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My feelings on the Whole30

Tuesday, September 09, 2014

Today I completed the Whole30 challenge. Day 30. Boom.

If you aren't aware, the Whole30 is set out in "It starts with Food". If you haven't checked it out, I totally recommend it.

For 30 days, I skipped:

- Sugar
- Grains
- Soy
- Alcohol
- Preservatives and Additives
- Dairy
- Legumes

and I only ate:

- Eggs
- Animal protein
- Fruit
- Veggies
- Healthy oils like coconut oil
- Nuts

Aaaaaand it went like this:

Day 1: This isn't so hard. I love eating like this. AND I LOVE EGGS!
Day 2-3: Ouch. Headache and lethargy. WHY?!
Day 4-8: Craving ALL THE CHEESE. And the cake. And the cheesecake!
Day 9-15: Cravings are gone and I feel amazing!
Day 15-20: Whatever! This aint no thing and I could do this foreeevvvveeeerr!
Day 21-28: I'm totally over eggs. No more eeggggggss!
Day 29: Am I over today? No? I swear today should be day 30. Trippy dreams make me wake up guilty for cheating, when I actually did no such thing.
Day 30: Heck yeah! I freakin' did!

I'm so glad to have this under my belt. There is something in my heart that fears that I am a failure deep down. When I do something, I assume somewhere that I am going to quit. And the more I DO, the more I can say I am not a quitter and I can do anything I set my mind to. I am proud of who I am, and I am proud that I have accomplished another challenge I committed to.

Also, I am feeling so healthy. I've lost nearly 25 pounds this month (Ummmm WHAT?!) and I can wear anything in my closet. I am back in tune with my body. I know how to be hungry. I know how I feel when I need to eat or when I need to stop eating. Avoiding all food without brakes has made me realize that I am strong and capable.

Tomorrow I start reintroduction. I'm starting with cheese because apparently, it's all I can freaking think about!


  
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EVER-HOPEFUL 9/10/2014 10:22AM

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SANDICANE 9/9/2014 6:49AM

    You lost 25 lbs in a month????!!!! WOW, this is a good advertisement for Whole 30!!!! Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, I wonder if I could do that???

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PICKIE98 9/9/2014 6:43AM

    25 pounds?? That is a WHOLE CHILD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Way to go!!

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STEPH-KNEE 9/9/2014 6:18AM

    You are fabulous! The strength that comes from completing something like that is so awesome and the weight loss rocks pretty good too! Congrats! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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ADARKARA 9/9/2014 6:05AM

    WOW! How amazing! So glad you had such a good experience on Whole 30.

And once again, welcome back!

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Trying to go clean here, too, but not quite that rigid.
Great, free online summits going on right now: the evolution of medicine summit, the cure to cancer summit, and then one about gluten free and women. If you google any of them, I'd think they should pop up, if you're interested.
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On being down but not out

Sunday, September 07, 2014

It is hard for me to make a comeback so long and with so much time and space between comebacks. It is hard for me to see my face and to read these past blogs watching myself obsess over numbers and grams.

I can still feel the gut-wrenching dread of trying so hard and just not succeeding.

I carry my mistakes with me in the form of fat deposits around my body. When those mistakes get bigger in my mind, I get bigger.

Moving to the USA was a challenge. It tested every relationship, every ideal, every cultural norm that I experienced. It was awful. I got bigger.

And then, about a month ago, I realized how close I was to my starting weight- AGAIN- the number that literally shames me- and something clicked. I realised that my size is not only making my life difficult, but will also physically REDUCE my years with my family. I am willing to give them everything- why am I unable to give them time with me? I need to give them an extra 7 years with their wife and mom.

So the next day, without any thought, I went back. I started feeling my body's ebb and flow. I recalled what hunger actually feels like when I am eating clean.

I started a Whole 30 challenge- (if you aren't familiar it's no grains, sugar, additives, alcohol, dairy, legumes or soy) and have watched my Tiger Blood return. I started hiking, doing pilates, best of all, I'm dancing in the kitchen again.

I am losing weight and I can feel the obsession with the number building. But I'm on day 29 of the 30 day challenge and I'm not supposed to weigh in until the end.

I feel like I've walked this journey and I know this road. This lends a feeling of dread (of the speedbumps), excitement (of the victory), and fear (of my own failings) that I carry.

I'm still doing all the things that I offered as excuses before: I still night parent, I nurse my toddler, I squeeze freelance work in between every activity late into the night.

But this time? They aren't excuses. They are just things that keep me busy. If I want this, I'm going to have to do it.

And, boy, do I want this.

  
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ALICIALYNNE 9/8/2014 9:40AM

    Wonderfully written blog! You can accomplish anything you set your mind to!

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LOVINSHERRY78 9/7/2014 11:45AM

    with my current pregnancy i'm right back where i started two years ago. soooo many things can keep us down and make us feel defeated but when u find that determination..everyone watch out. good luck to you and glad to hear another sparker is back in the game....awesome!!

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ADARKARA 9/7/2014 7:23AM

    I am so glad you're back!!! You've had a lot to adjust to with the move. I'm sure it was a HUGE adjustment.

You can do this!

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STEPH-KNEE 9/7/2014 6:27AM

    Super excited to hear from you! I "clean out" my Spark friends fairly regularly, but there are always that special few who hold such a place in my heart that I keep around and wait for their triumphant return! Glad to see you are back! You did it once and I have no doubt you can do it again! emoticon

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EVER-HOPEFUL 9/7/2014 4:46AM

    so glad to see you back love.it is very hard when moving to a new place and even a new land where you know noone and all is new.i am just glad you are now back on track for your and your families sake. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Day 56: It's all come back

Thursday, November 07, 2013

I am so sad to admit that all the weight I had lost since restarting my clock is back. And it brought friends.

I don't know why I cannot control my eating at the moment, but I'm trying to give myself a wee bit of grace. Afterall, I've been selling all our junk and preparing to move to a new country with only 5 suitcases. It's stressful.

Good heavens! And we're doing it with a 6 month old infant. (who just cut his first two *adorable* teeth!). We're leaving in just over 2 weeks but moving in with my inlaws in about a week or so. It's chaos 'round these parts.

It's going to be okay. I'm going to be okay. And I'm going to try to make the best choice as I can in each moment.

The good news:

1. Still managing to drink plenty of liquids. Need to work on drinking less milk/tea and more water but we're getting there.

2. Eating in all but 1 or two meals a week.

3. Eating ridiculous amounts of veggies and fruit.

4. I'm not sick yet. Hubby and baby both caught the flu, and in spite of everything, I've remained healthy.

5. I'm enjoying the few weeks of summer I get this year! It will obviously be winter in the US, and it's only just switched to summer this month, sooooo no tan for me this year!

What positives can you pull out of a crappy situation?

  
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HEALTHY-CHOICES 12/11/2013 8:40AM

  emoticon I think sometimes the non scale victories are even more important, & it sounds like you're going through a season of growth & change & embracing life ! Keep it up girlfriend ! I hope this year is filled with lots of love ,laughter, and great new memories !!!! emoticon

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JACOBSBELOVED 11/7/2013 1:58PM

    I've been thinking about you lately with your big move coming up. I was telling myself that we probably wouldn't hear from you until the move was complete and you guys settled in a little bit, so I'm so happy to have an update!

Five suitcases?! That's crazy! I get it, though. You can't move everything from one country to the next. Moving is stressful enough, let alone to another country. I give the Boops family kudos.

The eating part is so difficult, as we all know. You seem to be doing some really positive things though so keep it up! It's hard to eat healthy period, let alone with a teething baby and a huge move! Like you said, you're allowing yourself a little bit of grace, and I think that's a really good thing to do.

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ADARKARA 11/7/2013 7:54AM

    I'm not a mom either, and I'm in no rush, but I imagine it has to be so difficult to manage everything with an infant! You're going through a stressful time right now but once you're settled in your own place back in the states things will calm down and you'll be back on track!

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RAINBOWSTAR13 11/7/2013 6:40AM

    Even if the scale is not working with you at the moment, all those other good choices all add up too.

Just be patient with yourself :) You have a lot on your plate it seems. No saying you can't start taking those 2 steps forward now. I love that you can keep in perspective the positives!

Keep pushing :) You can do it!

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BABYSOX 11/7/2013 5:15AM

    Just keep taking baby steps in the right direction. With everything on your plate, you are doing well.

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STEPH-KNEE 11/7/2013 5:12AM

    I am proud of you for looking at some of the positives! I'm obviously not a mommy (wish I was lol) but the fact that you had to transition into mommy mode really says a lot. You definitely can't compare trying to lose weight now to how it was before. Before you had more time for yourself to focus on your weight loss journey... but now there are bigger and better priorities! I am not saying that you shouldn't be able to lose your weight, because you deserve it and you WILL do it because you are strong... but to be in mommy mode takes an incredible amount of your time and attention. Add on to that moving, and double that up by moving to another country, that is some serious stuff going on. I am glad you are still here and I am glad you still want this. I also love that there are some habits that are sticking iwth you, and even if you haven't fine tuned them all yet it is good to know that they are still there. emoticon

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Day 43: Progress isn't a straight line

Friday, October 25, 2013

Today's a special reminder that progress is not a straight line. It's not a math equation. It's one day forward. One day oops. Three days forward. One meal oops.

It's because life- life happens. I was derailed by a pregnancy and some bad advice that took my 3kg (6.6lbs) gain from pregnancy and escalated it to a whopping 9kgs (19.8lbs). I wouldn't trade Babyboops in for a better body, but it is what it is, and once again I am a stranger in my own body.

Here's my little graph of weightloss. The first arrow is when I became pregnant, the second when I birthed.



Of course, I weigh in kilograms so thats why I have such "small" numbers.

Le sigh.

But things are getting better. I can now button my size 16s. I get severe muffin top, but they are buttoned. And this means that I am leaving my fat clothes in South Africa, and heading to the US with nothing but the clothes that currently fit or are one/ two sizes smaller.

So, all that to say, be encouraged today. This meal matters. The next one matters. My success will not be a straight line and neither will yours.

  
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JACOBSBELOVED 10/25/2013 2:25PM

    Ah I love this blog! So exciting that you're leaving the bigger clothes behind! It's so symbolic.

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WINDSONG26 10/25/2013 9:14AM

    Love your attitude and this blog. Thank you so much for sharing :)

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ALICIALYNNE 10/25/2013 8:14AM

    Fantastic blog!

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STEPH-KNEE 10/25/2013 5:30AM

    I love everything you said here! I know you are going to continue to lose weight and get healthier and healthier for both you and BabyBoops emoticon

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Day 41: Weigh in

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

I promise to not always come on SP just to lament how fast the week goes by. But seriously? It FLIES!

It was a good week. Healthful and kind.

I tried goji berries and they are delicious. I want to put them in just about everything.

I weighed in the same as last week.

At this point, as long as I don't gain I'm better than going free for all in all this stress!

On that note, 30 days until hubby, myself and my favourite infant jump on a plane with all our belongings in a suitcase ready for a new adventure.

Man. I'm stoked.

  
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ALICIALYNNE 10/24/2013 10:54AM

    Wow, only 30 more days!

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WINDSONG26 10/24/2013 9:07AM

    The stress should ease a bit once you're all settled from the move. Good luck and be sure to keep in touch! :)

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JACOBSBELOVED 10/23/2013 5:53PM

    You're making me curious about goji berries. I don't think I've seen them in our stores here in California but I'm going to keep my eye out now. :)

I'm assuming the stress is affecting your weight loss but hopefully the stress doesn't get to you too much. I'm sure that's a lot to ask for since you're moving to a different country but we can at least hope for it right? :)

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