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Busy is good...

Thursday, June 18, 2009

I have been so busy! I mean I really can't find enough time to do all the things I want to. I LOVE IT!! For so long I didn't feel like doing anything. I was a true slug. I sat around and did nothing all day long. Now I find reasons to get out. I go out with friends. I go window shopping.(Lord knows I have no money to actually shop) I go to several of the state parks around my home. I just can't seem to sit still. Of course I think alot of this has to do with the fact that I'm exercising more. I have so much energy!! I forgot how good it feels to raise your heart rate and break a sweat. Alabama in the summer is really a painful thing. 96 degrees today with a heat index of 105. Whew!! But I am handling it so much better this year because of the lifestyle changes I've made. I feel so blessed. Like I've been given a second chance that I don't really deserve. What a fool I was to waste so much of my precious time on worrying about food when there is so much life for me to live.

  
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TWEET62 6/19/2009 2:18PM

    Of course you deserve a second chance. I'm on at least my 5th or 6th chance and deserve every one of them - as long as I learned something from the previous chance to apply to the next lol.

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LADYINBLAQ 6/18/2009 7:28PM

    Wow, that is wonderful. I can't wait until I can get to that point.

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SUKIE40 6/18/2009 5:07PM

    I am proud of you Beth!! I unfortunately am still in the "slug" stage. I have not been feeling too good lately and believe me I have been using it as an excuse. I am glad though that you are getting out and exploring life - I strive to do that also and you give me motivation!!!

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A day in the sun...

Tuesday, June 02, 2009

Ok, so generally speaking the sun is not my friend. I am so pale I tend to reflect instead of soak it up. I really haven't tried to even get in sun in years. Well Sunday I and two of my friends headed out to a private creek to cool off on the hottest day of the year so far in Alabama. We packed a lunch, gathered up some towels, and headed out. I started not to go with them. It has been years since I even wore shorts much less a bathing suit. But I have to say my love of the water and being outdoors finally won over the thought of exposing too much skin.
We had so much fun. We put our lawn chairs in the creek and dipped our hands in its still cool water while the hot sun beat down on us. We fought dragon flys, sharp rocks and 1 pair of lost flip flops.(Sorry Brooke)I can't remember the last time I had so much fun. Just us girls talking and laughing. Maybe even gossiping a little. I never even gave one thought to my body or what it looked like. I just drank in good friends and the perfect peace of nature. I wouldn't trade it for anything. I'm so glad I didn't let my insecurity stand in my way of one of the best times I've had in years.

  
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SUKIE40 6/5/2009 11:39AM

    Good for you Beth, I am glad that you had such a wonderful time with your friends. Why should we wait to live life until we are thinner? I'm glad you are getting out of your comfort zone and enjoying yourself!

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JIBBIE49 6/5/2009 2:02AM

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THISISIT25 6/2/2009 12:45PM

    Beth,

I definitely know what you mean about reflecting the sun! I went to the beach last week and all those perfectly tanned hard bodies around me LOL I blended in with the sand (thank goodness) I haven't worn shorts in years either I have worn them three or four times over the past couple of weeks and it felt good! Way to go on getting past those insecurities and I am happy to hear you had a blast in the mean time! Have a great Week!

xoxo,

Mandy

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CINDISCRAPS 6/2/2009 12:38PM

    Beth ~
That sounds like a BLAST!!
I am so glad you went! What a great day!
It's still cold here, so i am a bit jealous, but i am very happy for you!!!
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Never give up

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Today I was thinking about all the times I've failed at weight loss. I would lose 10 pounds and gain 20 back. I would exercise religiously for weeks and miss a day. Then I felt like I had messed everything up, so I stopped exercising at all. I would mess up a low carb diet with a cookie binge and give up completely. I can't understand why I'm programmed like this. It's all or nothing. Perfection or complete failure. I was never able to forgive my mistakes no matter how small. I have spent years on the same treadmill and the scenery is getting old.
After 39 years I'm finally learning to cut myself some slack. I will never be perfect. I will always have things about myself that I'm not crazy about. If I weren't fat then I would just pick something else out to fixate on. I think I've come to a point where I'm not as afraid to be me. There are things I can pick out about myself that I actually like. I'm learning to forgive the imperfections in myself like I can in others. Slowly I am beginning to like me, and that is a first.

  
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SUKIE40 5/27/2009 2:36PM

    Not only are we changing ourselves physically but also mentally. I too am a perfectionist and I am my worst critic. That is why I love SP, I find people who go through the same things that I struggle with and it makes me feel less alone. I am glad you are recognizing some of your behaviors that have held you back Beth, I know your blogs help me realize somethings about myself too!!

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CINDISCRAPS 5/27/2009 1:02PM

    I am the SAME exact way!
It is great you are finally starting to Love yourself!
You are a WONDERFUL person!
I find myself feeling like what's the use, as the scale stopped moving on me!
I was doing good, but this week....
I tend to think the same mentality why bother i've screwed up already...
I am so happy for you!
I am doing a goal chart today, where i want to be in a month, 2 mo, 6mo and a year.
Not just weight, but other healthy lifestyle goals, i am hoping that will help my slump!
Have a GREAT week my friend!!
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JIBBIE49 5/27/2009 9:47AM

    I'm a Libra and my procrastination problem comes from that WANT to be perfect about everything, which is just TOO big an obstacle to get over.

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The other shoe....

Thursday, May 21, 2009

All my life it seems like I have been waiting for the other shoe to drop. You know things start going well and I just wait to see what's going to screw them up. No wonder I have never been able to lose weight. For so long I have concentrated on and even waited for the bad things. I have stolen my own joy by borrowing trouble that might have never come had I not been asking for it.
Now is so different. I have a joy and happiness. I'm learning to just live everyday one by one. Not to borrow good or bad things from tomorrow but to drink in life as it comes minute by minute. We will never control the things that come our way. We just have to learn to love the bad and the good and realize that all things make us who we are. I can't remember who I'm stealing this from but some very wise person once said you can never know joy if you don't first know sorrow.

  
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JIBBIE49 5/21/2009 5:04PM

    So true, Beth.
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SUKIE40 5/21/2009 3:34PM

    Thats true Beth! I think we can realize stuff like that now because we are in a happier place with ourselves. Thank you for all the support you have shown me and all your blogs have been great inspiration for me as well!

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CINDISCRAPS 5/21/2009 5:53AM

    Good for you!
What a GREAT bit of advice! Worrying can lead to so many other problems too,
i have seen first hand my Mom worry her health away.
I am glad you have seen the light!
Oh how much sweeter life can be!
Keep up the GREAT work, And thank you for reminding us all!
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Making myself happy...

Friday, May 15, 2009

For years I have tried to lose weight for different reasons. I've tried to please my doctors, my family, boyfriends, friends, employers, pretty much everyone. Well that is everyone except myself. I am learning something about myself this time around. I never liked myself well enough to really take care of me. That's why it would never last. The minute I would lose weight and people would start to notice or comment about it, I would immediately start regaining. I think the fact that they were happy because I lost weight was too much pressure. Because if I had pleased them then there was a good chance I could fail them too. The weight would always start to climb again.
Now I think I'm in a different place. I didn't start this thing to please anyone but me. If I fail I can only fail me, and I'm really tired of failing. I want to win for me. So I can feel healthy, and live longer. I am a worthy person at any size. I deserve as much love and respect now as I will when I reach my goal. I'm tired of hiding myself from the world and being ashamed. I am going to go out and embrace life now, not wait to be a certain size. Anyone who doesn't like me doesn't have to look at me.

  
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CINDISCRAPS 5/16/2009 4:35PM

    I am glad you are gonna do it for YOU!
I know to well the feeling of trying to do it for others, i think we let people
have way to much control over what we think we are worth!
You are BEAUTIFUL! Look out world!
Keep up the AWESOME work!!
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JIBBIE49 5/15/2009 12:09PM

    emoticonBeth.

Tonight on NBC is Farrah Faucet's two hour documentary on her fight with Cancer. If you know someone this would benefit watching, tell them not to miss it. She is now terminally ill, but has fought it for three years. Thank you for your support of my Nathan's Cancer battle. He went this morning for his last treatment for this Round. Then in a couple of weeks he will have the fourth and final week. emoticon emoticon

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SUKIE40 5/15/2009 11:20AM

    Way to go Beth!! That is so true "I am a worthy person at any size" I want a t-shirt that says that!! : ) I am very proud of you realizing your worth, no matter how big or small you are! We are strong, beautiful women who are getting healthier and we need to celebrate that!

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