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Friday, August 01, 2014

Two things struck me this week.

Firstly, a good friend lost her uncle, largely unexpectedly, in horrible circumstances. Having gone through similar with mum, I can appreciate the unreality of it all, and the range of dark emotions she would have been going through for the last couple months, and will go through for the next few months and years. But it's life - when you get to a certain age, people older than you whom you love, start to die, and it's always awful. The worser thing (it's not a word, but I don't care) would be for our elders to outlive us. So you get through it, albeit changed, after months of depression, crying, disbelieving, anger, loneliness. And grateful for the time, experience and love you had with then. At the end of the day, they helped form you into you, so a little bit of them lives on in you, which people recognise so so often.

The other things is Gaza. There have been intafadas before, but this one seems different. It's harrowing. It affects you. It finally seems like the world is waking up to the largely one-sided horrors being inflicted there. I'm starting to have horrific nightmares of screaming dead kids shouting at me, and I then in that dream turn to mum to tell her, and the words don't come out. I could post pictures here which would make you weep. I've wept more in the past fortnight than the past year.

Both of these things made me realise how lucky we are, both myself, and you reading this. That to not reach your full potential in what is a relatively easy, comfortable existence, to languish any lower due to procrastination, laziness, lack of motivation, planning, commonsense, is a life wasted.

Which is where I've been, and will stop being. It's time to fecking wise up. Get healthier. Get fitter. Get more self-respect. Stop the death march to an early grave, with those last few steps and crawls full of needless suffering.


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ICECUB 8/1/2014 7:40PM

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LEANJEAN6 8/1/2014 6:46AM

    try to concentrate on "you"------Turn off CNN--LOLOL-----Lynda emoticon

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RASPBERRY56 8/1/2014 6:44AM


You are so right about reaching one's potential! Good on you for your strong sels of self-awareness!


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PICKIE98 8/1/2014 5:11AM

    If we have the means, the motive and teheopportunity, it IS wise to get our poop in a group!

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Monday, July 28, 2014

An interesting, insightful week....


A tough week in work, lots of change, which affects a person mentally. Workload each day has reduced, but had a lot of hours to work back my flexi time, so left at 8:30pm on Friday, and started work on Saturday at 8am... not ideal. From now on, I'm aiming to do 11am to 7pm days. It'll be nice to get away "early" every day, although I have to work until 8:30pm one night a week. So weekly that'll mean I claw back 4 hours, which is a little over half a day. This means I can keep my roughly 12 days accrued holidays for the end of the year (Iceland trip) and use my flexi time for full and half days here and there (another 12 days worth).


After a strong first half of the week, had a couple of poor days, and am only righting that now - walked about 5 miles and an W1D3 of C25K in the gym. Don't like not knowing exactly how far I walked, sorry I sold the Fitbit now. So have ordered a second hand Withings Pulse. Looks like a nice piece of kit for step/distance tracking to encourage me to walk more again.


Bike's off the road until can afford to get gears/brakes sorted. Next Friday fortnight... walking and occasionally bussing until then.


Apart from the Withings Pulse, got my eye on two other devices - first is the Adidas Speed_Cell bluetooth stride sensor for tracking runs in the gym. Ordering this Friday...

The other is the Magellan Echo Fitness watch.

The watch displays HRM data, bike data, running data - links to my iSmoothrun app and al the connecting devices. Fascinating. :)


Still my eternal bugbear. Dishes were not done, and didn't revise anything for work, or do any work for brother. Got gym and walking in at least, so partial achievement, not a zero day at least.


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PICKIE98 7/28/2014 5:21AM

    The big problem , I think, is there are not enough hours in a day to do it all!
That work plan is great and you will be glad when it made your Iceland trip!!

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Wednesday, July 23, 2014

5 days hovering above 285 lbs, then whoosh!!!!

282.9 lbs.

God knows why - kcalories were good, but not drastically cut. I walked 3.5miles to work instead of bike. I had an early night. None of these can explain almost 3 lbs loss in a day. Perhaps it's a temporary blip, who knows.

Today I'll walk to work again. And get another early night. And control kcalories...

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PAZUZURISES 7/23/2014 11:41PM


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NKING1982 7/23/2014 3:36PM

    Good job, keep on pushing

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GSEATON 7/23/2014 12:47PM

    You are rockin' this! That's just amazing. Take it when you can get it, for sure!

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SANDYJAKE 7/23/2014 12:13PM

    Hey Paul, great job. I find that I can swim laps for 2 miles, use the equipment at the gym, bike, and cut calories.....nothing takes the lbs off faster than walking. Good thing I have my dogs to motivate me. You Rock !

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PEGGY11 7/23/2014 9:48AM

    Good job. Don't question the loss. Just enjoy.

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PINKEUROGIRL 7/23/2014 7:33AM

    woo hoo!!

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Momentum, a little bit at least!

Sunday, July 20, 2014

Early hours of Sunday morning, weekend's over.... Well, this weekend I've not done EVERYTHING I set out to do, but it's certainly not a weekend of Zero Days. :)

Weight continues downwards overall - was 287.5lbs at date of last blog (16th), and am 285.8lbs now. Not a big change, but a good change still. Went off the Warrior Diet a fair bit, but haven't been going MAD, hence still down. Warrior Diet is tough at weekends, easy during work. Although a bit less easy when stress elsewhere in life kicks in. Stress. Mental state. It fecking defines everything... not measuring other body stats at minute, because there's not going to be huge change anywhere, so no point being anal about it.

Ended up not getting the new bike due to huge unreported stock issues after I placed order. No way to run a business. Just as well - rent became more important, forgot about that... the new speed/cadence sensor is working well. Unlike the bike - gears are getting worse, as are brakes, but I've got a good quote for repair next week.

Haven't got the amount of overtime I'd planned for reasons both within my control and beyond it. But valid reasons. i'm coping. Even got access to my credit file now, so will watch that improve over the next few months.

It's amazing how much I put off decluttering. And also amazing how much better I feel when it's done. Dishes all done, hoovering, tidying, sorting, and also bit of work for my brother. Feel happier overall now.

Started running in Puregym a few days ago, C5K, and at this weight it HURTS. But I'll repeat each week as often as it takes. Meant to do it again Saturday, biked to gym, and realised I'd no lock, so couldn't follow through. Tomorrow.

Trying a couple of iOS apps for tracking habits. Strides is one, and Lift is another. I'll settle on whichever one feels better t use.

I'm still so far from any interim goals, but i'm moving slowly in the right direction. Will continue to revise stuff in work, to help me be a happier (in my own mind) employee, declutter a little each morning, get two runs in this week coming, do the rest of work for my brother, track daily, and drink lots of water daily. :)

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CHARTHESTAR 7/20/2014 11:19PM

    I feel the same about decluttering!

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ICECUB 7/20/2014 8:34PM

    you are on the right track. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Now that's better!

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Down about 4 lbs since Saturday, by not eating mindlessly the way I have been for too long.

Listened to my body today, decided to stay in bed longer instead of going in for overtime today. Feeling under it, and feet/legs/throat sore. Bit better now.

Went to Apple store to pick up a cadence/speed sensor, called the Wahoo Blue SC. Stupid names, well reviewed. :) Shall attach this to rear of bike to send cadence and speed data to Cyclemeter & Strava iOS apps, even if the bike is on the turbo trainer - finally a way of recording distance on there!

In the latter part of the day, after seeing them in the flesh at Decathlon, I came back home, had a thought about overtime this week, and decided to upgrade my half-dead hybrid bike to an entry level road bike, the Triban 3.

Apparently for 299, it's FANTASTIC. Anyhow, more tools to help keep me right. :)

Lastly ,I sold my fitbit in preparation for Apple iWatch, but then decided i want a step tracker still. Eejit. Still have a Fitbit account, so just got a 5 step tracker, and will enter steps manually each night. Cheap as chips!

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ICECUB 7/15/2014 9:44PM

    emoticon on weight loss. hope you feel better soon.

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