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Wednesday, December 10, 2014

So I had my day of doctors today. First the regular ob who said everything looked good, then my blood work (yuck) then I killed some time shopping, then the high risk doctor. The care protocol for this baby is going to be pretty similar to that of Nate. Lots of ultrasounds, lots of non-stress tests (which have to be the most boring tests in the world!)
The high risk doctor was awful. In the beginning of the appointment, he asked if this was my first pregnancy. I said no, it was my 3rd. That I had lost our 2nd baby. He didn't comment, just wrote it down. Ok fine. Towards the end of the appointment, he says, "the seizure disorder isn't what puts you at risk for a loss. It's your BMI."

I managed to get out of the office and to the elevator before I dissolved into tears. I cried most of the way home. What a horrible thing to say to a woman who has already told you she's lost a baby, and is already pregnant. Yes, being overweight & obese puts you in the high risk category, but I'm already pregnant. It's not like I can do anything about it now! And to frame it that way, after I've already I told you I lost a baby this year! emoticon Nothing like blaming a woman for the loss of her baby. That ripped that wound wide open again. I have never been so upset with a doctor, and given how I feel about most doctors, that says quite a bit.

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-COURT- 12/17/2014 9:43PM

    These doctor's with their 'non' bedside manners, need put in their place and told how to be sensitive to their patients. so sorry you went through this. I agree, another doctor or midwife.
Take care.

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JUMPINJULIE 12/12/2014 6:22PM

    So sorry for how the appt. went.

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1MIN17SECB412PM 12/11/2014 9:17PM

    I most certainly agree with IMREITE about checking into the midwives, and with LBMAMA2015 about your SMILE, Jacque!! KALANTHA's right about raising insensitivity to a whole new level! I'm sooo MAD at that Dr. (for you) right now, there's just NO WAY you can go back to 'something' claiming to take care of you while CRUSHING your sweet nature and loving mama-mode!! SHAME ON THAT MAN WHO CLAIMS TO BE A HEALER!! emoticon

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MLDRLD 12/11/2014 3:32PM

    I'm so sorry that you went through this....Sometimes people just don't think / realize the emotional impact their words can have on others. Just focus on taking care of you and this precious baby.

May God richly bless you.

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KALANTHA 12/11/2014 12:36PM

    Wow! That raises insensitivity to a whole new level! I'm very sorry for your loss nad for your current worry. Take the best care of yourself that you can and the rest will take care of itself.


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NILLAPEPSI 12/11/2014 9:58AM

    Ohhhh!! What a big meanie!!! Ugh! There are much nicer ways to word things without destroying someone's self-esteem.

I know it's hard, but try to let it roll off like water off a duck's back. emoticon

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IMREITE 12/11/2014 12:34AM

    my sister is an RN and she has yelled at doctor for his bad bed side manner. He could have worded things better or given some health tips. Women at all weights can give birth to healthy babies. Working with a midwife may be helpful in helping you find some healthy pregnancy habits that will keep you making good decisions during your pregnancy. Midwifes tend to have a better bedside manner,

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LBMAMA2015 12/10/2014 9:44PM

    Some doctors have no bedside manner and forget we are human! Sorry for the hurt today and your previous loss. Best wishes for a healthy pregnancy. Smile and be happy mama! Your smile is good for the baby! :)

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BABY_GIRL69 12/10/2014 8:56PM

    Some people can be insensitive.... Don't let them get you.... take care of you & baby.

God bless,


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Thursday, November 27, 2014

Well, today did not go as planned. Plans with my husband's grandma fell through, and my mom had already made other plans. We were supposed to go to the Thanksgiving day parade, except my husband got sick last night & woke up feeling lousy. So now he's crashed on the couch. :(

But I do have a lot to be thankful for. For one thing, today is the first day of the 2nd trimester! While that doesn't mean that nothing can go wrong, chances are very good now that the baby will be okay. :D emoticon

I've been feeling decent, not alot of morning sickness, just tired and forever hungry. Today the baby must have shifted something cause it's hard to get a good deep breath.

Routine wise, today's not much different from most days. I miss the celebrations when I was growing up. My grandma cooked, and there were about 20 of us! It was awesome! Now, not everyone talks anymore, and we're pretty scattered. I miss it. Well, I guess we do our own thing with Nate. It's hard though, when I long for the type of celebrations we had, especially since I have no way to recreate them.

What are you all doing? What does your feast look like?

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JUMPINJULIE 12/12/2014 6:20PM

    Happy Thanksgiving. emoticon

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KPETSCHE 12/1/2014 10:13AM

    Sorry to read about your Thanksgiving plans falling through. We still get together as much as possible for Thanksgiving and Christmas but just for as many people as can make it. This year we were all together, plus my daughter's boyfriend, except for my brother and his family. I'm from a family of 4 so there were around 20 of us all together.

In a way, you're sort of lucky that you can do your own thing with Nate, you and your hubby. It'll be lots of fun when the kids are older and you don't need to travel to visit others. I'm sort of jealous of my friends and coworkers who are married to someone from the same town. That way they can either stay at home and still visit both sides or go to one location and see both families. My hubby and I are from opposite directions - I grew up in Southwest Iowa and my hubby grew up in Central Nebraska. It's about a 4 hour trip between the two spots so it's really not feasible to go both ways on major holidays.

Good luck with your 2nd trimester and hope things continue to progress well. It's hard when the body starts working against you and the discomfort starts to get progressively worse.

Stay healthy and happy!



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Happy thanksgiving and congrats on your pregnancy, how wonderful.

We had our daughter and new son in law over. It was great to have a meal together,
I enjoy being with them.

I bought a spiral cooked ham but it was REALLY fatty. No one even wanted leftovers.
What a waste. Glad I had a ton of side dishes- no one left the table hungry, lol.

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WILDKAT781 11/27/2014 4:21PM

    emoticon Happy Thanksgiving!!

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NILLAPEPSI 11/27/2014 4:08PM

    Happy Thanksgiving!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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sooo tired

Tuesday, November 18, 2014

I forget how tired and emotionally worn out I get when I'm pregnant. I've been looking after Nate, and working on my etsy shop, and doing some web work. I'm just a weepy, sleepy mess. And it's so COLD outside! emoticon with the windchill it's like -8. Ugh.

I feel like I'm letting my son down, but I just can't keep up. Thank goodness I have help! My food has been pretty good today, except the fruit loops for breakfast. which I have determined I don't like anymore. Ick.

I miss bellydancing. But I can't get to my class on my own, and the 2 people who used to take me don't go anymore. Too bad. I should look and see if there's a class closer.

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KPETSCHE 11/24/2014 12:42AM

    Is there a bellydancing routine on the SparkPeople videos? Good luck finding something closer if that's what you decide to try. It's going to be a long, cold winter I think. Stay warm and take care of yourself and your little guy. Be patient with the pregnancy, too.

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THEMFOLK 11/19/2014 4:37PM

    YouTube and DVDs in the comfort and convenience of your own home. I do yoga that way, and am always challenged without feeling self-conscious or having to worry about what to wear. When the weather and your circumstances improve, you can sign up for another class.

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MSTWOMOONS002 11/19/2014 9:39AM

    Get some rest, do what you can, eat healthy, let go of all the rest you don't need the added stress. emoticon

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GARDENCHRIS 11/19/2014 7:14AM

    get some rest, things won't seem so overwhelming then.

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NILLAPEPSI 11/19/2014 7:04AM

    Maybe you can find a bellydance video on youtube.

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Today's blog

Friday, November 14, 2014

I haven't been blogging regularly, so I thought I'd write. I realized, from looking back at the blogs from when I was pregnant with Nate, I focused ALOT more on food. So I definitely want to change that.

On that note:
I have SUCKED on the fruit & veggie front lately. Today, I've had 1 serving of veggies. That's it. I haven't had supper yet, so I'll be sure to have something with that.

Water - I've done very well. I have 8 glasses today, and did yesterday as well. :D

High on fat, slightly low on protein. These are probably due to more packaged foods - Mac & cheese for lunch, and a Jimmy Dean's sausage thingy for breakfast. Tasty, but not so healthy.

We're heading to mom's for the weekend. Which will be it's usual difficult visit. Made even more so by the fact that I'm pregnant. Which means I'm eating even MORE than the "too much" she thinks I should be eating anyway.

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JUMPINJULIE 12/12/2014 6:18PM

    You can do this.

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NILLAPEPSI 11/15/2014 6:22PM

    Try some new fruits & veggies. You might find some you like. I found persimmons at the grocery store today. My dad had a persimmon tree in his back yard, but I think it's gone now. They are sooooooo sweet & delish!

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BIGPAWSUP 11/15/2014 7:56AM

    You can handle this.

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JAXMOMMY 11/14/2014 10:28PM

    Make the best of your visit with Mom! I'm happy to read you are pregnant again! Keep taking healthy steps for you and for the baby! Get those freggies in!

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The Hot Chocolate Run

Thursday, November 13, 2014

It was awesome. I had originally set my goal for this to be the first 5k I entirely ran. However, between a sore foot, and getting pregnant again, I didn't train much. Oh well. I ended up in the walk section, that took a different route. At first I was really disappointed about this. But I jogged some at the beginning and end, and did a brisk walk the rest of the way. I kept worrying I'd be last in line, but there were a few places I could look back and see a long stream of people behind me. I finished about the middle of the pack. It was great. There were some people who took shortcuts and, it felt so good to not need to!
We had quite a morning getting there! My husband, Nate and I planned on taking the train, but I misread the schedule, so we missed the train. Back to the house. My father in law offered to drive us. Into the car we piled. Nate still hadn't eaten, so Chris tried to give him breakfast. It all came up. So we had to stop and clean him off, and we decided it would be better if he went back with Dad to rest. I had a bunch of stuff with me, and, hadn't planned to use a gear check, so we ended up taking the empty stroller to carry my stuff!! We missed having Nate with us.
It was quite an adventure! All told, I walked 6.75 miles before noon. We got home, and I was so done!!
I had a blast, and hopefully next year I will reach my goal and run the whole thing. I'll have 4 mo after the baby is born to train, so that's doable I think.

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JUMPINJULIE 12/12/2014 6:17PM


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HOBBESIS49 11/14/2014 4:26AM

    emoticon emoticon Busy Busy Busy YOU!


Be so very proud of YOU

emoticon Jane

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ICECUB 11/13/2014 6:46PM

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BONNIEMARGAY 11/13/2014 12:07PM

    Good for you!

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BIGPAWSUP 11/13/2014 12:04PM

    Congrats and sorry i missed you.

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MSTWOMOONS002 11/13/2014 11:45AM

    I'm so proud of you dear friend, look at this as a BIG WIN you did it, you actually when through with it and got experience for your next run, You made the most of less than optimal conditions with Nate being sick and train mishaps. You still did the race you weren't last you didn't quit You should still be hooping & hollering patting yourself on the back for trying and following through to complete the race. This will make your next race even more exciting, make your training easier. You & your new baby & Nate will train well for the next race.

Again I'm so proud of you, I believe in you; You can do anything you set your mind and goals to achieve. You are beautiful own that for it is true.

Many Blessings Always Debby

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KLONG8 11/13/2014 11:23AM

    What an adventure! Congrats on doing well on the walk/run. I think your plan for next year is a great one! Take care....

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MARGOH12 11/13/2014 11:22AM

    Hey you did it even though you're pregnant give yourself a pat on the back. Last time I was pregnant I could barely move. Next year you will run it.

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