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Baby steps day 11 - Cornbread goeth before a fall

Friday, December 10, 2010

You aren't going to believe this! Or, maybe you will... but it's SO lowering ... it lead to a tumble.

first off, My Bad

1. NO rolls OR bread at lunch with my cousin period! she's my bread temptress and I eat enough bread as it is. ___-X___
2. 30 minutes of fast walking at the gym after work ___0___
3. 5 fruits and vegetables ___x___

Score for yesterday BIG FAT ZERO

so, first off, the biggest My Bad. After all my highfalutten big talk, the delicious winter salad set before me at the restaurant lunch with my beloved cousin came with CORNBREAD!!

If there is anything besides cheese that I have a weakness for it's cornbread. golden, crunchy fragrant cornbread. Corn. the sweetest of the grains. I would forgo gooey chocolate desert for one square of buttery cornbread. And this restaurant that never serves bread with it's meals, plunked down a yellow block of yumminess right in front of my face! That I paid for!!

And I lied to myself saying "Oh. Well. I meant no ADDITIONAL bread, not something that came with the meal". What a big fat goofy whopper THAT was.

And perhaps, deep inside, the rebellious little snot of a wild child said "don't worry, you'll earn at least one point today because you are getting your 5 fruits and vegetables and you'll exercise after work.

Only NOT

Because as I was walking out to my car, preparatory to going to the gym, I twisted my ankle and crashed to the ground. It isn't a bad sprain, just a wrench, but it's too tender to walk on. I know that from past experience. I knew I would have to go home, put it up on the couch and wrap it in ice. It's still tender today and may put paid to my planned christmas shopping trip. But it won't really lay me up for long.

but dang. what a popped balloon yesterday turned out to be.

Ah well. there are Other Balloons and they shan't all pop.

So. what's the plan for today?

1. eat a healthy breakfast
2. call both my parents and tell them how much I love them
3. healthy snacks and water in the car because we are off to the city for a family gathering
4. Journal my eating
5. Walk for hours around the Lewis Ginter Botanical Garden Festival of Lights tonight.

that #2 is to remind myself that a healthy lifestyle isn't just about me ... and loving is always good for us.

Thank Goodness It's Friday, hmmm? hugs to you all.

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SHEILA1505 12/10/2010 10:59AM

    Hope you manage your walk around the pretty lights - look after yourself


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JLITT62 12/10/2010 8:29AM

    Sorry about the ankle AND the cornbread! Life is just cruel sometimes. Altho personally I'd pass up cornbread in a heartbeat for a gooey chocolate dessert.

Then again, I already had chocolate waffles (home made) for breakfast. But at least I planned for that.

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MSLZZY 12/10/2010 7:41AM

    Sorry about the ankle! Just get back on track and the points will add up again! HUGS!

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Baby steps day 10 - mid-point mileposts

Thursday, December 09, 2010

Oh Sheila! Thank you for a fantastic suggestion! Mini-bonuses for making my way along the baby step process!! What a fabulous idea - and how apropriate that today is I'm reporting about day 10. I believe that for every 10 day streak of making at least one point I can add another 15 minutes to my total time off. It will work like this:

1. swim 30 minutes after work ___X___
2. drink extra water all day ... 8 glasses before I go home. I'm going to have a salty dinner tonight and I want to be well flushed out ___-X___ (can you believe it? I forgot!)
3. 5 fruits and vegetables ___X___

Today's score: 1
I earned 2 points for steps 1 and 3, but I have to take away one point for not even trying to do step 2. If I'd remembered, tried and failed, the score would have been zero but if I don't even try at all, I have to subtract a point from the total.

BUT since I have earned at least 1 point every day for the past 10 days - I get the bonus.


Score - 25.5
Bonus score - 3
Total Score = 28.5 or 2 hours and 23 minutes of Time Off In January!!!! Yippeee

It has been about 10 degrees colder this month than usual - with days in the 40's and nights in the low 20's. And it's often been windy, so what ever cold there is has blown right through you. Dark, cold, windy evenings are not conducive to going to a swimming pool and it was especially hard for me to go last night. When my car leaves the library parking lot I turn right to go home and left to go to the gym and man I could feel the magnetic tug on the steering wheel. There was a LOT of pull to go home and snuggle cozily into my cocoon like house.

Interestingly enough, it was the thought of reporting here that I'd blown off my swimming that enabled me to turn to the left. The little imp on my shoulder groused all the way through town (my town is VERY small - it's maybe 30 blocks from the library to the gym - and after that there's only a Walmart and a Lowes and you're out in the country again). But once I'd turned left, there was no turning back till I was finished with my swim.

and wasn't it nice that the water was only cool, not frigid? 30 minutes later I had forgotten I'd ever thought about skipping the gym. good thing, too, since I completely forgot about drinking extra water, because I knew I was having ham for dinner - and the extra salt would need extra flushing. I just... forgot. so today I'll jot down my baby steps on a little card to carry around with me. No excuses today. I want to earn the full 15 minutes today!

So what are today's baby steps?

1. NO rolls OR bread at lunch with my cousin period! she's my bread temptress and I eat enough bread as it is.
2. 30 minutes of fast walking at the gym after work
3. 5 fruits and vegetables

Happy Thursday to you all!

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JLITT62 12/9/2010 6:25PM

    Now imagine it's in the teens when you go swimming. And you have to leave your nice, cozy, already warm home. That's me tonight, but I'm gonna do it -- and am thankful I read your blog. I planned to do it before that, but you gave me that extra nudge.

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MSLZZY 12/9/2010 8:02AM

    Go for it! HUGS!

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SHEILA1505 12/9/2010 6:56AM

I'm delighted that my bonus idea has given you an extra 15minutes! We'll get you that day to yourself before you know it!

BTW - I have no idea how I find all the minutes on my fitness tracker - sometimes I think they double or treble them - but then I have been doing back to back classes for a month or so to get rid of the post-travels muffin-top - Yay! Gone, but in the habit now of doing the classes so I'll carry on - also dancing ends today and tomorrow :(( so I'll have to find substitutes for those hours. Maybe they'll open a Salsa club near me or bring Zumba to my gym?? And Father Christmas's Elves are real, too aren't they?


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Baby steps day 9 - Who was I kidding?

Wednesday, December 08, 2010

I believe somewhere in November I boastfully said I could coast on into Christmas. I mean.... who was I kidding? What planet did I think I was on? And where is my easy ride into an instantly prepared tinseled holiday wonderland? When did I think it all just appeared magically?

Not, mind you, that I am no't having fun right now, but goodness! I am one heck of a lot busier than I intended to be. And there's nothing for it but to just keep on pluggin' on.

so - how did I do yesterday? well. I went 4 for 4!

1. 30 miinutes fast walking at the gym ___X__
2. pack lunch AND snacks just in case. I may be going out with a girlfriend but just in case... ___X___
3. 8 glasses of water ___X___
4. (so I can catch up to my goal) 5 fruits and vegetables ___X___

Score 24.5 ... 2 hours and 3 minutes! If that were all I earned it would mean I could leave work at 3 o'clock one day. But I'm aiming for that all day treat and I really am thinking of another spa day like I had last June.

The next big family party is coming up on Friday and this is NOT a foodie party. Cousins and friends are gathering at a beautiful botanical garden in Richmond to traipse around the whimsically lighted plantings, peek into the Victorian conservatory filled with 30 foot Christmas trees, orchids and elf houses, sip hot chocolate around a fire pit and watch the model trains in action. Temperatures are promising to be in the low 30's and I have made pages and pages of Christmas carol lyrics in large type for us to sing from in the dim colored night air. Nobody is hosting this family gathering but I've been the coordinator. Just thinking about it makes me happy. And what will I remember when we gather in the cafeteria for pre-ambulatory meal? SOUP! (chanting soup soup soup so I don't forget)

But for today what shall I do?

1. swim 30 minutes after work
2. drink extra water all day ... 8 glasses before I go home. I'm going to have a salty dinner tonight and I want to be well flushed out
3. 5 fruits and vegetables

Stay warm ... or cool, you naughty Southern hemispherians

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MSLZZY 12/8/2010 7:35AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon4 for 4!

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RWALTON730 12/8/2010 7:11AM

    You are doing GREAT! I need your determination and perseverance.

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SHEILA1505 12/8/2010 7:08AM

    OK Bess - trying to stay cool today - more than 32*C outdoors and about 24*C indoors - so laundering the family room curtains (drapes??) Also had an aqua class and that was cool, followed by hot and sweaty BodyWorx :))

doing well with your mini-goals and earning those precious minutes - don't forget when you have had a good long streak of good behavious, to give yourself a bonus :) And also don't forget at the end of the challenge to round up your time to the next hour :))

Big hugs

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RIDLEYRIDER 12/8/2010 6:52AM

  I admire your determination! Keep up the good work! Small successes will lead to the bigger ones! emoticon

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Baby steps day 8 - forgetting!

Tuesday, December 07, 2010

Thanks everyone, for your kind words, not just yesterday but this past whole week. Yesterday was spent with Himself at the eyedoctor, a check-up after the Thanksgiving surgery. Then we went to see Daddy and tell him about his old buddy's son. There's always a risk, with Daddy, and probably with any elderly, of stirring up strong emotions. The biggest thing Daddy ever did was go to war and his reaction to bringing back those stories and memories was mixed. I knew it would be. At one point he fluttered his hands in front of his face and said "So many feelings are rushing at me" and I realized that I do exactly the same thing when I'm stirred. We get so many things from our parents - even gestures.

All in all, it was the most alive I've seen him in over a year. I'll be getting him in contact with the 12 armored division's veteran association so I hope some other people reach out to him. He doesn't "do" computers.

As for my goals. well ... here:

1. pack healthy nibbles ___X___
2. 8 glasses of water (pack that too) ___X___
3. Put my fork (or sandwich) down between every bite wherever we have lunch today. Eat S L O W L Y ___-___ OOOPS - don't like this, because I not only loose this point but have to subtract a point from the total.

Score 20.5 or 1 hour and 43 minutes of time off in January!!

I really forgot to do that last one. I certainly ate deliberately, but I just forgot. Not at lunch, because that was just soup in the car and it was hot. You have to eat THAT slowly. but now I write this I realize another beneft of soup. You CAN'T eat hot soup fast so by the time you've finished it your brain is getting the All Full signal. Hmm. I believe I will start serving a Hot Soup appetizer around here.

But we ended up in town till way late so we stopped on the way home and had dinner - and then I forgot. I just gobbled at first. I was SO hungry.

Ahh well. I don't mind giving up the point this time because I GAINED 10 points worth of insight.

And for today?

1. 30 miinutes fast walking at the gym
2. pack lunch AND snacks just in case. I may be going out with a girlfriend but just in case...
3. 8 glasses of water
4. (so I can catch up to my goal) 5 fruits and vegetables

And so - mere weeks away from Christmas - I hope you are snug and warm and on schedule.

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LUNADRAGON 12/7/2010 12:13PM

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I am sure you are really dealing with some very powerful overwhelming emotions and things in your family's lives right now.

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AEBROWNSON 12/7/2010 9:17AM

    Ah, soup!!! Sounds so good today here where it is 8 degrees...-3 windchill. Thanks for your insight, which has now become mine! emoticon

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SHEILA1505 12/7/2010 7:39AM

    Doing well! And yes, great insight - hot soup is a good filler-upper

Glad Dad didn't react badly

Doors and windows wide open - bathing in the summer warmth :))
Sorry - couldn't resist

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Baby steps day 7 - when a bolt from the blue hits you

Monday, December 06, 2010

Yesterday, something so momentous, so joyous, so ... not just unexpected, but unimagined, happened, I am still somewhat trembling and shaking and weeping about it. It hasn't yet played out but I'm going to tell you the opening part because it's too big for me to hold it inside.

My daddy is a WWII vet. At 19 he was drafted into the army and ended up in the 12th armored division, 43 tank battalion. While still in boot camp he made friends with a man from California and they went through everything together. His buddy had left behind a pregnant wife. In January of 1945 their battalion was sent to take out a German position in Herrlisheim and in that fight all but 3 of the 43rd's tanks were destroyed. Dad's friend was bow gunner with their captain and their tank was the first one hit. It was so thoroughly destroyed there was nothing left of dad's pal. He was listed MIA.

After the war, when censorship was lightened dad wrote to his friend's widow, telling her of his friend's final days. That was the last they ever spoke and for 65 years my dad has told me about this terrible loss. I believe he'd remember this man after he has forgotten his children. A war friendship is unique and indelible.

And through the miracle of the internet, facebook and computer databases, that man contacted a cousin and she passed his info on to me. I tracked him down and called him yesterday with the news he'd been seeking for years - that Daddy is still alive.

For me it's as if some mythological character stepped out of the mists of history. It is an unbelievable experience to get in touch with the son of a man my father still remembers, still mourns. Daddy is in assisted living now and he's old, crotchety, and his memory is short ... but it is still vividly clear. When I know he's awake, I'll call him and tell him about this man - and in the afternoon I'll be visiting him and I have arranged to connect them via telephone.

My dad and I have a very complex relationship, with kinks and twists and some very good things too, but one thread of it is that I was his War Daughter. Oh - not born during it, but I was the one he shared that side of his life with - at least what tiny bit of sharing he did. I went to all the war movies with him. I would ask questions. For the most part he would never ever talk about his war experiences, but now and then little bits would trickle out and he would share them with me. It helped me understand some of the inexplicable things about him. And then, I was the only daughter who lived near by and whom he saw grow into an adult. My other sisters all left in their teens and only returned for visits. They were still his little girls. He could see I wasn't a little girl.

Anyway - yesterday was a day so full of emotions that almost nothing I'd planned happened. Never got the house cleaned. Didn't cook any dinner. but altogether things went pretty good.

1. walk to the landing with Himself (3 miles - added bonus, see if we can get some mistletoe) ___1/2 an x___ I did walk 2 miles but not 3
2. 5 fruits and vegetables ___X_
3. 8 glasses of water ___X___
4. Watch a Christmas movie ___0___

So. It was bitter bitter cold yesterday and I just couldn't keep going into the face of that North wind once we got to the mile point. But I didn't brush off the walk and in the case of getting exercise ... I think being too rigid about this would be creepy. I'm not trying to be obsessive. I just want to hold myself accountable. So. 3 minutes awarded for that

Score 19.5 = 1 hour and 38 minutes.

Today it's doctor visits and long drives so my baby steps will be:

1. pack healthy nibbles
2. 8 glasses of water (pack that too)
3. Put my fork (or sandwich) down between every bite wherever we have lunch today. Eat S L O W L Y

Happy Miraculous Monday to you all.

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LUNADRAGON 12/6/2010 1:34PM

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JUSTDUCKY1405 12/6/2010 9:13AM

    Happy to hear this for you. I can just imagine how amazing this would feel.

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    You're right - my dad saw a lot of action in WWII and entire platoons were taken out in single operations. My dad never spoke to me about the war - the one time I asked he told me to never ask again and so I didn't.

Now he is 87 and bits and pieces come out - no, he never forgot the friends that never made it.

WTG on finding the family your father mourns for.

WTG on staying on track with yourself too!!

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HARPERLADY 12/6/2010 8:16AM

    sounds fantastic! what an experience emoticon

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MSLZZY 12/6/2010 8:10AM

    Wow! What a day you had! HUGS!

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SHEILA1505 12/6/2010 7:33AM

    Isn't the internet incredible for the way it connects people all the time and I do hope that your Dad has a good phone call with this wonderful find

Big hugs

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