Tuesday, December 14, 2010
And no, that spelling error was not an accident. I'm not going to say that it was a wasted year, because it wasn't. I did some pretty awesome stuff this year. I completed my goal of writing a rhyming poem a day for 365 days on my primerhymedaily.blogspot.com blog. I planned and successfully orchestrated an amazing, 2-day, 50th anniversary party for my parents. I arranged a combined 7th birthday party for my daughter and her classmate who share a birthday. I helped my brother and his bride with their wedding. And I significantly increased the amount of work I get, in addition to other positive things I'm probably forgetting. So no, this wasn't a wasted year, but it was a waisted year. I'm about 5 pounds heavier now than I was when the year started. I don't know how many times I can start over, but after seeing myself in my brother's wedding pictures, I was shocked. A number on a scale is just that: a number. It's essentially meaningless. But when you see yourself in photos that you know people will be looking at forever, and you look like one of those giant balloons in the Macy's Thanksgiving Parade, it has a whole different kind of impact. I don't know how I could go on lying to myself for so long. I promised myself that I wasn't going to do another "Starting over" post here. But I am. Because I have to. And if I have to start over 1000 more times, I will, embarrassing as it may be. If for no other reason than the fact that I need to be a better role model for my daughter. So I'm starting 2011 a couple of weeks early. Because there's no time like the present, and I'm tired of waisting time.