Tuesday, August 05, 2014
Page 417 - 419 of the Big Book, A.A. World Series,1939, " Acceptance Is The Key", loosely interpreted states that whenever anything is wrong out there, it is wrong right here. Why I chose to think of that as my marriage, my world, crumbles around me. I hurt, but I keep eating healthy thanks to my daughter, keep meditating, keep reading spiritual writings, keep exercising, keep going one day at a time, thanks to God, my Lord Jesus Christ.
When I was a small child I would get beatings administered by my Mother that hurt so bad I could not cry. That's the way I feel today. I started to cry as the pain of it all takes my breath away and I can't. But for today God loves me, my family loves me and I love myself. And for today that is enough.
Sunday, July 13, 2014
The term unconditional love came into use in the 1960's, supposed LSD drug culture and became more widely known in the 1970's pop culture with counselors and therapists.
I liked this term when I started having children in the late 1970's. I wholeheartedly understood it then because I could see how a mother could unconditionally
love her newborn child(ren) without conditions, actions, behavior or any other requirements. I grew up in a family wherein you had to meet certain requirements, standards, in order to be loved. You had to keep your room clean, bring home a school report card full of "A's", join the church, sing well in the church choir, perform your farm chores fast and well, etc...
So when I went off to college in the late 60's and heard this term and fully embraced it a decade later, I began to love the concept of unconditional love for my children, my husband, and for myself.
So for today I unconditionally love myself and my family. This allows me to accept them and me for ourselves and to love us just because we are. It is so beautiful, freeing and uplifting.
Monday, June 30, 2014
Weight Loss Jan. 2009 - Jan. 2014
2009 - 233 lbs.
2011 - 196 lbs.
2014 - 184 lbs.
June 2014 - 180 lbs.
Weight Loss 3 Year MIni Goal (2017) - 150 lbs.
Weight Loss 5 Year Ultimate Goal (2019) - 135 lbs.
Journey to Accomplishment:
Eat Healthy Fats
Eat 3 Fruits
Eat 3-5 Vegetables
Do not eat refined sugar, salt, casseroles, gravies, processed meat.
Weekly - exercise 6 days a week for 4 hours a day
Stationary Bike - 2 hours
Walk - 1 hour
Physical/Occupational Therapy - 1 hour
Mental/ Emotional Endeavors
Meditate 10 to 60 minutes daily
Read Health and Spiritual Writings daily
Saturday, June 07, 2014
I remember my mom saying "it may well be that..."and sometimes "Be that as it may (be)". And it was usually followed by some ultimatum that we, (my brothers and sister), had to follow ( my mom passed away 12 years ago). I did not understand it then, I don't fully understand it now and I woke up this morning pondering this confusing phrase. Why, I don't know. What does it have to do with today? For me, if it does not have anything to do with my life right now, it is not relevant nor worth my time. I am only thinking about it because I feel God speaks to me through people, sometimes through dreams.
For example the thing about this phrase was that my mom would attach it to your present state, like "it may well be that you are tired but we are going to finish this task before we stop". I will pray on it and put it out of my thoughts.
If it crops up again, I will deal with it accordingly. For today I am concerned with eating healthy, exercising 4 hours daily 6 days a week, meditating, loving Myself-God-Family and reading spiritual writings.
I continue to thank God for today, for His grace and blessings in my life.
Monday, May 05, 2014
I am ready today to live a life with no regrets, no excuses or apologies, no ifs, ands or buts. Also let me not forget the woulda, shoulda, coulda's.
So many things have happened to me in my 64 years here on earth, some bad, mostly good. What I have to remember is that due to God's grace, blessings and magnificent mercy I am still here after multiple strokes and one devastating stroke almost 4 years ago. Not only here but prospering.
Mind you I still have daily pain and swelling but my life today is better in more ways now than it was prior to my strokes. Most days are so good I have to pinch myself to assure myself that it is really happening to me.
Taken from the Christian hymn, by Thomas Ken, 1674:
Praise God from whom all blessings flow, Amen.
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