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The Mask (poem by me when i was 9)

Thursday, January 22, 2009

The Mask
Often times I sit alone and
I wonder why....others seem
so much better than I.

And often times I sit alone
and I start to cry... Why do
they have it so good when they
don't even try?

I wake up in the morning
and off to school I go... and
even though I seem so bright,
inside I do not glow.

I put it on every day, and even
though it does not show...this mask
I wear covers me from head to toe.

To show and lern the real me seems
to be a task... A task I can not
finnish untill off comes the mask.
Tasha Nichole Sirokman

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CBSPECIAL 1/22/2009 8:25AM

    9! wow!

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Inactive Leader.............

Friday, January 16, 2009

I have been inactive for a little bit, and here is why..........
Well I was doing realy good on my diet and exercise plan, and had already lost 15 pounds in 3 weeks. I was planning on takeing the recent holidays in moderation, as far as the food goes anyway..... but then it happened......... The day before Thanksgiving Day, my dad passed away...
this man was realy my pastor, and my cousin by marriage, but he was more like a dad to me than anything else, and the closest thing to a real father I ever had. A few days before he passed away, he told me that it felt like I was his daughter, and that realy ment alot to me.
Needless to say I got back into my confort foods habbit again and gained it all back in about the same time it took to loose it. Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years, and pretty much everyday inbetween and after......I stuffed myself with Pepsi, Candy, cakes, Chips, Burgers, Fries, and anything else you can think of that will make you gain 5 pounds for just looking at it.
Now that I have reolised what I was doing I have stopped it.... I hope......I will not let myself spiral back down the same road I started on. I have already gained weight back to my starting weight, but thats will be the end of it, I refuse to get to the suicidal point that I was in when I started. I will not let my weight discurrage or depress me any longer!!!
Now I am back on track and hopefully I will not be inactive any more.

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CBSPECIAL 1/18/2009 10:20AM

    Sorry about your loss, it can derail us, glad you are back in the game!

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DHEJNAL 1/17/2009 2:04PM

    glad your back... our prayers go with you on your loss of a loved one. your not the only one here at SP that has loss there ways during the holidays. my only excuse is i don't run on ice over here in germany and treadmills our so boring.

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Friday, January 09, 2009

OK Here is my plan... on my birthday, July 22, 2009... I am going to have a "Bikini Beach Party Luau" and I'm GOING to weir a bikini.... fat or not.... So THIS is my inspiration now.... because I'm either going to loose 50 pounds and look hot and confident on my birthday, or.... I'm going to look like a beached whale and be extremely embarrasses on my Birthday and there will be a few unhappy guests that will have to see a FAT CHICK IN A BIKINI!

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ISABELLES_MOMMY 1/21/2009 12:20PM

    U can do it, keep motivated and when is your b-day, I'd like to join u on this goal

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CBSPECIAL 1/9/2009 2:51PM

    You can do it!

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