Saturday, March 17, 2012
Today my husband and I had a great day together.
I got up and had my coffee, and got Airin up at 9am. We got dressed, packed some snacks, and went to the bike trail by our house. We rode all the way to the end and back for a total of about 14 miles, and then sat and enjoyed the park. It's a really great park, with a small river, and old rail bridges, and train stations which are now covered pavilions. It's really beautiful too. Here are some pictures I took in the fall:
Then we came home and changed and got ready and drove about 45 minutes to this great brew pub in Milan, Michigan called Original Gravity. They had 5 stouts on tap today for St. Patrick's Day. A bunch of people from work met us there, and we stayed for almost 4 hours.
Then we took the long way home, on the small country roads instead of the highways. We stopped and got ice cream at the best place in town (the Spotted Cow).
Now I'm feeling full, fat, and happy.
And a little guilty - this morning I weighed myself, and I was 179.9, which is more then when I started a couple weeks ago. I am looking forward to this whole job candidate search being over, and me being home for dinner, etc... I am only 2 weeks in to my 43 lbs in 43 days, but so far it's not going well. Not giving up though. I changed the post-it on my mirror tonight, like I do every night. And I say, "Well, I'm not giving up on myself - I'll keep at this."
I really need to stop eating out so much though... it's a killer!!!
Friday, March 16, 2012
Today I walked to work, I made peanut butter and bananas with toast for breakfast, and I had a salad and fruit for lunch. Then I snacked a bit at Subway, and then went out to dinner and for a beer.
Tomorrow is St. Patrick's day, and there are going to be 4 delicious stouts at the brew pub...
Sunday night I'm taking another candidate out for a campus tour and to dinner...
Monday it's another interview day, complete with pizza for lunch and Italian restaurant for dinner.
But I told myself today: "I'm not giving up on you! We'll get through this, and it's only been a week... it's not a big deal. I'm only 2 weeks into my 43 weeks, and we can get through this."
Avery has a Yo Gabba Gabba CD, and there's this song "Keep trying, keep trying, don't give up, never give up." As long as I never give up on me, I will never fail... and eventually, I will reach my goal.
Tonight my husband and I went to a very nice restaurant in the next town, and sat on the patio. It was 77 degrees. It's still winter! It's supposed to be cold and snowy! But we enjoyed it so much... winter can stay away. The daffodils and the tulips are coming up, the robins are out, there are big fat earth worms every morning, crawling across the sidewalk... I love this time of year. It can stay!
I need to get my calories under control though... I'm looking down at myself, and I feel like Shamu.... all big and blubbery...
Tomorrow, my husband and I are going to go on a long bike ride. There is a beautiful trail by our house that goes through a park, across some bridges, through some woods and farms. We're going to do most of the trail, or about 12 or so miles altogether. I haven't ran since Sunday, but I have been walking to work a lot.
I just need to keep on keeping on. I'm still journaling! That's something.
Thursday, March 15, 2012
I went to pack my lunch today, and there wasn't anything for me to take... veggies but no yogurt to dip it. No salad. No turkey for sandwiches. Oranges but no apples. No bananas. So I decided to get lunch at work today after all. I ordered a Quizno's sub. But I did get the veggie, and then I topped it with all the veggies.
I also walked to and from work again today. On the way to work I walked with Airin, Avery and our dog Kona. On the way home I walked with my friend and coworker, Gordon. Then we stopped at his house (he lives 3 doors down) and we had a couple glasses of wine. Then we went to his next door neighbor's house and had some dinner and more wine. I got home around 8:20, which is kind of late, so I felt bad... and Avery was already in bed! I was so disappointed. I feel very guilty that I was gone.
I have been gone a lot lately because I've been taking the candidates out the night before their interviews, and then on the day of.
And tomorrow my husband is taking the kids to meet his mother to leave them with her for the weekend. I'm happy to have some time off - and I know Airin is too - but I'm sad that I won't be seeing Avery again until like, Tuesday. Sunday night when they come back, I'll be out taking the last candidate to her interview, Monday it's another 12 hour day with the interview itself, and then Tuesday morning I have to be back to work at 9:00 so we can decide who to make an offer to.
I'm nervous about that because my friend had applied for the job, and was very qualified, and had been interviewed (he was the first). I want him to do well, because I think he's good. But he's not perfect. But I know that he is fun and would fit in well with our department, and he has TONS of teaching experience, and I think he interviewed very well... but I don't want to appear to be biased toward him. But I know he is. Ugh, this is tough. I know he's not the kind of guy that would hold it against me if he wasn't hired... but I really do think he would be great, and part of the reason is because he has that attitude. He is great to get along with... if you are not overly particular about things. He can be a little slobby. It's never really bugged me though.
There have been storms near by, and a tornado in Ann Arbor, which is about an hour north east of here. I really enjoy storms.
I'm getting too scared to get on the scale... I just keep building my healthy habits. Even if I'm eating out, or eating too much, I'm trying to get water, exercise, and fruits and veggies when I can. That way, yes, I might have gained weight, but it will be easier to lose it when I'm done. I need to stay on track though... only 291 days to go...
I deserve to feel good about myself.
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
A break from interviews for a few days... ahhhh, I am so exhausted. I really need this break! One more interview to go, and then we can make some decisions and an offer.
Pizza for lunch again today. This time I only (only?) had two pieces. And two apples. There has been soda at the talks, but I don't like it - I stick to water. Even though I have been overeating because I've been going out to dinner and stuff like that with the candidates, I have been drinking more water. And yesterday I walked to and from work, and took the candidate on a campus tour. Today I didn't do as much walking, but it was a long interview day, and I wore a dress and heels.
Unfortunately, we haven't gone shopping in awhile, so we don't have any turkey for my turkey sandwiches, or salad for my lunch salad. This is what I eat every day. So I am going to have to wing it.
I'm finally ordering my academic regalia tomorrow - the stuff I'm going to keep, not just the one that I borrowed for $110 for graduation. The regalia is $877 which is about $200 more than my WEDDING DRESS was. Seriously. What crap.
Here is a picture of me at graduation, with Dave (who was our first interview candidate), my advisor, and my Bayley! Yea, that ugly green polyester thing is more than my wedding dress.
I did realize though, that it's Slytherin colors:
I'm still exhausted... my days have been really long. I really need a vacation.
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Still trying not to completely screw stuff up... felt pretty bad about how I've been eating, and so I walked to and from work today (1 mile each way). I also gave the campus tour, so there was a bit more walking this evening.
I also only had my morning coffee and then I drank water the rest of the day, until this evening when I had some coffee while on the campus tour.
Tomorrow is the last interview till Sunday night, when our last candidate comes in. I can't wait to be done... This newest candidate did not drink at dinner. Both my husband and I ordered beers, and she had a coke. That's not a good sign. Our department likes to drink.
I'm going to wear a dress tomorrow, for the first time this semester.
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