Wednesday, March 03, 2010
Well. MissBess has certainly been having a hard time these past several days, staying within her calorie limit. I wasn't too hard on myself last week because ... well, my straying behavior had only just begun, but in the past 7 days I have topped my calorie limit 3 times for a total of 820 calories. So. Let's do the math.
800 calories over the limit
x 52 weeks
41,600 excess calories in a year
Now - 41,600
/ 2,500 calories in a pound
16.5 lbs GAINED in a year!!!!
More than 1 lb a month.
In thinking back over the past few days - especially yesterday - the day I really went over the top - what was I doing? Thinking? Feeling!?
Last Wednesday I was legitimately hungry BUT ALSO thirsty in a place laden with temptation
Sunday I was only 20 calories over the limit - but if I were to do that every day I should gain 3 lbs in a year so it's good to remember that even a calorie here or there can really add up
Yesterday - the really baaaaaad day - well. Well I was absolutely starving ALL DAY LONG. Just flat out hungry. If I had been younger I'd have thought it was TOM - but I am past all that. What made me so hungry? And worse yet - what made me eat 3 skinny cow ice cream sandwiches for desert after dinner?
Besides the fact that ice cream is my favorite food in the world and they tasted so good?
Only of course, the 3rd one didn't - so you know - there was the brat factor in action. "I've been hungry all day! Fruit didn't fill me up. I even tried almonds and I was still hungry so there. nya! I will have ice cream if I want it and ha ha ha - try to stop me".
Honestly, though I didn't actually form those thoughts into words, those were my emotions last night! True brat behavior.
but wait! Wait! I didn't drink all my water till late in the day - in fact .... I bet I drank 4 glasses of water from dinner time to bed time. ooooooo.
is there a lesson here? I do think so - I believe I was thirsty yesterday - I believe if I had had more water while I was at work ( on a project I dread and on which I made absolutely NO progress ... am I finding another correlation going on as I ruminate here? Could be.) I might have staved of some of that cavernous empty feeling. It may be that I was not hungry all day but thirsty!!
hmmm. I do believe I must reinstate my old program of drinking 8 glasses of water before I go home from work. Let us see if I can stem this tide of over-eating now - and prevent the math of failure from swamping my best intentions.
Tuesday, March 02, 2010
In today's SP Trivia game (one of my little indulgences - I NEVER cheat because I'm interested in learning what I know and what I don't know ) one of the questions concerned how many calories we drink.
"In the 1970s, Americans got 6-8% of their daily calories from drinks, but today, 21% of their daily calories from beverages. Not counting whatís in that glass, cup, can or mug may be a major cause of the alarming increase in obesity. "
Now - I was an adult in the 1970's so I'm thinking back to the sorts of things I ate and drank back then - when I thought 140 was entirely too heavy. Boy. I wish!
That was when I began my love affair with diet sodas - Diet Pepsi to be precise. Of course, they have no calories but they have Other Things in them that aren't good for me and in October, when I joined SP, I went cold turkey on them. If your 401K plan was heavily invested in PepsiCo I am sorry to have caused your portfolio to loose so much value - but I really did need to stop that particular madness. Since then I have had 2 sodas and both were delicious but the addiction seems to have been swept away.
Other than my own green smoothies - which I do count, I don't indulge much in caloric beverages so I guess this information isn't all that pertinent to me, but isn't it a fascinating statistic?
My green smoothie recipe, btw, is:
8 oz V8Fusion lite (Strawberry & Banana flavor)
1 cup frozen greens - i. e. spinach, collards, mixed greens
1 Tbs slivered almonds
1 Tbs flax seed meal
1/2 cup water
Mix in blender till smooth - 176 calories
When I want something a little richer I'll add a banana. When I want something less sweet I use regular low sodium V8
Happy Tuesday to you!
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Longer than what? you ask
Longer than any struggles, setbacks, hurdles, difficulties, doubts and frustrations. Today is a difficult day for me. It's tough because I snuck off with Mr.Scale and peeked at my weight and it is not what I wanted to see. I peeked because I know I have been slap dash with the program this week and I'm going to write about that tomorrow - on my official weigh in day and also the end of the month.
But today I am going to write about something else - something important for me to cling to. something I found on the SP message boards in the Staying Motivated Forum, topic Say One Positive Thing About Yourself Each day www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/messageb
I went looking because I can feel the frustration and disappointment with myself building inside. It's going to be a restaurant day, taking my wheelchair riding dad to some fat laden restaurant for our monthly visit. If I'm already feeling sorry for myself - or worse! - feeling like a weakling, like the fat daughter of fat parents from the fat family - well. This is a hurdle for sure.
Mind now - I love my family and accept them at any weight or size and I have a sister who's here with me on SP and we ARE making progress. But today is a hurdle day and I was on the lookout for something that I could hold on to on a tough day.
and sure enough I found it. When I tried to think o something positive about myself that I could use my mind cast back to the 1990's and the building of our new library - and there it was - the hand-hold I was looking for - right there within my personality.
Our community is not a poverty stricken one but it always falls in the Below the Median line whenever the state looks at economic factors. We're small - 10,000 people and back in 1994 we were even smaller. There are pleanty of other challenging demographics I could site but I like that 10K population figure because it's an easy number to imagine whenever I'm talking about the wonderful thing our community did. And with this story, I will take credit for being the single candle that never ever blew out no matter what.
When my library board decided to build a new library (in response to my constant prodding) the estimated amount of money we would have to raise was $700,000. Nobody in my county had ever raised that kind of money from local fundraisers before. The schools had all been built with federal money and the surrounding small counties like ours had all built their libraries with at least large chunks of federal dollars. Yes. I know that ALL government dollars come from the localities ... from individuals ... but it is easier to apply for a federal grant than it is to knock on your next door neighbor's door, when asking for money.
And on my board there were people who shook their head and said "you'll never get that much money out of this community - it just isn't here".
and my answer always was .... "There are 700 families who can donate $250 a year for 4 years because even MY family, paying for college tuition right now, can do that. It's less than a coke a day!" And right then I decided that I would NEVER give up. NEVER quit. No matter what things blocked our way I would out last them. I would believe and I would be positive and never once did I think "oh I'm sick of this. We'll never get there. I quit".
It took us not 4 years, but 6 years to raise that money. But we did raise it and more. In the end we raised one million dollars from the pockets of 10,000 people or about 2,500 families. And we gave them the most beautiful library - it opened 10 years ago and it still looks like a new building. The grand opening was the biggest event the county ever did and it wasn't till our high school football team became state champions this past fall that anything pulled us together quite so completely.
And we did it because we - especially I - never ever gave up. When someone would come to me down hearted I'd look them in the eye with steel and a twinkle and say "Don't worry. We'll do this because we can last longer than this problem. "
And we did.
And by golly - no matter what the official weigh in is tomorrow ... No matter how long this takes ... No matter what looms up ahead - I am going to reach my goals, because
I CAN LAST LONGER THAN ANY OBSTACLE
And can't you see all sorts of SP tricks and tools in this story? Small steps, patience, positive self-talks, belief. They're all there. And if I did it before, by golly, I can do it again!
And now I'm going to go do some yoga to add the finishing change to my mood.
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