Wednesday, November 20, 2013
After a month of disappointment in myself, and a sense of futility about the whole weight loss and fitness goals I had set, I have finally had something of a breakthrough, almost a renaissance, if you will, for the past few days. I am back to tracking my fitness, being careful and mindful of calories, and feeling like I want to exercise again and have been daily.
My sense about it all..... I have a feeling of relief. As if there is lightness and light again. A Spark Friend recently told me when she goes through such a period, she feels like she has a dark cloud about her. Then when she chooses to begin movement again, she can feel the cloud begin to lift.
I think it is well stated. It is a comfort to know I can begin to feel good about my efforts again. No dark cloud surrounding me. The feeling of relief begins to build.
It is time harness the momentum and begin to appreciate the strength the momentum can have. I dont know why I lost if for a while, but i am grateful it is back. I don't quite have the 'fire in the belly' I had last summer but I can feel the embers. If any momentum is there , then I will ride it along as long as it lasts.
Movement is a good thing. For one thing it serves to short circuit the lethargy. As Dylan said....it helps us to feel that we are 'busy being born.'
May we all be busy being born today with movement.
And I am so happy to be back on my bicycle again. Soon it will be snowing here and I won't be able to ride it for a few months It was like retuning to an old friend .
Wednesday, November 13, 2013
I must admit to my sense of discouragement lately. It seems the last challenge I was in I did reasonably well and felt somewhat proud of having had some success. Now, as I write from the middle of this new challenge, well......not so good this time around. Discouragement and even some lethargy is the best way I can describe how I have felt the past 2-3 weeks. I am not doing terribly, mind you, but not exactly stellar. I am sure my next weight in there will be some gain.
I thought I was going into this challenge with such wonderful momentum. It has been more of a struggle instead, with every step requiring maximum effort. Many days ....no effort. Many days, drudgery. I have even slacked on exercise...... getting out there only 1-2 times a week instead of my usual 4-5 times. Some old habits of snacking at night have crept in and assumed control. And I have renewed my taste for microbrews / or wine at night , which results in more snacking.
There, I have let it out there. I accept my humanness and I can forgive myself but that doesn't help my blood pressure, BMI and pre-diabetes Those conditions require a little more than kicking back and acknowledging I am human.
So I need to put another plan in place. And state some simple, back to basics goals.
I have 3 i can think of right away. Didn't take long.
1. Resume daily sparking. It inspires me and as the warden in Cool Hand Luke" said......it "gets my mind right." The encouragement and positive stories one sees on the Spark pages cannot be beat.
2. Resume calorie tracking. For me, it helps in a big way to see, and experience my good choices for the day or even the folly of my ways for the day.
3. Step it up with the exercise. Doesn't matter that it is getting cold outside. I still like outside walking and I have a gym to go to. For months I was so faithful. Time to get the faith back.
More goals will be forthcoming. This is my new beginning. I suppose we have all had a few of those. What a blessing that SparkPeople continues to welcome us back.
Saturday, October 12, 2013
One thing about the SP challenges is the opportunity to keep moving forward in our lives. Resources are there, and are shared with us as we needed. Spark Friends are there for support, on line trackers, etc. It is all ther to help us through the initial worries, setbacks, side steps.
And there is one major item we bring to the table, (so to speak). That is trust in ourselves. The goals we are setting for ourselves, the public commitment, the vision for ourselves are all in place for one reason.
We trust ourselves.
We believe we can move forward with calm and ease, inspite of whatever chaos or setback we might encounter. The vision will still be there , as will the SP resources as will our Sparkfriends.
Enjoy the journey of this SP Challenge. Move forward with calm and ease. We trust ourselves to begin it. We can so all the way to the end.
Bless us all today as we start.
Thursday, October 03, 2013
Hello Spark Friends;
This is my favorite autumn meditation. I posted it last fall and several SP friends liked it. I wish to share it again. It is written by Fr. Edward Hays.
O sacred season of Autumn, be my teacher
For I wish to learn the virtue of contentment.
As I gaze upon hour full-colored beauty,
I sense all about you
An at-homeness with your amber riches.
You are the season of retirement,
Of full barns and harvested fields.
The cycle of growth has ceased,
And the busy work of giving life
Is now completed.
I sense in you no regrets:
Youíve lived a full life.
I live in a society that is ever-restless,
Always eager for more mountains to climb,
Seeking happiness through more and more possessions.
As a child of my culture,
I am seldom truly at peace with what I have.
Teach me to take stock of what I have given and received;
May I know that itís enough,
That my striving can cease
In the abundance of Godís grace.
May I know the contentment
That allows the totality of my energies
To come full flower.
May I know that like you I am rich beyond measure.
As you, O autumn, take pleasure in your great bounty,
Let me also take delight
In the abundance of the simple things in life
Which are the true source of joy.
With the golden glow of peaceful contentment
May I truly appreciate this autumn day.
May the month of October be the month of contentment and one of energy.
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