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Whew. What a week

Sunday, November 08, 2009

My dear husband has had some serious eye problems over the past 2 years. 2 weeks ago he had what we hoped would be a final eye surgery - alas. It was not to be and when he went in for his checkup on thursday the dr. said "see you on the operating table tomorrow". Alas again - what should have been a 30 minute procedure ended up taking something like 2 hours and he gave us all a scare when his pulse dropped low and refused to climb back up.

This necessitated staying in the city over night - to be close to the doctor and to minimize the overall strain of traveling from our country home so many times.

Saturday morning's check up left us more confident than we had been - and that's a plus.

The other plus was that I was able to eat much more mindfully, much more healthily this time around. Till saturday morning that is - when I learned:

never have a Hardee's breakfast biscuit again. For 600 calories I want something that tastes a heck of a lot better than that.

Ahh well. live and learn. I sure won't do THAT again.

And now it is the beginning of a brand new week. What a gift.

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THEMINT2 11/10/2009 6:33AM

    Will be keeping you and your husband in my prayers that this is the end of his health issues. Pat yourself on the back for making such a quick recovery and even learning a lesson! emoticon

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MSLZZY 11/9/2009 7:16AM

    Every day is a blessing! I hope your husband recovers quickly and your life can return to normal. Aside from the one slip, you seemed to have done well. emoticon

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WYNSONG 11/8/2009 4:18PM

    Glad to hear things are looking more optimistic for your husband's eys.

It is a b.... when you eat something and discover later that it has the same caloric input as a really good meal, all by its lonesome.

Yeah! to new weeks.


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LYRICS2 11/8/2009 2:28PM

  I am glad everything worked out for your husband.

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HEZZYCW 11/8/2009 12:37PM

    I admire your strength! I am glad to hear that your husband has had encouraging reports.

As far as the Hardees biscuit you go girl. Just think of all the other yummy things you can have for the calories... brilliant

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HARPERLADY 11/8/2009 9:09AM

    LOVE LOVE LOVE your attitude, that is a great way to look at fast food and glad things went well at dr emoticon emoticon

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Non Scale Victories

Thursday, November 05, 2009

You know what they are - those moments when you realize you can wear that pair of jeans - buckle that belt around you - look good in dangling earrings - hear a compliment. It's not something you were expecting but it fills you with triumph. And I had one this week - which is a good thing since I did NOT have a scale victory.

My triumph? Ahh well. I have a favorite jacket - it's orange corduroy, fitted, short, and it is my all time favorite piece of clothing. Because it's fitted and shaped I can toss it on over almost any garment and turn it into a serious, if casual business look. I can wear it to a department head meeting and feel professional in spite of the bright color and relaxed fabric. I am a library director - I'm supposed to be sort of arty. But because it's corduroy, I can wear it over jeans and still look sporty. And because it's cotton, I can wear it throughout our upper south fall and winter and spring as outerwear, yet keep it on indoors most of the time. It is the most versatile piece of clothing I own and sometimes I wear it every day of the week.

And sometimes I have to wear it unbuttoned because it is too small for me. It's fabulous cut means you can't tell if it's too small for me when I don't button it - but if it's chilly out and I can't button it, ahhh. Then I don't feel fabulous in it. Then I feel fat-ulous and somewhat miserable. And I know about what weight I am when I have gotten too big for this jacket - which is within a pound or two of where I am now. So, though I'd brought it out of summer storage a few weeks ago I hadn't yet put it on.

"It'll be too tight and I don't want to feel bad right at the beginning of my spark people journey" I told myself. "I'll wait till the scale puts me back in the 'fit' zone" I thought. "Not yet"

Only yesterday I really did need to look professional at the department head meeting. So I pulled it on over my skirt and blouse.

And then I buttoned it -easily.

And I let out a whoop of joy because this was a real victory. One month of working out, 3 weeks of fitting in weight training twice a week and 2.5 weeks of getting serious with the SP meal plan and nutrition tracker and look at me. That scale may have not moved a hair this week but this body is definitely taking up less space in the world and that favorite jacket fits me like it was made for me and buttons up with a little wiggle room to spare.

A True Non Scale Victory! Yippee!! emoticon

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DAYHIKER 11/6/2009 6:56AM

    emoticon The REAL NSV was you keeping up every day with the program in order to make that jacket fit!! Good job!!

Stay Strong!

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WEDDWT 11/5/2009 1:06PM

    Fatulous to Fabulous, I could use a jacket like that!
Here's some matching emoticonorange emoticonworkout emoticonclothes emoticon

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JENNYLYNN45 11/5/2009 9:58AM

    LOVE those non=scale victories! You go girl!


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BUSYMOMTO3PLUS6 11/5/2009 7:07AM

    Way to go!! Sometimes those non-scale victories are even bigger than watching the scale! Keep up the great work!

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MSLZZY 11/5/2009 7:06AM

    emoticon We all put too much emphasis on the scale! You had a wonderful victory story to share. emoticon

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Day Off Guilt - gotta deal with it

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

A day off from exercise, that is. In my great rush of enthusiasm for all things Healthy Living I did rather vigorous workouts, especially lower body workouts, 3 days in a row. Two longer sessions with the elliptical machine at the gym and a 30 minute step session at home left my thighs complaining. I know the rules - especially when it comes to strength training - give those muscles a 24 hour break. And though step and elliptical are both cardio exercises, they're also lower body weight training. At least, in my book they are. Those thighs are basically doing the same thing they do when I use the leg press machines and Tuesday they told me they needed a rest!


So they got their day off and today they feel better for it and ready to jump back on the ... well, the track or the elliptical or just back out there exercising. But there is still this niggling bit of guilt. This nagging sense of "oh ho - so you're slacking off now, are you? Quitting already?"

Now, the good wise sane part of me knows that I needed a rest and I ate sensibly and drank plenty of water yesterday. In short - I had a healthy day of rest yesterday. More importantly - this time I chose to rest, I didn't choose to skip exercise. But my recent history of slothful non-exercise is enough to bring on Mr.Doubt to taunt me.

Well. I hear him but I refuse to believe him. I will show him that past digressions notwithstanding, I am at the beginning of a long life of healthy living. I'll be back out there today, getting some good, steady cardio exercise. The blood will course through my body, sending all those rich nutrients I'm eating to the places that are hungry. Endorphins released from my brain will wipe away guilt and lift me to a nice runner's high. And while I'm moving I will remember that the whole point of this is to feel good as I live the second half of my life - not to feel unjustified and worthless guilt about some artificial setting, number, level or standard.

The true goal is a fulfilled life. So there. I have banished guilt today!

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WYNSONG 11/4/2009 3:33PM

    Saying no to something, even something like exercise (which we want to do) is also saying Yes to yourSelf,
I was taught that any time I'm feeling guilty, then I'm operating on somebody else's rules...because if they were my rules I'd be doing it. So you are operating on the principles of healthy living by allowing healthful rest. Healthy choices is your rule, if I'm reading correctly, so you are totally on track, even when you are deliberately off of it.

So does Mr Doubt have another name?


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MSLZZY 11/4/2009 10:31AM

    Taking a day easy means you will not have to take days off from overdoing a good thing.
Enforced inactivity due to an injury is much worse! Tell Mr Guilt to take a vacation emoticon

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HARPERLADY 11/4/2009 8:24AM

    I am taking today off myself but I will be back at it tomorrow with a good attitude, I have noticed that I hear that voice and I am learning not to listen, trying to keep a healthy attitude is one of the best things w can do for ourselves and looks like you are doing great emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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WEBAKERS 11/4/2009 7:33AM

    Great attitude! Today is my off day as well and I know how you feel!

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Diets are like boyfriends

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

Several years ago I took off a substantial amount of weight following WW. In typical modern American fashion I have put about half of it back on again and the resulting discomfort, sluggishness and unstylish shape have at last combined to get me up and doing something about the situation At Last!

I run a public library. I probably have ALL the current and former popular diet books on my shelves. Some I bought because they were the hot titles. Some because people asked me to. Some I bought because I had faith in them. But all of them share one thing in common. Though they may feel like little miracles in hardback, they are just books. Each one is like a new boyfriend full of promise, sleek looking, telling you how wonderful it will be if you just trust him. And like boyfriends, some w"ill prove to be faithful supporters and some will ... shall I say, "Not respect you in the morning.

In the beginning of October I flirted with some of those restrictive diets, reading the books and pondering if I could ever follow those plans. No fruit for 2 weeks? No red meat? No milk in your coffee? A little draconian here, me thinks. Yet although I'd had success with WW, this time around I needed - I craved - a little more structure. Alas, the diets that promised the most were way too restrictive and my old faithful was just too familiar. To continue the boyfriend analogy, WW was more like the boy next door. WW is like a husband, who tells you all the time that you are as beautiful as the day he met you (maybe decades and decades ago - lord love failing eyesight), that you're as slim as a breeze (cyclone breeze, maybe) and that he likes you just the way you are. Nice. Wonderful, really, and exactly what a HUSBAND is supposed to say. But we are talking boyfriends here, so we are looking for something a little unfamiliar, something new, with a few surprises but with true potential.

It took me till mid month to finally give SP a chance and it had just the right blend of "hey, you live in the real world" flexibility and "this is what you ought to try today" structure. One of the things that is a strain on a woman of a certain age, who has cooked somewhere around 14,000 dinners so far, is coming up with one more interesting meal. When everything I know how to cook seems as boring as death, the thought of What to Cook for Dinner is utterly depressing. That is when take home pizza or barbecue lures me over to the dark side. And that is where the SP meal plan steps up to the plate like a really great date with a brand new boyfriend. I can pull up the day's meals, see if they sound good, swap some dishes out for others that match whatever's in my kitchen already, and then dine in comfort knowing I'm within a nutritious and calorie controlled range without all the chemicals of frozen diet meals! In short, the SP suggestions leave me confident that I'll still respect myself in the morning.

Better yet if I print out the weekly meal plan and shopping list and follow the plan for a whole week, I find I'm actually saving money. Where I'm often tempted to pick up just a little treat, while shopping, with the SP list in my hand I can just fill in the kitchen gaps and get away.

Really good boyfriends, the trustworthy, interesting, kind hearted types, usually become permanent fixtures in your life. Really good boyfriends turn into husbands. I am thinking that a really good eating plan might just stick around and support me and compliment me in the same way.

I just gotta say it. Heart you SP. Heart you more and more!

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MSLZZY 11/3/2009 10:55PM

    That's a very interesting way of looking at diets. I loved this! Make sure you return all those boyfriends to the library. I've heard the book fines are steep LOL!

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HARPERLADY 11/3/2009 12:46PM

    I agree with you there, I have been on WW,atkins, well you name it and then I get all hyped up go out and by food to accommodate the diet , I got sick of wasting money worring about points or whatever. emoticon

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WEDDWT 11/3/2009 10:42AM

    How blessed I am that my trustworthy, interesting, funny, smart, kind-hearted bf became my DH. How blessed I am that I met Sparkpeople where I learned to see food in a new way, making a commitment to better health. Recently had a 27yr wedding anniversary and a 7mo Sparkversary. Love my husband and


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JENNYLYNN45 11/3/2009 10:35AM

    Interesting analogy! I can relate. Some diets don't respect you in the morning,...they give you big promises..then they leave you empty... and waiting by the phone! And then nothing! And you're wondering..."Why did I waste my time?"
Mercy! I've read so many books...spent so much money!
The only thing that works is swapping bad habits for good ones. Teaching yourself to eat better, only buy what's good, and teaching yourself moderation.
I'm hooked on Spark!
I see a loooonng future together!


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NICOLEMARIE0304 11/3/2009 10:02AM

    Cute post! Hopefully this will turn out to be a long lasting & beautiful relationship :) Best of luck!

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Exercise as a class issue

Monday, November 02, 2009

So here I am on the first fresh Monday morning in November and the one thing I am thinking about is - my gym visit after work today. After work, a meeting with the CPA and the dr.'s office. That's right. Exercise has taken over my life. At least - it's creeping up there into first place and I am glad. Lots of other things have had their turn at Pride of Place in the Life-0-Bess. It's time my muscles, bones, and stamina got their turn.

Yup. I am SPARKED! emoticon

Exercise was deeply frowned upon by my darling, but misguided, mama. To her, sweat meant manual labor and she struggled too hard to get away from a childhood of that. Her values all clustered around intellectual and artistic activities and in our home nothing was spared when it came to art classes, music, or academic activities. But sports? Movement? Exercise - even dance - was just that nasty thing that made you sweaty - and we all know that sweaty means .... low class. Yes. For mama, sweat was a cultural and social marker that her girls were not going to sink to.

I myself don't care for sports, preferring to compete against myself and what I did yesterday than to win over another. But moving my body is truly something I love doing. It makes me happy. It makes me feel powerful. It makes me feel like I could soar above the clouds with just a single leap.

So why am I coming BACK to exercise?

Well, at least I am coming back and not staying away. I live the same life everybody else does. I have calm periods when life opens up and lets me do the things I want to do. I have stressful periods that suck up time and energy. I am always amazed that I drift away from exercise because I love it so and I love how it makes me feel but I am always amazed at how quickly you can get out of the routine, out of the habit of feeling great and into the habit of feeling slothful.

The past few years had added issues. I took a terrible fall some years ago and did some serious damage to my neck and shoulder. It took forever to get some sort of diagnosis from any of our local doctors but when I finally did, there had been enough healing that surgery seemed like overkill. The Good Doctor I have now says "let me know if it starts to bother you and we will take a different tack". I can see that one shoulder is lower than the other now, but the pain issues are gone and I believe (and so does the dr.) that stronger muscles everywhere else will support the weaker places. I may never need surgery.

OH la - is this too much information? hmmm.

Well. anyway - a month of almost daily activity - starting slowly and growing both longer and more intense every day, has suddenly kicked me back up into a an old familiar fitness level. Now my body is craving exercise. It hungers for the rush, the heat, the glow of sweat. Last week I got off the elliptical trainer and my thighs had that wonderful warm pulsing feeling that tells me they hit their maximum effort. Saturday I got in that full body strength training session and felt like I could fly home. And yesterday I pulled out my old friend - my soft step - a hard foam block for doing step routines, I put on my favorite Brazilian Foro CD and did an old step routine I learned back in the early '90's.

Today I am full of morning energy - granted I always have morning energy - but I know it'll stand by me all day long. And already I can feel my body sort of going back into place - not all fluffing out in soft rolls, but kind of packing back into my torso the way it's supposed to be.

Oh mama - you were soooo wrong about sweat. It's not a sign of low class - it's a sign of high health!

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SHANNONSTILLS 11/2/2009 7:21AM

  excellent post

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