Friday, March 05, 2010
I have a non-epileptic health condition that is rare, benign (so they say - "they" should experience this), with no known cause and no treatment other than "Live with it". It is a neurological thing that has visible symptoms that seem to be triggered by exertion and/or stress. These identified triggers mean that there are probably ways of preventing more episodes and I also believe that there are ways of creating a structure so that should another episode occur, I will be safe.
the first neurologist I went to said "It never happens, when it does it never happens again. go home live long and prosper hey cool man"
so when it DID happen again it never crossed my mind to call him about it. I called my GP who is pretty good, but very young and though he didn't say so, in his voice (Hey, I'm a mom, I know a "voice" when I hear it) I could discern a panic-like hint of "How should I know? that's why I sent you to a specialist." The upshot was that I went to a new neurologist who at least seemed to take me seriously, although the diagnosis and treatment plan are still very much the same.
It is funny to listen to medical people find ways of telling you "we haven't got a clue what this is, what causes it or how to prevent it or how to treat it" without giving up their god like status. Or rather - it is funny in hindsight to remember that's what they were saying.
I have often been grateful that I was born in the post penicillin age when medicine could do serious good. This was especially so after I became a mother. When I think of all the cuts, dirt, germs out there just waiting to suck your children under - and a glance back at mortality statistics will tell you this is not just my imagination - I am particularly glad I live now. But the downside to this is that we expect medicine to have all the answers all the time. It may be that (some) doctors have become a tad arrogant because they do hit bullseye so often, but that's hardly unexpected.
Our bodies can throw up all sorts of surprises and medicine still has many unexplored frontiers. In a way I feel somewhat medieval as I find my footing on the path to dealing with my own condition so thank goodness I am the type who has always sort of forged my own path anyway. From religion to school to marriage to even running a library - I have always had my own approach - my own way of doing things, seeing things, understanding things. Now that I've been told to ... figure it out myself but get enough sleep and don't quit exercising, just go slow - well - I suppose there's nothing for it but to ... figure it out myself while getting enough sleep and going slowly.
so of I go - with a new day and a new path.
Wednesday, March 03, 2010
Well. MissBess has certainly been having a hard time these past several days, staying within her calorie limit. I wasn't too hard on myself last week because ... well, my straying behavior had only just begun, but in the past 7 days I have topped my calorie limit 3 times for a total of 820 calories. So. Let's do the math.
800 calories over the limit
x 52 weeks
41,600 excess calories in a year
Now - 41,600
/ 2,500 calories in a pound
16.5 lbs GAINED in a year!!!!
More than 1 lb a month.
In thinking back over the past few days - especially yesterday - the day I really went over the top - what was I doing? Thinking? Feeling!?
Last Wednesday I was legitimately hungry BUT ALSO thirsty in a place laden with temptation
Sunday I was only 20 calories over the limit - but if I were to do that every day I should gain 3 lbs in a year so it's good to remember that even a calorie here or there can really add up
Yesterday - the really baaaaaad day - well. Well I was absolutely starving ALL DAY LONG. Just flat out hungry. If I had been younger I'd have thought it was TOM - but I am past all that. What made me so hungry? And worse yet - what made me eat 3 skinny cow ice cream sandwiches for desert after dinner?
Besides the fact that ice cream is my favorite food in the world and they tasted so good?
Only of course, the 3rd one didn't - so you know - there was the brat factor in action. "I've been hungry all day! Fruit didn't fill me up. I even tried almonds and I was still hungry so there. nya! I will have ice cream if I want it and ha ha ha - try to stop me".
Honestly, though I didn't actually form those thoughts into words, those were my emotions last night! True brat behavior.
but wait! Wait! I didn't drink all my water till late in the day - in fact .... I bet I drank 4 glasses of water from dinner time to bed time. ooooooo.
is there a lesson here? I do think so - I believe I was thirsty yesterday - I believe if I had had more water while I was at work ( on a project I dread and on which I made absolutely NO progress ... am I finding another correlation going on as I ruminate here? Could be.) I might have staved of some of that cavernous empty feeling. It may be that I was not hungry all day but thirsty!!
hmmm. I do believe I must reinstate my old program of drinking 8 glasses of water before I go home from work. Let us see if I can stem this tide of over-eating now - and prevent the math of failure from swamping my best intentions.
Tuesday, March 02, 2010
In today's SP Trivia game (one of my little indulgences - I NEVER cheat because I'm interested in learning what I know and what I don't know ) one of the questions concerned how many calories we drink.
"In the 1970s, Americans got 6-8% of their daily calories from drinks, but today, 21% of their daily calories from beverages. Not counting whatís in that glass, cup, can or mug may be a major cause of the alarming increase in obesity. "
Now - I was an adult in the 1970's so I'm thinking back to the sorts of things I ate and drank back then - when I thought 140 was entirely too heavy. Boy. I wish!
That was when I began my love affair with diet sodas - Diet Pepsi to be precise. Of course, they have no calories but they have Other Things in them that aren't good for me and in October, when I joined SP, I went cold turkey on them. If your 401K plan was heavily invested in PepsiCo I am sorry to have caused your portfolio to loose so much value - but I really did need to stop that particular madness. Since then I have had 2 sodas and both were delicious but the addiction seems to have been swept away.
Other than my own green smoothies - which I do count, I don't indulge much in caloric beverages so I guess this information isn't all that pertinent to me, but isn't it a fascinating statistic?
My green smoothie recipe, btw, is:
8 oz V8Fusion lite (Strawberry & Banana flavor)
1 cup frozen greens - i. e. spinach, collards, mixed greens
1 Tbs slivered almonds
1 Tbs flax seed meal
1/2 cup water
Mix in blender till smooth - 176 calories
When I want something a little richer I'll add a banana. When I want something less sweet I use regular low sodium V8
Happy Tuesday to you!
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