Thursday, February 04, 2010
I don't much feel like the little engine that could right now but more like the freight train who has a stuck brake. Why is it that even though I know I should not eat certain foods, I may not really be hungry, I still want them. The temptation has been too much for me twice. Yesterday I had to have some chips. I counted them out, finding whole chips only to allow myself the one serving I had settled for and then today with a quarter cup of chocolate ice cream.
On a positive note, I didn't have any more than the chips I counted out and I only had 1/4 cup of measured out ice cream where as weeks ago I would have had a bowl of chips and a 1/4 carton of ice cream. So, I have improved, but what is the control that food has over me? Why must I eat because it is there? I am in a happy marriage, have lovely children, I am looking for work though I am happy to stay home with my boys for now. What void am I trying to fill with that food??? Why do I have to be addicted to it? How do I change it so food is not always on my mind? Is food addiction, dare I call it that, like other addictions where you have to take it a day at a time?
Monday, February 01, 2010
I never thought I would be one of those people that are obsessed with weight, food, calories. But I guess that is what you do when you are trying to change something. It takes on a new role in your life. This finally is not a negative role as I once viewed it. There really is a reason those people you see once in a great while can eat what they want when you go out and they still look great. That reason is they watch what they eat the majority of the time. They exercise regularly and it is just part of their lifestyle. I want to be part of that world.
I still can't seem to get off my lazy butt and start exercising regularly. I do it in spurts, I park far away from a door so I can walk. I even walk around outside and play some games, but I need to fit in some time every day just for me to do my Yoga or aerobics. I will make this my own goal and I need to get to it. I have no excuse not to do it, but I have not. I must do it Tuesday, February 16, 2010. I will either walk outside, even if it is cold or/and rainy or I will do part of my workout video and just lock the family in their rooms for 20 minutes. It won't hurt them and it will make me feel incredible!
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Well a week and a half and 10 lbs down! I really can't believe it. I have only changed my nutritional value and I know that this will not continue until I add some exercise to my routine. I have been getting out and playing with my son, I guess even 20 minutes of running around the yard does something. I have not been recording it through, seems like cheating. Maybe exercise doesn't always have to seem like so much work? Could it be that being a better mom is helping me lost weight. I guess that must be the case!
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Not as easy, but still staying with it. Have had to make some choices like only having one piece of pizza at the birthday party. Filled up on veggies. Now one piece of pizza you may say is not good, well for me that is a major step! I would usually eat pizza until I was full and then wait and hour and get a piece cold. It is hard to admit that most of the reason my past diets have not worked is because I sabotage them, but I believe that is the truth. I almost did the same because I could not resist having a cookie after the pizza but said no to the cupcakes! That really is progress. Little steps I keep telling myself, little steps that allow me to still be me, not feel deprived and therefore, really truely stick with this for the long haul. For the rest of my life I ahve to make good food choices every day!
Sunday, January 24, 2010
I am getting the food under control. It is a constant struggle, but I said no to a Sundae on Sunday!! Probably not a big deal for some, but for me, this is an accomplishment. I did reward myself with a diet coke, but not too bad.
I am not doing to well with the exercise, no excuse, just haven't done it. I have to do it this week. I wish I had a place to do exercise not in front of people. I have been able to be more active this week. I am taking walks around the yard and playing with my 4 year old lots more, but not real hard core exercise yet.
I will make this change this week.
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