Thursday, March 25, 2010
One of my goals is to feel more confident around food - to feel calm and at ease in all food situations. I hate the sensation that IF a box of cookies is in the house I WILL eat it. Of course, I don't keep them around often, though during Girl Scout season I am likely to have several or many boxes of them at least pass through my hands. Most have been immediately donated to armed service folk overseas and a goodly number of them have been handed off to the 20 something young man who is on my staff - but a few boxes have made it home.
Anyway I am digressing ... Just know that I seldom have sweets in the house but I sometimes do.
The point is - I would like to be confident around food so that if there are boxes of cookies, or huge platters of macaroni and cheese (far more likely to tempt me) or pizza or any of the other juicy gooey things that can show up on a dinner plate, I can either take a healthy sized portion or pass - depending on how hungry I am - not on how irresistable the food is.
I want me to be the boss, not food. I am working hard to develop the ability to stand back and asses my physical needs - the ones my sweet little body will tell me any time I ask it how it is. I haven't been doing that very well the past month and my weight reflectes this. So yesterday I decided that for the next 4 days I intend to devote myself completely to asking first and then eating.
The idea is that I can do anything for 4 days. On Sunday I may commit to another 4 days or I may take a day off. Well. I suspect I shan't take the day off because I feel so good when I eat Only when I am hungry, Only want I want, Savor each bite and Stop when I am full. But I will still DECIDE about a second 4 day stint, I won't go onto autopilot just yet. The goal is to string enough 4 days together to make eating this way the norm but I am not there yet.
Best of all, eating this way will lead to the big goal of being confident about food - so I won't end up like this:
(That is a sleeve of Girl Scout Thin Mints, promising to still respect me after I wake up from eating his box mate)