Tuesday, February 05, 2013
I stayed right on track all weekend. Yesterday I did well, too. Today, not so great. I am w-a-y over on my calories, thanks to lunch at Mcdonald's. One of my goals was no fast food this week so that's shot, but I'll start again. My new goal is no more fast food this week. I did do a short walk today. My brother had asked me to walk with him, but he canceled yesterday and today. I'm sort of proud that I went ahead without him today. It wasn't much but it was something. Another goal is to do something, a walk or workout of some sort for the next 3 days. Not giving up because I messed up is a good step for me.
Friday, February 01, 2013
On Wednesday and Thursday, my grandson spent the day with me. He's almost 2 and quite a boy. He kept me moving and busy. It made me miss the days when my children were small. It also made me realize that it's harder to get up off the floor that it used to be. Today was back to normal, no little guy to keep me on my toes.
I made some good choices this week. I bought the kids lunch at McDonalds two days and didn't get anything for myself. Last night my daughter made a brownie in a mug recipe and I only tasted one bite. I limited my portions pretty well. There was only one time that I got a second helping. I tracked my food all week and did well staying in my calorie range.
The weekend is coming and I am a little nervous about staying on track. My plan is to take it one step at a time and stay connected to SP.
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
The encouraging messages really helped my attitude to improve. Thank you all so much.
Today I decided to wear my pedometer and see how many steps I'm getting in, but I couldn't find it. Oh well, I got in some extra steps looking for it.
I'm going to accept the fact that don't enjoy exercising. My goal for now is to add as much activity to my day as possible. It looks very inefficient but I'm making everything I do take as many steps as I can. Yesterday, I folded and put away laundry one piece at a time, as in fold a pair of socks, walk it across the house to the dresser, walk back to the dryer, and fold something else. It took longer but I got in more movement than sitting on the couch folding laundry while I watch tv. Since it feels like spring here today, I piled both loads of laundry in the basket and carried them out to the clothes line. One load was jeans and the other was towels, heavy basket so that's strength training.
Another big issue for me is portion control. That is where I plan to "exercise" my ability to make good choices and to take responsibility for not making good choices. A lot of my excuses involve the idea that I can't throw that away so I might as well eat it, or my most common, it's tempting me so I'll eat it all so it can't tempt me anymore. Nobody is forcing me. I'm making those choices. If I keep making the same choices, I'll keep getting the same results. My goal for today is no second helpings.
Teeny, tiny baby steps but at least I've got a plan.
Monday, January 28, 2013
Many years ago, I was working in a church preschool program. One morning, I went into the small kitchen area to get snack for the children. One of the other teachers was there eating cookies. She looked guilty that I'd caught her eating the children's snacks and she said, "I'm fat. I've always been fat. I'll always be fat. Do you want a cookie?" That's how I feel right now. I haven't always been fat but I feel like I'll always be fat so why fight it. There's a place in my brain that knows how false and harmful that way of thinking is but I can't seem to find my way there. The whole issue is a lack of self-discipline. I can make lots of excuses for myself but they're just excuses. The truth is that I've given up. I don't like this. I'm going to try to climb out of this dark pit of self-pity and get back in the sunshine.
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
The leaves are beginning to show a hint of color and the weather is much cooler. Since it's officially fall, I guess that's to be expected.
The seasons of my life are changing, too. This morning, I clicked "Submit" on the NC Department of Non-Public Education's website and officially closed our homeschool. We've been homeschooling our 6 children since 1985. There were times when I thought this season would never end but, as all seasons do, it has. Our youngest is in college.
My mom was diagnosed with Alzheimer's disease in 2007. As the disease progresses, I became her caretaker. She did very well for a long time, and we had lots of plans for what we'd do together after my youngest graduated from homeschool. Mom passed away on Christmas Eve after deteriorating unexpectedly.
That means this season of my life isn't working out the way I'd expected. But just like fall is a beautiful season, probably my favorite, I think this season of my life can be beautiful, maybe my favorite. I'm trying to focus on living a healthy, active lifestyle and enjoying each day as the gift it is.
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