Wednesday, May 19, 2010
You must first understand that I love exercise. I really it. I love it most when it's just that - exercise - not sports. I really most sports unless I'm just watching. I love how exercise puts me in touch with my body. I love how I can feel a muscle growing stronger or stretching longer. I crave the pleasure of cool down as I come back from some special effort to a resting state, with a slightly different - slightly better - body. It's no surprise to me that I'm having such a good time with Yoga, but I even like calesthenics!
Why would I ever ever choose to not exercise? Who is doing the deciding here?
I think it is the Left Brain Lady with the Things To Do List. I think she's looking at a clock and saying "you needed more sleep so you got up late so you don't have time to exercise."
I'm positive about this because as soon as I had that thought my muscles began to contract and somewhere deep inside a whining tantrum began - I'm positive that whine is from my Right Brain Wild Child who cried "You never let me do anything! I'm never going to get to exercise again and the only thing left to do is have chocolate muffins for breakfast."
Okay - I made up that last bit. I don't even like chocolate muffins, but I see that, as the Left Brain tried to back pedal with offers of after work workouts, only ooops, I really ought to drive over to the city and visit my sick mama, so no probably have to skip the workout today, but it's only one day, my Right Brain had that bitter let down sensation that is only ever assuaged by Other Gooey Things To Eat that put on weight.
So there - you'd think it was the RB Wild Child who was full of sloth - after all that's the emotional side of the brain, but it's NOT slothful. It's deprived and resentful. It is the Left Brain Task Master who doesn't really think exercise is a priority and is always willing to strike that off her TTD List in lieu of Other More Important Things.
Well, Miss School Marm Left Brain - too bad. I'm on a mission to see that the Wild Child's healthy desires are always rewarded. Because I know that when she's thwarted - she can do a the kind of damage that takes miles of Things To Do Lists to undo.
And with that - I'm off to do my Powah Yogah routine.