Sunday, May 04, 2014
ONEderland has always been a yo-yo thing for me, and not just by a pound or two (heck, that would be so much more sustainable if that's all it were). My body's "happy fat weight" is 220lbs. Anytime I slip up and then try to lose weight, I'm always at 220lbs. From my heaviest weight (unknown) I've always had an "easy" time losing weight, but once I hit 220lbs, my body tells me what to shove where. Because of this "easily maintained" weight for me always being a struggle, I have just deemed it my "happy fat weight". (Others call it a plateau, but I don't like to be like everyone else). It doesn't matter whether I am gaining or losing weight, my body stops at 220lbs.
Now, please don't misunderstand this... Losing weight is not easy for me. Gaining weight is. It is just easier than climbing a mountain or competing in a triathlon with no training. I look at losing weight and getting healthy as a way of life rather than a chore. Looking at it this way puts everything in a different perspective. It makes accepting stumbles and speed bumps much easier and staying on course just becomes second nature.
Anyways... January 1st marked the beginning of a new year for me and I decided that everything I couldn't do in the past, I can do now. I decided that all the goals I ever had in life before, I was going to make a reality this year. I made my list of goals and one of my top priorities was to fight MMA. The octagon has been calling me forever and I WILL get there. I scoped out all the gyms in my work area and finally made a decision on which one to join. I began training Brazilian Jiu Jitsu and eventually moved down to my work area so that I could focus more on it.
Loving HOW you reach your goals is just as important as reaching your goals. I can officially say that I love every single minute that I am at my MMA academy and every minute that I am not there; I'm wishing I were.
Ok, so now, the drumroll..... what you've all been waiting for!!
My 2014 Update!!!
Sunday, June 09, 2013
I've been overweight for ages, and for as long as I can remember I've been trying to figure out what it is that kept me gaining and losing constantly. The simple answer is that I was overeating and under-exercising, but I could never really pin point it exactly. I came up with excuse after excuse and convinced myself that they were acceptable reasons.
I'm starting to wonder how much of my weight issues are based on my dependence on others and my routine. I've gone from living with family, to living with roommates, living with my significant other, but never on my own. Even during my divorce, I am back living with family. As soon as I moved back, immediately everyone was calling me wanting to get a place with me. As much as I want to save money by having a roommate, I am thinking I need to move out on my own. With no one to have to worry about but myself.
I've been offered a job with another company and I am just waiting on final approval. As long as everything pans out as planned, I will be based out of Massachusetts. The commute is going to be an hour and a half on a good day... add in winter or any kind of traffic, forget it. This new opportunity is exceptionally promising for me, but the commute is going to get old after a while.
I'm thinking about moving closer to where my home terminal is, and I believe this could be perfect timing. Perfect timing to finally be on my own and change my routine.
I know that living on my own (actually on my OWN) isn't going to make me lose weight, but maybe gaining my independence and hopefully myself back through the process, will be enough to keep me in weight loss gear and will enable me to keep the weight off.
Sunday, June 02, 2013
I'm told that honesty is the best policy, so here it is:
I've been slacking hardcore for the past two years. Actually, slacking doesn't even begin to describe what I've been doing. I've been self sabotaging myself and allowing all of my faults to take the foreground. I've had multiple small lapses of motivation; the kind that I think of in my head but never do anything about. You know those moments when you pump yourself up mentally and are all gun-ho about "doing it this time" while you look down to see that you just devoured an entire container of icecream.
I have plenty of reasons why I need to lose weight and get fit. I am certainly not lacking there. I want to wear a little black dress to my court date that finalizes my divorce, I want to wear a tiny little club outfit out dancing, I want to run a 10K, I want to feel comfortable in a bikini, and health. Can't forget about health reasons!
So now, faced with an ultimate reason to look stunning- my most favorite driving force of motivation. To make someone else jealous. Now, before you go judging me (judge me all you want after you understand me... you at least need a basis for your judgement). I am going through a divorce and there would be no better satisfaction than showing up smoking hot to the next function that I see my ex and his new set of boobs at. The new... I have no words to describe her- is a relative of mine... so I know I will be seeing my ex again. Gah!
The next time that I am going to be seeing family and relatives is on July 4th... and since I work the best when there is competition, I made a bet with a friend for $100. Who ever loses the most (percentage) weight and inches, wins the money from the other person.
On June 4th, I am taking all new "starting" photos and measurements.
I am an easily obsessed person who gets stuck on things quickly. My current addiction is rewatching all of the episodes of Nip/Tuck. In one of the episodes, Julia Macnamara makes the comment on how, "nutrition is the new plastic surgery." This got me thinking back to wanting to try clean eating...so here is my plan!!
I am going to track my nutrition daily and stay on track
I am going to exercise daily and stay on track
I am going to walk a minimum of 10,000 steps a day
I am going to WIN $100!! no.. scratch that- EARN $100!!
Thursday, January 31, 2013
Goals are something that I do well with... especially when written out and made public. Since this is very true of myself, I have decided to pledge to myself three things everyday. Years of attempting to lose the weight, I would "challenge" myself to do something. The problem with challenges is that there is a potential of failure; but with a pledge... it is a promise, and I don't break promises.
I, BikerBabyz, pledge to everyday...
1. Log ALL nutrition
2. A combination totalling 100 of: crunches, jumping jacks, burpees, pushups
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