Tuesday, October 09, 2012
Hello, friends! I'm feeling slightly better about things than I was yesterday. Had a decent day food wise..could have been better, but it could have been much worse! Started off the day right with Oatmeal, bananas, peanut butter, and black coffee, so I'm good and full, and energized! Sorry to be a Gloomy Gus, Buzz Killington, or any other cutesy nicknames to describe being a scrooge yesterday! Trying to remind myself that the bad days are going to happen, and I just have to remember that it will get better. I've done this before, and I can do it again!
Monday, October 08, 2012
I have to be honest with myself...the past few weeks have been horrible (as far as my healthy lifestyle is concerned). I have gone back to old habits...eating massive amounts of sugar, eating fast food, not keeping up with my food journal, not exercising like I should, and making SO many excuses for myself. I'm too afraid to even step on a scale at this point. I'm not going to lie, at this point, I'm feeling pretty crappy about myself and my behavior related to my health issues lately.
Honestly, I'm starting to get to a point where I just don't care anymore, which scares me. For the past 4 years of my life, my health has been my main focus, and I've had SO many ups and downs. It's absolutely exhausting to have to think about every morsel of food that goes into your mouth, which is what I feel like I have to do to be successful.
However, all of that being said, I know that I HAVE to do this. I refuse to go back to being the "fat" girl who relies on food for comfort and happiness. I found myself actually saying out loud last week that I think I was happier when I was at my heaviest, because I didn't have to worry so much about all of this. But I know that's not true. I was MISERABLE then, and I do not want to go back to that. I'm not going to lie though, I'm not feeling very motivated, but I know what I need to do...I'm hoping that the motivation will return soon so I can get back on track!
Thursday, September 20, 2012
Hooray! I made it through my detox without dying...or killing anyone else! I decided that in order to keep my motivation going for the days following the detox, I need to remember my accomplishments this week. If I can do it on the detox, I can do it off the detox!
1. I resisted eating a very yummy looking chocolate cheese cake that one of my coworkers brought in for a pot luck on Monday. And believe me, I was REALLY agitated that I couldn't have a piece when my co-workers were talking about how good it was. That took A LOT of will power.
2. At the aforementioned potluck, I managed to only eat detox friendly food...chicken and veggies...while everyone else was eating tacos, fajitas, sour cream, chips, queso...again, really frustrating, but I lived!
3. I cooked at least once EVERY DAY of the detox. Those of you that know me, know that I don't cook, so this was a challenge, but a fun one!
4. I didn't snack on the abundance of candy that is usually making it's way through our office.
5. I managed to get a little bit of exercise each day, no matter how tired I was.
There are a billion more things I could write down, but these are what I consider to be my major accomplishments of the week. Again, if I can do this during my detox, what is stopping me from doing it on a consistent basis? Absolutely nothing!
Wednesday, September 19, 2012
Hello everyone! So, I only have 2 days left of my detox, and I'm feeling great! I've lost about 5 lbs already, and I've had a ton of energy. If things continue to go this well in the next couple of days, I would say this was a success!
Now, that is all fine and dandy, but the real challenge is going to be 3 days from now, when I'm off the detox. For some reason, it is much easier for me to stick to the detox than it is a normal, healthy eating routine. As my trainer said yesterday, it takes the "choice" out of it. So my goal for this week is simple...make healthy choices! Instead of stopping at Wendy's on the way home for a burger and fries, just go the extra mile (literally..it's only a mile, if that, from Wendy's to my house) and go home and make a turkey burger, with no bun, baked sweet potato fries, throw something green on there, and voila! We have a healthy alternative to all of that fat and grease...and it probably tastes just a good!
The bottom line is that this is what has hindered my weight loss in the past...I suck at making good choices when it comes to eating. It honestly should not be that hard! So here we go...bring it on world, I'm ready!
Friday, September 14, 2012
Hello friends! So, as you can see from my last blog, I have been having some issues with binging...ok, I've been having LOTS of issues with it. Anyway, I'm starting a detox today to get all of that sugar and other crap out of my system, so I can start over with a clean slate. Have no fear, it's not some sort of "fad" detox where it's all liquid...I have to be able to chew, people! It's a "natural" detox, just fruits, veggies, and lean protein, with some assistance of supplements. I'll be on it for a week, so I apologize for any moodiness that I may experience in the process! I've done this a number of times, but I don't think I've ever been as motivated as I am now. I'm ready to start over and do this for real!
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