Saturday, January 28, 2012
About a year ago, I applied for an assistance dog to help with my disability. Well, I just found out that I report to team training February 20, and though I am excited, I'm also petrified. I have been making life a living hell for everyone the past week.
I am pasting here my note of apology:
My apologies for the way I've been acting.
This is not meant to excuse my actions (there is no excuse), but to
give you a little insight as to where I am right now.
The idea of team training makes me incredibly scared. Not only because
it means meeting and interacting with new people, which has never been
my favorite thing, but my biggest fear is...failure. Losing the money
that has been contributed on my behalf. Training will be difficult,
and if they decide I can't graduate I will have to return here, to
people who have been eagerly anticipating the dog's arrival, to
questions...if I come home without the dog, people will know I have
failed, that it's my fault.
I see the dog as my last chance at happiness. I've seen so much
unhappiness in my life-unsuccessful relationships, loss, pain. The
possibility of the dog is my last shot. And if things don't work out,
well, I'm not sure what will happen.
I will do my best to interact with everyone as little as possible over
the next month. It's safer for everyone that way.
I hope you can forgive me.
Any support or comments would be greatly appreciated. Thanks
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
I'm kinda new to the social networking thing (only had a Face Book account since July) and I need some advice. Your comments will determine how I deal with this problem.
I don't have many FB friends (less than 150) and of those, I feel comfortable passively interacting with 30 at most ("liking" and commenting on their posts and statuses, sending private messages, posting on walls etc...). I feel comfortable FB "chatting" with less than 10.
My problem is this. I made the mistake of "friending" someone who had similar interests. (I do not really know her, except through FB. ) Now she insists on "chatting" with me every time that she sees that we are on at the same time, asking personal questions, sometimes interrupting me in the middle of something important. I try to be polite, but sometimes I find myself making up excuses (ie: my phone's ringing, someone's at the door etc...) just to get her off my back. I also now quickly scan to see if she is on when I first get on FB, and if she is, I try to finish quickly so I don't have to interact with her.
Usually, I am on FB on to do something (check what others are posting, read messages, play a game etc...) not chat. I know it is possible to "unfriend" a person, but I know how that feels and I don't want to go that far. Any suggestions?
Thanks for your help.
Monday, March 21, 2011
Ok, I admit I haven't been much into "Sparking" lately and I haven't written a blog in awhile. But I could use some help.
My emotions and my weight have always gone hand in hand. I'm one of those people whose appetite fluxuates with my mood. I am actually not hungry when I am depressed. And I have been depressed a lot lately. Plus, I have had health issues recently (with my teeth) that have just made me not feel like eating. Yes, I know that's not healthy. For awhile, I was happy with the results at the scale, but now...uh-oh, the scale's getting dangerously low. Any suggestions? (Please just post suggestions, not criticism. I am depressed enough).
Monday, November 22, 2010
So, the holiday season is in full swing. I leave today for my parents' house & Thursday will be my THIRD Thanksgiving dinner. I had one the 18th, one on Saturday, and then will have my last on on Thanksgiving. But I realized that if I treat these as just what they are- Special days- watch portions and eat normally the rest of the time, plus keep up with the exercise, it's not so bad. I even lost this week!
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
I was asked to post this in the hopes of starting a discussion. I will also share my answer to the questions.
On October 22, 2010, as part of National Disability Employment Awareness Month, DiscoverAbility NJ wants to raise awareness about the employment of people with disabilities by sponsoring a Social Media Action Day to explore two key questions:1.Why haven't employment numbers improved significantly for people with disabilities in the 20 years since the passage of the ADA? 2. What can we do about it? I have a simple answer to the first question:DISCRIMINATION, which, unfortunately, is a fact of life for me and so many others with disabilities. The answer to the second question is more complicated: What can we do about it? When looking for a job, I have been taught to focus on my ABILITIES rather than my limitation. However, my physical disability is what employers see and (sometimes) what they remember.
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