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Terrible News!

Sunday, April 21, 2013

I am not ready to talk (much) about it but after all these months of feeling so horrible, I finally know why.

I have MS!

I have decided that I am not (currently) going to go with the traditional medical treatments as of all the nasty - awful side effects.

I am putting together my "team" of holistic health people.

This decision is subject to change down the road but for now this is what I feel is best for me.

I am still trying to come to terms with this....

I hope to get it together soon & return to my weight loss goals and my teams! For anyone (teams or individuals) I have left down I do apologize! :(

  
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SONGBIRDPAULA 6/10/2013 7:40AM

    emoticon emoticon Howdy! From the DFW area of Texas!

I have reread this blog and have been thinking about you.I hope everything is going well and I'm keeping you in my prayers.Please keep in touch with us.

Have a blessed day and wonderful journey to the new you!


"All things are possible with God!"
(the Bible)


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MISSG180 5/9/2013 11:23AM

    I have a very good friend with MS, and she leads a very full life. It's shocking news, but there is much that can be done these days.

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SUNSHINE084 5/1/2013 1:54AM

    Hugs


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PATTYKLAVER 4/29/2013 8:54AM

    My thoughts and prayers are with you.

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IAMAGEMLOVER 4/22/2013 12:12PM

    I am so sorry to read this Beth. I have a very good friend that has MS and he leads a very full life. He is a tour director and travels every weekend. He does an awful lot of walking. Do what you feel is right for you. emoticon

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TATTER3 4/21/2013 8:50PM

    Even though you have this...you also have a massive amount of support and information available on SP. Hang in there...Keep Sparkin'!!!

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MAMAOFTHEBRIDE 4/21/2013 8:09PM

   
Wishing you the very, very best.

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CAMEY13 4/21/2013 7:23PM

    It is with such a sadden heart, I have, after reading your blog. We sometimes wonder why we have to go through all this bad stuff in life and look at others who never had an operation, disease, etc. It is our cross we have to bear I suspose. like Jesus beared his cross. I hope that God will make your journey an easy one for you and bring you back to full health again.

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LADYVOLSFAN1954 4/21/2013 6:22PM

    So sorry to hear about this but now you know what's going on. I hope the holistic approach works for you. emoticon

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    emoticon emoticon Sending thoughts/prayers along with GREAT virtual emoticon

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IAM_HIS 4/21/2013 1:33PM

    I am so sorry to hear that you have MS and I am so happy that you are blogging about it.

You see, I too have MS and RA. My life has changed a lot. I especially dislike not being able to do things with my daughters. Shopping, for one, is very difficult for me and my girls love to shop. I find that I can easily fall and I tire out so quickly. Yes, the have the carts you can drive, however, I find them hard to steer and awkward to maneuver in a crowed area. And going out to eat is not always easy for me. I can easily start couching. This embarrasses my family.

Now I am focusing on what I can do and not so much on what I have had to let go. I will look for your new team...it sounds like something many of us can use.





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DR1939 4/21/2013 12:28PM

    I am so sorry about this. People with MS has a presence on the web. Be sure to look for them if you haven't done so already.

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1CRAZYDOG 4/21/2013 12:01PM

    OH my. I am so very sorry to hear about this, but you have a good approach to deal with this putting together you holistic providers to work with you.

Hugs and prayers. Your main objective has to be take care of YOU, so the rest . . . I wouldn't even worry about it right now!

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RUNNING-TURTLE 4/21/2013 11:42AM

    emoticon Hoping that the holistic approach to your MS will help a ton for you. I know it must be hard.

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Grandson & Life Update:

Saturday, February 16, 2013

I am so very sorry (again!) for not being around. My 3 yr old Grandson ended up in ICU at a special Children's Hospital! We came quite close to losing him!!! This flu is NO joke!!!!!! 2 children died that were in ICU area with him :(

I stayed at my daughters home while her & her hubby stayed at the hospital with the baby. My other 4 Grandkids got it and were quite sick as well. 1 almost ended up in hospital too.

Then I got it and laid "passed out" with 104 temps for over 5 days. No one knew how sick I was as my daughter was back home taking care of her 5 kids and was super busy and I just told her I did not feel well as I did not want to add to her worries. My hub, well you all can image how worried he was about me - NOT!

But I am finally almost back to normal. It really drained me and for days after I was so weak and tried. I am just now getting back on my real feet. But trying not to push myself too hard as the bug is still around and I sure don't want to get it again (if that is even possible). This past Weds was the 1st day all my grand kids were able to return to school for the same reason - just plum tuckered out after having it :(

Hub issues - I will think on THOSE things when I feel a bit stronger. Right now just doing all the "must do" things that were let go while I was away helping with grand kids and was sick myself.

Thank you all SO very much for prayers, posts, support!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

PS: I plan to make my rounds to the teams I am a leader at today or Sunday and try to do some damage control. I am SO SO sorry!!!!!!!

  
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IAMAGEMLOVER 3/22/2013 11:32AM

    Sorry you were so ill Beth. I have just come back to SP where I am catching up on blogs and emails. I did minimal on SP for awhile. I have gone through a very stressful period and have slipped in my sparking.

I hope everything by now is back to normal for you, whatever normal is. I don't know what normal is anymore. emoticon

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MISSG180 3/3/2013 11:04PM

    Ugh. I hope you are getting better.

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MISSCUS 2/21/2013 11:16PM

    Oh Beth, now, after leaving you a message, I read your blog update. Anyhow, I hope you get better fast. I'm a week late reading this blog. :P

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GAILRUU 2/21/2013 3:37PM

    I hope everyone is feeling fine now. I got my flu shot and no sign of flu this winter--thank goodness!

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EGRAMMY 2/18/2013 9:18PM

    emoticon Kappa Delta team admires you for all you did for family. And thanks heavens you are feeling better.

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LIBBYL1 2/17/2013 11:45PM

  you HAVE to take care of yourself and let others help you if you are going to be strong enough to help them. Get stronger every day...

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BARBARASDIET 2/16/2013 4:29PM

    GLad he is ok

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1CRAZYDOG 2/16/2013 4:03PM

    Hugs and prayers.

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LEPETITCHIHUA 2/16/2013 2:52PM

    Thank God he is ok!

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HEALTHY4ME 2/16/2013 12:50PM

    What do we say.... take care of yourself... so don't worry about your teams they will understand I am sure. Get well soon. So glad your grandson is okay. so sad for the other 2 families.


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DR1939 2/16/2013 12:06PM

    I don't think you can get a new case of the same strain, but you can relapse, so take good care of yourself. Years ago I had the Hong Kong flu and was in bed for a week, get up and did a few things and was back in bed with a relapse for another week. I was really sick and probably should have been in the hospital.

So glad your grandson is okay now.

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KATRINAKRAUT 2/16/2013 12:05PM

    Rough time. Glad everybody is on the mend.

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prayers please!!!!!!!

Tuesday, February 05, 2013

Our 3 yr old grandson is being taken to Children's Hospital via ambulance right now. He has the flu and breathing issues! Prayers please!

  
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ROSALIEESTHER 2/10/2013 7:39PM

    Hope your little guy is feeling better by now! emoticon

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NEWVINE 2/7/2013 11:07AM

   
Prayers sent your way. Stay strong

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HDHAWK 2/6/2013 8:02PM

    Poor little guy! Sending prayers!

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4_MY_LIFE 2/6/2013 3:29PM

    Prayers!

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JASI27 2/6/2013 8:05AM

    My prayers are heading your way. God bless and may everything be ok.

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PATTYKLAVER 2/6/2013 6:45AM

    Extra prayers for the little one.

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AMYC0128 2/6/2013 4:15AM

    Sending prayers!

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LYN-EDWY 2/5/2013 8:07PM

    Done.

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PEZMOM1 2/5/2013 7:14PM

    Prayers for your grandson.
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BARCLE 2/5/2013 5:55PM

    Sending best wishes

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Prayers for the doctors to get him breathing properly and heal him of the flu.
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1CRAZYDOG 2/5/2013 5:37PM

    Prayers! So sorry to hear about it.

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NGREGOR 2/5/2013 2:21PM

  Beth, I am very glad to be able to join a prayer chain for your grandson. I have been in your situation with grandchildren and know how heavy a mother/grandmother's heart can be. You are not alone and prayers are with you and your grandson.


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    Yes,praying for you now. emoticon

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CJJANISS 2/5/2013 12:30PM

    prayers being said

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I just want normal problems!

Tuesday, February 05, 2013

I wish I had normal problems! Instead of horrible back pain and other serious health issues. Instead of HUGE $$ issues. Instead of marriage issues.
Right now I am waiting on a call from my daughter to see if my 3 yr old GS has to be admitted to the hospital from this horrible flu going around that ALL of my grand-kids have had but the poor little one has the worst. :(

Yesterday while on the phone with her trying to support her MY husband is in the back ground telling me I am crazy & no wonder my ex husband beat me! Mean while I am talking to her and trying to act like everything is okay as she is super stressed out as of all her kids and herself being so sick.

I just want normal problems........ sigh
I want to be able to come here and post to my teams like a normal person. Instead when he does garbage like this it "freezes" me up inside and it's all I can do to do the things I must do to keep our world going.

I want to be free to "worry" (and pray) about my grand kids and other things in life instead of hearing his words rolling around in my mind.

It will take me days (again!) to get past this last verbal attack and be able to move forward past it.

He knows if GS has to be admitted I will need to go & stay with other GK's so my daughter can stay at hospital with the little one & that had him all worked up and acting nasty to me.

I want to be able to function & live like a normal person!

PS: prayers for the little guy appreciated.

  
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GOPINTOS 2/6/2013 6:07PM

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SCOTMAMA 2/6/2013 3:04PM

    No woman has to put up with verbal abuse! And worse, one of these days perhaps his verbal abuse will turn into physical abuse. I know there are many women out there where this "is" their "normal" lives, but it doesn't have to be like that.

There are agencies who will help you. Money is never a reason for not taking action. Regardless of your age, your financial situation or anything else -- make the right decision and think of yourself for a change.

If your daughter is a member of a church, she may also find that some of the women from her church would be willing to help her out.

Good Luck! I hope things get better for you.

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JASI27 2/6/2013 8:09AM

    I agree with everyone else on here. You don't deserve to be treated like that and need to get yourself away from him. You need to make the hard choices. Is going better than staying?? How much are you worth to yourself?? He doesn't deserve you. I am thinking about you and your family and sending many prayers of strength in your direction.

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AMYC0128 2/6/2013 4:19AM

    emoticon I'm so sorry that your husband is verbally abusing you. I am praying for you and your grandson. I hope your grandson is feeling better soon.

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MISSCUS 2/5/2013 6:20PM

    some men can be like children, acting like 4 yrs old, me me me, when in reality, the GS should be focused on. I feel for you Beth. I divorced my child man. It was very hard to do. Not every woman can survive a divorce like that. Sometimes it is the only option, as it was for me. I pray for your GS and for you to be able to completely ignore that man, or have the nerve and the strong words to put him in his place, and I pray that he might, just might, for once listen, hear, and understand, and then grow up to be the man he could be, and make a change. Sorry, child men is a trigger for me. I apologize if I said what I shouldn't have. Be strong Beth. Real woman strong!!

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SUGARSMOM2 2/5/2013 12:56PM

  money problems follow all . but what he is doing is verbal abuse . he feels you are better then he and he wants to bring you down to his level . stand strong . can you leave this mess and get yourself free . ? as a mom we worry about our children and their children . this is normal . you need to think clearly . why did i choice two men who treat me badly . you are special . i am praying for you . hope all your troubles go away . smile better days are coming .

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NEELIXNKES 2/5/2013 11:39AM

    Oh my. I hope your GS heals quickly without the hospital. That is awful of your SIL. Its a shame he feels free to talk to you like that. Sending healing thoughts your way.

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I am back - Finally!

Thursday, January 17, 2013

Wow! Not a good wow either :( My last fall has really taken a terrible toll on me in all aspects of my life. Pain consumed me 24/7. I just could not get a grip on it and was almost non functional in all areas of my life. There was not 1 position that helped, not sitting, laying, standing etc. I took all my meds, tried everything my Drs suggested and I just could not escape the pain.

Being in pain at that high of a level (which was very high) for days on end had a result of depression of sorts. I cried - I yelled - I was quiet & I prayed a LOT!

I really can't explain it beyond what I have tried to in this blog.

My fall jolted/moved all my damaged areas in my spine around. It caused swelling around nerves and other areas. Picture someone taking my spine in their hands and shaking it really hard, that pretty much sums up what the fall did to my spine. I don't appear to have any NEW damage though :)

Suffice it to say I was a MESS! :(

The pain is a tad better - enough that I can put sentences together again any ways. So I am going to make a great attempt to do damage control to my groups here that I am a team leader at over the next few days.

  
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LIVINTODAY 2/3/2013 7:25PM

    Take care of yourself; that is much more important than anything else. Maybe as the weight comes off falling will be less of a problem --- but for now be thoughtful of yourself!

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SLIMGRAM2 2/2/2013 8:00AM

    May God Bless you and keep you safe. You concentrate on your health . We all support you and understand. Hugs!

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Much love and good vibes sent your way. Know that many people are rooting for you!

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PATTYKLAVER 1/18/2013 7:18AM

    I wish for you a speedy recovery.

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MISSCUS 1/17/2013 10:48PM

    Hey Beth, sorry you have been in pain. I KNOW what that's like. I'm praying for you! We'll see you on the team. Hope things get much better so you get some relief.
Phyllis

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EGRAMMY 1/17/2013 8:19PM

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1CRAZYDOG 1/17/2013 5:50PM

    Well, glad you're feeling at least some better. **SIGH** and ((((HUGS)))))

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HEALTHY4ME 1/17/2013 1:30PM

    Take care of you and just let your teams know you are fine. They should understand and you will get to them as you can. Thank heavens no new damage and HUGS soft gentle hugs.

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CANDYCANE4049 1/17/2013 1:12PM

    It emoticon sound like you need to get yourself better first the team will understand.

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