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Getting it down on paper

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Man. That is one hard thing for me to do.

Yesterday I boldly stated that I would take 10 minutes to write down everything I like about my body.

But I didn't.

Now - while taking my dogs for a walk in the morning I thought about the things I liked. It was sort of fun and sort of silly and yet it was also enlightening.

but I didn't write it down

I wrote down lists (with timelines) of Important Thing s To Do at work (since I have a bunch of projects coming up). I fulfilled my Just For Today 3 good things. (gonna do that again today)

but I didn't write It Down.

And I didn't do it because I didn't really feel it was important. Because honestly, if it were important I'd have done it. I ALWAYS do the important stuff.

so what's up?

don't I think I'm important?

don't I think I should take 10 minutes out of the 960 minutes I'm wake and write down what I like about myself?

do I think it's silly? arrogant? self-centered?

Was it shyness about putting it down on paper - making it visual? after all, I did give myself 10 minutes to think about this subject.


I'm pretty sure I'm not the sort who always put myself last. I don't. I indulge in lots of good things. And I'm at the stage in life when the demands on me are less - no young children, husband still vigorous, parents in good care.

I don't know why I didn't take those 10 minutes - but perhaps I wasn't sure what to do with it afterwards. While I don't mind thinking good things about me and I can at least conceive why it would be a good thing to make that list - it's not something I'd post where everyone could see it. Hmmm.

Well. Hmmmm.

I don't have an answer. I guess I'll just have to think about it. On my walk. Which I'm going to go take right now.

Happy Hump Day to you all!!

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MSLZZY 1/27/2010 10:04AM

    I need peace and quiet and time to reflect. Somedays it's available and some days, life happens and the task is forgotten. I'll get to it, maybe even today.
No, not maybe! Today! Think positive and just do it!

I just took my 10 minutes now and put it down on paper. Don't tell my boss LOL!

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DAYHIKER 1/27/2010 9:42AM

    Maybe you need one of those little digital recorders to carry with you on your doggie walks!! emoticon I can relate as I have been dragging my feet at finishing the vision collage and today's my last day to finish it for my week 1 list. (sigh)

Happy Wednesday!!

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JLITT62 1/27/2010 7:59AM

    Sometimes just blogging about things gives us the answer. You'll figure it out -- I know you will.

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Bess has got her groove back!

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

and she's rarin' to go. AND she's emoticon-ing SP all over the place.

Today there was a great article on staying motivated with two tips I am going to try starting today.

First: Do 3 things today that will move me towards my goals.

a. I will get out of my desk at work every hour and walk around the library, inside and out.
b. I will absolutely positively drink 8 glasses of water
c. Just for today I will eat only and exactly enough food that is Good For Me. No "small handful" of cheetos. No "just one" cookie. Just for today everything I eat will be within my calorie range and 100% nutrition.

These are wonderful things to do any day or all the time, but today I am going to concentrate only on doing them today.

Second: Focus on my good qualities!

woo woo.

So. Just for today I will take 10 minutes and write down everything about my body I like.

I might do that #2 every day - and focus on things other than my body as a spur to get me to move along a little faster in the Other Areas of my life that I would like to be better. I know I respond to praise ... but I don't often give it to myself. I think I actually forget the talents and skills I have that I may not be using and that might just make my work life better, my house tidier, my finances more productive.

Besides - it's not just a silly exercise in self aggrandisement. It's a reminder of things I like to do, know how to do, but have forgotten I can do well because LIFE just hasn't called on those talents lately. But they're there, lying dormant and waiting to be used.

I'm actually a fabulous budgeter and have made mere pennies stretch around the block and then some in years when I've needed to. I haven't needed to in a long time so I have gotten lazy about it. But it isn't THAT hard and I am ready to hone those skills again.

These two things alone are enough to make me emoticon SP all over the place, but then there were these chair yoga exercises that can be part of my getting up and moving every hour plan.
getting_fired .

Today I really do feel as if I got my groove back. I wish the same for everyone who reads this! emoticon emoticon

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GINNYF1956 1/26/2010 8:10AM

  I love the drive you give me. Will give me a lot more push. Ginnyf emoticon emoticon

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Adding TheSpark to other areas of my life.

Monday, January 25, 2010

Whoa! Had an epiphany yesterday.

It actually began Saturday when I got down on my knees and really scrubbed out that awful bathtub of mine. It's an old tub and most of the enamel has worn either thin or actually OFF so it's the biggest chore in my whole house - scrubbing it and never knowing for sure if it's actually clean. Ugh.

By Sunday afternoon I got to thinking about how we have lived in this house for 28 years and that's the same bathroom, lino floor, wall tile, and crusty tub that was there when we moved in. It's always had a half finished look to it anyway and now it's a crumbling half finished look. Time for a renovation.

and the first thing I thought about after that was ... how are we going to pay for this? And that's when I thought about our family budget and how we spend our paper calories and it seems that ... the budget looks a little like my Pre-Spark People diet. Basically sound but with too many empty calories in it.

So using tools I'm developing here I sat down with pencil and paper.

First I set a goal - a refurbished bathroom.

Then a time-line - probably next year, but maybe in the fall.

And then... I began doing the math with the budget. I put down the essentials we need to cover every month - the household versions of protein, folate, calcium, vitamins. . . things like utilities and insurance and such. I added on groceries in a lump sum. Then the monthly expenditures that are small, but add up. You get the idea - what I found was there was a good sized chunk of money I could salt away.

I'm still doing the figuring and the math but once I've done that I plan to

Enlist support - i.e. talk to Himself

Make my vision board - i.e. go window shopping in magazines and home improvement stores to see what's out there

Log my financial nutrition - i.e. bank book

Talk to experts - i.e. those plumbers and carpenters and tile setters.

All very exciting and fun - so - once again, THANKS Spark People, for lighting another spark in my life.

Happy Monday to you all.

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JLITT62 1/25/2010 9:52AM

    When we moved here, I gave up my very large dream kitcehn in Austin for this relatively small kitchen. We knew what we planned to do . . . yet 9 months went by before we got started.

Some of it was because I wanted to take my time and really devote thought to what I wanted. Also, we don't plan to be living here forever. Maybe 5 years. Even that is unsure -- right now DH is on a temporary assignment that will be up in a little over a year. But we think he'll find employment here for a few more years.

Anyway, before we went ahead with the rennovation, I told DH I was fine with not doing it. But I wasn't willing to fix it up for someone else again.

When we lived in VT, we put in all new flooring only to move within a couple of months -- altho in fairness, we didn't at the time know we'd be moving. Still, we'd lived there for 7 years and it could certainly have been done sooner.

We put off doing new flooring in our home in TX, altho it was really needed, not to mention painting inside. And once again, we ended up doing it after we moved out, to sell the house.

And so we are in the midst of our kitchen remake. And I am also working on a spending diet. I'm not terrible, but I definitely need to spend less. My first step was just tracking this month. Next month, my aim is to lower that amount by hopefully 10%. Sound familiar?

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DAYHIKER 1/25/2010 8:18AM

    What a great idea, Bess!! emoticon

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    That is awesome. We have been in the process of renovations, doing them as budget and time allow. It has taken us about 4 years. We should finally be done by the end of summer. emoticon

It is good to see that you are using tools you have learned here to help in other areas of life. I am working on that.

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Mapping out my week

Sunday, January 24, 2010

I spent yesterday giving my house a deep clean. I live on a farm. I have dogs. I heat with wood. My house gets really really dirty if I don't stay on top of it. I've been trying to figure out ways of doing little chores throughout the week so my Saturday doesn't have to be such a marathon of housecleaning - but now and then, despite my every effort, I just have to buckle down ... and even kneel down ... with bucket, mop, vacuum and dustcloth.

It's always worth the effort, though. I love this house - it's like a magic flying carpet where I can feel safe and explore things that interest me through books, crafts, and music. Even if I don't feel like getting started with the housework, I always enjoy doing it, carefully handling the things that I love, that bring back memories of times and places and people I also love.

Housework is like exercise - sometimes hard to get going, but always good for you and the payback is always worth more than the effort expended.

Best of all - now it's done I can sit down and plan out this week. I'm asking myself "Where do I want to be this time next Sunday?"

Well - I will get back on the scale next Sunday and I hope to see it has moved downwards.

I'll take out the tape measure and I hope it doesn't have to stretch so far around

I would like to have made my 1,000 fitness minutes by then - I'll need to get in 25 minutes a day to do that - but that's not at all unreasonable - even if I am being careful with the intensity as per doctor's orders.

Most of all, this week I want to get my potassium up without increasing calories. In fact, I want to stay within the calorie range all week AND get the potassium up. That's been my one failure ever since I started SP. I think the answer is going to be more and different vegetables - especially collard greens (which I only like - as opposed to spinach which I emoticon emoticon love!

Well. Hmm. I am the queen of setting the bar high - unable to resist the idea of striving beyond my reach. But I think this is high enough for one week. In fact - It sounds like a splendid week with lots of challenges but none of them truly more than I can do. Just gotta keep the focus.

May the map of your week take you to wonderful destinations.

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MSLZZY 1/24/2010 12:23PM

    I love my wood stove! At least it is in the basement so I don't have to look the untidiness daily. But, from time to time, it needs attention too. We have a cat inside but her food, water and necessities are in the basement as well. And since we have an acreage at the edge of town, the "farm" sneaks in. So cleaning is a must. I try to do a little every day but Saturdays are still devoted to major cleaning.
Take heart. You are not alone in this. Stay focused and I hope you have a great week! Onward and DOWNward!

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JLITT62 1/24/2010 11:37AM

    "May the map of your week take you to wonderful destinations."

What a beautiful sentiment!

You know, I've been doing lots of planning, and I don't think I ever really stopped to think about where I want to be at the end of the week. The end of the month, sure, three months sure, even the end of the day. I like it!

Wish I could say I could embrace housecleaning. I try so hard, but I still really, really dislike it. If I were rich, I'd have a housekeeper. I'd probably still do a lot of the cooking, but not the cleaning.

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DAYHIKER 1/24/2010 9:37AM

    I can so relate to your housecleaning woes with dogs, wood stove, and we have a couple of old lady cats and 3 birds!! It is soooo never ending and sometimes wears me down and out! Still, I love my cozy house and even the wood stove. We took it out for a few years when we changed the carpeting but missed it so much that we put it back in!

You are doing great and you have set some good goals! I'm learning to not set the bar too high, too! Challenging isn't it? emoticon

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Victory - and just in the nick of time

Saturday, January 23, 2010

I had a true non-scale victory yesterday - and thank goodness!

I've had a health issue to deal with this last week that has played fast and loose with my emotions. On some of my wider swings towards the Dark Side I've even considered giving up my quest for my health and weight goals.

But yesterday I put no those Khaki Trousers and hot dang! They fit! The buttons and hooks meet, the zipper slides easily up to the waistband and the pockets lie flat over my hips! Paired with a dark turtleneck and my hand knit sweater from last year I look Very West End - Very Grove Avenue - if you are from Richmond VA you'll know what I mean.
I was off to the city to have a birthday luncheon with my sister - another SP success story - and we had the best time. Both of us were feeling good about ourselves and of course Mama was beaming - but of course she always thinks her daughters are perfect angels sent from heaven.

sister and I had already figured out what we were going to eat and added them to our trackers, though I'll admit - I had one of the cupcakes and she did not - but she's not that much of a sweet eater.

I've been feeling pretty sorry for myself this past week and it resulted twice in eating beyond my nutritional limit. Not far - not scadzillions of calories - only a hundred. Enough to halt the shrinkage but not reverse it. And today ?

Today I am ready to get back in the saddle. Truth is - a 5'6" woman can pack a heck of a lot of good food and rich nutrition into 1500 calories a day. Food that feels like indulgences - like rich golden egg yokes - if that's what I want, or even a pat of butter on toast. 1500 calories is enough to make every meal a celebration. And if I ate 1500 calories a day for the rest of my life I would be very slim and trim. Might take a year or so to get there but I could stay there forever.

And for goodness sake! I am not wheelchair bound, like my mother! I am still mobile. I can move and clean house and take walks and get myself into the shower! Looking around at the hundreds of blessings showering down on me - I feel just a little sheepish about my whiny self of this past week.

Life didn't end for me last saturday - it just bent the trail a little. I've had enough pity partying for now. Enough with the whining posts. I am ready to get back on the journey and see what's around the next bend.

Happy Saturday to you all!

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MYFEETHURT 1/23/2010 10:51AM

  Oh boy...what an awesome feeling to have a pair of pants slide on. Huge congrats! Glad you had a good time with your sister and dear Mother. Treasure this for sure. We all have our woe is me days. I've been on that same trip lately..and it's nothing life changing...just chest and head cold and allergies. But...enough to use it as an excuse to not exercise as usual. And maybe eat what I want...instead of what I need. Small battles...thankfully ones we can win. Hang in there. It's a walk in the park...not a race. Enjoy the walk! emoticon mary

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DAYHIKER 1/23/2010 8:17AM

    That is so emoticonabout the khaki pants fitting so well and apparently you looked like a million emoticon You are doing a very good job of keeping the course of your journey adjusted for the changing winds! Calm seas do not make for skillful sailors so we learn to hone our skills on the rougher waters and against the headwinds.


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JLITT62 1/23/2010 7:54AM

    We all get whiny now & again. Just read my blogs, right? And it's ok to whine; it's even healthy. What's not healthy is not whining & eating instead! So there you go, you ARE very healthy.

And one cupcake will not derail you. I wish I wasn't a sweets eater. Life would be easier -- but less sweet, eh?

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BESSHAILE 1/23/2010 7:46AM

    Oh Mslzzy! I emoticon that quote about tying the knot!

That's just it - the journey is never over - it just changes direction. thanks for rooting for me all week. It's been a treasure to find everyone's comments. they have been my knots.

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MSLZZY 1/23/2010 7:42AM

    We all have our "down" moments when health issues pop up. But you didn't let it keep you down. Look UP, woman! The sky is the limit! You are so positive that nothing can hold you back. All the blessings and opportunities are there!
When you reach the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on! I'm not sure who said this but it is a very good quote! emoticon emoticon

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