Saturday, July 13, 2013
Many have asked "How do you do it?" I used to say "I wish I knew." Then today as I sat in class responding to a post for requirement, I had a soft voice say "You do it in spite of." I had to take a step back and a deep breath to contemplate what that meant.
I do in spite of........
1. the constant physical pain that does not leave me.
2. The emotional turmoil grief and emotional upheaval leave me
3. The daily demands of a PhD program
4. looking for a job that hasn't surfaced yet
See God handles the "in spites". Oh at the time we struggle, we don't understand that. A song that was a favorite of someone I will miss the rest of my life came to mind. Footprints in the Sand, I have sang this song many times over the years and it was one of the last I sang for him. But on those days of pain I am not alone, on those days of tears (which are many right now) I am not alone.........PhD? oh boy I have to be carried. A job ....... the right one will come along. I was told the last time I sang Footprints that Faith is believing in what you cannot see while living as if you can. Today, those words came from a soft voice (a small hand-written card in a place I least expected it my dayplanner) I haven't figured out yet how it got there as I am in my day planner every time I turn around but there it was.