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Thursday, October 02, 2014

as·pire (-spr)
intr.v. as·pired, as·pir·ing, as·pires
1. To have a great ambition or ultimate goal; desire strongly.

2. To strive toward an end: aspiring to great knowledge.

3. To soar.

I was soaring for a long while. I lost a lot of weight. I was a long way from my weight goal, though. Life got complicated. A lot of things happened. I broke! I forgot how to soar. I decided to stop for a while. I learned it wasn't a good idea in my case. I gained a lot of weight back. I sit a lot and stare at the television. It is like slow death for me. I can't stop or take a break, because it means going in reverse. I have gone in reverse. I am not eating healthy most of the time. I am not exercising most of the time. I am back to bad habits that I thought I had beaten. I was sitting here thinking of a word that is the most powerful word to me right now. Aspire was the word that came to mind. So I looked it up. This word fails me right now. So I call upon all my Brothers and Sisters in Christ to please take a moment a pray for me. I pray also, LORD please here my prayer! I need you to lift me up. Help me to soar again as the eagle you describe in the Bible. I need renewal. I need YOUR strength. I pray take my hand once again and lead me to aspire to live healthy physically, spiritually, and mentally. Help me to regain that strong desire to lose weight, to eat healthy, to exercise, to take care of this body that you have given me. I ask forgiveness for failing to do all I can to take care of myself. Forgive me for losing hope and falling in despair. I know you love me LORD. I know you have been right there with me through every single thing. I just got battle weary. Renew my strength and help me to stand. I am writing down scripture you have given me to help me. I thank you LORD. I know victory is mine. Amen!

Psalms 103
Isaiah 40:31
Ephesians 6
II Chronicles 6:41
Psalms 40
Psalms 55:18
Psalms 18:35
Psalms 55:22

Thank you Father for you Word. It comforts me.

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WEGENERCS 10/29/2014 11:51PM

    Prayers sent. Always remember that you not alone in your fight to regain control.

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MJZHERE 10/23/2014 6:37PM

    Praying for you now. I, too, have been struggling but thank God for Proverbs 24:16
Though a righteous man falls seven times, he will get up... So we fall, but because of His imputed righteousness, we get back up.

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123ELAINE456 10/4/2014 6:26PM

  We have a very Awesome Loving Caring Miracle Healing God. The Lord is with you keeping a watch over you all the time. We fail Our Lord Everyday but He is right there to pick us up and carry us again. We are here for you always. Start at the beginning of your Program, Track Your Food and begin taking small steps. Start going for walks again being out in the Fresh Air and Sunshine. That will make you feel good. Then start doing little exercises and then increase them. God Blessings Always. Have a Wonderful Week. Good Thoughts, Prayers and Hugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!! Coming Your Way. Take care. May God Be With You Always. Amen.

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MARYBETH4884 10/3/2014 6:32AM

    Your prayers will be answered! Just start at the beginning again and make small changes toward better health. The Lord will be there to support your efforts and help you soar!

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KEEPITUP62 10/2/2014 10:45PM

    a fall from "grace" is merely a hiccup along the way. YOU can do anything you put your heart to honey. I am with you and praying for God to give you the strength to get your flight status back. emoticon together emoticon

Sounds as if if you are feeling some depression there and I've been there before . BUT.......this is about you and I want you to know you are not alone. At Spark People we all have slip ups from time to time but we ask God for help and strength and we turn also to our friends and family for support.

I am a friend and I will would like to help you get your spirit back. One step at a time. When you get up, don't turn the tv on. Instead go for a 10 minute walk. Ten minutes is the beginning of fitness and it will eventually turn to 20 minutes and so on. Take the baby steps you took in the beginning when you first started out until you are comfortable to get back in to a routine.

You are so worth this and I BELIEVE in you.

Susan emoticon

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Take A Breath

Friday, August 22, 2014

I hadn't done to well with my new start up plan. That doesn't mean I quit or I fail. I know it will take time to get back on the healthy living train again. My husband and I finally started doing some exercise today. We started our morning out with it. We only did 30 minutes. Baby steps is what I need right now. Working my way into my own challenge list I made. My goal is not to overwhelm myself. Now just take a breathe and concentrate. Little by little I will build myself back up with the LORD's help. I can't do it by myself. I need the strength of the LORD.

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NOLAZYBUTT110 9/12/2014 12:36AM

    Yes, One day at a time....its all G*d gives us. Hoping you made progress. Don't give up....have you tried soy lecithin r L-carnitine.... I've read the help you shed the weight faster. I'm just lucky to stay stable. Hope you are feeling better, susana

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123ELAINE456 8/23/2014 3:24AM

!!!!!!!!!!!!!TAKE CARE.

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    BEST WISHES in reaching all of your goals.

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BABY_GIRL69 8/22/2014 8:46PM

    One day at a time....

God bless,


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LACEYKYLE 8/22/2014 7:51PM

    emoticon !! 30 mins is emoticon and you and hubby are workout buddys!!

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USMAWIFE 8/22/2014 7:36PM

    take your time and you will get there

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SURVIVOR61 8/22/2014 7:19PM

    Way to go!! 10 minutes or 30 minutes you are back on track, you stepped back and saw where you needed to be and that is a the best thing you could ever do. Now just keep moving forward, my sister. Start a exercise journal and start a 10 minute streak for 7 days... Once you reach that goal you can up the minutes or extend the days. This is how you build positive habits. emoticon

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My Healthy Choices Reward System Starts Today!

Friday, August 08, 2014

I am setting up a Healthy Choices Reward System for myself. I will chart my activities and reward myself with a star for each accomplishment. Once I earn a hundred stars I will treat myself with a non food reward.
I have already set up my Nutritional Tracker and Exercise Tracker. I have printed them out and have them ready for the day. I am excited to see what I will accomplish.

My Healthy Choices Reward System

1 star for 15 minutes of Strength Training

1 star for each day I Strength Train

1 star for walking at least 30 minutes

1 star for 15 Cardio Exercise

1 star for each day I do Cardio

1 star for taking 1 day off from exercise

1 stars for drinking eight or more cups of water per day

1 stars for staying below my daily carb range

1 star for meeting my daily calorie goal emoticon

1 star for staying below my daily fats emoticon

1 star for staying below my cholesterol emoticon

2 stars for keeping my food tracker emoticon emoticon

2 stars for taking time for myself to relax or meditate

2 stars for weighing myself once a week only emoticon

2 stars for measuring myself once a month

Weekly Total:

100 stars = Non Food Reward

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NOLAZYBUTT110 9/12/2014 12:43AM

    What may help is....if you put a picture of the reward on your refrigerator.... will motivate you to not open the frig....each day you see it, it will remind you to not eat .....I. problem is...if its in the house I will eat not buying it also helps...Susana

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NOLAZYBUTT110 9/12/2014 12:41AM

    What may help is....if you put a picture of the reward on your refrigerator.... will motivate you to not open the frig....each day you see it, it will remind you to not eat .....I. problem is...if its in the house I will eat not buying it also helps...Susana

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    BEST WISHES in reaching all of your goals.

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WEGENERCS 8/8/2014 11:21AM

    Have done something like this and used a calendar to do it. Posted the calendar on the frig so I would be reminded every single time I went to open it what I was working toward. Great planning, my friend

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MARYBETH4884 8/8/2014 7:13AM

    What a fun way to encourage yourself!! emoticon emoticon

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123ELAINE456 8/8/2014 1:57AM

  Excellent Goals and System. You Can Do It. I Have Faith In You. Keep It Up. You are Doing Great on Your Journey. Keep Pushing Forward. WTG!!! God Love You. He is Beside You. God Blessings Always. Have a Great Day. Good Thoughts, Prayers and Hugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!Coming Your Way. Thinking About You. Take Care. Love You.

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Standing Up Again! Ready To Fight Again!

Thursday, August 07, 2014

I took some time away to get myself pulled together. I gave myself a break to pull myself together, get through the worst of my grief, spend time with my sweet niece, and just breath for a while. Yes, I gained more weight. I ate out a lot. I got a lot of emotional stuff out of my system. My clothes have gotten tight. My cholesterol is up. I hadn't been exercising. I have to say now I am ready to begin again. I feel much better emotionally. I feel like working on myself again. I am going to begin with baby steps again. That was how I started before. I want to start little and build on each day. I don't want to overwhelm myself. That was the problem I was going through after my sister died. Everything overwhelmed me. I didn't let myself just go emotionally and let it all out. I stuffed my mouth with food instead.

I plan on changing the things I can and pray about the things that can't be changed. I went for a 30 minute walk with my hubbie and dog, today. It was really hard on my legs, hips and back. I will start to do my therapy exercises again to strengthen my legs, hips, and back. I want to ease my way back to healthy eating and use my nutritional tracker. I did use it today. I didn't eat as healthy as I could have. I tracked after eating. I need to plan my tracker the night before, as I did before. I will know exactly what I am eating throughout the day. I have been drinking my water. I was drinking soda again. So bad for me. Hubbie has gained quite a bit of weight too and is out of shape as well. So we are going to pull our resources together and support each other. Hubbies AC1 was up last checkup. He doesn't want to give up the sweets and carbs. If I plan our meals he will be alright with it. He was before.

As for my little niece. She had a blast staying with us. She didn't want to go home. We really miss that little chatterbox. She turned 14. We celebrated her birthday with her a week early, before taking her home. She is my sister's granddaughter. My niece and I needed this healing time with each other. She is coming back next summer. We can't wait.

Sorry I was away for so long. I was struggling so bad and needed the time. I look forward to talking with everyone again.

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GRACED777 8/26/2014 11:35AM

    You have been through a lot. I think taking time out to grieve was important, as is coming back. emoticon


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BIBS4664 8/9/2014 12:35PM

    Welcome back. It is our journey. You will make it. Happy day.

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WEGENERCS 8/8/2014 11:19AM

    So good to read your message. I checked on you and worried that you might not be back. One of the hard things about having online friends. They can disappear and I feel sorrow much like death. But I also understand grieving and sadness. It takes time. Welcome back!

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LITTLEBLONDIE76 8/8/2014 12:35AM

    Glad to see you back my friend!

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USMAWIFE 8/7/2014 10:36PM

    I missed you and was hoping everything was ok

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I Am Back From Visiting Family

Thursday, June 12, 2014

We just got back from visiting our families in West Virginia. I had so much fun being with them. I got to spend time with everyone. I loved it so much. I took all the food I had cooked and frozen. Everyone enjoyed everything so much. I went ahead and ate what they ate. Even though they live in the country, there was no place to do any serious walking. I stayed on my feet as much as I could. I jumped in with more cooking, cleaning, and walking our dog. Hubbie and I visited family graves in four different graveyards. It was very tiring. I did get in a lot of walking in, that day. We picked up my niece (my sister's granddaughter) to bring her home with us. She is 13 and full of life. We talked all the way back to South Carolina. Hubbie couldn't get a word in edgewise. LOL I am pretty tired. I have unpacked and am doing laundry and more cooking. I still have to get my niece unpacked and situated. I figure my weight has gone back up again. I am hoping to get rested and start walking again.

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WEGENERCS 6/30/2014 12:38PM

    Have not heard from you in a while, so thought I would jump in and say HI!

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ALIHIKES 6/13/2014 12:25AM

    So glad you had a good visit with family! It is great to keep those connections.

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123ELAINE456 6/13/2014 12:20AM

  I'm glad that you had a Wonderful Visit with your Family. Enjoy your Niece while she is with You. Do lots of Fun Things With Her. God Blessings Always. Have a
Marvelous Day. God Blessings Always. Hugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Take Care.

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WORKOUTWITHPAM 6/12/2014 10:29PM

    I am glad that you enjoyed spending time with your family. It sounds like a very nice visit.

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