflammation and how to reduce it. So I'm assigning myself the responsibility of following up on that . As you know sometimes the things I resonate with are not traditional medicine, but are the more complementary approaches, so I hope that I can find one that you can do and will find helpful...At least I'm going to try my best to hone in on this issue.

So, the body is pretty complex and an amazing creation, but it does require us to keep trying to tune it up...

Love you -- Hang in there...
Priscilla
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YIGOBUTTERFLY 2/17/2010 5:19PM

    Bug away. That is what we are here for. Sorry about those swelling legs. My prayers are with you. Exercise, do the other things that the doctors say to do and get well.
Jane on Guam
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Turtle Starts Over...AGAIN

Friday, January 01, 2010

2009 has not been a good year for me in health issues...weight loss...exercise, but I am now giving it a new start. I am working with my cardiologist, pulmonologist, and primary care doctor to get blood sugar, heart and lungs working together and correctly. Also, I will be doing some research on whether I can get bariatric surgery. I have the encouragement and support of my cardiologist and PC doctor. Just need to jump through all the hoops to accomplish the process...so I have to quit stalling and get busy on that.

I have been very active on Facebook and have made many new friends and maintained some old friendships and family members...many of my family are there, including my 89 year old mom. I think the addiction to FB is due to the fact that I don't have to chat unless I want to and I am definitely not feeling chatty much of the time...guess I'm not a potential Twitter person. emoticon I am much more interested in my Facebook farms, restaurant, fish tanks...as well as playing games like Farkle, Yacht, Word Hunt and lots of other choices...so I will spend lots of time there. I need to portion my schedule wisely...so it will be a while that I am doing things well.

So here I am again and so many thanks to all my wonderful friends who support me here on Spark and Facebook.


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HARPLUTE 1/23/2010 8:06PM

  Kathy: It's so good to see you posting. I miss you a lot and want you to know you are always in my prayers.

Gail

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NANNA2ONE 1/4/2010 10:25PM

    Kathy, glad you have decided to give us a try again. We just hope that this year is much better for you. We are hear for you and I am glad that we are friends on FB.

Dore

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MIAJOEB 1/3/2010 12:26AM

    So glad you are back . It is so hard to get this going. But it is worth the effort.

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FISHPOND7 1/2/2010 5:04PM

    Welcome back, Kathy, and many good wishes to you for a wonderful year.
Beth

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JFROGDIVA 1/2/2010 8:25AM

    Kathy ~ I had GBS in 2000 & even tho I have gained back part of my weight.....due to my own inadequacies, I would do it again in a heartbeat!!!! Hubby & his brother had it as well & BIL's wife had a lapband!! We all did well, but she is having difficulty with the band!! Lost weight, but a great deal of difficulty eating & with nausea!! Being an RN, I did tons of research before I ever even considered the surgery!! If you have any questions or I can help, just ask!!!! The only mistake I made was allowing others to encourage me to eat more after the surgery.....I continued to eat more than I was supposed to & more than I wanted to at every meal, so I wound up stretching my "pouch"!! Plus I didn't attend the nutrition classes to learn to eat right & I started "grazing".....continuous, small amount, snacking....all evening.....on chips & rice cakes & candy & such.....so, my weight started creeping back up & I didn't realize how bad I had gotten until I was 200#.....and by then it is hard to stop, hence, now I am 224#!!!! BUT, I am back on track & this time when it is gone.....it STAYS gone!!!! I don't care what ANYONE else says!!!! Just know that we are here for you!!!! Here is to a GREAT year in 2010....."NOW is When in 2010"!!!!!!!!
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NEEDSHELP4EVER 1/2/2010 3:36AM

    Kathy, welcome back, I hope you will pop in more often we miss you.
I don't do all the games etc on FB or I would get nothing else done so I just pop in there to check up on folk who aren't here
Wishing you a healthier and happy new year
hugs
sue

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TEDDYBEARGIRL 1/2/2010 3:06AM

    well 2010 will be the year we both start over and I know we can do it!

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JANEXA 1/2/2010 12:58AM

    Hi, Kathy. As you know the turlle wins the race, and in my mind it does not matter how often or how long it takes to run the race and finish where you want to be. I love the idea of progressing slowly like the turtle, and I wholeheartedly support you no matter what. Be kind to yourself, and keep up the great work! You have a lot of friends to help you on your way, and if you have to ask for directions or help, your friends and I are here to nudge you where you want to be going. Hugs, Janet (Janexa)

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CAREWREN 1/1/2010 9:09PM

    Isn't it great that you have created more support for yourself, know some of what you need to do, and have a new feeling and desire to do what you need to do? I support you and wish you much success in 2010. I raise my glass to water in a toast to you!

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DEBBIEANNE1124 1/1/2010 8:53PM

    Well what a surprise. You will always ahve me as a friend. I'm here for you. I didn't know you ahd it so tough and needed surgery. what would they do in the surgery? is this heart surgery?

How is Art? tell him I say hello.

Muss you bunches!
Deb

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DEBBIEANNE1124 1/1/2010 8:53PM

    Well what a surprise. You will always ahve me as a friend. I'm here for you. I didn't know you ahd it so tough and needed surgery. what would they do in the surgery? is this heart surgery?

How is Art? tell him I say hello.

Muss you bunches!
Deb

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HARPLUTE 1/1/2010 8:28PM

  Oh, Kathy, it's so good to hear from you. I've been hoping that you are all right.

I think many of us are glad to put 2009 behind us. It was a hellish year for me, but now that Vic is in remission things are really looking up.

May the New Year bring you good healthy, joy and prosperity.

Hugs,

Gai
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MONAMOM 1/1/2010 8:03PM

    It is so good to see you Kathy!! I am hoping for a much better 2010 as well!! God bless and welcome home!!

Hugs, Mona

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PATRICIA441 1/1/2010 7:48PM

  Kathy, I pray that this New Year will be one that is healthier for you and full of much joy.

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HOUK46 1/1/2010 7:03PM

    Kathy, wishing you be best for 2010. I like you enjoy Facebook, many of my high school classmates are there and it is a wonderful way of keeping in touch without having to really chat.

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CHERIRIDDELL 1/1/2010 6:50PM

    Kathy I am hoping 2010 will be a healthier year for you!Best wishes to you! love and hugs,Cheri

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POSITIVELY_EB 1/1/2010 6:43PM

    I am so glad to see you Sparking again, Kathy!

Happy New Year!

Hugs! Beverly

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TRACYZABELLE 1/1/2010 6:21PM

    Kathy,

We know 2010 will be better for us all! Happy, healthy, slimmer New year to you! Looking forward to supporting you in 2010!

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The Turtle is Still Here

Saturday, July 11, 2009

In response to all of you who are wondering where I have disappeared to...I am letting you know that I am here on a limited basis....I have been having a vacation from "Sparking"...of sorts. My doctors are trying help me figure out what my body is doing....so I've decided to "play" a little more and work with them. There are some medical procedures to have done and when those are over...I will be back consistently.

This was sent to me by a dear friend and I want to share it with you all:

DEAR GOD:

I want to thank You for what you have already done. I am not going to wait until I see results or receive rewards; I am thanking you right now.
I am not going to wait until I feel better or things look better; I am thanking you right now.
I am not going to wait until people say they are sorry or until they stop talking about me; I am thanking you right now.
I am not going to wait until the pain in my body disappears ; I am thanking you right now.
I am not going to wait until my financial situation improves; I am going to thank you right now.
I am not going to wait until the children are asleep and the house is quiet; I am going to thank you right now.
I am not going to wait until I get promoted at work or until I get the job; I am going to thank you right now.
I am not going to wait until I understand every experience in my life that has caused me pain or grief; I am thanking you right now.
I am not going to wait until the journey gets easier or the challenges are removed; I am thanking you right now. I am thanking you because I am alive. I am thanking you because I made it through the day's difficulties. I am thanking you because I have walked around the obstacles.
I am thanking you because I have the ability and the opportunity to do more and do better.
I'm thanking you because FATHER, YOU haven't given up on me.

And if He hasn't given up on me....who am I to say I'm done? So after the medical procedures are done and I have a clear answer to what to do for them...I will be back more regularly...probably about the 1st of September.

The turtle is moving slowly....but steadily and so are my friends.

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BUGLET- 10/22/2009 10:16AM

    Hi, I was just wondering how you're doing. I miss you and hope all is well with you. I've gained 20 lbs this past year despite dieting and getting discouraged and saying what's the use. My body refuses to let me lose weight anymore. I've been dieting 3 years now. The reason for the gain is times that I've not dieted trying to make my body feel like there's lots of food, but that didn't work either. I wish you well and success in whatever you do. You've been a great friend to me...

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PATIPAJ 10/2/2009 1:32AM

    Hello Kathy,
Thinking about you and hoping all is going well.
Keep the faith.
Love,
PJ

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GREYHOUNDER 7/16/2009 10:05PM

    You are missed. We will be here when you get back.

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TEDDYBEARGIRL 7/14/2009 7:31PM

    Take care of you first...sparks will still be here when you get back!

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JOEGIRL6113 7/13/2009 3:31PM

    That was great Kathy, thank you for sharing. I'm glad the DR is working with you to figure out what is going on. I do hope you will get it nailed down and get back to feeling much better. I am leaving for Texas and will be gone for a little over a week. I wish you the very best and hope you are feeling much better. Love, Rosy

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MOV4WARD 7/12/2009 4:20PM

    emoticonlet us know when you know more :)

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NEEDSHELP4EVER 7/12/2009 5:11AM

    Do what you need to Kathy, get better and we will be waiting

hugs
sue

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POSITIVELY_EB 7/12/2009 12:40AM

    AMEN!!!
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FISHPOND7 7/11/2009 10:04PM

    Kathy, we've missed you and hope that your medical procedures go well and that the results are definitive. Keep the faith. We look forward to seeing you back.
Beth

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DEBGIL 7/11/2009 9:36PM

    TURTLES UNITE!

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RASCALSMOMMA 7/11/2009 9:07PM

    From one turtle to another; just keep moving forward! hugs from Laurie emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CAREWREN 7/11/2009 8:57PM

    I know that I am not the only one to say that you must do what will support you. On behalf of those people, I thank you for all of your service at SP. One "yes" seems innocent enough and then suddenly you realize you have way too much going on.

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The Turtle Speaks

Wednesday, June 03, 2009

In the last few months....I have have gone through some trying times for me. Let me explain.
I have been on Spark since June 6 2007, so that is 2 years. During that time...
I have made many friends who have touched my heart and mind and I have
been a leader of a few teams. Many of them have been "handed" to me by others who
gave up or weren't interested in continuing to lead. I have been helping to lead the
60+ LQQKing To Lose 50+ team since about August of 2007, as it was growing quickly and our leader at the time was getting a little overwhelmed. It is a wonderful group of ladies and a few gentlemen and has a neighborly feel to it. In December of 2007, her husband died and at the same time Spark experienced a huge growth spurt, so I was left to take on the role of administering that team...trying to deal with the concern for the members about Rosy and with the influx of new members.

At the same time I was also leading the Oregon team, and a couple of other smaller teams,needless to say it was a challenging time...but we made it through. With the help of the team members and other leaders...we continued to grow and many had success with their lifestyle changes. I did not do so well...I lost about 20 pounds, but because of the severe arthritis, a pinched nerve in my back and some other challenges...I was unable to do what was necessary for me to get active.

I have tracked my food faithfully, tried to get some exercise and stayed committed to
getting the weight to go down, but this last 6 months...have been very difficult for me.
The addition of ALL Oregon Spark members to the Oregon team has been overwhelming at best,but I have had the faithful help of JADZEAMAY and some others to keep up with the new folks.

However, 3 of the 4 teams I "lead" are continuing to grow and it is almost impossible for me to do what I feel a leader should be doing. I have some great co-leaders on those teams, but some of them have also been overwhelmed with the influx and with other life challenges and are burned out, and I do understand that...believe me.
Along with the growth of teams, I personally, have grown too...the wrong way...my weight has gone back up to the starting weight and my physical issues have continued to get the best of me.

I have been going through this blog in my mind for several weeks and am attempting to say what's going on in my head...let me give you the "D" list:
Discouraged
Despairing
Disillusioned
Desperation
Defeated
Down....and the list could go on....
but I will NOT add DONE!!...because I'm not done...just sitting
back and trying to figure what will work.

On a positive note, I've learned that, no matter what happens, how bad
it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow.

I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way
he/she handles four things: a rainy day, the elderly, lost luggage,
and tangled Christmas tree lights.

I've learned that making a 'living' is not the same thing as
making a 'life..'

I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance.

I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's
mitt on both hands. You need to be able to throw something back sometimes.

I've learned that if you pursue happiness, it will elude you
But, if you focus on your family, your friends, the needs of others,
your work and doing the very best you can, happiness will find you

I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart,
I usually make the right decision.

I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one.

I've learned that every day, you should reach out and touch someone.

People love that human touch -- holding hands, a warm hug, or just
a friendly pat on the back... or a silly smile on the Spark Page
or a virtual hug....or a cute joke.

So the Turtle has spoken and prays that my friends will know that I
am here in Spirit, when I'm not here as much for a while...just need
to keep this turtle moving in the right direction.

Thanks to all my wonderful friends and their encouragement and support.
The Turtle wins the race in the end.
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  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

DEBGIL 7/11/2009 9:40PM

    Sometimes you just need to know when to say Enough is Enough and take a step back. You do no one any good if you are burned out. you need to have YOUR needs met, also. (((((HUGGLE to you))))

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1WONDERWOMAN 7/3/2009 7:39PM

    Kathy, I'm sorry that you have spent some time on the "D" list. I've been there, too! But, you're right. It is times spent in the valleys that make the times when we've reached the mountain top all the more wonderful and appreciated. Don't worry. You've been gaining wonderful perspective on life lessons. Take some time to take good care of YOU! emoticon

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JOEGIRL6113 6/10/2009 12:35PM

    My dear Kathy, what a wonderful blog and I know that I put a burden on you and I am so sorry for that. Please keep plugging away and take care of you. Step down from leading some teams if that is what you need to do. I am going to step down from the 60+ team as leader since there is no way I can keep up with it. Do know that I love you and will be praying that you can stay on track and take care of yourself. I will keep in touch. Love, Rosy

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TRACYZABELLE 6/9/2009 5:29AM

    Keep on plugging! I am here for you!

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KLEE46 6/7/2009 6:15PM

    Kathy, words are inadequate to console what you are going through. I know your wonderful spirit and caring will carry you through. I felt so happy when you asked me to join the OR leadership team and I know this world is a better place with you in it. emoticon

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FORMYDARLINGS 6/6/2009 12:32AM

    Kathy, you have been a model of inspiration and positive action for so many for soooo long. I think it is time to pay attention to what your needs are this time. I know it is hard to hand over the reins to someone else but maybe just for a short while, concentrate on whet will make you smile and what will make your pride swell and the good things that we all need to feel in life. I am proud to know you and I know you will continue with Spark in your own fashion and you will find your way,

Blessings, Gini

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JIBBIE49 6/5/2009 2:29AM

    Turtles do win!!!

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TEDDYBEARGIRL 6/4/2009 2:16PM

    It was good to hear from you!!!!!!

I know exactly how your feeling. I stopped being a leader on a team I lead too. I just do not have the time to commit to leading a team.......the only team I am still listed as a leader in on the Oregon team with you and I honestly feel like I have let you down in that team as I just was not able to keep up with that huge influx of Oregon people that suddenly flooded our small team. I too felt very overwhelmed by how many new people were there all at once.

Working full time with odd hours makes it hard to find balance for sparks and taking care of myself and many times sparks wins and I lose LOL....not weight.....but I lose my putting myself and my needs first as they end up on the back burner trying to keep up in my teams and be present and post often.

I am glad you did not include the word DONE in your list of D words!!!!!!!

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CAREWREN 6/4/2009 2:14PM

    Thank you for this wonderful and honest blog entry. I appreciate it very much. I especially appreciate your saying what you have learned. On behalf of all the members of all the teams you lead, co-lead, have assisted, etc., thank you!


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NEEDSHELP4EVER 6/4/2009 2:51AM

    One day at a time, one step at a time,keep plodding and you will win through

We are here, just shout when you need something

hugs
sue

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JANLEEW 6/3/2009 9:12PM

    As you say down is NOT out. It is always hilly, up, down, a little sideways.
You can do some exercise sitting. As I told a new friend who said " I am unable to walk 10 feet without...." so try 5 feet. She did and now can go for 100 feet.

Take my hand and we will do it together.

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MOV4WARD 6/3/2009 7:50PM

    {{{kathy}}}

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KNH771 6/3/2009 6:47PM

    You're doing fine. I always try to keep in mind the Japanese proverb: "Fall down seven times. Stand up eight." As long as you keep standing up, you will eventually reach your goals.

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PATRICIA441 6/3/2009 5:23PM

  Kathy, I know everyone really appreciates all you do. Sometimes my friend you need to step back and take care of YOU! We need you. Turtles are slow but they are sure! Tender Hugs. Pat

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CRROBE08 6/3/2009 3:58PM

  Hang in there Kathy. You are a wonderful woman, full of compassion for others. I think some times you need to say , to much is on my plate and seek god for some answers. I have not know you all that long. But I do feel that you need to give yourself some you time. Thanks for the encouragement and resources you have given to me. Hang in there my friend. emoticon

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