Wednesday, May 06, 2009
Ok, so I am extremely depressed today (well not really...I just need to vent!) I have been really positive and excited about my "adventure" towards toning up and getting in better shape. I have joined a gym and I have been enjoying exercise for the first time in a long time. I find that the more I work out the better I feel...but I have been gaining weight rather than losing. I have gotten to the point where I am afraid to step on the scale to check on my progress. I have been told that I need to boost my caloric intake throughout the day and stay away from the carbs in the evening. I was and I am skeptical, but I am doing what I am told. It is difficult for me to eat more at more times in the day! My regular pattern is wake up at around 5:30 am, leave for work at about 6:30, arrive at work at 7:45 am, have breakfast with my morning coffee, force a small healthy snack around 10:00, eat lunch at 12:00-12:30, force an afternoon healthy snack (very difficult) at around 3:00, leave work to go to gym at 5:00, arrive at gym between 6:15 and 6:30, work out for 30 min or 60 minutes, come home and prepare dinner, eat by 8:00, have a small snack (maybe), and go to bed by 10:00. I am most hungry in the morning and when I get home from the gym. I do not eat much junk food, nor do I drink soda. I am frustrated because this is the heaviest I have ever been and I being that I am so self-conscious lately, it really takes a lot out of me. I have gained back what I lost since I started SP and then some. Obviously, what I have been doing is not working...
I apologize for my ranting, but I really needed to voice my frustration to others who have gone through this similar plight...
Otherwise, it is a beautiful day, the sun is shining...(I just wish I could wear the cute sheath dress in my closet!)
Monday, April 20, 2009
I decided that today I must join a gym. This evening after work I am going to meet with a personal trainer and see if she can assist me with the strength training portion of my goals.
Enough is enough!
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Ok! Now I can attest to the fact that diet alone will probably not work for my personal weight loss goals.
Everybody is different, but after a few weeks of tracking my caloric intake, staying below the low end of the range and drinking 9+ glasses of water, with minimal (very minimal exercise), I have noticed I feel better, but I have not lost any notable weight. So the moral of this story is... I just have to get into the groove of exercise!
I have to admit that I feel great after exercise of any type, but most often I lack the motivation of actually starting the work out. I also despise any type of pain or discomfort, so when I get to point of "burning" I want to stop. I know I have to just push harder, and I will, but that's my story. I refuse to give up!
Hope everyone is doing well in the New year!
Monday, December 08, 2008
Well finally a good amount of snow has fallen and I am so excited to go do some hiking!
Unfortunately, I have been bedridden with a virus for the past week, aside from a number of visits to
the doctors office and ER, I have been laying in bed and since I had to have a spinal tap to rule out Meningitis, I have had limited movement. I am excited to get back to the office and get out there and work hard to work off any Thanksgiving calories that may still be lingering.
I am finding it tremendously difficult to lose weight, although just prior to Thanksgiving I was noticing results in the way my body felt and the way my clothes were fitting.
One idea that helps my self-esteem, but is almost a subconscious complacent mechanism that is detrimental to my progress is that I tell myself I look fine the way I am. I do not need to lose weight, the weight is just to be expected due to getting older and my metabolism changing. I am 5'9" and fluctuating between 179 and 170 lbs not so bad. I think what I would like to do is initially work on toning the difficult areas and how I look then. The lowest I have ever been was 115 and I was emaciatingly thin at my height. I didn't look healthy. I want to feel healthy and it would be an added bonus to wear the things I like to wear like pencil skirts (with no sign of thighs) and fitted 3/4 sleeve shirts without the buttons bulging at the bust!
I will admit that the reason I do not like to jog or run is because I am a bit "top heavy" and I do not like it. If there is one place I would like to lose weight most it would be in my chest area (I do not believe in cosmetic surgery either).
So anyways, enough of my ranting. I have been very bored this week and now I think I will listen to another audiobook (A Thousand Splendid Suns by Khaled Hosseini) drink some tea and maybe take a nap and dream about my treadmill or a nice, brisk walk in the semi frozen tundra that is right outside my door.
Hope all is well for everyone! Happy belated Thanksgiving!
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