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Monday, July 28, 2014




My life has been crazy busy lately!! So I apologize to all my SP friends that have been neglected lately. Don't think that I have just been ignoring you all or that I have quit or just don't care that is simply not true.

The dept I work in is in the middle of moving to another building and I will not be going with them. Long story short, there was drama and I found out they don't want me there so I'm not going. I will not be placed in that kind of environment. Meanwhile I have been working alone and with no lunches, well I don't call it lunch since I don't clock out and I have to eat on the go. Plus I've been busy learning about the new dept where I will be moving to. LOL I'm wearing myself out just thinking and blogging about it.

I hope you all have been doing well and that life is treating you good. I'm still hanging on with both hands and although I've missed several Zumba classes I haven't quit those either. It just seems like there aren't enough hours in the day to do everything I need to get done, even if you added a few hours more then it would probably still be filled with things that I wouldn't have time to accomplish!! BLAH!! If it's not super important then it's taking a backseat right now.

Not to say that you all aren't important because I miss emailing, texting and sparking with you all.





so that's what I'm taking time right now to do with you all. I have other projects that need attention but right now I'm taking time to focus on my friends, stop by say Hello and send everyone positive energy.







It's all I can do for now my friends. LOL I'm already being called in another direction!! Good grief, not even a moment for me to finish a blog!!

Again I'm hoping you all are doing well!! Keep smiling and sparking!!!

  
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BLUEJAY1969 8/7/2014 5:41PM

    Many hugs for you my dear! I hope it settles down soon!
Jeanne

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NEWTEXDEBBIE 7/30/2014 10:19AM

    I'm SMILEING! I'm SMILEING! emoticon

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I did it!!!!!

Tuesday, June 10, 2014

Took myself to the Y this evening and I walked 2 miles (at different times of course) at an average of 2.7 mph and in under 25 mine each time!!!!

GO ME!!!!
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THECRAZYMANGO 7/16/2014 6:16PM

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FOR_THE_DUDES 6/11/2014 2:06PM

    Way to go!

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MADMANSMAMA87 6/11/2014 12:49PM

    Way to go, Berta!!!!
That is fabulous!!!!!
Keep up the great work!!!!

Hugs,

Jes

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NEWTEXDEBBIE 6/11/2014 9:50AM

    WAY TO GO BERTA!

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I_R_WORTH_IT 6/11/2014 8:08AM

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Atta girl! Keep on moving, and it goes get "easier" and even...dare I say it....FUN!

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Which way is Up??

Monday, June 09, 2014



I sure hope they are, but I know deep in my heart they are always watching and protecting me even if at times it doesn't feel like it.

I'm sorry that I haven't been able to respond to you all in a timely manner. There are several things that are preventing me from associating with you all as much as I would like.

1. Here at work, I am working alone in the office. Sometimes I get a lunch & sometimes I don't, it just depends on the day and how many people call in.

2. My MIL has been in the hospital last week and I was out most of Tuesday with her, for those of you not familiar with the situation... My husband and I are the ones who deal with her health care and everyone else gets her time and attention. I'm not bitter just tired that they don't help us out (she was dehydrated, disoriented, and had fallen the night before but no one called to tell us any of it and OH by the way she hadn't eaten much since Saturday) she gets a tiny bit better and is out checking on the daughter who knew she fell but didn't say anything. *SIGH* it's just so frustrating.

3. I've been going to the Y to do either do Zumba or walk for a bit. And for those of you that missed it, I actually cried a little bit during and had a full blown melt down after class. What happened you ask???
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Yup. A mirror, the room where Zumba is done is filled with them!! On this particular day I was super tired, we had been running around doing things for the new car we had just bought the day before & the kids were hounding me to go (not really a bad thing though) and I reluctantly went anyway. Looking back maybe I should have just walked on the treadmill instead but I took myself to Zumba. At one point, I was tired and my feet were on FIRE but I kept on going the IT happened.

I'm shimmying and shaking like the instructor was except the low impact version and I catch a glimpse of this HUGE person in the mirror!!! Are you serious??? Is THAT what I look like??? Tears stung my eyes (still do as I type this) and kept wiping them away until class was over. I tried to get out of there as quick as I could but Sarah the instructor (we both work for the clinic) came over to me and I started blubbering like a big ol baby!! I mean it's not like I don't know I'm heavy (bottom mostly my thighs are HUGE and my lower legs are big but not like my thighs) I'm trying to talk to Sarah and Lord bless her she is a doll but at that point I'm sure she was thinking "What have I gotten myself into??"

We talked and she used to be heavy too but not like me heavy. I know it takes time and effort, it didn't show up overnight and it's not going to disappear like that either but I was just so stinking upset that I couldn't hold it in.

I believe that truly was my rock bottom. I've done better since and I have gone back to the Y and I have done Zumba except that I stand in the ONE spot that doesn't have mirror. I did catch another glimpse of myself on Friday but I didn't freak out LOL!! I did have a Spanish speaking lady approach me about some powered stuff that they sell at a grocery store if I was interested in losing weight. From what I gathered from her it sounds like a laxative, she said it makes you "go alot". LOL thank for the offer but I'm good.

I found this prayer earlier and it truly describes how I've been feeling lately pulled in a million different directions.



Geesh all that and I didn't even mention Dad & his cancer or the glasses that the eye mart has managed to botch for the past MONTH!! Dad isn't able to drive or read since he sees double, he is counting on Mom for EVERYTHING that he is able to do but can't because they keep messing up his glasses and still can't get them in!! For over a month now we have been playing this game: Your glasses are in oh but wait, it's not the right prescription. Sir your glasses are in, but wait we cut them wrong. Sir your glasses are coming, oh wait not really we had to send them off a specialist so that they are done correctly. Seriously??? What is the big freaking deal about getting his glasses done???

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ok, well there is my crazy, insane life in a nutshell. I hope al of my SP friends are doing well and aren't offended because I don't get back to you all quick enough. Please hang in there, I promise to try to get back to you all sooner rather than later.


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I know I have to relax and ....

  
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I_R_WORTH_IT 6/9/2014 2:11PM

    Mirrors can stink real bad.....keep in mind tho, that person in there, is a beautiful, wonderful, kind hearted person, that IS doing things to get herself HEALTHY for the long haul!

Look at her the next time you see her, and tell her she is doing a GREAT job, and, that the outer covering has nothing to do with the spirit and awesomeness that hides inside!

Believe me, I have days that I want to walk backward to avoid them, specially here at work, they have full length ones in the potty room to make sure you dont walk out with skirt up in undies syndrome....

I have gotten to the point, I look at my "her" and admit thats one sexy beast in there! She graces the world with her wit, charm, tude AND all this beauty? Dannnnng, shes generous!

Keep taking it one step at a time, and MOST important, make some YOU time, so you don't pop.
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NEWTEXDEBBIE 6/9/2014 1:07PM

    BIG HUGE HUG my friend! I HATE mirrors......

WE can do this and WE will do this!
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05/05/2014

Monday, May 05, 2014

It's time to get down to business. Starting today I'm going to weigh on Mondays and report in at least twice a week to myself.

Todays weight was 296.4

Seriously?? This week I am going to eat slower, drink more water, try to avoid the obvious sugars and see if I can get to at least 290!!!

I've got to start somewhere and this looks like a great place to start.

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THECRAZYMANGO 7/16/2014 6:17PM

    Did you reach your goal?

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SUKIE40 5/16/2014 2:58PM

    That's great my friend!

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SHELLS514 5/6/2014 9:15AM

    Great plan Berta! I'm trying to get jump started myself! Lets do this thing!!


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NEWTEXDEBBIE 5/5/2014 10:53AM

    AWESOME! You go girlfriend! emoticon

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FOR_THE_DUDES 5/5/2014 10:11AM

    Good for you!

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Why??

Wednesday, April 23, 2014

emoticon Well that didn't take long. Oncology office called Mom today, Dad has a mass in his chest and lesions on his lungs. Seriously?? I'm so freaking mad right now, I'm sure my BP is off the charts.

Report isn't confirmed yet, but that's just what they see so of course we have to wait until next week and see what the doc in San Antonio wants to do and go from there.

*SIGH* all I can do is pray. Crying isn't going to get me anywhere nor will it fix the situation at hand. I just want to know WHY!!! Why Dad?? Why again is he having to go thru this again?? Mom is freaking out, which in turn made me freak out and I bawled my eyes out.

This is almost the same thing that happened last time, I've just got to get the inital boo hoo out and then I'm on the fast track to helping them do what needs to get done. Travel plans, hotel arrangements, reminding of all the stuff they need to get set up.

Tomorrow will be a better day & hopefully things will return to a semi-normal state soon.

  
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SHELLS514 4/28/2014 9:06PM

    emoticon Thinking of you Berta and hoping and praying for a good outcome for your dad. He is blessed to have a loving, caring daughter to be there for him. Take care of you too sweetie emoticon

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CWILSON88 4/27/2014 11:29PM

    Thinking of you right now and sending positive energy your way! emoticon emoticon

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FOR_THE_DUDES 4/24/2014 10:32AM

    Wow. I'm really very sorry to hear this.

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PAULAROCKS3 4/24/2014 10:07AM

    I' m sorry for your bad news. Try to stay positive for your parents, and for yourself. emoticon

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VIADOLOROSA 4/23/2014 6:34PM

    I'm sorry you got such awful news about your dad. emoticon

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MTN_KITTEN 4/23/2014 6:24PM

    ((((((hugs)))))))

You can do this!

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