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Mapping out my week

Sunday, January 24, 2010

I spent yesterday giving my house a deep clean. I live on a farm. I have dogs. I heat with wood. My house gets really really dirty if I don't stay on top of it. I've been trying to figure out ways of doing little chores throughout the week so my Saturday doesn't have to be such a marathon of housecleaning - but now and then, despite my every effort, I just have to buckle down ... and even kneel down ... with bucket, mop, vacuum and dustcloth.

It's always worth the effort, though. I love this house - it's like a magic flying carpet where I can feel safe and explore things that interest me through books, crafts, and music. Even if I don't feel like getting started with the housework, I always enjoy doing it, carefully handling the things that I love, that bring back memories of times and places and people I also love.

Housework is like exercise - sometimes hard to get going, but always good for you and the payback is always worth more than the effort expended.

Best of all - now it's done I can sit down and plan out this week. I'm asking myself "Where do I want to be this time next Sunday?"

Well - I will get back on the scale next Sunday and I hope to see it has moved downwards.

I'll take out the tape measure and I hope it doesn't have to stretch so far around

I would like to have made my 1,000 fitness minutes by then - I'll need to get in 25 minutes a day to do that - but that's not at all unreasonable - even if I am being careful with the intensity as per doctor's orders.

Most of all, this week I want to get my potassium up without increasing calories. In fact, I want to stay within the calorie range all week AND get the potassium up. That's been my one failure ever since I started SP. I think the answer is going to be more and different vegetables - especially collard greens (which I only like - as opposed to spinach which I emoticon emoticon love!

Well. Hmm. I am the queen of setting the bar high - unable to resist the idea of striving beyond my reach. But I think this is high enough for one week. In fact - It sounds like a splendid week with lots of challenges but none of them truly more than I can do. Just gotta keep the focus.

May the map of your week take you to wonderful destinations.

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MSLZZY 1/24/2010 12:23PM

    I love my wood stove! At least it is in the basement so I don't have to look the untidiness daily. But, from time to time, it needs attention too. We have a cat inside but her food, water and necessities are in the basement as well. And since we have an acreage at the edge of town, the "farm" sneaks in. So cleaning is a must. I try to do a little every day but Saturdays are still devoted to major cleaning.
Take heart. You are not alone in this. Stay focused and I hope you have a great week! Onward and DOWNward!

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JLITT62 1/24/2010 11:37AM

    "May the map of your week take you to wonderful destinations."

What a beautiful sentiment!

You know, I've been doing lots of planning, and I don't think I ever really stopped to think about where I want to be at the end of the week. The end of the month, sure, three months sure, even the end of the day. I like it!

Wish I could say I could embrace housecleaning. I try so hard, but I still really, really dislike it. If I were rich, I'd have a housekeeper. I'd probably still do a lot of the cooking, but not the cleaning.

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DAYHIKER 1/24/2010 9:37AM

    I can so relate to your housecleaning woes with dogs, wood stove, and we have a couple of old lady cats and 3 birds!! It is soooo never ending and sometimes wears me down and out! Still, I love my cozy house and even the wood stove. We took it out for a few years when we changed the carpeting but missed it so much that we put it back in!

You are doing great and you have set some good goals! I'm learning to not set the bar too high, too! Challenging isn't it? emoticon

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Victory - and just in the nick of time

Saturday, January 23, 2010

I had a true non-scale victory yesterday - and thank goodness!

I've had a health issue to deal with this last week that has played fast and loose with my emotions. On some of my wider swings towards the Dark Side I've even considered giving up my quest for my health and weight goals.

But yesterday I put no those Khaki Trousers and hot dang! They fit! The buttons and hooks meet, the zipper slides easily up to the waistband and the pockets lie flat over my hips! Paired with a dark turtleneck and my hand knit sweater from last year I look Very West End - Very Grove Avenue - if you are from Richmond VA you'll know what I mean.
I was off to the city to have a birthday luncheon with my sister - another SP success story - and we had the best time. Both of us were feeling good about ourselves and of course Mama was beaming - but of course she always thinks her daughters are perfect angels sent from heaven.

sister and I had already figured out what we were going to eat and added them to our trackers, though I'll admit - I had one of the cupcakes and she did not - but she's not that much of a sweet eater.

I've been feeling pretty sorry for myself this past week and it resulted twice in eating beyond my nutritional limit. Not far - not scadzillions of calories - only a hundred. Enough to halt the shrinkage but not reverse it. And today ?

Today I am ready to get back in the saddle. Truth is - a 5'6" woman can pack a heck of a lot of good food and rich nutrition into 1500 calories a day. Food that feels like indulgences - like rich golden egg yokes - if that's what I want, or even a pat of butter on toast. 1500 calories is enough to make every meal a celebration. And if I ate 1500 calories a day for the rest of my life I would be very slim and trim. Might take a year or so to get there but I could stay there forever.

And for goodness sake! I am not wheelchair bound, like my mother! I am still mobile. I can move and clean house and take walks and get myself into the shower! Looking around at the hundreds of blessings showering down on me - I feel just a little sheepish about my whiny self of this past week.

Life didn't end for me last saturday - it just bent the trail a little. I've had enough pity partying for now. Enough with the whining posts. I am ready to get back on the journey and see what's around the next bend.

Happy Saturday to you all!

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MYFEETHURT 1/23/2010 10:51AM

  Oh boy...what an awesome feeling to have a pair of pants slide on. Huge congrats! Glad you had a good time with your sister and dear Mother. Treasure this for sure. We all have our woe is me days. I've been on that same trip lately..and it's nothing life changing...just chest and head cold and allergies. But...enough to use it as an excuse to not exercise as usual. And maybe eat what I want...instead of what I need. Small battles...thankfully ones we can win. Hang in there. It's a walk in the park...not a race. Enjoy the walk! emoticon mary

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DAYHIKER 1/23/2010 8:17AM

    That is so emoticonabout the khaki pants fitting so well and apparently you looked like a million emoticon You are doing a very good job of keeping the course of your journey adjusted for the changing winds! Calm seas do not make for skillful sailors so we learn to hone our skills on the rougher waters and against the headwinds.


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JLITT62 1/23/2010 7:54AM

    We all get whiny now & again. Just read my blogs, right? And it's ok to whine; it's even healthy. What's not healthy is not whining & eating instead! So there you go, you ARE very healthy.

And one cupcake will not derail you. I wish I wasn't a sweets eater. Life would be easier -- but less sweet, eh?

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BESSHAILE 1/23/2010 7:46AM

    Oh Mslzzy! I emoticon that quote about tying the knot!

That's just it - the journey is never over - it just changes direction. thanks for rooting for me all week. It's been a treasure to find everyone's comments. they have been my knots.

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MSLZZY 1/23/2010 7:42AM

    We all have our "down" moments when health issues pop up. But you didn't let it keep you down. Look UP, woman! The sky is the limit! You are so positive that nothing can hold you back. All the blessings and opportunities are there!
When you reach the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on! I'm not sure who said this but it is a very good quote! emoticon emoticon

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I want a Start Trek doctor

Friday, January 22, 2010

You know - the kind who have a little PDA that he scans up and down your body and then tells you what's wrong and fixes it with something that looks like a cookie press.

Instead, what I got was pretty much what I expected. My very nice, though extrordiarily young looking doctor, is sending me forth into the Land of Medical Tests. It's a good thing I've been allowed to stockpile sick leave at my job because I suspect I will be using up a good bit of it during the next few weeks. I am not sure if I'll be glad to find the original diagnosis is correct - and it is something I'll have to live with - or if it turns out to be Something Else that can be fixed with heroic measures.

But I have had almost a whole week to sort of pout and feel sorry for myself and I am pretty well tired of it. Ready to move on and ready to think about Other Things. Happy Things. Things like .... I believe today I will be wearing those khaki trousers - and if I am - if they fit as well this morning as they did last night .... I get a reward!

way back in the fall when I was figuring things out I realized that what I wanted was rewards of time off - I tend to hoard my vacation leave till suddenly I have to cram it all in or I lose it. My job does not let us stockpile vacation.

Here is the reward I posted in an October blog:

Fit nicely into those khaki trousers --- Leave 3 hours early the following Friday

woo woo - so I am going to leave 3 hours early next Friday!

which is funny since I'm taking today off to go celebrate my mother's birthday at her nursing home. but that is a different thing. Today is comp time for working a holiday a little while ago.

The other thing I plan to pick up again is exercise. I have done NOTHING all week but I am ready to return to gentle movement and beginner Yoga. But that is for tomorrow. For now it is off to the Big City to celebrate with family.

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SPARKIWINS 1/22/2010 11:22PM

    Good for you for setting your goal and now getting to celebrate. So what's next?

Hope "Mom" had a great B-day!

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MSLZZY 1/22/2010 5:34PM

    Wish Mom a Happy Birthday and have a wonderful evening!

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MOMMYBLOGGER 1/22/2010 10:50AM

    That is so funny, I was just saying I wanted a Star Trek Dr for Melly this morn!! She has a cold and her sinuses hurt and I told hubby "where is Bones when you need him!!!"

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DAYHIKER 1/22/2010 8:00AM

    I hope that all will go well and that you'll soon know what you are dealing with so you can move on with getting it taken care of! Good for you for fitting into those khaki pants and planning to claim your reward for doing so!! emoticon Have fun today, too!

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Mind over Body

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Well. I may not be able to be clever but I can be glad because I'd forgotten about the mind over body articles and happily today I found them again - because I need them more than ever now that I don't have the Pump It Up option to torch calories at the gym.

(obviously I'm still having a hard time accepting this, since I keep talking about it.)

And isn't it funny that if you get a little health problem in one area of your life you can start feeling aches and pains and such in other areas? I've been feeling a little off ever since Saturday but it's very difficult for me to know for sure if I'm really feeling off or if I'm psyching myself up to feeling bad. which reminds me of a very funny book : The Hypochondriac's guide to life. And Death. by Gene Weingarten

A soulmate who read too many news articles about illnesses till he finally got one and learned to be ... post-hypochondriacal.

The truth is - I have sort of given myself this week off - to Be Off, if I want or to just fritter around. I go to the GP doctor today and I'll feel guilty for wasting his time and maybe we'll just shrug our shoulders and suck it up. The specialist I saw about this in 2007 basically told me to go home, live well and prosper. But he is not the one with my problem. I am.

But I still do have a mind, if a slightly impaired one, and it can have top spot in the hierarchy of my life. I just have to listen to it ... and when the words Sugar or Cheese float across its fertile plane I don't have to respond to them.

got to keep remembering - Do I really want this or am I just bored?

Happy Thursday

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MOTHERBEAR4 1/21/2010 11:22PM

    Now a days - could be anything! Not getting enough Vitamin D from the Sun, etc.

Just read that Spark Blog about sitting too long can mess up you metabolism. Did that study include SLEEPING! Guess I am going to move every few minutes every waking hour - so fat in the blood stream doesn't get stored in the fat cells. Does Fidgeting Count!!!

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WEDDWT 1/21/2010 2:38PM

    emoticon responding to Sugar & Cheese! Easier said than done.
What helps me is to focus on the foods I can say Yes to. And to keep plenty of them around. Focusing on what I am denying myself just makes me want it all the more. Did someone say deep dish?
Hope your GP was helpful.

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DAYHIKER 1/21/2010 10:47AM

    Um, isn't that Live long and prosper? emoticon I hope that whatever is going on can be treated or fixed and that you will get a good report from the doctor. There are always new things being discovered from year to year (or month to month!) and I hope you can soon get your life back to "normal."

Sorry I missed yesterday's blog somehow! emoticon Cindy

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JLITT62 1/21/2010 9:03AM

    Don't forget to HALT before eating. Are you hungry, angry, lonely, or tired? If the answer is anything other than hungry, don't eat! Of course, bored fits in there very nicely too.

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MSLZZY 1/21/2010 8:19AM

    You are not bored, just "off". Come back home and put your wandering mind at ease. Research new exercises and find something that excites you. Good luck with the GP doctor. Maybe he'll have some good advice! emoticon

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Life takes a turn

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

And I have to go with it.

It turns out I have a health condition that has a direct impact on how much and what sort of exercise I can do. That condition rose its ugly head on Saturday and gobsmacked me hard, leaving me reeling and a little ... well ... I suppose you'd say emotionally wobbly.

Of course, this sort of thing happens on weekends, doesn't it? Not Monday when you can call your doctor and ask "what is going on?"

It doesn't help when you finally get him and he says "I have no idea."

I am being packed off to a specialist and we will plot our course of action but in the mean time - there is to be no more vigorous exercise. Pleasant walks but nothing that pushes the heart rate up too high.

And that means all weight loss has to come from mind over mouth choices. Nutrition packed calories are even more important than ever before. Not for a while - if ever - will I have the easy option of burning off that extra snickers bar. (I wonder why I always use snickers bars as an example, when I don't particularly like them. I just like their name, I guess.)

High calorie burning exercise has always been my ace in the hole when it comes to weight control and I am sort of resentful that this appears to be denied me. Still and all. I am determined to wring the profit out of this situation. I have long wondered if Yoga can help me change my mind about eating as well as keep me strong and flexible. Perhaps the universe is telling me YES.

After all the medical guys give me the thumbs up on this - I will start the new journey - down the new road that life has opened up for me.

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MSLZZY 1/19/2010 10:47PM

    Life happens so meet it head on with a positive attitude. Do your research and find activities you can do. I'm sure SP has something to fit the bill. Take care!

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JLITT62 1/19/2010 12:10PM

    I am sorry to hear that your exercise routine is being derailed. I know I rely a great deal on exercise, too, but not completely -- you can't exercise yourself out of weight gain.

Walking, even non-brisk walking, is still great exercise. Do you think it will be ok for you to strive for 10,000 steps a day?

And I love yoga. There is a whole world of yoga varieties out there, too. Something for everyone.

Good luck on your journey, my friend.

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WEDDWT 1/19/2010 12:04PM

    As the unexpected news of your "finite-ness" sinks in, just be open to accepting the truth. If we reject it, it just drives us crazy, or we become angry all the time because we cannot do what we want to do. As you said, we can choose to be flexible.
I am sorry you hit a bump in the road, but I know you can adapt and continue to succeed in reaching your goals!

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MYFEETHURT 1/19/2010 8:48AM

  Gosh, I'm sorry to hear this. Knowing you you will make the best of this situation. In the meantime...enjoy those pleasant walks. Let us know what you find out. emoticon

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IFDEEVARUNS2 1/19/2010 7:53AM

    Just remember that strength training increases muscle, which burns more calories - there's more than one way to skin a cat (with apologies to all the cats in my life.) emoticon

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KENDALL7261 1/19/2010 7:47AM

    The turn in the road has come, you are now on a different path of your journey. One step at a time, you will do this.

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