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Think like a thin person

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

The holiday season is only days away. Every time I see a Christmas decoration or display in a store my brain sort of does a swirling double take and then I start counting and realize it's Almost Thanksgiving - in fact - it is only 8 days away. And while I absolutely adore the holidays - and am looking forward to everything that's coming my way - I also want to make it through the party/feast/gift basket/cookie&candy/nostalgia fest and still lose weight. So I've been looking in my bag of tools - you know, the dusty one in the corner that we sometimes forget we have - that store of wisdom we've welcomed into our lives and then promptly put into our subconscious cold storage unit in our brains.

ahh and I found just the tool I was looking for.

I need to think, act ... I need to BELIEVE ... that I am already a thin person. Because when I look around at the slender people I know, especially at meal time, or when the tray of cookies is passed around, I notice that they take one cookie and nibble on it - they place their fork down and participate in the dinner table conversation - they do not have snacks in their hands all the time. They eat what they are hungry for and then stop. They are quick to jump up and do something. They move more and for longer periods - even if it's just putting away the dishes or tidying up the books on the end table. They are both less frantic when they are eating and more energetic when they are not.


And even if they are not these paragons of blissful calm and deliberation - I can pretend that I Am. I will think like the thin person I would like to be - and act like that too.

Perhaps just for today. Yes. Today I will be the thin person I long to be. I'll worry about tomorrow later - at Tara.

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WEDDWT 11/16/2011 6:14PM

    emoticon Little Black Dress

emoticon Gingerbread Cookie?

(Or how 'bout putting the LBD on the GC?)teehee

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AEBROWNSON 11/16/2011 4:37PM

    Really good post! I need to do this, too.

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SHEILA1505 11/16/2011 1:54PM

    Good one!
I think you'll make your way through it just fine, Bess - just believe, with all your strength :)

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MSLZZY 11/16/2011 1:32PM

    Great blog. Think thin and believe! HUGS!

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GOOSIEMOON 11/16/2011 8:24AM

    Great blog post.
You have summed up my thoughts exactly.

Here's to our holiday season as thin people!


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DADDYTREVOR 11/16/2011 7:57AM

    Good teaching.

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Movin' it

Wednesday, November 09, 2011

On November 1 I finally walked back into my gym. I don't even remember why or when I let my commitment to exercise lapse. It happens. It's happened now and then for 30 years so I don't get too bent out of shape about it - emoticon but of course, I do get a little out of shape - which is frequently the trigger to push me back into the gym and I hit that point last week.

So last Tuesday I got out the mat and started with morning yoga - which is a fabulous way to start any day. In addition, I've committed to 30 minutes a day at the gym or a 30 minute lunch time stroll about town. With the exception of Friday - which was a heavy meeting day, and yesterday which was a double ... no ... a triple meeting day - I've managed to stick to that schedule.

Which was the perfect foil to the local Oyster Festival held this weekend and the fried oysters, oyster pie and oyster stew that was ... also a part of my life. I didn't lose any thing but I managed to slide through the weekend without gaining either.

All to the good, of course - the weight thing - but of far more importance are the stress management properties of steady, regular exercise. Work has become extremely taxing - fun taxing, good taxing, but so freaking hard for me I'm almost afraid of it. And this is just the very beginning of the real holiday season - I'm going to be busier than a one arm Christmas tree decorator. If I don't get the endorphin calm of well exercised muscles I am going to get the well padded hips of a very miserable body. And I'll be as cranky as an old Model T.

I knew that. You know it too, don't you?

So. Let's go. Let's move it! Life will be so much better.

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    I'm with you. I'm trying to keep this body moving!

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SHEILA1505 11/9/2011 11:37AM

    What a lovely image that conjures up, Bess!

Well done with getting back to gym and enjoying the endorphin rush :)


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MSLZZY 11/9/2011 7:23AM

    emoticonKeep that positive attitude! HUGS!

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Sobering Scale Stats

Wednesday, November 02, 2011

I have been on the road, often in luxury surroundings, for almost 2 weeks now - with home parties at both ends. Part of me knew I always had the choice to say no thank-you, or to take small portions, at the many lavish dining tables to which I sat down, but the greater part of me was whispering "It's New York, Honey. When will you get this chance again?"

And I was nearly 15 lbs lighter than the last time I was in New York - so my clothes fit nicely, I felt svelte.

But I knew. I knew there would be a price to pay for all the indulging and the piper called for his money yesterday. The scale is up several pounds.

So. was it worth it?

I believe so. It was a special time out of my routine. I don't plan to live that way, only to experience it for a brief time. That brief time is over now. Of course - the number on the scale brought me up short. I've diddled around with 2 lbs for months now - and here I am, with about 5 extra pounds to deal with. That's not a 'diddling' amount.

But I have tools too. First thing - I pulled out the tracker and started with a brand new Day 1 writing down what I ate. I also recommitted to daily exercise, including morning yoga to help me keep my equilibrium during the coming holiday months. I haven't been exercising at ALL, even if I did get all flowery about doing so almost a month ago. Time to change that now.

So - like a sketch that didn't work out, my early autumn plans got scrapped, but that doesn't mean I can't just get a new piece of paper and start a new plan. There is a lot I want to accomplish before January 1 - and a healthy weight is just one of them.

May you have no sobering news today - but should you be so unfortunate - remember - it's just a day. It's just a number. You can choose to make things different.

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BELOVE2013 11/2/2011 10:09AM

    Congratulations on Day One, then! Best of luck!

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READY2DOIT58 11/2/2011 8:39AM

    I spent 2 weeks on vacation also, was a bit bummed about not keeping up with the weight loss I had going but did enjoy our time away and the foods at wonderful restaurants. I just won't continue eating prime rib every day! I'm back on track & like you will start a new day with better choices. Pat

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MSLZZY 11/2/2011 8:06AM

    It's all about attitude and you've got a positive one. You have the tools and knowledge to get back on track. So glad you had a chance to enjoy a break and it was worth it. HUGS!

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JLITT62 11/2/2011 7:50AM

    Great perspective!

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SHEILA1505 11/2/2011 7:28AM

    Oh I do so relate to that - but, yes it's worth it at the time. Glad that you had a great trip - and now it's time to settle down and sort it out.

Isn't it amazing how quickly we can pile it on but it takes seemingly forever to get it off again! Back in June/July I went away for a long weekend of being spoiled :)) and then I spent a month or so "sulking" because I was back home in the normal day-to-day drudgery again - ooops! Anyway, I focussed again - varied my workouts, changed my eating patterns ( up cheese - oh, that was not easy but it's helping - my sinuses are clear too for the first time in forever) ... and I can see the difference - I can see some hollows again!!!

You'll get there again Bess - big hugs xxx

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What's your biggest challenge?

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

We had a bit of discussion about this at yesterday's WW meeting. Of course we all have similar challenges - busy lives, proliferation of valueless but tasty foods, primitive eating habits in an urban world, massive advertising efforts by food companies. My own biggest challenges are two-fold. First, I'm not THAT dissatisfied with how I look and feel right now. Second - I am a process person. I am not all that thrilled by crossing things off of lists and have a hard time feeling the rewards of attaining a goal. In fact, goal reaching is such a daunting thing for me it often triggers both grief and a fatal procrastination so that I don't actually reach goals. I just don't get there.

The biggest project I ever oversaw at work was the building of a new library. Of course I didn't build the thing and there were lots of other people with more authority and more impact on the actual construction process, but I so internalized what was going on that when it was over I wept for 3 months. Needless to say - I won't do something like that again and I hope I don't have to be part of ANY building project again unless it's a studio for me - which is something I really do have authority over.

Well. So. What does all that mean anyway? Does my grief over reaching goals mean I will play around forever with these last 15 lbs? Am I going to just talk the talk without ever walking the walk - away from Mr. Ice Cream Box?

I don't think so.

Because I actually do accomplish things and even actually make permanent changes in my approach to life. I do it by redefining myself. Back in the olden days, when clothing was expensive and when cheap clothing actually meant poorly constructed, I made all my own clothes. For years I would stop sewing on something the minute it was finished enough to wear - if the waistband could be held together with a safety pin, why bother with the button and button hole? If I could iron the facing flat, why tack it at the seams? But one day I really thought about what I was doing and how that defined me and I realized that half-finished just wasn't a definition of me. I was proud that I could pad stitch a lapel. Why wouldn't I honor my creations with completion?

It had less to do with what I did - with any act or even series of acts I performed. It had so much more to do with how I defined myself. Who I believed I was.

So. The question is - do I believe I am a slender woman who eats consciously with knowledge and wisdom or do I believe I'm a slap-dash gal who packs away a bit carelessly. I rather like the slap dash gal - but .... do I want to be her any more?

It's something to think about, isn't it?

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MSLZZY 10/19/2011 10:19PM

    Quite a point you made. I am the ultimate competitive type so I have to finish what I start with no shortcuts. Am I always happy? No, driven is more the word and I need to drive less and enjoy more. HUGS!

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AEBROWNSON 10/19/2011 9:33AM

    Bess, you and I are two peas in a pod! Once I hit my goal weight I immediately gain ed 11 pounds and have been messing around there ever since. Candy is my downfall, and now we're.un candy season!

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DWYER1952 10/19/2011 7:55AM

  biggest challenge..not snacking while watching TV..not only at night ..anytime

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BESSHAILE 10/19/2011 7:49AM

    Yes. A gal can FAKE a finish but can she honor the work done - HER work done - if she does?

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JLITT62 10/19/2011 7:42AM

    I guess it's the old any job worth doing is worth doing right, right? I can definitely relate! For yrs I never blocked knitting projects - but yes, it really makes a difference.

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The Party Season

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

I love the months between Labor Day and Christmas. The cooler weather energizes me. The shorter days give me a cozy, snuggle down at home feeling. The delicious Monday Holidays give me my favorite gift - TIME. Best of all - it's fun to cook once again.

I must not be the only one who feels this way, either, because come September, the party season begins. First is my birthday and not many weeks later is a special anniversary Himself and I share. There are 3 other family birthdays in this quarter of the year too. Plus, of course, all the charity functions that wait till September to host galas and fundraisers. And friends who have been longing to get together issue irresistible invitations.

I am sure you can guess where this is going - and it's not up on a podium to sing about my successful weight management, either. Because last week was back to back dining opportunities - dining? No. Foodie extravaganzas. And while I overindulged - I am not positive I had any fun doing it. I was so anxious about how much this was going to cost me I guess I tried to jinx the effects of Gorgonzola crumbles stuffed in olives wrapped in wilted spinich or grilled scallops wrapped in bacon by that old southern custom of denial. "It doesn't count if I didn't enjoy it".

Only, of course, it did count and the tally showed up yesterday at weigh-in. No play money for me this week. I'm still dancing around that same old 2 lb weight gain/weight loss that I've toyed with for 2 months. grrrr.

Because I know it was my own fault - because certainly nobody tied my hands behind my back and forced succulent tidbits into my mouth. We're heading into the major big party holiday season. I need to know what I'm facing and I need a defense strategy or I will end up in 2012 with a body I am not happy with. But I want to savor and enjoy every bit of this happy busy season. Whew. this is a wrestling match - or as they say around here - a wrasseling match.

Okay - what do I know - what are the tough days up ahead.


Yikes! and we're not even past Halloween.

so what can I do about it?

1. add 15 minutes more exercise to my routines
2. always have a broth based soup on hand - or the ingredients to make it.
3. get real about how much ice cream I am eating - and how frequently
4. perhaps most important of all - meditate before a party type event - think about it - walk myself through it

I guess what I'm saying is - it's a constant effort to remind myself that I'm serious about this. For now, for me, it's not a mindless effort but a conscious one.

And you'll be glad to know that I actually began DOING this last night - when, at the point when I'd really eaten all my points/calories - and I still hadn't had any ice cream ... I decided to have an apple instead.

yes. I have to think about it and act deliberately rather than mindlessly - but ... the rewards will be worth it.

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JLITT62 10/12/2011 1:04PM

    Excellent job!


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MSLZZY 10/12/2011 7:07AM

    Think and act delibrately-now there's a plan! HGS!

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SHEILA1505 10/12/2011 7:01AM

    I love that - it didn't count, if I didn't enjoy it!!!! Good choice to eat the apple instead of ice cream - and can you go for 15minutes walk as well as the extra 15minutes other exercise?


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