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Saturday, August 30, 2014

Last year at this time I was doing so well. I was losing weight, exercising, and feeling healthy. This year I've gained all the weight back and some extra, regular exercise is a memory, and I feel blah. But I'm not parking in this spot. I worked in the garden and exercised with a short sparkpeople video today. I tracked my food. Hey, I'm even making a blog post! I feel like I'm pointed in the right direction again. My big issue is snacking, mindless eating. It's an addiction and I need to treat it that way. I've been way too understanding with myself. It's time to be tough and hold myself accountable. So here I am, starting over once again.


The Ups and the Downs

Tuesday, February 05, 2013

I stayed right on track all weekend. Yesterday I did well, too. Today, not so great. I am w-a-y over on my calories, thanks to lunch at Mcdonald's. One of my goals was no fast food this week so that's shot, but I'll start again. My new goal is no more fast food this week. I did do a short walk today. My brother had asked me to walk with him, but he canceled yesterday and today. I'm sort of proud that I went ahead without him today. It wasn't much but it was something. Another goal is to do something, a walk or workout of some sort for the next 3 days. Not giving up because I messed up is a good step for me.

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LINDAK25 2/5/2013 10:26PM

    It's not what you do for one meal, but what you do over time, right? It's fantastic that you went ahead with your walk even though your brother canceled. I'm bad about that!

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LUCKY1964 2/5/2013 7:35PM

    I am proud of you for walking even though you had to go at it alone. I am also proud to see that you did not throw in the towel just because you had one meal that was not within the plan that you wanted. I know that you are going to have points where you want to throw it all away because of one or two mistakes but it does not matter how many times you fall down as long as the times you get back up again is always higher. I feel much like you at the moment but I am telling you now We ARE GOING TO WIN THIS!!!!!

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PARKERB2 2/5/2013 7:33PM

    Don't ever give up. You can do it.

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Wednesday, Thursday, Friday

Friday, February 01, 2013

On Wednesday and Thursday, my grandson spent the day with me. He's almost 2 and quite a boy. He kept me moving and busy. It made me miss the days when my children were small. It also made me realize that it's harder to get up off the floor that it used to be. Today was back to normal, no little guy to keep me on my toes.

I made some good choices this week. I bought the kids lunch at McDonalds two days and didn't get anything for myself. Last night my daughter made a brownie in a mug recipe and I only tasted one bite. I limited my portions pretty well. There was only one time that I got a second helping. I tracked my food all week and did well staying in my calorie range.

The weekend is coming and I am a little nervous about staying on track. My plan is to take it one step at a time and stay connected to SP.

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LINDAK25 2/1/2013 11:21PM

    Hurray for a great week! Sounds like a good plan for the weekend, too. Good for you!

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KATHYM316 2/1/2013 8:34PM

    Glad you had a good time with your grandson..nothing like it in the world..
Hope you have a great weekend

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Thanks for the Encouragement

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

The encouraging messages really helped my attitude to improve. Thank you all so much.

Today I decided to wear my pedometer and see how many steps I'm getting in, but I couldn't find it. Oh well, I got in some extra steps looking for it.

I'm going to accept the fact that don't enjoy exercising. My goal for now is to add as much activity to my day as possible. It looks very inefficient but I'm making everything I do take as many steps as I can. Yesterday, I folded and put away laundry one piece at a time, as in fold a pair of socks, walk it across the house to the dresser, walk back to the dryer, and fold something else. It took longer but I got in more movement than sitting on the couch folding laundry while I watch tv. Since it feels like spring here today, I piled both loads of laundry in the basket and carried them out to the clothes line. One load was jeans and the other was towels, heavy basket so that's strength training.

Another big issue for me is portion control. That is where I plan to "exercise" my ability to make good choices and to take responsibility for not making good choices. A lot of my excuses involve the idea that I can't throw that away so I might as well eat it, or my most common, it's tempting me so I'll eat it all so it can't tempt me anymore. Nobody is forcing me. I'm making those choices. If I keep making the same choices, I'll keep getting the same results. My goal for today is no second helpings.

Teeny, tiny baby steps but at least I've got a plan.

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LINDAK25 1/29/2013 4:07PM

    You've got it! Just take baby steps. Make one choice at a time, that's all you have to do. I like the idea of just doing 10 minutes of exercise a day. Take a ten minute walk. Dance for 10 minutes.

I've been making some of my meals so that I'm only making enough for one serving for each of us. I do a lot of food prep ahead of time. I cut veggies and fruit. I cook enough chicken for two or three days. When I throw everything together I measure out enough for two servings, one for me, one for my husband. That really has helped me. But I'm lucky because my husband is doing this with me. I don't have to keep foods in the house that are way too tempting for me. If I find I want to munch too much on something, I just don't have it in the house. I realize that won't work for everyone.

I don't label foods as good or bad. I believe in everything in moderation. However, I find it very difficult to be with people who are eating without wanting to join them. I tell myself that I don't overeat anymore. I really do feel better eating less and eating healthier foods. The fact is that this really is a matter of perception. It is all a mind game. It's a matter of finding a way of looking at food so that we can make better choices and be satisfied with those choices. Maybe just taking time to think before we act. Slow everything down. Drink some water. Take time to chew food. Maybe then we'll make better choices.

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HIKETOHEIGHTS 1/29/2013 1:44PM

    Portion control is an issue for me as well. I am fine at home, but the buffets get the best of me. emoticon

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Lack of Discipline

Monday, January 28, 2013

Many years ago, I was working in a church preschool program. One morning, I went into the small kitchen area to get snack for the children. One of the other teachers was there eating cookies. She looked guilty that I'd caught her eating the children's snacks and she said, "I'm fat. I've always been fat. I'll always be fat. Do you want a cookie?" That's how I feel right now. I haven't always been fat but I feel like I'll always be fat so why fight it. There's a place in my brain that knows how false and harmful that way of thinking is but I can't seem to find my way there. The whole issue is a lack of self-discipline. I can make lots of excuses for myself but they're just excuses. The truth is that I've given up. I don't like this. I'm going to try to climb out of this dark pit of self-pity and get back in the sunshine.

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LINDAK25 1/28/2013 4:21PM

    People always say it's a matter of self-discipline or will power, but I like to look at it from a slightly different perspective. For me it's a matter of wanting more for myself than just a cookie. I don't want to be in that deep dark pit. I want to feel good about myself and enjoy each day. I want to find more satisfaction than just the satisfaction from that cookie. So sometimes I eat the cookie, true enough. I just have decide what I want more.

You can do this!

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CHANGING-TURTLE 1/28/2013 2:34PM

    emoticon It is not how many times you fall that counts it is how many times you have the courage to get back up.
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I post little messages like that on the wall across from the toilet in the bathroom every time I sit down I read them it keeps me going and trying. And now my Hubby says he enjoys reading them and seeing what I have found to post.

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HIMBEERNUSS 1/28/2013 11:54AM

    Try to make little steps. You don't have to move a mountain in one day. At the beginning it's also ok, if you only move some pebbles. I also had to start slowly and every day I was able to live my new healthy life a little bit better and I also started to feel better. Weight loss included.
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You can do this! Be proud of every small goal you reach and write it down. Even if it is eating an apple instead of a cookie. You will rise!!!

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HIKETOHEIGHTS 1/28/2013 10:33AM

    I have soooo felt that way. Look at the picture of me now. Believe me when I tell you I was so fat you would say " that can't be you". I don't show many people my fat photos. But I used to feel exactly the way you feel. So you can do this, really you can do this!!! emoticon emoticon

Your secret: each moment is a new opportunity to make new changes in how you approach food, fitness & health.

Every single one of your days are filled with opportunities!!! Even the days that you blow it, are followed with new ways to make good changes.

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HM_JACKSON 1/28/2013 9:45AM

    You can certainly climb out of that dark place. Do you have a good support system?Well of course you do-you have us, your spark family! If you need to chat private message me or we can talk on the phone.
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