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Thursday, July 10, 2014

One of my brother's classmates tragically passed away a few months ago in an accident. They are several years younger than me and of course it always makes one consider their mortality.

I hate to admit this, but I have to say that I am annoyed by grieving on social media websites. There was an event in my life that I grieve deeply, even though that even is ten years old now. I never mention it on social media, well rarely, because if I mentioned my grief I would be told that it was for the best and that other people gained so much from my loss.

I work everyday with people who are faced with tragedy, great tragedy. These people are usually members of marginalized groups of people in our community. They don't have the privilege of having a nice home, money, food on the table, education, a way to take care of their kids, or often any kind of family network. So few people care about that, but when a privileged person loses someone, everyone is falling all over themselves to take care of that person.

It adds to my sadness and pain that this goes on. I watch people struggle that no one cares about unless it is to be angry that they are getting public assistance. Care about them a little sooner and maybe their reliance on those programs can lessen. Care about them before the tragedy that causes their grief happens and maybe there will be less addiction. Care about them before they are homeless and maybe you won't have to be upset about them being in your park or wherever.

Now I'm off to the grocery store and then to play with the dogs. Those little beings love everyone and are an inspiration.

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LUCKYDUCK2 7/25/2014 7:33PM

    I have to do you care or show support for someone BEFORE their tragedy happens? The fact that people take the time to support me or share and care is NOT because I am privileged. It is because I have friends and family who care about me.

The tone of your thread here makes me suspect you have a very stressful job and you see a lot of horrible living conditions for many who are in a low time in their lives. Tragedy and the loss of a loved one affects every one the same no matter what their living conditions.

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CARRENK 7/11/2014 12:48PM

    I'm sorry to hear about your brother's classmate. I think grief is a hard thing to express and a hard thing to respond to. We each deal with it in our own way, I guess.

God bless you for the work you do to better the lives of others. That is truly a higher calling. Sometimes the problems of the world seem so overwhelming, a person doesn't know where to begin to help. You haven't used that excuse, and are making the world better. Thank you!

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SIOL55 7/10/2014 6:34PM

  I am sorry you are feeling frustrated by all this. While there are some people that are indifferent to human suffering there are many who are concerned and reach out to help. I hope you will find support from people around you. emoticon

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Mysterious Things

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

So I used to be someone that didn't believe so much in prayer. Then I found a spiritual home, not a church, but a spiritual home.

I had the honor and privilege of working at a shelter on the Crow Creek reservation for two years. I'm back home again now, at a shelter where I'm the director, but I digress. The women I worked with and for helped me learn so much about myself. They helped me learn about prayer and the power of it.

I pray to the Creator. I believe in leading the best life I can and doing good to all people and creatures.

Last night when I smudged (burning sage and praying) a lot of pain was lifted from me. My heart hurts sometimes from the weight of my work. That hurt leads to anxiety. That anxiety leads to eating. Food is the most abused anxiety drug after all. When that pain is gone I don't eat.

Of course the 35 minutes on the elliptical didn't hurt either, man those endorphins rock.

Point being, even if you don't believe in God, whoever or whatever you believe in, let them lift some of that pain from you. Most of us that have food issues have pain in some form from a trauma or traumas that we have experienced.

Have some faith in yourself too. When you have a bad, anxiety ridden day, know that tomorrow will be better and you can get through today.

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CARRENK 10/30/2013 8:42PM

    Wow, that's some powerful stuff. When stress and pain weigh you down (sorry, no pun intended!), that's when we need to turn to a power beyond ourselves. Of course, that's when it can be the most difficult to let go.

I firmly believe that God (by whatever name) welcomes prayer in any and all forms. How boring would creation be if we all did everything the same way?

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New beginnings

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

So I broke up with my boyfriend for the third time in six years. I'm done this time. Absolutely done. There is nothing left to be said there.

He isn't a bad guy, he just isn't right for me. I get lazy. I don't take care of myself or my house. I gain weight. I have no motivation.

I'm back to cooking at home, not eating meat, not eating sugar, drinking only water and the occasional glass of milk. It's amazing how good I am at this stuff when I'm alone. Having a boyfriend can be overrated I guess!

A month alone and I've lost 7 pounds, what does that say? I'm only 9 pounds from the first goal of 30 pounds lost that I set for myself back in May. That was a short term goal. There is definitely a much larger long term goal, but there is no point in thinking that is the way to reach my goal. I have to actually have goals that are achievable in the short term, this one is!

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PRINCESS_SOFI 10/22/2013 12:32PM

    Time to focus on yourself 100%

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Sugar cravings

Tuesday, March 06, 2012

So sugar cravings suck. I am having them right now because I just ate supper and now I think I need dessert. I struggle at work too because there is all kinds of junk food around and it is just hard to avoid all of it. If there is a box of donuts I can't leave it alone. I really have a hard time when I am there alone and bored. Being home alone and bored is hard too.

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MRSFARRA 3/6/2012 11:48PM

    My nutritionist told me that it takes a week to 10 days to get rid of sugar craving and everytime you give in you start all over. Fruit or something sour is recommended. Good luck. i am on day 3 of no suger. Looking forward to havingthe cravings gone.

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LUZITAE 3/6/2012 11:27PM

    I used to crave the sugar also. After a few days of no sugar, the cravings were gone. I haven't had cravings in a long time. When I do crave sugar, I have a piece of fruit instead. Hope that works for you.

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Why Is It?

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

So I know that I need to work on my weight, heavens knows, I know. So why don't I? I know full well that I am a compulsive over eater, but I also know that I can control my eating, I just choose not to do so.

Controlling those urges to binge aren't always so easy, but I know how to do it. I think I just get lazy, plain old lazy. It is easier to just eat whatever I want than to take the time to shop and eat only the good stuff.

I am on day 2 of abstaining from sugar. Everyone says "treat yourself once in awhile or you will binge later". Nope, not me, if I "treat myself" that leads to a binge. I start eating and I can't stop. It is a like being an alcoholic I think.

I work on refocusing myself and not thinking about food, sometimes that makes it worse, but a lot of times it really helps. Finding other stuff to do helps a bunch too.

I can do this I know I can!

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ELLENIRENE 7/26/2011 8:08AM

    Yes, you can do it! It is so much easier to just reach for anything and eat it. But that is not healthy. Your body deserves much better than that. If it's not there in your cupboard, you can't eat it, so when you go to reach for something--make sure it's fruits, vegetables and healthy snacks. Try to get plenty of protein and fiber to fill you up. When I think I'm "starving" I reach for the water. That usually fills up the empty void.

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