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Sumer Is Icumen In

Thursday, April 25, 2013



I always thought it meant summer is on it's way but according to wikipedia - it means it's already here.

Modern English
Summer has come in,
Loudly sing, Cuckoo!
The seed grows and the meadow
blooms
And the wood springs anew,
Sing, Cuckoo!
The ewe bleats after the lamb
The cow lows after the calf.
The bullock stirs, the stag farts,
Merrily sing, Cuckoo!
Cuckoo, cuckoo, well you sing,
cuckoo;
Don't ever you stop now,
Sing cuckoo now. Sing, Cuckoo.
Sing Cuckoo. Sing cuckoo now!

Either way, I'm ready for it - tired of this cool weather, I want to swim in the rivah!

  
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LRSILVER 4/26/2013 6:51AM

    I cant wait for warm weather.

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KANOE10 4/25/2013 9:05AM

    I am tired of this cool weather and stilly layering up. I want warm days also, Great poem.

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Feeling Rich

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

I'll admit it. I love to spin the spark points bonus wheel. emoticon Every day I fool around earning points just so I hit the 25 mark and get that second chance. I can't even tell you why it's so much fun since I have an ancient computer and sort of slow satellite Internet service. It's really not like spinning a real wheel. Here at home the wheel sort of jerks around like someone spilled jelly on the gears. But I still love doing it. It's like finding money.

Goofy, I know.

Today is Hump Day - which usually means Story Hour Day for me. I still do the Wed. pre-school story hour - just about the only public thing I regularly do any more since I have so much good public service staff. They don't need me for that and they do need me to be doing Other Things in the back room. But I seriously heart those little wide eyed chaotic loving wee ones. We have a little ritual too - when it comes to craft time. I keep the crayons all mixed together in a shoe box. When I pull it out I ask them "And what does Mrs. Haile like best about crayons?"

they all shout "The THMELL!"

And then we all get to sniff the box. I really do love the crayon scent - so much that I asked for a bottle of crayon perfume for my birthday (asked my son - Sons always give their mothers what they ask for)


I keep this at the library and any child who wants a spritz on his wrist gets one. Very waxy scented library on Wednesdays.

then I ask them "And what do I like Second Best about crayons?"

And they shout "The SOUND!"

and then I slowly pour the entire box on the table, letting the rattle fill the room. And then we all put our hands in the big heap of color sticks and spread them out so everyone can enjoy them, while I remind them that when I see So Much Color I feel So Rich - as if there was everything you ever needed to make the world beautiful.

Rituals are wonderful for children. Kids love to feel like they are catching up with us grown-ups so when they can remember something they feel like they're part of the team. and a ritual very quickly becomes something they remember. This ritual is something they love and expect and get every week. It makes them feel like they're going in the right direction.

I also think it is important for all of us to feel rich. Most of the sorrow in the world (I humbly claim) seems to stem from a feeling of lack - from thinking there's not enough to go around. At a library - there are so many books - so many choices - enough to feel as rich as a king ... or a queen. It's the same with a big box of crayons. And as one of the first lessons in life - I love teaching little kids that there's not only enough - there's enough for EVERYONE to feel RICH!

Huh - So. I never know where a blog is going to go when I start typing. Who knew I'd wander into story hour today. Ah well. Happy Hump Day to you. May you feel RICH!

  
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JLITT62 4/25/2013 7:54AM

    "Most of the sorrow in the world (I humbly claim) seems to stem from a feeling of lack - from thinking there's not enough to go around"

I agree.

The question remains how do you change that?

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MKELLY72 4/24/2013 1:11PM

    What a great story!! My best friend and I used to color together as high school students (and beyond) and the smell is something we still talk about loving!! I will have to see if I can find that for her! Fabulous!
Michelle

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GETULLY 4/24/2013 9:51AM

    What a great story! Thank you for sharing. I, too, get a rush spinning the bonus wheel.

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KANOE10 4/24/2013 8:06AM

    Nice blog. I teach young kids and love to see them happy and learning. You sound like you are doing a great job with your pre-schoolers.

Have a wonderful rich day.

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MISSUSRIVERRAT 4/24/2013 8:03AM

    Great attitude! Thanks for sharing the concept of feeling rich.........it is so much more than having a certain amount of money. Very few people understand this, it seems to me.


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BROOKLYN_BORN 4/24/2013 7:45AM

    I also push for that 2nd spin every day. I have slow satellite Internet service too.
Crayon perfume? Never would have guessed that. Nice blog!

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So What's the Plan - another Left Brain/Right Brain conversation (long)

Sunday, April 21, 2013

emoticonSo where's the plan? Have you written it yet?

emoticon No

emoticonWhat? You promised. You're always breaking promises to me.

emoticon No I'm not. But I can't make a map of how to get somewhere unless I know where we're going and I can't make that decision all by myself. You have to contribute too. Like – what do you want to do right now?

emoticonI want perfection and freedom and chocolate and cheese

emoticon Right. Let me rephrase it so that you can make a choice. Do you want to continue to lose weight or do you want to stay at your present weight.

emoticonSkinny I want Skinny You can never be too rich or too skinny. I want to look like Patty Hayes.

emoticon Good God. She's been dead for 15 years. And the last time we saw her she was 16 and was tall and skinny and adolsecent. We never could have looked like that and we never will. Our bones are too short.

emoticonOh. Yea. Right. Then ... I don't know what I want.

emoticon Hmm. Okay – what do you want to look like that's NOT Patty Hayes?

emoticonI want to look Hot Hot Hot.

emoticon You already do look Hot Hot Hot and you know it.

emoticonHeh heh heh. Yeah. We looked hot last night, didn't we?

emoticon Quit fishing for compliments and answer my question.

emoticonWell. I want to wear a size medium.

emoticon Come on. You know that one manufacturer's size medium is another manufacturer's size Large and another's size small.

emoticonWell. I want to wear a size 12 or a size 10.

emoticon that's still no answer. What about a size 6 or 2 or 0? What if I took some white-out and turned that size 10 into a size zero?

emoticonNo. No. that's creepy. That's cheating and besides, we're too old to be that skinny. No. size 10 or 12 is good.

emoticon I think you're putting too much emphasis on sizes. Whats' in a number and why is a size different from a weight?

emoticonHmmm. Well, a size is how you look. I don't care how much we weigh so long as those little pretty clothes fit and look good on us.

emoticon Okay – I'll grant you that. But we can't go trying on clothes all the time to see what size we wear. We don't have that much time to monitor this stuff – so pick a weight. Any weight. And that's what we'll work at staying at.

emoticon143 lbs.

emoticon Well. That came fast. Why didn't you say so at first?

emoticonYou didn't ask me.

emoticon Funny girl Why do you want to weigh 143 lbs?

emoticonBecause I think I will feel safe at that weight.

emoticon Oh. Well. That's a sort of a good reason. We can do that. It means losing 6 more pounds, you know. Are you sure you're not just picking this number so you can keep eating less and more restrictedly ... you know .. you're not just chickening out on trying to maintain.

emoticonHmmm. No. I'm not playing a game. I really want to weigh 143. At least. I really want to see what I look like and what it feels like to weigh that right now, at this age and this time.

emoticon Okay – that actually sounds pretty .... sound.

emoticonThere's more! There's a slimness I catch a glimpse of when we're walking past a window or mirror. I've just begun to see it – but it's fleeting. I'd like to see it all the time. And I think it will take being 143 to get there. I want that to be my normal.

emoticon Okay – this is good stuff. So you really want that svelt feeling don't you. And we're not there yet. Sometimes we are but not most of the time.

emoticonYeah yeah. You understand.

emoticon Good enough. How big a hurry are you to get there?

emoticonOh. Hmmm. Pretty big hurry, I think.

emoticon Why?

emoticonWell. Well. I want to wear that red polka dot dress in the attic.

emoticon Ahh. Yes. And it's a summer dress. It needs to be hemmed, you know. Well, to get there we have to continue with the 1500 calories a few more weeks. Maybe 2 months. Are you okay with that?

emoticonHow far away is 2 months?

emoticon 8 weeks is June 17.

emoticonOh. that's a long time away. Can't we do it sooner?

emoticon I don't know. That's going to be up to you and to me. We don't have a lot of parties coming up. Really only one. Maybe 2 if we have company. But that's a lot of weekends home alone with the refrigerator. And it will mean working out pretty seriously.

emoticonWell, I like doing that you know.

emoticon Yes but it will mean getting off the computer at 7 instead of 8.

emoticonyeah. Well. Okay. Let's do it.

emoticon How about we try it just for two days? This week we'll get off the computer on Monday and Tuesday at 7. 'Cause we're going to visit Mama on Wednesday and have to leave at 7:30 anyway. But we can go to the gym on M, T, and W. - Uh Oh! – I just remembered. Graves Mt. Lodge is this week.

emoticonAAAAAACK!

emoticon Yeah. That is going to take some planning. We have never yet successfully limited ourselves at GML.

emoticonI knooooow. Whaaaaaa. I don't wanna go.

emoticon Too bad. We have to. But what do you say, instead of saying we'll eat only one bread or only one that or no desert – and then eating them anyway and feeling guilty and lousy, how about if we decide we will pause before every single bite, put down the fork and ask “Are you hungry for more? Is it worth it? Do you really want it?” And if the answer is yes we pick up the fork again. And if the answer is no – we stop eating.

emoticonHmmm. I like that.

emoticon It will take a different sort of discipline but it might be just the difference we need. Let's give it a try anyway.

emoticonOkay. I'll really try.

emoticon Okay – I'm exhausted by all this planning. What do you say we just plan for this week.

emoticonNo No. I want more. More Plans. More safety.

emoticon Geezo Flip.

emoticonPleeeeeeeeeeeease.

emoticon Well. Alright. How about this. It's April 21. The next time we weigh in will be on May 7. That's just over 2 weeks. Let's try to weigh 148.6 pounds on the May weigh in. That means the morning scale will have to show something like 145. Let's aim for 1 lb in 2 weeks with 4 meals eaten at Graves Mt. Lodge thrown in. And let's try to earn 35 exercise points both of those weeks. It means curtailing our playtime on the computer but I think we can do it. Besides – we're moving into the prettiest time of the year. May.

emoticonOkay. But you'll come up with another plan for the next 2 weeks afterwards?

emoticon Yes. I will. Each time we weigh in we will come up with a new goal and a new plan. But you have to participate.

emoticonI will.

emoticon And as a reward, when we reach 145 we'll take a day off.

emoticonAnd another at 143?

emoticon Yep. Another at 143. Maybe a 4 day weekend!

emoticonOkay. I like this.

emoticon I like it too.

emoticonLove you

emoticon Love you too.

  
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WATERMELLEN 4/22/2013 5:54PM

    You two really understand each other and are working together!! That red polka dot dress is gonna look AWESOME (and svelte!)

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TINAJANE76 4/22/2013 5:45PM

    Love your inner-dialogue! It's not easy settling into maintenance and deciding exactly exactly where you want to be. I basically see maintenance as a circle that looks something like this: set goals, develop a plan to achieve them, work towards them, reevaluate, repeat. It's a bit like weight loss but with a lot more experimentation, especially once you reach the point where you want to keep things the same. Good luck and keep us posted on your progress with the polka-dotted dress!

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CELIAMINER 4/22/2013 9:25AM

    So love this! Now get off the computer!
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KANOE10 4/22/2013 7:52AM

    Cute positive dialogue. I enjoy your writing. Good luck with the two week plan. You both can do it!
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MSLZZY 4/22/2013 7:36AM

    Loved this conversation! I can only imagine what my LB/RB would have to say. I may have to introduce them to you-then again, maybe not LOL!

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PEZMOM1 4/21/2013 9:32PM

    Awesome conversation.
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After the Meltdown Comes the Calm

Saturday, April 20, 2013

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Thank you all for your comments on yesterday's blogpost "Finding HEALTHY At Maintenance - My Right Brain Wild Child Has A Meltdown". You'll be happy to know that even though the RightBrainWildChild suddenly remembered a cocktail party she's going to tonight AND the power went out for 12 hours last night AND the phone is still out (?!?) - she's better today. She can even hold it together till tomorrow so that that lazy LeftBrainSchoolMarm can have a little more time to do her list making.

I learned about Left Brains and Right Brains from Martha Beck - so if you want to learn more too, have a peek at one of her books. Either "THE FOUR DAY WIN" or "THE JOY DIET" covers this, though I think it was the 4 day book that had instructions on how to get the conversation going between the two. Martha Beck had a much greater divide between her two brains - her Left Brain is more of a Nazzi SS officer while her Right Brain seems like something out of a horror movie. Mine were already pretty good friends. They just need to remember to check in with each other. So RBWC has calmed down. Of course, LBSM did take RBWC to the gym and let her play for an hour this morning. Makes a huge difference.

LOL

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KANOE10 4/21/2013 9:04AM

    Thanks for the info. I have not read those Beck books. Hope you have fun tonight and get your phone and power on .

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LRSILVER 4/20/2013 10:39PM

    Thanks Interesting.

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CELIAMINER 4/20/2013 8:07PM

    Loved the Left-Right blog! Thanks for the info on your muse!

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MSLZZY 4/20/2013 7:45PM

    I really need to check this out but may not want to know who's upstairs lOL!

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DAYHIKER 4/20/2013 2:39PM

    That's interesting...I'm not sure I want my LB and RB communicating though... emoticon

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LUNADRAGON 4/20/2013 1:49PM

    Interesting. I need to pick that up and read it. Except my brain can't figure out which side should do it.
Thanks.

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SHEILA1505 4/20/2013 1:47PM

    My LBSM told RBWC it was time for a rest day - stop abusing that upper left arm, go to the nursery, get some plants and have a good day for the soul. Both LB and RB had a good day

Hugs

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Finding HEALTHY At Maintenance - My Right Brain Wild Child Has A Meltdown

Friday, April 19, 2013

That's right. My Right Brain Wild Child had a meltdown yesterday.Truth be told, she's still having it. After eating 2000 calories more than my OLD recommended daily allotment over 2 days has left me - the all-emotions right brain side of me - feeling really scared and vulnerable. But I'm supposed to be at maintenance right now - only I know I really want to lose a little more. It's so confusing - which is why Left Brain School Marm is writing this. It's the only thing she knows how to do - make lists, get wordy, open the door for WC to express herself. So. Here goes.

LBSM: Hey there honey. How are you?

RBWC: (gasping deep breathing with little whiny sounds)

LBSM: Hey hey. Come here and let me hold you.

RBWC: (crawls into LBSM's lap)

LBSM: So what's got you so upset?

RBWC: I'm scared I'm scared I'm scared

LBSM: What are you scared of?

RBWC: Do you realize I have eaten all my extra points for the week - and there are 5 days left!?! I'm going to weigh 200 lbs by Tuesday at this rate.

LBSM: No you won't. Besides. You've reached your goal. It's time to start thinking about eating a little more

RBWC: No No I will weigh 400 lbs by next month. Everyone will laugh at me behind my back.

LBSM: No they won't. They won't even be looking at you. You know that.

RBWC: Yes Yes they will. I'll be a failure again and have to wear fat lady clothes and go on a diet and I hate this. Are there any more cheetos? I need cheese!

LBSM: I'm sorry. I thought I'd made a list of things we will do now that we're someplace different. Now that we're at maintenance. I see now, that it wasn't specific enough.

RBWC: No you didn't! You let me buy 4 kinds of cheese and cheetos and cake with frosting and Ben&Jerry's ice cream and champagne and left me all day yesterday, with Himself, who eats bazillion more than I do and always wants company.

LBSM: Yes. I did. I thought I'd talked this over with you. It was our 39th wedding anniversary. And even if Himself didn't want to celebrate, what with all the turmoil about the puppy, I thought you understood that one day of celebration was alright.

RBWC: I HATE celebrations.

LBSM: No you don't. We love them and you know it.

RBWC: I HATE not being sure that I can make it through the celebration safelyt - I need a better plan than just buying a little cake and a pint of ice cream. Once I start eating that stuff I'll eat it all. I need permission to throw away any extra.

LBSM: Okay. You now have permission. Does that help?

RBWC: Yeah. It does.

LBSM: What else would help?

RBWC: I need to know for sure how many points (calories) I can earn and how we're going to do it so that we don't gain any weight this week.

LBSM: LOL You funny thing. I'M the one who usually wants to shove lists at YOU!

RBWC: (cuddling closer to LBSM) I love your lists when they make me feel safe. It's only when they make me feel like a prisoner that I hate them.

LBSM: Well, I certainly want you to feel safe. I will make a new - l o n g e r - list.

RBWC: When?

LBSM: This weekend

RBWC: What about today? How will I feel safe today? What will you do today?

LBSM: We'll eat salad with Suzanne. No more than 8 points. 400 calories. and only 7 points, or 350 calories for breakfast. And earn 5 points walking out and about.

RBWC: What about the wine tasting with Lisa? I wanna go to that AND I wanna feel safe.

LBSM: We can do that. Two walks and one hour at the circ. desk and finishing up second checking the weeded books will earn those 5 points and you can have your wine with Lisa. I promise - I'll remind you that we're just 'tasting'. We'll still have 12 points or 600 calories left. dinner can be another super salad. You know we just bought all that great fresh stuff. and besides, the farmer's market is tomorrow. We'll be sure to get cash to go shopping with tomorrow and buy More Good Stuff.

RBWC: OH. hmm. yeah. that sounds good.

LBSM: Does it sound safe? Do you feel safe?

RBWC: Hmmm. Safe enough to get through to Saturday. But don't you forget to make my Real Safety List. the one about how to live at Maintenance and all.

LBSM: i won't. And if I do - I am sure you'll remind me, right?

RBWC: LOL Yeah. I will. With Cheetos!

LBSM: Yeah. I thought so. I love you.

RBWC: I love you too.



So you see - I have a WHOLE LOTTA thinking to do to figure out how to navigate into the steady state of maintenance.

  
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WATERMELLEN 4/20/2013 6:59PM

    Such a cute blog. I'm glad you take such good care of "both" of you!

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DAYHIKER 4/20/2013 2:38PM

    Wonderfully written and very amusing! Happy Anniversary to you both! What a great milestone! emoticon
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NUMD97 4/20/2013 10:33AM

    This is a riot! How did you manage to peek into my fridge this week? It's scary how many of your purchases align with mine.

I remember maintenance. There was no road map for it, because so few people attain it.

Kindly post "roadmap" for the rest of us, even though it will be a while before I get to sit at the adult table with you folks.

Thanks for posting!

Nu

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ANNIEONLI 4/20/2013 9:51AM

    Great blog....trial and error is the name of the game. 3 years in maintenance and I STILL have the internal fight on occassion. A little secret: the more you practice, the easier it gets - I promise! Practice makes "perfect" in a way. I also learned that it also take WAY more bad days to really pack on the pounds than just a slip up here and there...or a celebration here and there.... it's when you have a full month of LOTs of celebrations and slip-ups that things can get a wee bit outta control! just went through it, so trust me, I know! LOL The trick is to just get back on the band wagon as soon as you can, so things don't have a chance to get too outta control.

Hang in there....keep the dialogue going!!! Very funny btw! emoticon

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KANOE10 4/20/2013 9:40AM

    That was a great blog..very well written. I can definitely relate to fears of regaining all of my lost weight! You are right about wanting to learn to feel safe when you celebrate or overindulge. I think your school marm will find a way to let that wild child enjoy maintenance and stay on track.

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TINAJANE76 4/20/2013 3:19AM

    With just over a year of maintenance under my belt, I'm hardly a pro at it yet. But I can say that it DOES get just a bit easier over time--it just takes practice. Ups and downs are going to happen. We're in this so we can live our lives to the fullest, not so we have to live in a constant state of deprivation! What's important is how we deal with those ups.

Constantly working to keep special days to what they are, ONE DAY, not days or weeks or months, is a good first step. Deciding when you want to give yourself total freedom with food and when the freedom should be controlled is another. I'm personally comfortable with one meal a week where I don't worry about what I'm eating as long as I'm mindful the rest of the week. If a week has more than one special occasion, I either have to bring out my controlled freedom tactics or be prepared for a gain and have a plan for how I can slowly undo it.

Now that I'm on maintenance, slow has generally become the name of the game for me. I realize that there's a big difference between being up four or five pounds versus being back at 260 and that there is absolutely no rush to drop any unwanted weight that creeps up. I'm totally determined not to do anything that will sabotage my maintenance, so any changes I make are very small. If I'm not happy with my weight's upward trend, I'll cut my calories by about 100 a day and try to be more conscious about maximizing my workouts. That's it. No more drastic steps and wild swings for me.

It's normal to feel what you're feeling early on in maintenance--heck, lots of us still struggle with those feelings after we've been maintaining for quite some time. But if you keep working at it, keep experimenting with what works for you and don't allow your right-brain wild child to drive you to poor decisions too often, eventually that sensible left-brain lady will become much for of a force in your life.

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JLITT62 4/19/2013 6:15PM

    Maintenance IS harder, anyone will tell you - but I'd like to fight that battle myself!

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SHEILA1505 4/19/2013 12:59PM

    Can your LBSM come and live with me, Bess? I could do with her - the days when my student doesn't have dinner at home turn into maintenance-trampling nightmares

Hugs xxx

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KENDRACARROLL 4/19/2013 11:27AM

    Great way to put things into perspective!
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DIANNEMT 4/19/2013 11:10AM

    I am starting to think about maintenance--not quite there yet. I'm scared, too!!

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BOOKAPHILE 4/19/2013 11:03AM

    I want a Left Brain School Marm! I totally understand about wanting to feel safe and instead feeling like I'm on the edge of losing it! You made it this far, and you can see it through the maintenance you desire. Lol... listen to your LBSM. She speaks a lot of sense.

Thanks for the comment on my NSV Dr. visit blog. I appreciate the support, too!

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CALLIECURTIS5 4/19/2013 10:44AM

    LOVED your blog! I don`t know if we ever get completely "safe". We are food people wh always celebrate with food. We celebrate EVERYTHING with food.
I have these same anxieties with buffets. I am a closet eater so I can do well infront of others but to pay for a buffet and not take the priviledge of all I want...well,....that is very hard for me. Right now...I don`t do buffets.
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CELIAMINER 4/19/2013 8:52AM

    Fabulous blog! I am so with you on the overeating lately, and I'm having those anxiety feelings that wake me up in a panic thinking I've regained all my weight and have nothing to wear. We'll get through this, and WE WILL MAINTAIN!



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MSLZZY 4/19/2013 7:28AM

    So that was what all the chatter was yesterday. I could hear you girls talking all the way over here. Happy anniversary to you and DH. Things will settle down soon so could you keep it quiet? LOL! Have a great day! HUGS!

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TORTISE110 4/19/2013 7:24AM

    Hilarious! You will figure it out, that I know. Happy Anniversary to you and Himself.

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ELRIDDICK 4/19/2013 7:16AM

  Thanks for sharing

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