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Riding That Roller Coaster Called Life

Saturday, March 16, 2013

This has been a full week - with ups and downs and goods and bads.


emoticon Daylight Savings Time - an anathema for a morning person like me
emoticon Baby Puppy Callie's broken leg
emoticon 4 of my library staff down with bronchitis/flu/pneumonia
emoticon emoticon Tuesday night board of supervisors meeting - had to skip gym and stay out late
emoticon Dear cousin having serious personal issues and wanting lots of time with her head on my shoulder - lots and lots and lots and lots and lots of time.
emoticon Began to feel 'off' Thursday and didn't feel any better on Friday. Actually feeling low down by the afternoon.
emoticon As a result of all above - have not gotten in the exercise I normally do


emoticon Baby Puppy Callie back on at least 3 of her feet again after surgery.
emoticon 2 of my sick library staff were well enough to come back to work by end of week
emoticonBoS meeting didn't last too long and I had good news to share that brought big smiles. Just in time for the budget sessions which start in 2 weeks.
emoticon Got 3 big tasks done at work - three things that had been nagging at me and making me feel guilty. DONE! Yes.
emoticon Had the absolutely most awesome strength training workout Thursday morning ever. Actually did 2 sets of pushups much deeper than I've ever done before.
emoticon Managed to sympathize without getting caught up in Dear Cousin's Drama
emoticon Got to go home early on Friday and slept 11 hours
emoticon Started a new challenge for myself - to determine how many WWPoints/Calories I'm going to eat in 2 out of 3 meals - every day.
emoticon Got to within 2 lbs of my goal weight and no longer have to pay for WW meetings.

What a week! Still, it looks like the good outweighed the bad. And sometimes a week is just like that. Plans had to change and routines got disrupted and most important of all - I had to adjust and adapt. I do regret not getting in the exercise I normally do because I emoticon exercise. But I don't worship it. It is high on my priority list but not at the top. Balance is at the top. And today I do feel better so I'll get in some exercise and some housework - which, around here, in the land of boys and dogs and farms, tends to be very aerobic.

And on Monday I get to go to the city and visit my mama, have l lunch with my sister and shop for myself. That's a triple whammy! What a roller coaster ride!

Happy, healthy weekend to you all.

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WATERMELLEN 3/17/2013 11:52AM

    We lurch along from crisis to crisis: you really capture that! And: we have our high points too . . . helps so much to notice 'em!!

Thanks for your great comment on my "Waht I Like About Maintaining" blog . . . particularly re combatting that overcompensation for the censure of others. Yeah!!

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FORBANDE 3/16/2013 9:52AM

    You are exactly right - it's all about balance! That has to be the top priority because life is always going to happen. :)

I love your attitude and these blogs. Keep up the amazing work!

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MSLZZY 3/16/2013 8:01AM

    All in all, a pretty good week. Enjoy your trip to the city and have an awesome day! HUGS!

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So What's Next - setting new goals + a giggle-inducing NSV

Friday, March 15, 2013

Happy Me - I reached a milestone goal this week and now weigh within 2 lbs of my goal weight. I am pleased and proud and thrilled with this achievement. I'm so happy I really have been doing the Happy Dance, all week. You know, that little skip you take when you're walking down the street because you just feel good. The sudden shimmy your body gives when you glance in the mirror and think "Is that ME?" Best of all - now that I'm within 2 lbs of my goal I no longer have to pay to attend WW meetings - which I truly enjoy - and that extra savings can be poured into Other Things, preferably sartorial. Yep. Feels great to be within 2 lbs of my goal weight -

My original goal weight, set in (and achieved) 2003 when I was just 50 years old and stood 5'6" tall.

Uh. Yeah.

Now I am 60 years old and 5'5".

Yeah - I've checked. Had the bone density test. Now take calcium daily. So all along this journey I knew that being within 2 lbs of my goal weight was just a stopping place. A very wonderful destination - like staying in Paris for a while when you're on a European tour. But there are other destinations I want to visit and I thought I'd list them here today - along with possible rewards for getting there.

The other destinations on my itinerary are:

Reach goal weight of 150 lbs --- New spring makeup
Reach what I think will be new goal weight of 145 --- new outfit - top to toe
Optional final weight goal of 140 --- Spa Day
25 full pushups and a pull-up --- a 2 day mini-vacation at the beach plus a new beach outfit.
Each month I stay within 2 lbs of goal --- $30 reward in a spree fund
6 months I stay within 2 lbs of goal --- Day off from work for the spree
1 year within 2 lbs of goal --- ???? Something wonderful. LOL

Since I am an inch shorter than I have been my entire adult life - I am not sure what weight I want to be. And since I'm 60 (!!! how did this happen!?!? - oh yeah. 1 day at a time) I don't have the firm skin I had, even at 50. While I want to be fit and slim, I don't want to be saggy. Hence the optional weight goal. I know I would like the proportions I'll have at 145 better than the ones I have at 150 - I'm not sure I will like them at 140. It's a minor detail - but it's something I want to explore.

And now for the giggle-inducing NSV.

I live in a very small town where 50% of the citizens are 'kin'' to my husband. I have lived here almost 40 years and been the County Librarian since 1978. Yeah. I mean - everybody knows me - or at least knows who I am. Wednesday I was at the front desk when a man came in to return a DVD that belonged to a different library system. He looked about 40 and was very talkative. I suspect he had also already begun to imbibe in liquid courage - since the DVD was quite late and he was feeling guilty. I answered his questions about how to get the DVD back to the library that owned it and how bad the fines might be and then he said "Hey. You're cute." and picked up my left hand and said "do you want to have lunch with me?"

To which I answered, somewhat laughingly, that I was flattered by, and deeply appreciated his invitation, but, alas, I was married and though I don't wear a wedding ring, "everybody" knows that there's a MrBess. If you live in a small town - you get to understand what "everybody" means.

But wow. It's been a long time since I've been hit up and I confess, it felt pretty durn good. LOL

Happy Healthy Friday to you!

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MSLZZY 3/15/2013 8:42PM

    Now that was a compliment, if ever I heard one. And I am sure he is right!

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SHEILA1505 3/15/2013 11:42AM

    :) It's great for the morale, isn't it!

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PIXIE-LICIOUS 3/15/2013 9:44AM

    Wow, I bet that made you feel good to be asked out on a lunch date! emoticon

But even be within 2 lbs of your goal!! WOW! I'm so happy for you, that is fantastic! Keep up the good work! I'm doing a happy dance for you!!


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CBLENS 3/15/2013 7:53AM

    Congratulations on having made it to 2 lbs within goal and not having to pay for WWs.
Keep doing that Happy Dance and you will loose that 2 lbs in no time. emoticon

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Look Who's Doing the Happy Dance!

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Yes. I got within 2 lbs of my goal weight yesterday at the WW meeting and now no longer have to pay to go to meetings. This is a big milestone goal and it only took me 2 years.

This stretch of my weight loss journey took all kinds of help - from my Spark People friends to the Weight Watcher leader and the ease with which I could get to meetings. From the hundreds of snippets of wisdom I gleaned from blog posts to the good advice from my doctor. I needed every single piece of this puzzle to get me here - and this wonderful blissful place is only a stopping point on my journey to good health. But what a stopping place it is. It's one I plan to celebrate with a reward.

I usually have a terrible time with rewards. I put off getting one. I even put off deciding what a reward ought to be. Worst yet! I almost never really savor and feel the .... the reward-ness of the reward. I just buy it or do it and move on. Not this time.

This time I plan to totally experience the sensation of giving myself praise for doing a difficult thing. I will write about it in my journal. I may even blog about it again. But by golly - this reward is going to be the seal on the box of accomplishments that a weight loss journey is.

The original reward planned was New Shoes, since baby puppy (with the broken leg) Callie, seen below being pampered by Mama, chewed my favorite work pumps when she was just a few months old.

These shoes are the only thing she chewed up and she didn't do much damage to them - but I couldn't wear them to work. Then a shoe repair shop opened up in town and I could get them fixed! I'm wearing them in that picture. (another cause for doing the happy dance)

So now, the reward will be to buy new spring perfume. Lily of the Valley. I'm visiting my mother in the city on Monday and will have time to browse the Big City Stores so I am going to hold off ordering my reward till after then. There's a Sax 5th Ave. in the city and they sell Penhaligon - It would be nice to smell before I buy, but it's not necessary. I'm happy enough with Caswell and Massey, at about 1/4 the price. But I am absolutely getting this reward.

So. Today is a wonderful day. I have my puppy home, it's no longer raining, I have a great reward to look forward to and best of all - today is Wednesday and Wednesday means Story Hour! woo woo!

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KANSASROSE67 3/13/2013 5:57PM

    So happy for you!!! And I'll bet it will be the best storytime ever because your happiness will rub off on the kids!

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FORBANDE 3/13/2013 9:21AM

    YOU ARE AMAZING!!! I'm so happy for you!!

I'm dancing right along beside you!

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BESSHAILE 3/13/2013 9:08AM

    Love you all SO much!

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SHEILA1505 3/13/2013 8:34AM

    Well done, Bess!

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JLITT62 3/13/2013 8:04AM

    You look FANTASTIC!

Congrats on a job well done.

Poor Callie looks so sad.

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MSLZZY 3/13/2013 8:00AM

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Holding It Together When A Blow Falls

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

On Sunday my little 7 month old puppy leapt out of the back of the truck while it was moving. Slowly, because the truck doesn't go very fast and we weren't going very far - but fast enough. Normally we don't let her ride in the truck bed just because she's so impulsive but this day we did. "It's just a mile. We're only doing 20 mph" we thought. More fool us. She landed badly and broke her femur. We managed to get her to the veterinarian (who came in on a Sunday afternoon) without disintegrating into a guilt fueled quarrel but it took a lot of compassion and a lot of locked lips to do that.

Anxiously waiting all evening and well into Monday afternoon without eating every chocolate carb in sight - or on the store shelves - took a herculean effort but I did it. I allowed myself some leeway - so long as I didn't go over my weekly calorie/points allotment and so long as I had nutrition from every food category - I allowed myself some extra endorphin producing carbs. I did eat a commercial protein bar yesterday - 5 points - about 250 calories - when the chocolate craving was at its height. There was a little mindless eating - but it was pre-figured, pre-counted, mindless eating - not a binge.

Also - I kept up with my exercise - not necessarily an effort because exercise always makes me feel better and boy did I need things to make me feel better. Also - I just plain like to move.

And today is weigh-in and I'm pretty durn sure I'll make at least one of my goals - that of not having to pay for WW meetings - and I might actually hit my WW goal weight. If I don't hit it this week, I will next week. There's very little difference between the two - 152 and 150 lbs. But I have shrunk an inch in the past 10 years so even at goal I am a little heavier than I want to be. I have another weight goal which I will strive for after these two and after that the goals will be maintenance and fitness goals.

And on Monday I am going to TheCity by myself - when I plan to buy at least one reward. Originally I intended to buy new shoes because my best pumps were slightly damaged by a baby puppy last fall - but a wonderful shoe repair man opened up shop after Christmas and he fixed those shoes and now I don't need new ones! So there will be retail rewarding on Monday.


I have a lot to be grateful for:

A compassionate veterinarian
A loving house with dogs
A tenderhearted husband
All My Friends at Spark People

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SHEILA1505 3/12/2013 1:52PM

    Well done
Glad there's good news
big hugs

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KAB7801 3/12/2013 12:06PM

    Good job in a stressful situation! It's hard, keep it up!

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JLITT62 3/12/2013 10:36AM

    Big hugs! Oy! At least they bounce back quickly at that age . . . Chester had knee surgery at 9 months.

I think you handled the whole situation amazingly well!

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MSLZZY 3/12/2013 9:19AM

    Hope the puppy is okay and you do need time for yourself. A break and a reward couldn't come at a better time.

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YMWONG22 3/12/2013 8:15AM

  Sorry to hear about your puppy. Hope it is better now.

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CBLENS 3/12/2013 7:41AM

    Accidents happen, you did great not using your stress as an excuse to eat all the chocolates & carbs. I like the Fiber One Coconut almond chewy bar. it's only 140 calories & has 6 protein & 5 fiber. It's so good you feel like you are having a candy bar. I use them as a snack, not a meal replacement.

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I Get By With A Lotta Help From My Friends

Sunday, March 10, 2013

That's you - Spark Friends. And it took every ounce of friendship I could scrounge because yesterday came mighty close to a bust.

Dragged to the city for what was supposed to be a few hours of shopping - I ended up stuck there with no lunch. As the clock ticked way past noon I managed to grab some granola bars - which I enjoy as a snack but am always dissatisfied with if I try to use them as meal substitute. Too many calories and not enough of feeling full. In fact - I can NEVER substitute a granola bar for a meal. I always eat the meal too - as soon as I can. Eventually, and in a bad enough mood (due to Someone's carelessness and self-delusions) that I really only wanted to go home, I hauled Someone to Panera's - which I hoped would have something light and filling, but I swear - they haven't got a thing to eat that isn't half a day's worth of calories. I mean - when half a greek salad without any meat comes in at 7 WW points - something is seriously wrong.

We did accomplish the shopping toal without disintegrating into an argument ... mostly because I am kind emoticon - but I'd eaten my entire day's calories by the time I got home at 4:30. Not a happy way to face a Saturday evening - and definitely enough to break my streak. And knowing I was going to have to fess up to my SparkFriends and admit the streak was over really felt bad. The accountability aspect of making a claim that other people will read is so powerful. Not that I'm doing this "for" you - but that my pride is involved enough to want to be the person I say I am.

So how did I save the day.

First - even at the height of frustration I stayed well watered. And I maintained my Lenten ban of diet sodas. I only drank water.

Next - once home I tracked every thing I'd eaten all day long - including the 7 cookies from that snack pack I picked up when it looked like I wasn't going to get any lunch.

I took a beautiful 2 mile hike through the woods as the sun sank into it's golden bed of springtime light. (spiritual healing plus exercise)

Then I took stock of my tummy and realized that I was not hungry for a meal - but there were a few nutrients I needed. I had a nice big apple.

A little later in the evening I had some more fruit.

I got to bed at a decent hour and slept blissfully through the night.

So. As per my decision a few days ago to claim a healthy day when the majority of my choices were healthy ... and when I stay within my caloric range and get some exercise ... Yesterday still counts.

I did eat junk food in frustration.
I did eat a calorie blown lunch

I drank plenty of water
I got in 2 walks - a little over 4 miles altogether
I did not eat a meal just because it was meal time but ate only the nutrition my body hungered for
I did track in the middle of the day before things got out of control - and acknowledged what was going on before I let the day fall apart.

4 pluses
2 minuses
a healthy day

Not bad. emoticon

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