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Exercise sloth. Where does it come from?

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

You must first understand that I love exercise. I really emoticon it. I love it most when it's just that - exercise - not sports. I really emoticon most sports unless I'm just watching. I love how exercise puts me in touch with my body. I love how I can feel a muscle growing stronger or stretching longer. I crave the pleasure of cool down as I come back from some special effort to a resting state, with a slightly different - slightly better - body. It's no surprise to me that I'm having such a good time with Yoga, but I even like calesthenics!


Why would I ever ever choose to not exercise? Who is doing the deciding here?

I think it is the Left Brain Lady with the Things To Do List. I think she's looking at a clock and saying "you needed more sleep so you got up late so you don't have time to exercise."

I'm positive about this because as soon as I had that thought my muscles began to contract and somewhere deep inside a whining tantrum began - I'm positive that whine is from my Right Brain Wild Child who cried "You never let me do anything! I'm never going to get to exercise again and the only thing left to do is have chocolate muffins for breakfast."

Okay - I made up that last bit. I don't even like chocolate muffins, but I see that, as the Left Brain tried to back pedal with offers of after work workouts, only ooops, I really ought to drive over to the city and visit my sick mama, so no probably have to skip the workout today, but it's only one day, my Right Brain had that bitter let down sensation that is only ever assuaged by Other Gooey Things To Eat that put on weight.

So there - you'd think it was the RB Wild Child who was full of sloth - after all that's the emotional side of the brain, but it's NOT slothful. It's deprived and resentful. It is the Left Brain Task Master who doesn't really think exercise is a priority and is always willing to strike that off her TTD List in lieu of Other More Important Things.

Well, Miss School Marm Left Brain - too bad. I'm on a mission to see that the Wild Child's healthy desires are always rewarded. Because I know that when she's thwarted - she can do a the kind of damage that takes miles of Things To Do Lists to undo.

And with that - I'm off to do my Powah Yogah routine.


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ALIMESSA 5/19/2010 4:47PM

    Great blog...and so can accomplish so much more when you take care of yourself and make exercise a have more energy, are more efficient, etc!!

YOU GO, GIRL!! Good luck...and enjoy your yoga!

As always,
Stay Strong!

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CRAVE_FREE 5/19/2010 9:37AM

    emoticon Glad you're balancing it all out!

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Plateaus and a few words about housework

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

One of the trivia questions this morning was "how many calories do you burn a year doing housework"

the answer is 50,000

about 14 lbs! Man - I ought to weigh zero by now.

but of course we all know that it's calories IN, calories burned, not just calories burned. and in spite of the marathon housework of last weekend plus the routine efforts throughout the year (I would say I am an average housekeeper) I'm not seeing the scale budge. I've called this a plateau but I know it isn't. I know it's because I have been eating more calories than I can count. I've eaten out a lot lately - mostly at lunch time and I have touched nary a salad. Two new restaurants have opened up in my area and I've been sampling them with different friends.

Well. It has all been fun and it's all been good but it's time to stop. If I want to wear That Dress ever at all I have to buckle down and get serious about what goes IN as well as what goes out. Time to limit those restaurant lunches and make better choices when I'm eating out.

I knew that.

I was just testing....

Off to AM yoga.

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GENIEJENN 5/18/2010 3:51PM

    Keep up the good work! emoticon

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ALIMESSA 5/18/2010 2:37PM

    Good luck buckling can do it!!

As always,
Stay Strong!!

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AEBROWNSON 5/18/2010 11:17AM

    Maybe you just need to do more housework...mine is available! emoticon

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MERALO 5/18/2010 10:15AM

    GOOD news is that the scale DIDN'T could have gained too! Well done on that, your housework workout is doing something!

And you've learned enough to know that now you need to return to your program and you know just how to do it!

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CRAVE_FREE 5/18/2010 8:42AM

    It was a lovely break from being buckled down, and now that you're ready to get back to it, I know you can do it!

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SHEILA1505 5/18/2010 8:17AM

time to try the salads?


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KELLY1778 5/18/2010 8:07AM

  Sometimes its just so hard to resist, just take one day at time and we will all get there.Willpower is the most important thing..

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Ooops - forgetting my promises to my wild child.

Monday, May 17, 2010

On Friday I promised myself I would pull out the RightBrain/LeftBrain journal and do some serious writing about an issue that I feel underpins a lot of my failures and worries.

And then I forgot.

I forgot because when I was lying on the floor after Powah Yogah I could see just how much dust was beneath the furniture - how many cob webs were in the ceilings - and how much dust was floating in the morning sunshine as it streamed through the French doors. I forgot because I'm going on vacation next week and I didn't want to spend the first half of it doing a major scrubbing. I forgot because ... well ... possibly because I didn't want to dig deeply into some of those murky places in my psyche.

the issue that needs attention is my irrational fears about doing New Things for which I Am Responsible. Mostly at work, since at this point in my life I've gotten over the Fear Of New Things in my personal life. I don't do that many personal things that are frighteningly new. The last time I took on a non-work Big Deal New Task was when my cousin and I took over the family reunion. And for the first few years I agonized over getting the mailings out and the addresses corrected and doing it in time and now, after I've done it all these years I don't worry at all. I realize that my concept of perfection is way higher than anything anybody expects of me.

But when it comes to my work life ... ugh. And this week there is a Big Deal New Thing I have to see through to the end. I can't say why it agonizes me and Wild Child Right Brain says we can talk about it. We were supposed to on Saturday.

But she also said ....

I want a porch. A Beautiful Calm Peaceful Porch - and since what I had was a filthy, cluttered, still in its winter crud back porch with icky furniture on it - that's what I tackled this weekend. And you know - something about meeting a deep inner need must have shown on my face because Himself turned in and did all the heavy work, including scrubbing the porch floor!!! AND offered to mend the glider and make new tops for the ugly card tables we use out there.

So - I fulfilled some of my promises and delayed others - but I will have next week to think about the murky fear thing ... next week. On Vacation. At Tara. Where the porch is sparkly clean.

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ALIMESSA 5/17/2010 11:56AM

    House of my personal goals that I am trying to get better at! So many other things take priority, but it's pretty bad when the dust bunnies turn into tumble weeds...and that's what they have become at my house!! You've motivated really does feel better around here when things are clean! Congrats on the work to your porch...

Have fun on vacation and good luck with the "murky fear thing".

As always,
Stay Strong!!

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MYFEETHURT 5/17/2010 7:48AM

  Ugh...I'm afraid I'm looking at similar dust bunnies...multiplying as I type...little particles floating through my sunbeam every morning...and a backyard that needs to look like spring...not left over winter. I'm going to use your success story to boost my "let's get going" attitude this bright Monday morning. Good luck on the work project... emoticon

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Taking time to exercise makes time for other things!

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Okay - you know all the benefits of exercise - increased strength, greater stamina, firmer body, smaller clothes. And the medical benefits might even mean getting off medicines or taking less which means more $ in your pocket. But it suddenly hit me yesterday, after completing a serious major spring house clean job - that because I am stronger and fitter and have more stamina - I can tackle these gargantuan life tasks - like whole house cleaning - and not need to spend the next 24 hours in bed recovering!

A whole house clean usually takes about 6 hours of up and down stairs and vacuuming and not just damp mopping but actually scrubbing that downstairs bathroom floor. It's getting the big step ladder out and cleaning off the ceilings and fan blades - which is more up and down climbing. (my ceilings are all 10 feet high) It's aiming the vacuum hose under the beds and under the dressers - which is a lot of on your knees effort. It's hauling 3 baskets of laundry from the upstairs washing machine to the downstairs clothes line then back up stairs to the bedrooms. It's up and down and lift and tote and really quite a workout. Normally this wipes me out about 2 or 3 o'clock and sometimes I'm not good for anything the next day either.

But steady efforts the past few months, with powah yogah added last week, have increased my strength and stamina to the point that when I got through yesterday ... I didn't need ibuprofen and a nap. Granted, I sat down and enjoyed a nice spate of knitting, but by choice, and there weren't any aching muscles.

I hadn't really thought about a fitter body actually giving me time - because most of the time I am having to battle with the "I'm too busy to exercise" arguments from my Bossy, Things-To-Do School Marm brain. This realization that being stronger gives me more time since I won't need to go lie down to recover from effort - Ha! I see this rebuttal defeating the I'm too busy argument every time.

I feel one notch closer to living that healthy fit life. woo woo. Still and all - May your house never get as dirty as mine does.

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JKTENTATIVE 5/16/2010 1:33PM

    Great insight! Thanks for sharing.

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SHEILA1505 5/16/2010 12:35PM

You have a very good point here.
Yesterday and late last night I was getting ready (around lots of other things like lunch with friends, rugby match with DB) for a family celebration at my house. This involved a Blitz clean lick and a promise, doing all the food from scratch and the drinks and glasses etc. The "party" dishes were thick with dust cos I'm usually too lazy to entertain on my own.
I coped. I did everything. I hosted the party for all of us and cleared and everything is away again. As you say - no ibuprofen, no resting and no stress! Progress!! Do you think we might have had a break-through - I do hope so!

Hugs and love

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MERALO 5/16/2010 10:00AM

    I love this! Wonderful echoed my thoughts too...enjoy all that free time you have now...

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ALEXTHEHUNN 5/16/2010 9:42AM

    What an interesting observation: that being fitter actually gives you more time. I'd not thought of that before.

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PLAYBLUES22 5/16/2010 8:59AM

    Great way to get your exercises in emoticon

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ALIMESSA 5/16/2010 8:36AM

    Great blog...a good reminder that exercise really does benefit you in so many ways that you don't even realize!! The benefits of exercise are endless and will last us a lifetime...too bad cleaning the house doesn't last that long! LOL!!

As always,
Stay Strong!!

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JABCLUB 5/16/2010 8:32AM

    Good job!!! You've inspired me to get an earlier start on my list of chores today, too. Also reminds me I need to clean that crown molding (I have high ceilings, too)! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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RUBIAFIRE 5/16/2010 8:21AM

    Good luck on your journey.

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Mercury retrograde, yoga, and disasters. Oh My

Friday, May 14, 2010

Wednesday, Mercury returned to a forward motion in the astrological skies, with the promise of one last kick in the pants for all things communicating, including technology things. I botched a piece of code for my library website (now corrected) I was unable to get a .jpg file of an important image we need. and I inadvertently deleted the email address associated with my personal blog - a diary I have kept since January of 2003.

I didn't know this till a friend contacted me with the information that my blog was no longer available, but as I read her email I saw each step I took to delete my precious blog in my memory ... each stupid uninformed thoughtless step. And I've contacted the google folk who own Blogger and who knows. there might be a way to fix it ... but I have deep serious doubts.

But my friends - as sorry as I am about this - somehow it just doesn't bleed that much. I thought it would. There are the many posts with photos about our trip to England, there is the detailed account of making a wedding dress from 10 yards of gorgeous 100% silk satin, there are bucolic reminiscences of strolls through the countryside with my husband and our dogs, which he christened "The Wheat Dolphins" once while watching them sproing above the swaying green heads, then disappear back beneath the waves of grass. There are birthdays and Holidays and family things - moments of sudden inspiration, a few posts that might be of literary value, and some stories that touched the hearts of others. This is a written account of the past 7 years of my life and there are no other copies of it.

I feel this loss. I am really sad about it. But I am not ... devastated. Not crushed. In some way I just see it as one of those moments of breaking. Have you ever had a special object - maybe a fine Waterford crystal vase or some a piece of Sevres china that hit the ground and shattered. That's how I feel. Completely aware of the loss - and completely aware of where it fits in the grand universe. As a thing. An event. A sadness. The flip side of a gift, creation, a joy.

I think it is my daily yoga that put me in the frame of mind to cope with such a loss. Daily Yoga, added to meditation and prayer, seems to be the physical part that was missing - the body part integrating with the spiritual. And for that, I am deeply grateful.

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KEC1974 5/18/2010 7:00AM

    Love your blog! So glad I found it!

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MSLZZY 5/14/2010 11:35PM

    You made your peace with the situation-positive. Maybe it is the yoga!

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MERALO 5/14/2010 2:16PM

    Mercury in Retrograde can wreak havoc! I've been there and the results are usually sorry it affected you.

Perhsps you'll get lucky and Blogger will find your files...they usually keep these things stashed away somewhere, nothing is every completely gone in the online world. Holding thumbs for you!

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SHEILA1505 5/14/2010 1:42PM

    Some moments, or more, of sadness mourning its loss would be more than justified. As you have accepted, no amount of ranting, raving, weeping or wailing is going to change the situation and bring it back. You can still mutter some expletives, if you like!
You have your memories, and others have had the joy of reading about them and now you are going to make a whole lot more.

Hugs and love

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CRAVE_FREE 5/14/2010 12:51PM

    You seem very grounded about the whole situation. It must be all your thinner peace plus yoga. I still hope they can recover it for you!

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ELLFIN3 5/14/2010 11:45AM

    I agree! We are having major computer problems at work! I broke my favorite solid amethyst ring( by dropping it on the tile floor)! I was very upset! But there will be other rings and the computer will get fixed one way or another!! This are things and even though they are important things, there more important things, health family, friends that are much more important!! Hang in there!!

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