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Getting Closer to that Goal - a chat between Left Brain and Right Brain

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

I can see the finish line up ahead. I can see that bulls eye target, not yet close enough to touch but by gum, close enough to see the circles. I can smell the scent of victory even if I can't quite taste it. And it's not only stirring up a huge mixed bag of feelings it's stimulating both sides of my brain.

On the one hand, my little Virgo mathematical School Marm Left Brain is calculating numbers and averages, thinking "If I'm losing 1 lb a week and I have 7.8 lbs to go, what date will I be at goal?"

Of course - that part of my brain is completely glossing over the pivotal word "If". My Other ToucheyFeeley Wild Child Right Brain is warning me "remember - each week is different - each day, each hour. You are not a computer"

School Marm Left Brain says "look in the mirror sweetie - don't you just Love your jawline? And those shrinking chipmunk cheeks?"

Wild Child Right Brain says "Yup. lookin' good. Just don't think this is all a numbers game."

SMLB says "Honey - what if we were to work out an extra 15 minutes each time we go to the gym.... think we can stick to this pound a week thing?"

WCRB says "We're working as hard as we can - and it's 100 degrees outside - just going from the car to the gym is a chore. Werk (TheJob) is in maximum overload stress mode and you're asking us to Do More?"

SMLB says "I was only kidding about extra time in the gym, sweetie. But I really want to see some sort of weight loss each week unless there's a compelling reason, like new meds or an injury that keeps us inactive."

WCRB: "Well, yeah. I want that too. But aren't we already doing enough? We're even exploring vegan recipes."

SMLB: "I guess we are, but I'm just nervous. Not to be cruel or hurtful, but you're awfully volatile. I guess I'm afraid any moment now you'll go off on a tangent and do something Wild and Crazy and derail things."

WCRB: "Second guessing me already I see.

SMLB: "Yeah. Sorry for that. But I have feelings too"

WCRB: "Hey - horning in on my territory! But I know. And we can't really predict what will happen. And to quote you 'Not to be cruel or hurtful - you don't trust very well and it's insulting to me to not be trusted."

SMLB: "Yeah - I see that. So - what do you say I trust you more and you don't blindside me with an emotional meltdown"

WCRB: "Sounds fair. But how about rewarding ourselves for the good job we've already done?"

SMLB: "What would feel like a reward - because we BOTH know we have to Werk and we BOTH want to be slim and strong"

WCRB says "New Clothes"

SMLR says "Darling - there's no more room in the closet and you aren't even wearing all the pretty new SMALLER clothes you've already bought this summer"

WCRB says "Yeah, I know - but it's so much fun to put on those smaller clothes and prance in front of the mirror"

SMLR says "Well - what if we take that coral colored dress in to Linda's Shop and have her mark a shorter hem on it. I promise to do the sewing and you can wear a New Dress"

WCRB "Cool! I'd LOVE that. When?"

SMLR: "Well - we have Bethany coming in to do training this afternoon and Bert will be in tomorrow morning and there's the animation class tomorrow afternoon. But I don't want you to think I'll make a promise and then not keep it. What if I put the dress in the car and if there's time before Friday we'll stop by Linda's Shop and get her to mark the hem. If not - definitely we'll go at lunchtime on Friday"

WCRB: "Fantastic! That's a deal!"


Integrated Watcher Self's comment:

You just never know where your brain will lead you, unless you give it a chance to speak up.

LOL - hope you all enjoyed eavesdropping on mine.


  
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IMREITE 7/11/2012 8:46PM

    my brain does that too sometimes. i have a juvenile part that affects right and left brain though so i have a whiny kid wanting bad things and smart alack logical voice that tries to rationalize behaviors that take me away from my goal.

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BESSHAILE 7/11/2012 1:33PM

    Follow up - I went to Linda's Shop and had the hem marked on my dress - SMLB is faithful to her promise WCLB is feeling pampered.

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WONDERFUL2BME 7/11/2012 11:39AM

    Hillarious! Just love your discussion.

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MSLZZY 7/11/2012 9:47AM

    I loved that conversation-sounds just like me.
It is not a matter of which side of the brain is right,
but rather that the 2 get along and eventually agree
on a plan of action. Cute, original and fun! HUGS!

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12 in 12 for July - just a wee bit late

Sunday, July 08, 2012

Alas, and just a wee bit chagrined about how I did in June with that month's selection.

Not So Well.

But then again ... if looked at from a different angle, pretty durn well after all.

June's selection was to pick a big life goal and do something every day towards achieving it. The motivation behind this habit which I would like to incorporate into my every day life is the desire to not let time pass without making a push to do the things I want ... and suddenly waking up and finding out it's too late. Behind THAT motivation was a vague sensation that some things ... not necessarily a bucket list of them ... but just things I'd always thought of doing were no where near happening. For example - taking a boat up a fjord in Norway.

The trouble is - I would get stuck there and couldn't think of anything else on the list and was too tired, too busy, and maybe just too chicken/lazy to move on that. The trip idea stems from a photograph in my 4th grade geography book, taken from the top of a mountain, looking down on a single boat steaming up a fjord. I have never ever forgotten that picture and how I felt the first time I saw it. So... allow me to pause and at least look up fjord tours on the internet ...

www.norwaynutshell.com/en/explore-th
e-fjords/sognefjord-in-a-nutshell/#prices


There - I feel a lot better.

Trouble is - throughout June I couldn't seem to even think of any other big life goals .... Big Life Goals ... that I wanted to achieve. Obviously I need to carve out some dreaming time to create such a list. I will do that this month - both for work and for my life outside of work - because ... I would love a destination.

But even though I couldn't come up with any New Ideas, in fact, I DID do something every day that moved me towards a Big Life Goal. I tracked my food DAILY. And there were days when I worked out hard. And I made serious progress in my weight loss and my nutritional health. And I drank water regularly. And I exercised when I was feeling healthy and did not exercise when my allgergy/cold was at its worse. And I got right back into the exercise routine immediately I felt better.

Every day I did something that got me closer to the Big Life Goal of a healthy body! So - it was a resounding success that showed up on the scale and in the red dress I wore on Friday to a wedding - a size 12 red dress from a shop that does not shrink the numbers on their size tags.


And I prayed positive good healthy prayers.
I also complimented staff - if not every day - frequently, in order to let them know that I value them and exactly why I do.
And I did this during a particularly stressful period of work and bad weather and upper respiratory crud.

What do you know - now I think about it - I did pretty durn well in June.

So what's on tap for July?

Well - I am going to pick something I already began adding way back in January - because I am still having stress and bad weather and even a tad bit of lung congestion. I choose:

4. The Charles Schwab list at work
At least he's the one credited with the idea - you list the top 5 things you need to do tomorrow. Prioritize that list. Then - do those 5 things first, every day, even if you do nothing else. If there is something on that list you did not do today, it becomes the top item on tomorrow's list. The key here is you do it every day. I've diddled with this and know it works - but - I've not been consistent with it.

I would absolutely love to end July with a string of successes behind me and a wide open August with some vacation time to kick back and play in. I actually have the accumulated leave - but I wouldn't take it if I was behind at work. There are 23 days left in July and I could take the 3rd or 4th week of August off ... and Stay Home!!!! ... if I felt that my desk was cleared at work. And I know that Charles Schwab list is just the ticket to stress free freedom.

So that's my 12 in 12 selection for July - See ya on vacation.

  
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MSLZZY 7/8/2012 5:52PM

    Woohoo! Loved the dress and the enthusiasm to try
to think ahead and plan. Life will still interrupt but
plans can be changed and modified. Just the fact
that you are looking ahead is a huge plus. And all
those successes-well, nuff said! You are getting
it done. I find if I don't track daily, I feel like I am
missing a piece of the puzzle.
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JLITT62 7/8/2012 9:49AM

    Love the red dress & you look great in it! I didn't know that was the Charles schwab list - I've fiddled with it too, but am also not consistent with it.

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OTEN36 7/8/2012 9:17AM

    You look wonderful in your red dress.
Great Job


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Riding the Success High

Wednesday, July 04, 2012

And loving it.

Yep. Another small but significant weight loss posted at my weigh-in yesterday. I was just ever so slightly worried that I'd be retaining water due to a combination of extreme heat and a return to strength training after a 3 week hiatus. Especially after the powerful workout my trainer gave me on that first day back. This double high - great exercise and weight loss - is so dang much fun I am having a hard time coming back to earth.

Not that I'm in any hurry - It's fun to feel delighted and excited and proud. But I want to solidify my gains and add to them, and this week there are shoals ahead - happy shoals, thankfully, but they must still be steered around. Today there is a July 4th picnic and Friday there is a wedding. And the weather continues to soar into the triple digits with no coolness and worse yet, no rain, for a week.

So. How am I going to manage? Happily, today the picnic is at my house so I can make sure there is lots of friendly food around. We're offering steamed crabs which are not only low calorie food but finicky to eat. Fun, messy, delicious - but ... it is impossible to get full on steamed crabs. They are the afternoon snack before we go swimming. (This will double as a trash run, too, since we have to canoe over to the swimming beach and can dump the shells along the way.)

Then - I am making the hamburgers. I can make some smaller ones and I'm offering sandwich thins for those who would like less bread. And I bought potato chips - since I can't stand them. I know I can keep within my calorie range today or if I go over it'll be only a little. And as for the wedding? For that I will use every extra point I can save and you will find me at the gym on Saturday. My goal is to post some sort of weight loss. It can be as little as 1/10th of a pound - but I want to have my (Wedding) cake and lose it too.

Now - all that's left is to choose what to wear ... Will it be the hot number in red and black or the cool summer item that looks like a garden party?

Happy July 4th to you all.

  
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JLITT62 7/4/2012 10:17AM

    I'm actually expecting a (hopefully) small gain tomorrow due to preTOM bloat - but I'm willing to be pleasantly surprised!

Today is easy for me since it's just a quiet day at home, since we stopped at my parents on the way home.

Great job! And make sure you get photos at the wedding!

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MSLZZY 7/4/2012 9:15AM

    Great positive vibes coming out of you this morning!
You certainly are having a good time with staying
active. You are planning ahead for 2 big events this
week and I know you will make healthy choices and
are even trying to offer the same to those around you.
Have a wonderful 4th of July! HUGS!

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BESSHAILE 7/4/2012 8:41AM

    Lawsee! What was my computer doing this morning. Posting the same blog 3 times?!! I've deleted one but I'm going to leave the second one up since I got such a nice comment on it.

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PATTOMMC3 7/4/2012 8:37AM

    emoticon Have fun at your party!

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Riding the Success High

Wednesday, July 04, 2012

And loving it.

Yep. Another small but significant weight loss posted at my weigh-in yesterday. I was just ever so slightly worried that I'd be retaining water due to a combination of extreme heat and a return to strength training after a 3 week hiatus. Especially after the powerful workout my trainer gave me on that first day back. This double high - great exercise and weight loss - is so dang much fun I am having a hard time coming back to earth.

Not that I'm in any hurry - It's fun to feel delighted and excited and proud. But I want to solidify my gains and add to them, and this week there are shoals ahead - happy shoals, thankfully, but they must still be steered around. Today there is a July 4th picnic and Friday there is a wedding. And the weather continues to soar into the triple digits with no coolness and worse yet, no rain, for a week.

So. How am I going to manage? Happily, today the picnic is at my house so I can make sure there is lots of friendly food around. We're offering steamed crabs which are not only low calorie food but finicky to eat. Fun, messy, delicious - but ... it is impossible to get full on steamed crabs. They are the afternoon snack before we go swimming. (This will double as a trash run, too, since we have to canoe over to the swimming beach and can dump the shells along the way.)

Then - I am making the hamburgers. I can make some smaller ones and I'm offering sandwich thins for those who would like less bread. And I bought potato chips - since I can't stand them. I know I can keep within my calorie range today or if I go over it'll be only a little. And as for the wedding? For that I will use every extra point I can save and you will find me at the gym on Saturday. My goal is to post some sort of weight loss. It can be as little as 1/10th of a pound - but I want to have my (Wedding) cake and lose it too.

Now - all that's left is to choose what to wear ... Will it be the hot number in red and black or the cool summer item that looks like a garden party?

Happy July 4th to you all.

  
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XFITSTRONG 7/4/2012 9:05AM

    Keep riding it high!!!! Have a great time at your party. I love how you have a plan! You are gonna look fabulous. Enjoy your day!

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PEACHTEACH50 7/4/2012 8:51AM

    Wonderful post. I love the idea of the sandwich thins with hamburgers! You could even use a smartbagel.

And you are SO LUCKY that you hate potato chips! :)

I want to come to your party!!!!!!




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SPARKLED146 7/4/2012 8:29AM

    Great plans! Enjoy!

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FORBANDE 7/4/2012 8:05AM

    AWESOME!!! It's fantastic how you can live a healthy life and participate in such wonderful events!

The crab sounds soooo good!!!

Have a great time!!!

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Psoas Major - or - Get the Support You Need

Friday, June 29, 2012

When I was in public school, 99% of my teachers would write on my report card "She's a nice girl but she doesn't work up to her potential."

I used to HATE that comment because I was working as hard as I could, given the circumstances of my home life - alcoholic father, 5 hours of music practice a day, normal childhood desires. For the most part I was a B student. I never understood how those teachers could decide what my potential was anyway.

In college, I did find a teacher who drew from me my fullest intellectual potential and it was an amazing experience. The mental flights I had in her classes were soaring and she actually created a special class just for me and one other student. She even offered to help me further my academic career, but in true B student fashion, and because I was tumbling into a family crisis, I turned her down. If only I had kept my eye on my potential, no?

Ah well - we all learn at our own pace, in our own fashion, only as much as we choose. And it's like that with our health too. We can choose to eat well 100% of the time and have A health or we can make choices that give us B health. And sometimes we have gotten mad at someone, hated something, crashed and burned through a family crisis and sunk down to D health. After all - that is why we are here at SP - working our way ... in our own pace ... to something better.

So - what's with the Psoas Major? Ah well - I found this definition:

Psoas major arises from the bodies of the lumbar vertebrae, runs anterior to the pelvis and inserts on the top part of the femur. Iliacus arises from the entire internal iliac fossa ("bottom lip" of Iliac crest). In the lower part, its fibers merge with those of psoas and insert on the femur via the same tendon. Because they share the same tendon and have the same action on the thigh, iliacus and psoas are often described as a single muscle (ilio-psoas).

spot.pcc.edu/~lkidoguc/Topics/core.h
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They are the deep muscles that run along your lower spine in the lumbar region - the part of the back that takes the most stress - the part of my back that has a bulging disk, that often gives me pretty intense pain, that could use some support.

I love weight training. I love the way I can actually *feel* the individual muscles as they engage, tense, and relax. I love how working those muscles actually releases endorphins that make me almost giddy with joy. I get utterly enthused with the process. I may be sore the next day (I am today) but even that feels good - a good kind of sore. Yesterday the personal trainer I'm working with gave me an exercise for balance that totally engaged both these deep muscles and the quadratus lumborum, which "originates from the posterior iliac crest and inserts on rib 12 and the transverse processes of the lumbar vertebrae" ... or may I call them the outer muscles of the lumbar region...?

Well. For the first time I have found exercises that make those muscles work to their full potential. This is the first time they have had to work as if they were A muscles! It felt so good I was almost crying because these are the muscles that need the most attention. It's all good, I know, this strength training, but like some Prodigal Son, these are the muscles that have not been involved in the process, that are now going to get the fatted calf. Fortunately, the rest of my muscles, far from feeling ignored or hurt, are cheering home this set of muscles.

Ah well. please forgive all the metaphorical references. I am just still high as a kite from the exciting discovery I made at yesterday's workout. Today is a down day - calm, restful, the day the body does it's own rebuilding. I'm going to enjoy this part of the process too. Oh Hey. And it's Friday! Woo woo. It really doesn't get much better than this.

Happy Friday to you - may you, too, get the support you need.

  
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FORBANDE 7/4/2012 8:07AM

    The passion and excitement in your blog is fabulous! I am just starting my strength training and it's because of people like you who enjoy it and share. Thanks!!



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MSLZZY 6/29/2012 10:49AM

    You should be high as you are finding something that
works and is good for you. Learn those lessons well
and continue that ST. It is the best thing you can be
doing for yourself right now.
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