Tuesday, May 18, 2010
And my will power has been SORELY tested.
I planned my meals for Monday and today. Yesterday, I ate exactly what I'd planned. At least, I did at breakfast, lunch and my at-work snacks.
Then I got to the bus terminus on the way home and had almost an hour to kill. Yes, I ended up in the food court. And yes, this morning the scale said I'd gained again. Grrr. Silly Wii Fit. :)
No, that's okay.
The good news is that it reminded me to be a little more careful today. I had pretty much the same menu planned, but realised that I needed to pay more attention to actual hunger, especially once lunch was done ... that is when I get the major nibblies - if I don't munch a healthy-ish snack or two, then I'm ravenous by 6 and will pretty much eat everything in sight.
So today I took along two of the Nature Valley bars instead of one. And, fortunately, work was busy enough that I just filled up on those instead of going hunting in the communal food-prep area - we always have fruit available, but because I'm not overly fond of apples and bananas, I usually wind up eyeing the dozens of varieties of sliced bread and bagels ... not today.
And on the way home, I lucked out again, got to the bus terminus with just about 3 minutes to the next bus, so I got on that and headed home. And had a light dinner and drank another couple of glasses of water, and I'm done! I feel pleasantly satisfied, I know I did something healthy with my eating today, and, as usual, I got in my 3 miles+ of walking today.
Baaaaaaby steps. They add up, I remember. :)
Sunday, May 16, 2010
A few weeks ago, I tried the idea of a pre-reward - got myself some flowers on Monday and used them as the reminder of why I didn't want to overeat each day that week. It worked that week and the next. The week after, not so much ... I take things for granted too easily.
Well, last week, I ate a LOT. But at least I balanced it out with walking ... something worked, and I didn't gain anything despite the eating.
So this week, I am tweaking the pre-reward plan. Instead of flowers, I went and splurged on a swimsuit. Needed one anyway, and this is a great time to be swimming, with Toronto being so hot and muggy already! :)
So, I have a swimsuit.
Plan for this week? Take lunch from home every day. Swim 2 days this week, lift weights 3 days and walk at least 2 miles on all the weekdays. Bonus: I've already walked 4 miles today ... I wound up at work to fix a bug, and it was a gorgeous day when I finished, so I wandered around downtown in a blissful daze ...
Have swimsuit. Will lose a pound. Okay?
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Okay, days can't be fat. I get that.
But sometimes I get the feeling that it's the fault of the day. :)
Truly, the reality is that I make myself fat with the choices I make.
Yesterday, for example, I ate healthy food all day. DID NOT eat chocolate or chips or even a granola bar (chocolate and chips are my all time favourite indulences). DID NOT stop for sushi on the way home, instead, I went and scoped out swimsuits. Got home, decided to go out and buy some fish for dinner.
Got to the store. Got the fish. Got tempted by (and gave in to) the smoked sausages as well as a bag of chips. Walked home. DUH! The door was locked! Everyone was out for a walk. This was 9 p.m. I was starved. So what do I do? Do I dig out the tortillas or the strawberries while I wait in the yard? No. I break open the bag of CHIPS! :) And ate about half that bag while waiting half an hour till my brother and the kids got home.
So, could I have made a better choice? Sure. I could have a) eaten the strawberries. b) read my book and relaxed and NOT eaten anything. c) Cooked and eaten the fish when they did come home instead of saying "ah - screw it!" and cooking up a yummy sausage and a scrambled egg with lots of onions. :)
Never mind that.
Yesterday I went and spoke to a "mortgage professional". Not one of the "BIG 5" banks in Toronto, just a regular mortgage broker. The kind of person who sees people from all across the board, not just those with the A-1 credit like the big banks deal with.
Had a nice, long talk, and got some great ideas for planning for the future - I really, really, REALLY want to buy myself a condo, and I've made some great strides in that direction since the start of this job. I could go out right now and put a bit of a payment on one of those "just being built" condos that will take a year or more to get to delivery stage. And in the meantime, I'd be building up more savings and even better credit rating. Yay.
So that got me thinking. I've *been* saving, but it's not been my MAIN focus, and yet it's added up. Just a little here and there adds up fast.
And that's the way it is with weight, too!
Last summer, when I was on my feet and running around all day, 30 pounds just melted away without me doing very much to help. This winter, with a desk job, even with a bunch of gym workouts every week, I gained back about 20 of those pounds. Sigh. Now I sit teetering on the edge of 200 pounds again, and I'm soooo not going there.
So it's time to do the little extras. The slight cut backs. The actually asking myself "Self, are you hungry?" as opposed to the Pavlovian, drooling, "yes, yes, yessss" every time food is even mentioned. Sigh.
Okay, it's easy. As in not complicated.
But it's going to take some mental game playing and visualization. I can already "see" my cute little condo ... all glass walls, gorgeous hardwood floors, granite countertops ... and I even know the furniture that's going in there. Now all I have to do is to insert MYSELF into those visions - something I've NOT been doing. :) But now that I think of it, I can SO totally see me eating my mango-papaya-lime breakfast fruit salad at the built-in bar in the kitchen. And there I am, just sitting at my desk, looking absolutely luscious in red, but busily creating fabulous little applications for the iphone and the Mac. Hmmm.
I can see my friends visiting, oohing and aahing over the views and the fun little fruit-and-veg-and-chocolate-and-paintings party I'm throwing, drinking wine from those little plastic throwaway stemware things (you think AAAAI am going to wash dishes when we're done????) ... I can see the music system in the corner, belting out salsa as we sit around chatting ... and soon no one can resist and the room is a whirl of colour as we get to our feet and start moving to the rhythms. And of course, I've been smart - my neighbours on both sides and below me are AT the party! :)
It's fun, it's colourful, it's ALIVE.
Oh, you noticed that was SAND? Yeah, well, it's a pretty fluid visualization ... who says there's no beach involved? :)
But anyway, THIS is what I need to do. I need to make this real in my head so it becomes more real in my life.
See ya, kiddies, I'm off to figure out how to bring more salsa into my life ... and more warm sand and ocean ... :)
Saturday, May 01, 2010
Yes, you read that right.
Not just May Day.
(Today is May Day. Labour Day to most of the world outside North America.)
But on one of my teams, I declared today to be MY day.
May day. My Day. Maya Day.
Say it out loud. You'll see (hear) the pattern. :)
I took the day and made it mine.
Woke up a little later than normal at 5:30. Got myself a fabulous early start by putting on Jillian Michaels' Burn Fat Boost Metabolism DVD and working out to that. It's an awesome workout, no equipment required, and you ALWAYS wind up sweating your pretty little behind off - you work at whatever pace seems HARD to YOU!
By 7:30, I was showered, had my hair all frilly and fun (shampoo followed by a gel+shine-goop always helps make the hair FUN), and was ready to go. Breakfast was light, because I suspected (well, knew!) that lunch was going to be rather large. Coaxed the nephew into eating his brekkie and getting showered and dressed too, then got us a ride to the subway.
And that was the beginning of a FUN day!
We headed downtown to the Art Gallery of Ontario, where the King Tut exhibit closes tomorrow (it's been on since NOVEMBER, and I'm only now making it a priority - tut, tut!)
So, my nephew, I, and a few gazillion other procrastinators lined up.
Fortunately, I'd had the presence of mind to rent us both those audio guides - really made all the difference in getting the most out of the exhibit. Even the little guy, rather than being bored out of his skull (he's only EIGHT!) was happily browsing, reading the plaques, looking at the exhibits and really enjoying his personal guide. Whoever came up with the idea (yes, it is obvious, and yet, not all that common!) deserves kudos.
The exhibit was fun. Not just because of all the fabulous sights, but also for the people watching. An art gallery showing an exhibit of ancient Egyptian tombs is not everyone's cup of tea. But it was obvious that most of us were there because we LOVE this sort of thing. There were whole families enjoying the exhibition, there was one young couple with a tiny infant, lots of couples in the hand-holding stage, several beautifully dressed older people relishing the outing ... it was just GREAT.
The exhibits? Well, you've probably seen pictures in magazines or those coffee table books. Absolutely breath-taking jewelry, massive statues ... really, not something I can do justice to, in words. But awesome.
I was a little sad that the actual sarcophagus and the golden mask aren't part of this touring exhibition, but hey, I guess they do belong at home in Egypt!
Ah, sooo much to see. We walked a lot. Well, not in terms of distance, I guess, but we were on our feet. Fortunately, the gallery has seats in every room, so the little guy sat a lot more often, but I, too, took advantage to just sit and listen to the audio guide a couple of times. There were, as you may have guessed, a LOT of people there, so it was a good thing we went early - by the time we left, it must have been crazy at the entrance.
After a good three hours of gazing at ancient artifacts, we finally had our fill, and, of course, you exit the exhibition right into the gift store. And of course I bought some souvenirs - a post-card to send to my parents (the nephew liked that idea), a whole book of postcards we can use as a visual memoir of our visit, a little guide book by one of the Egyptian archaeologists who worked on the site, and, just for fun, some removable tattoos (10 for a buck was too good a deal to pass up!) and a holographic mousepad. AND they gave us a poster of the golden mask ... yay! :)
By this time, we were both hungry, but the nephew decided he really, really wanted to watch the 3D movie before lunch, so we did that - 4 minutes before the show started - we had to run. :) It was a nicely done movie, describing how they discovered the tomb of Ramses the Great. Very interesting stuff, and the little guy enjoyed it, too.
THEN we went out for sushi. Yum. Nuff said - I ate a fair bit. I think dinner will be light - just some fruit.
Amazingly, the nephew wanted to head BACK to the gallery to look at some of the other stuff. So we did. And I wound up belatedly buying a family membership. Ah, well, I did get a discount because we'd bought exhibit tickets today (in hindsight, I realised we could have seen the exhibition for free if I'd got the membership FIRST! - grrr! But that's okay).
We walked around a bit more, but the little guy rapidly lost interest in looking at paintings. I guess he's going to be a bit of a history buff - it'll be fun watching him grow.
After all that excitement, it was a bit of an anti-climax to go home, but hey, that's what we did.
All in all, what a fabulous day. And it's not even DONE yet! :)
I think EVERY day should be MAYA day. :)
Hope YOUR day was fabulous, too!
Thursday, April 29, 2010
My aim this week was to buy a bunch of gorgeous flowers to keep at my desk as a visual reminder of why I'm SO special (*giggle*) and worth not giving in to boredom-eating.
Well, the flowers worked. Sort of. They're on my desk at work (I'm home today) and so far have kept me from gobbling every thing in sight on Monday and Tuesday.
Yesterday, though? Sigh.
I tried to resist, truly I did.
I ate a sensible first breakfast (about 6 am) of a boiled egg with two slices of multi-grain toast and an ounce of cheese.
Worked out out hard (arms day), walked part-way to work (needed to get to a meeting). Second breakfast (or morning snack to the smart people here) was plain oatmeal with brown sugar and a banana - yum.
Lunch was home-made: turkey soboro with lots of veggies and a small amount of instant noodles.
The problem with all this eating was that when I was done, I was still HUNGRY. I think my metabolism is in high gear again, is the only explanation I have.
As I said, I looked at the roses and asiatic lilies and tried to remember WHY I was resisting temptation. Seriously tried.
Decided, 40 minutes after lunch that yes, I *was* still hungry. So I ate my stash of 20 peanuts. That was good.
Sadly an hour and a bit later, I was getting the munchies again. Resisted. A bit. Then ate my planned snack of an egg on toast.
My next-desk colleague reaches over with an offer of sesame snaps. I smile, say "I shouldn't", but accept anyway, and yes, in two minutes, those sesame snaps were history.
I managed to last until about 5:00, then gave in and had another handful of peanuts. Nice appetizer.
Got to the subway and hit the mall with about an hour to kill. Decided to go shopping for jeans instead of hitting the food court like I really, really wanted to do.
That was an eye-opener.
It feels like, while other clothing manufacturers have made their trousers more accommodating to fit the expanding population, jean-makers haven't. I was at GAP, trying on their styles ... couldn't find a single style in which the size 14 would fit (in regular pants, size 14s are slightly loose on me!).
Tried on a couple of pairs of size 16s that DID fit, but not nicely. The thing is, I am a true hour-glass - large butt and boobs, narrow waist - which means I need something where the butt is wider than the waistband. These jeans all seemed to be cut with the waistband the same width or wider than the bottom. HUH? Is that the average shape now? Grrrrr! If I sit down in pants like those, they'd be gaping wider than an alligator's maw!
So I left the store saddened that I only fit a size 16 in jeans, but happy that I hadn't felt compelled to buy, given that the cut was truly atrocious.
Sadly, this reminded me that I was hungry, instead of reminding me that I needed to at least get down to a 14 in jeans! :)
I made the best choice I could (I thought), getting the small sushi meal (just six pieces of salmon-avocado-over-rice rolls). Then, on the way to catch the bus, I met a Tim Horton's store with NO LINEUP! So down went a doughnut (plain, with chocolate icing, if you MUST know).
Bus home. Walked the 10 minutes from the stop to the house. Decided I was STILL hungry. Ate my planned dinner of a boiled egg and cheese on toast. Still hungry, so I ate a dosa (Indian style rice-and-lentil crepe).
Gross calories for the day ... approximately 2650. That's about 400 more than my SP-recommended range. But it was (mostly) healthier calories than I'd been taking in over the past month.
And today? I'm paying for either the sushi or the dosa (upset tummy), but my weight is actually down a pound.
So, go figure.
The flowers, I think, did serve the purpose. They kept me AT my desk rather than back and forth to the kitchen as I normally do. And I feel thoroughly pampered every time I look at those roses and lilies. They do deter the mindless eating, but when I'm hungry, I am quite capable of ignoring them and eating anyway.
Will I buy flowers again? I will. I think I'm going to do this every Monday so that I have the visual reminder and the experience of actually physically spending that money does deter me from handing over an equal amount for a mindless take-away lunch or sit-down lunch on work days.
And the bonus is that I truly feel loved and cherished and pampered when I look at those flowers. Bonus: all my colleagues make it a point to stop by just to admire the flowers ... you can tell they're all thinking "She's crazy - who buys flowers for HERSELF?" And yet, a tiny bit impressed that I not only would do it, I'd openly admit that I care enough about myself to buy me flowers.
Besides, flowers make me happy. And anything that brings joy, however fleeting, into my life is always going to be welcomed!
So, BRING ON THE FLOWERS - it's going to be one sweet-smelling year! :)
[By the way, I just *know* someone is going to tell me about eggs and cholesterol. So let me just say, no issues here. Plus, FYI, the current research says that cholesterol problems are caused by overproduction of cholesterol by our own bodies, not by dietary cholesterol - i.e., NOT from the food we eat or do not eat. There *are* vegetarians with cholesterol issues!]
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