Wednesday, March 10, 2010
I'm thinking about junk food today because though I stayed within my calorie range yesterday I also had a bag of my bete noire, cheetos. Prompted by THEMINT2's blog post about healthy habits, ( www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo
urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=2981056 ) it seemed I ought to think a bit about what it is I'm looking for when I eat them - and other types of junk food.
Please understand, I am talking about cookies, candy bars, chips, cheese curls and cheese crackers. Not celery sticks with peanut butter on them or Fuji apples. I don't usually buy junk food to keep around the house. I almost only ever buy it when I'm driving around somewhere and stop at a convenience store (which means I am with my DH who is also a snacker), waiting in a check-out line somewhere or if I have a sudden craving at 3 o'clock in the afternoon and there's nothing healthy in the lunchroom at work. Or, as I found out yesterday - if I change my routine unexpectedly. Evidently I don't handle even the slightest change in routine without a little junk food craving. MissSerendipity I am obviously NOT.
so. What am I looking for when I eat junk food? I am sure those food processors put cocaine on their stuff because honestly it is irresistible at first taste. Yum. and Hmmm sweet. and Ooooo Salty cheesy goodness. But... have YOU ever just taken one potatochip and slowly nibbled it's potato saltiness one tiny bite at a time?
Junk food tends to get stuffed, bite after bite, into my mouth. There's often even some guilt involved, as if, now that I am eating the stuff I have to gobble it up fast before the Fat Fairies notice and come pile on some more pounds. (they do that anyway)
And then there's the tiny pinch of shame that I've gobbled something ... which ANY southern gal knows is Bad Ton because Ladies just don't gobble. (thanks, mom)
And the aftermath is also fairly crummy. I feel bloated - but I will probably go ahead and fix dinner and EAT it, because I live in a family situation and part of my job is meals and there is MORE to dinner than food! So then I feel really bloated.
And frustrated because eating junk food can push me over my calorie limit and if it doesn't, I know I probably didn't get enough healthy stuff in my body that day.
So what is the joy I'm expecting? Hmmm. Instant pleasure. well. I have to say. it does give me instant pleasure. but Lasting Joy?
No. Yesterday's cheetoes bloated me before dinner, cost me 300 calories, (blush. yes. I ate the whole bag ) made me feel ashamed of myself and gave pleasure to my tongue at the expense of the whole rest of my body. Doesn't seem fair, now, does it?
So. I know I need emergency snacks tucked somewhere because obviously, even something as mildly stressful as changing my daily routine just a teensy weensy bit can trigger munchie madness. This means in my purse, too, because, I live in the country. If I keep food in the car - mice will get in there and make a nest in the wiring. (Ask me about it)
I think a zip lock bag of smoked almonds might do the trick. 14 of them only equals 100 calories. They are both salty and sweet. I can buy them and bag them at home and just slip one or two or, even three of them in my purse. If I'd eaten 300 calories of almonds yesterday I would be feeling a lot better about myself than I am now after eating 300 calories worth of cheetos.
But you know ... in heaven I bet the cheetos ARE healthy snacks, don't you?
Sunday, March 07, 2010
My weigh-in this morning was not a happy number, but then, I didn't figure it would be. It's been a tough 10 days of straying, stressing and stuffing my mouth. Eh. Bummer.
But I'm tired of that and ready for something new, something inspiring and by golly, something FUN! Something that shifts my focus and gets me back on track in a joyful way and Friday morning, driving in to work, I hit on the perfect thing!
It's an adaptation of an adaptation of a super duper idea I found in a magazine years ago. I am calling it The Surprise Me Jar. On colorful strips of paper I have written down 25 fun things to do to celebrate my journey to a healthy body - one for each day for the rest of the month. I've rolled them into spirals and put them in a glass jar I'm keeping on the buffet. Every day I will pull one out and do whatever is on that strip of paper. It's okay if I put that spiral back, just in case I don't want to do it for some reason, but I have to pull out another one and do that.
It was hard to think of 25 fun things to do but I managed and here's a list of them:
1 Give a smile to 10 people today
2 Eat a tropical fruit
3 Look in the mirror - preferably in the buff. Identify my least favorite body part. Make a promise to it that I'll eat and exercise to make it beautiful
4 Eat a dark leafy green I've never had before ( or haven't had in a long time)
5 Use a champagne glass to sip a glass of water
6 Add something different to my salad today
7 Search a cookbook of low fat recipes, select something new and shop for the ingredients. It's okay to cook it on a different day
8 At 3 p.m. today do 10 minutes of seated yoga stretches
9 Cook something different tonight
10 Make myself a BIG omlette with eggbeaters and mushrooms and onions. Use Parmesan cheese which adds a lot of flavor for few calories ... 1 TBS = 21
11 Massage lotion into my feet - 5 minutes for each foot
12 Eat a red, green, yellow and orange vegetable today
13 Cook a pear or apple, sprinkle it with cinnamon and drizzle fat free half and half on it
14 Look in the mirror and say "I love you, you beautiful woman."
15 Indulge in my favorite seafood today. Shrimp scampi? Baked salmon? Indulge!
16 Write myself a letter praising 10 specific things I've done for my health since January first. MAIL IT!
17 Have a cup of fat free hot chocolate
18 Ask your best friend to tell you her favorite 3 things about you - offer to do the same for her
19 Take a walk and come back with Signs of Spring
20 Slip away from work one hour early and go to the gym
21 Share Spark People with someone you love
22 Pull out spring clothes and try them on - Keep only the ones I love. Get rid of the rest. Make a list of what I need to fill out my wardrobe (this is a weekend thing)
23 Take a candlelit champagne bubble bath before I go to bed. (What doesn't everyone keep a bottle of champagne handy?)
24 Indulge in one ounce of high end cheese - at 120 calories - just weigh it first. Fontina? French Corbier? Stilton? Eat it slowly and truly I N D U L G E
25 Take a walk around town - guaranteed 1 mile at least - and take my camera to photograph interesting sights
I've done this before with suggestions to stimulate my creativity and I also gave this away as a Christmas gift one year with 52 questions and a pretty journal for people to write down their memories. The fun thing about this is that just the act of thinking up Fun Things To Do to for ME helped put me in a happier frame of mind and got me back on track again. I've already poured over my Weight Watcher's cook book and planned out this week's meals using new recipes.
So. It is a new week, all sparkley and crips and full of possibilities. I'm read to pull magic out of a hat - or a surprise out of a jar.
Just so you get the idea of what it looks like, here's a picture of my Creativity Jar with comments from my BirdsWithOpinions.
Friday, March 05, 2010
I have a non-epileptic health condition that is rare, benign (so they say - "they" should experience this), with no known cause and no treatment other than "Live with it". It is a neurological thing that has visible symptoms that seem to be triggered by exertion and/or stress. These identified triggers mean that there are probably ways of preventing more episodes and I also believe that there are ways of creating a structure so that should another episode occur, I will be safe.
the first neurologist I went to said "It never happens, when it does it never happens again. go home live long and prosper hey cool man"
so when it DID happen again it never crossed my mind to call him about it. I called my GP who is pretty good, but very young and though he didn't say so, in his voice (Hey, I'm a mom, I know a "voice" when I hear it) I could discern a panic-like hint of "How should I know? that's why I sent you to a specialist." The upshot was that I went to a new neurologist who at least seemed to take me seriously, although the diagnosis and treatment plan are still very much the same.
It is funny to listen to medical people find ways of telling you "we haven't got a clue what this is, what causes it or how to prevent it or how to treat it" without giving up their god like status. Or rather - it is funny in hindsight to remember that's what they were saying.
I have often been grateful that I was born in the post penicillin age when medicine could do serious good. This was especially so after I became a mother. When I think of all the cuts, dirt, germs out there just waiting to suck your children under - and a glance back at mortality statistics will tell you this is not just my imagination - I am particularly glad I live now. But the downside to this is that we expect medicine to have all the answers all the time. It may be that (some) doctors have become a tad arrogant because they do hit bullseye so often, but that's hardly unexpected.
Our bodies can throw up all sorts of surprises and medicine still has many unexplored frontiers. In a way I feel somewhat medieval as I find my footing on the path to dealing with my own condition so thank goodness I am the type who has always sort of forged my own path anyway. From religion to school to marriage to even running a library - I have always had my own approach - my own way of doing things, seeing things, understanding things. Now that I've been told to ... figure it out myself but get enough sleep and don't quit exercising, just go slow - well - I suppose there's nothing for it but to ... figure it out myself while getting enough sleep and going slowly.
so of I go - with a new day and a new path.
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