Sunday, June 09, 2013
I've been overweight for ages, and for as long as I can remember I've been trying to figure out what it is that kept me gaining and losing constantly. The simple answer is that I was overeating and under-exercising, but I could never really pin point it exactly. I came up with excuse after excuse and convinced myself that they were acceptable reasons.
I'm starting to wonder how much of my weight issues are based on my dependence on others and my routine. I've gone from living with family, to living with roommates, living with my significant other, but never on my own. Even during my divorce, I am back living with family. As soon as I moved back, immediately everyone was calling me wanting to get a place with me. As much as I want to save money by having a roommate, I am thinking I need to move out on my own. With no one to have to worry about but myself.
I've been offered a job with another company and I am just waiting on final approval. As long as everything pans out as planned, I will be based out of Massachusetts. The commute is going to be an hour and a half on a good day... add in winter or any kind of traffic, forget it. This new opportunity is exceptionally promising for me, but the commute is going to get old after a while.
I'm thinking about moving closer to where my home terminal is, and I believe this could be perfect timing. Perfect timing to finally be on my own and change my routine.
I know that living on my own (actually on my OWN) isn't going to make me lose weight, but maybe gaining my independence and hopefully myself back through the process, will be enough to keep me in weight loss gear and will enable me to keep the weight off.
Sunday, June 02, 2013
I'm told that honesty is the best policy, so here it is:
I've been slacking hardcore for the past two years. Actually, slacking doesn't even begin to describe what I've been doing. I've been self sabotaging myself and allowing all of my faults to take the foreground. I've had multiple small lapses of motivation; the kind that I think of in my head but never do anything about. You know those moments when you pump yourself up mentally and are all gun-ho about "doing it this time" while you look down to see that you just devoured an entire container of icecream.
I have plenty of reasons why I need to lose weight and get fit. I am certainly not lacking there. I want to wear a little black dress to my court date that finalizes my divorce, I want to wear a tiny little club outfit out dancing, I want to run a 10K, I want to feel comfortable in a bikini, and health. Can't forget about health reasons!
So now, faced with an ultimate reason to look stunning- my most favorite driving force of motivation. To make someone else jealous. Now, before you go judging me (judge me all you want after you understand me... you at least need a basis for your judgement). I am going through a divorce and there would be no better satisfaction than showing up smoking hot to the next function that I see my ex and his new set of boobs at. The new... I have no words to describe her- is a relative of mine... so I know I will be seeing my ex again. Gah!
The next time that I am going to be seeing family and relatives is on July 4th... and since I work the best when there is competition, I made a bet with a friend for $100. Who ever loses the most (percentage) weight and inches, wins the money from the other person.
On June 4th, I am taking all new "starting" photos and measurements.
I am an easily obsessed person who gets stuck on things quickly. My current addiction is rewatching all of the episodes of Nip/Tuck. In one of the episodes, Julia Macnamara makes the comment on how, "nutrition is the new plastic surgery." This got me thinking back to wanting to try clean eating...so here is my plan!!
I am going to track my nutrition daily and stay on track
I am going to exercise daily and stay on track
I am going to walk a minimum of 10,000 steps a day
I am going to WIN $100!! no.. scratch that- EARN $100!!
Thursday, January 31, 2013
Goals are something that I do well with... especially when written out and made public. Since this is very true of myself, I have decided to pledge to myself three things everyday. Years of attempting to lose the weight, I would "challenge" myself to do something. The problem with challenges is that there is a potential of failure; but with a pledge... it is a promise, and I don't break promises.
I, BikerBabyz, pledge to everyday...
1. Log ALL nutrition
2. A combination totalling 100 of: crunches, jumping jacks, burpees, pushups
Thursday, March 08, 2012
Between stress and being sick, nothing tastes right to me. Nothing is appealing and to me, there isn't much worse than eating something with no taste at all. I know I need to eat, so I do, but UGH! I just don't want to eat not being able to taste anything!
I gave up soda Mon-Sat, but since I can't taste anything, my soda give up is on halt. The bubbles feel good on my throat so I've been drinking a lot of ginerale and colas as well as water.
I tried to bribe my taste buds with delicious chinese and pizza, but nope. My buds weren't having it. I guess it makes eating healthy easier since there's no point in spending calories on calorie laden yumminess that I can't taste!
On to another note...
My husband's great-grammie passed away this week and we have her services tonight and tomorrow. I know these days are going to be a challenge for me as I am an emotional eater (I eat for and with EVERY emotion) and I am also a social eater. If you put me in a social environment with food, and then *gasp* throw in any kind of emotion... I am ALL over the food. Devoured!
I am hoping that my tastebuds acting oh so mean, that it will actually help me eat less and not go over my calorie ranges. I guess there really is a silver lining to everything...although I do wonder, why silver? Why not gold? Or platinum?
Wednesday, March 07, 2012
Dear My Core,
I used to treat you really well, and you always gave me great results back. I would make sure you got worked out through many crunches, planks, pushups, burpees, and in return, you gave me definition between my gut/stomach and boobs. You gave me so much definition that I had posted a blog titled, "I HAVE BOOBS!!". What a great feeling it was having a flatter stomach... having a gut that didn't stick out further than my boobs.
I've neglected you this past year, and for that, I am sorry. None of my clothes fit anymore. Shirts, pants, skirts, coats, all of it... too tight around you, my core. I took a good long hard look in the mirror at myself today (and not because I forgot to put my glasses on and couldn't see you) and realized I have let myself go completely. My stomach sticks out way further than my boobs, and that is even with sucking it in.
Between my boobs, butt, and belly.... I look ridiculous! I am so ashamed of how much I have neglected you. When I tried to work you out last night, you yelped at me. I had trouble even pounding out one solid set of crunches. Burpees? Ya right.... YELP!
You have made your point, loud and clear.
If I don't exercise you, you make me look horribly fat. When I treat you right, you make me look dynomite!
I promise from this day forward to pay more attention to you everyday. I promise to treat you right and exercise you all the time. I promise to only put good healthy foods within you and workout. I have signed up for the 100 crunch a day challenge, and we will succeed!!
I'm coming back for your trust!
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