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I want a Start Trek doctor

Friday, January 22, 2010

You know - the kind who have a little PDA that he scans up and down your body and then tells you what's wrong and fixes it with something that looks like a cookie press.

Instead, what I got was pretty much what I expected. My very nice, though extrordiarily young looking doctor, is sending me forth into the Land of Medical Tests. It's a good thing I've been allowed to stockpile sick leave at my job because I suspect I will be using up a good bit of it during the next few weeks. I am not sure if I'll be glad to find the original diagnosis is correct - and it is something I'll have to live with - or if it turns out to be Something Else that can be fixed with heroic measures.

But I have had almost a whole week to sort of pout and feel sorry for myself and I am pretty well tired of it. Ready to move on and ready to think about Other Things. Happy Things. Things like .... I believe today I will be wearing those khaki trousers - and if I am - if they fit as well this morning as they did last night .... I get a reward!

way back in the fall when I was figuring things out I realized that what I wanted was rewards of time off - I tend to hoard my vacation leave till suddenly I have to cram it all in or I lose it. My job does not let us stockpile vacation.

Here is the reward I posted in an October blog:

Fit nicely into those khaki trousers --- Leave 3 hours early the following Friday

woo woo - so I am going to leave 3 hours early next Friday!

which is funny since I'm taking today off to go celebrate my mother's birthday at her nursing home. but that is a different thing. Today is comp time for working a holiday a little while ago.

The other thing I plan to pick up again is exercise. I have done NOTHING all week but I am ready to return to gentle movement and beginner Yoga. But that is for tomorrow. For now it is off to the Big City to celebrate with family.

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SPARKIWINS 1/22/2010 11:22PM

    Good for you for setting your goal and now getting to celebrate. So what's next?

Hope "Mom" had a great B-day!

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MSLZZY 1/22/2010 5:34PM

    Wish Mom a Happy Birthday and have a wonderful evening!

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MOMMYBLOGGER 1/22/2010 10:50AM

    That is so funny, I was just saying I wanted a Star Trek Dr for Melly this morn!! She has a cold and her sinuses hurt and I told hubby "where is Bones when you need him!!!"

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DAYHIKER 1/22/2010 8:00AM

    I hope that all will go well and that you'll soon know what you are dealing with so you can move on with getting it taken care of! Good for you for fitting into those khaki pants and planning to claim your reward for doing so!! emoticon Have fun today, too!

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Mind over Body

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Well. I may not be able to be clever but I can be glad because I'd forgotten about the mind over body articles and happily today I found them again - because I need them more than ever now that I don't have the Pump It Up option to torch calories at the gym.

(obviously I'm still having a hard time accepting this, since I keep talking about it.)

And isn't it funny that if you get a little health problem in one area of your life you can start feeling aches and pains and such in other areas? I've been feeling a little off ever since Saturday but it's very difficult for me to know for sure if I'm really feeling off or if I'm psyching myself up to feeling bad. which reminds me of a very funny book : The Hypochondriac's guide to life. And Death. by Gene Weingarten

A soulmate who read too many news articles about illnesses till he finally got one and learned to be ... post-hypochondriacal.

The truth is - I have sort of given myself this week off - to Be Off, if I want or to just fritter around. I go to the GP doctor today and I'll feel guilty for wasting his time and maybe we'll just shrug our shoulders and suck it up. The specialist I saw about this in 2007 basically told me to go home, live well and prosper. But he is not the one with my problem. I am.

But I still do have a mind, if a slightly impaired one, and it can have top spot in the hierarchy of my life. I just have to listen to it ... and when the words Sugar or Cheese float across its fertile plane I don't have to respond to them.

got to keep remembering - Do I really want this or am I just bored?

Happy Thursday

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MOTHERBEAR4 1/21/2010 11:22PM

    Now a days - could be anything! Not getting enough Vitamin D from the Sun, etc.

Just read that Spark Blog about sitting too long can mess up you metabolism. Did that study include SLEEPING! Guess I am going to move every few minutes every waking hour - so fat in the blood stream doesn't get stored in the fat cells. Does Fidgeting Count!!!

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WEDDWT 1/21/2010 2:38PM

    emoticon responding to Sugar & Cheese! Easier said than done.
What helps me is to focus on the foods I can say Yes to. And to keep plenty of them around. Focusing on what I am denying myself just makes me want it all the more. Did someone say deep dish?
Hope your GP was helpful.

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DAYHIKER 1/21/2010 10:47AM

    Um, isn't that Live long and prosper? emoticon I hope that whatever is going on can be treated or fixed and that you will get a good report from the doctor. There are always new things being discovered from year to year (or month to month!) and I hope you can soon get your life back to "normal."

Sorry I missed yesterday's blog somehow! emoticon Cindy

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JLITT62 1/21/2010 9:03AM

    Don't forget to HALT before eating. Are you hungry, angry, lonely, or tired? If the answer is anything other than hungry, don't eat! Of course, bored fits in there very nicely too.

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MSLZZY 1/21/2010 8:19AM

    You are not bored, just "off". Come back home and put your wandering mind at ease. Research new exercises and find something that excites you. Good luck with the GP doctor. Maybe he'll have some good advice! emoticon

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Life takes a turn

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

And I have to go with it.

It turns out I have a health condition that has a direct impact on how much and what sort of exercise I can do. That condition rose its ugly head on Saturday and gobsmacked me hard, leaving me reeling and a little ... well ... I suppose you'd say emotionally wobbly.

Of course, this sort of thing happens on weekends, doesn't it? Not Monday when you can call your doctor and ask "what is going on?"

It doesn't help when you finally get him and he says "I have no idea."

I am being packed off to a specialist and we will plot our course of action but in the mean time - there is to be no more vigorous exercise. Pleasant walks but nothing that pushes the heart rate up too high.

And that means all weight loss has to come from mind over mouth choices. Nutrition packed calories are even more important than ever before. Not for a while - if ever - will I have the easy option of burning off that extra snickers bar. (I wonder why I always use snickers bars as an example, when I don't particularly like them. I just like their name, I guess.)

High calorie burning exercise has always been my ace in the hole when it comes to weight control and I am sort of resentful that this appears to be denied me. Still and all. I am determined to wring the profit out of this situation. I have long wondered if Yoga can help me change my mind about eating as well as keep me strong and flexible. Perhaps the universe is telling me YES.

After all the medical guys give me the thumbs up on this - I will start the new journey - down the new road that life has opened up for me.

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MSLZZY 1/19/2010 10:47PM

    Life happens so meet it head on with a positive attitude. Do your research and find activities you can do. I'm sure SP has something to fit the bill. Take care!

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JLITT62 1/19/2010 12:10PM

    I am sorry to hear that your exercise routine is being derailed. I know I rely a great deal on exercise, too, but not completely -- you can't exercise yourself out of weight gain.

Walking, even non-brisk walking, is still great exercise. Do you think it will be ok for you to strive for 10,000 steps a day?

And I love yoga. There is a whole world of yoga varieties out there, too. Something for everyone.

Good luck on your journey, my friend.

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WEDDWT 1/19/2010 12:04PM

    As the unexpected news of your "finite-ness" sinks in, just be open to accepting the truth. If we reject it, it just drives us crazy, or we become angry all the time because we cannot do what we want to do. As you said, we can choose to be flexible.
I am sorry you hit a bump in the road, but I know you can adapt and continue to succeed in reaching your goals!

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MYFEETHURT 1/19/2010 8:48AM

  Gosh, I'm sorry to hear this. Knowing you you will make the best of this situation. In the meantime...enjoy those pleasant walks. Let us know what you find out. emoticon

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IFDEEVARUNS2 1/19/2010 7:53AM

    Just remember that strength training increases muscle, which burns more calories - there's more than one way to skin a cat (with apologies to all the cats in my life.) emoticon

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KENDALL7261 1/19/2010 7:47AM

  The turn in the road has come, you are now on a different path of your journey. One step at a time, you will do this.

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Bar those Bars! Nutrition Bars, Energy Bars, Power Bars

Friday, January 15, 2010

I am suspicious of things called nubrition bars.

Ever since I joined SP Iíve been working on ways to eat healthy delicious food. Ever since January I have eaten only food or not-food. Iíve eaten fruits and vegetables, meats and cheeses, milk and whole wheat bread and I have also eaten candy. But I knew it was not-food Ė it was candy. Nothing ersatz Ė nothing called a food product Ė and nothing that refers to itself as nutrition. As I read somewhere on SP Ė if my grandmother (who was a pretty savvy chick, btw) wouldnít have known what it was, I havenít eaten it.

Till today that is. You know the story. Early morning appointment. No time for breakfast. 10 minutes to dash into either a MacDonaldís or a grocery store but not both. I chose the grocery store and bought a packaged nutrition bar.

Iíll admit Ė I picked the one that looked the most like a gooey snickers bar. There wasnít a lot of choice Ė evidently the granola type bars were on a different aisle. And Iíll admit it was tasty. And its caloric content was okay though I didnít think about how high fat it might be. I really bought it by the photo. It looked like candy and it tasted like candy.. sort of.

But it didnít taste like food. Hereís a picture of its nutrition label and honestly Ė the first thing on it Ė which means the biggest component of this nutrition bar is something called poly dextrose.

Iím no chemist but I know poly means many and dextrose is sugar and I regret that I didnít have a slice of my own home made bread instead.

This is the first thing Iíve eaten since January 1 that I didnít take both pleasure and satisfaction in. Oh the chocolaty gooey taste was a momentary pleasure on my tongue. But the satisfaction of eating Food that I cooked myself or selected from a menu in a restaurant that cooked Food just wasnít there.

Lesson learned?

I donít like nutrition bars or energy bars or even oatmeal in a bar bars. They donít bring the kind of pleasure and satisfaction Iím looking for in my meals. If I am going to have hurried mornings Ė which even I, with the worldís most accommodating schedule, will have Ė I need to come up with some quick, on-the-go breakfasts made of real food. Because eating is too important to me, too precious Ė too much fun!

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ELLENB10 1/16/2010 2:57PM

    I'm with you - Keep it simple. I like the saying about your grandmother, too! I'll have to remember that. If I am ever in a jam and need to buy a protein bar, I will read the label first, but I'd just as soon grab a banana or apple and head to work.

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DAYHIKER 1/15/2010 6:31PM

    I do keep the Kashi Trail Mix bars in my "goes everywhere I do" small cooler bag but otherwise I don't buy them though some of them look good. I am a real food person, too. It satisfies more! emoticon

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MSLZZY 1/15/2010 5:33PM

    I don't buy these bars, as a general rule. I do have one box in the pickup in my winter survival kit. But after this blog, I sure hope I don't need to eat them.
Maybe I can donate them to a good cause. Any suggestions? LOL!

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    Those kinds of bars are scary, aren't they? Who comes up with these ideas about putting creepy things into people's mouths?
Sometimes I see people at the checkout with whole carts full of non-food. :-/

I must say that I am very thankful for Larabars and Nectar bars, as they are just fruit and nuts. They've saved me from non-food when I travel and:
A) a cooler/larger bag was not a possibility,
B) company or circumstances won't allow me to choose the eating venue, or
C) a sign says "outside food" is not allowed.

Keep it up with the real food! emoticon

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JAKEANDNELLIE 1/15/2010 5:23PM

    I think it just comes down to reading labels and being selective. It's the same with the 100-calorie snacks that are everywhere in the stores - most of them are empty calories with minimal (if any) nutritional value.
I try to keep 100-cal. packs of almonds in my car to tide me over until I get home. If I know I'm going to be out for a while, I also toss an apple or pear in.

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LEONALIONESS 1/15/2010 5:08PM

    I'm with JLITT, there are some bars that are definitely real food. Lara bars are a great example. They are just raw fruit and nuts, no added oils or sweeteners. Most flavors have less than five ingredients. My favorite is the cherry pie- it's just dates, dried cherries, almonds. Bam. That's it.

I will eat something more candyish if I'm craving chocolate AND need a protein boost. The Clif Builders fulfill my sweet tooth while giving me a nice big chunk of protein. I figure if I'm going to eat something sweet I'd rather get some calcium, iron and protein at the same time rather than eat candy.

Usually I make my own stuff, I'm vegan so that's sort of par for the course ;), but I will grab one of the bars we sell at Whole Foods on occasion. I'd rather eat my homemade almond milk/coconut milk ice cream or a gooey homemade lowfat, lower sugar brownie for my sweets, though! We definitely agree there.

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JLITT62 1/15/2010 4:57PM

    I actually do like some bars, but nothing like what you ended up with this time. And I keep them on hand -- they can be real life savers.

I like Larabars, Clif Nectar Bars, Pure Bars. Those have very few ingredients -- and what is in them is real food.

I also enjoy some of the Raw Organic Bars. If I'm really craving something sweet, I might go for a Luna Bar, but I eat them less & less these days.

I think it's all about having the right stuff in place before you run out of time. And smoothies (if you make them ahead of time) can be a great breakfast. Which is why I enjoy my blender bottle -- I can just shake them up in the morning without waking up DH.

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JEANK206 1/15/2010 4:53PM

    I have found a protein bar I really like. My weight management doctor got me on them. They have about 270 calories, but 30 grams of protein, and best part....... they taste good, there is double chocolate, chocolate peanut butter, and yogurt peanut butter.
It is called Premier Protein and they are sold at Costco

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BESSHAILE 1/15/2010 4:36PM

    no it's not that I can't find nutrition in a bar - I don't find pleasure and satisfaction in them. They're just not the sort of thing I want to eat anymore.

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MARIEBART 1/15/2010 4:21PM

    I think if you are selective you can find fairly healthy bars. They can come in handy when your option is to eat on the run or skip a meal.

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Don't wanna take a Day Off!

Thursday, January 14, 2010

So. I know that when you are working out you should take a "Day Off" and I have scheduled that for Thursdays during this bootcamp month. The offical bootcamp instructions are to do 30 minutes of cardio / 5 days a week. I know it's okay to do more than that and many folk here do!

I'm ... well, not quite a newbie, but certainly I'm a advanced beginner-bie. I do think my body is being pushed harder than it has in many years. I am definitely NOT interested in an injury - think how THAT would stall my fitness efforts! And I know the purpose of the day off is to give all the stretched (which means slightly torn) muscles to heal and strengthen. I know that a day off is just as important to fitness as all those days on.

so why does the idea of taking a day off frustrate me. My body has that edgy jumpy feeling that it just wants to jump up and start moving! It reminds me of those kindergardeners I was talking about the other day.... hard to pin them down.

More than that. I am salivating at the opportunity to lift heavier weights more times next Tuesday! I am chomping at the bit for it.

There's just this hunger to use my body and I must give the bootcamp process credit for engendering that in me. I have to tell you - more than any other change I could be experiencing, this is the most welcome. It is all part and parcel of a communication between body and brain that is long overdue.

I can think of nothing more natural than for those two B's to work as a team, giving me a healthy productive happy life. Body tells Brain "I'm hungry" and Brain asks body "What do you need?" and Body says "calcium" and Brain goes down the list of calcicum rich foods and finds a match with what's in my refrigerator.

Oh Dear. that last paragraph reveals to you how really weird I am - splitting myself into a trinity of self, body and brain. ahh well. I guess I've spent too many years breaking big tasks into small action steps.

Ha! And I've spent entirely too much time meandering around with this blog post too. So, pulling myself back to the original theme - I am going to take a walk today, and to do the Thursday bootcamp workout, but it will be the easy gentle walk, not the pump it up walk of my Days On.

Happy Friday Eve to you all!

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BESSHAILE 1/14/2010 9:03AM

    I love you guys. I was going to go in to the gym anyway and burn calories but you ARE right. Those muscles deserve agentle stroll - not a busting bustle.

Heart you heart you heart you

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MSLZZY 1/14/2010 8:28AM

    Sounds like you've got an excellent plan in mind! Go for it and have a Sparktacular Day!

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CANDICANE32 1/14/2010 8:09AM

    Take your day of rest. If you must do something, a leisurely walk is best. Make it a long leisurely walk. I have been where you are with exercise and was terribly afraid to take a day off but I did it and my body released more weight when I did it. I love your attitude though (and the way you split yourself into 3). Have a wonderful day!

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