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Day 10

Monday, July 28, 2014

I had a good time at my mom's. We all sat outside in her gazebo, and Nate's Grandpa bought him a blow up pool which he loved playing in.

My mom surprised me, very presently. Normally she heckles me about "eating too much or too often" when I'm at her house. This time, however, she actually went out of her way to stock the fridge with extra water, and to purchase several small meals for me to have throughout the day. None of it was very healthy, but it was tasty, and VERY much appreciated.

It was so nice that when I was hungry to have something small set aside that I could eat. I forgot a few times, and when I went looking for food, she reminded me of what she'd gotten. It was nice to have her supporting me. She even commented that I'd looked like I'd lost weight!

Yea! Today was a high carb day. I definitely felt the difference with the less healthy food yesterday & a bit today. Right now I'm trying to come up with an alternative to a hamburger bun and I found some neat alternatives!

Have a great night!

  
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GLORIAMAJDI 7/28/2014 10:11PM

    I have problems swallowing so I can't eat bread at all but aren't there some kind of flatbread things that would substitute for a bun? LOL, I am not sure, I just think that I have seen something like that. If I have a burger, which isn't too often, I just eat it with no bun, or sometimes I just wrap it up in lettuce. So glad to hear that you had a nice visit with your mom, and so great that she was supportive of what you are trying to accomplish! Sounds like Nate had fun in the little pool too!

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Day 6 in Review, and Day 7

Friday, July 25, 2014

Well, with the exception of being under calories yesterday, I had a pretty great day. Good amount of water, lots of freggies, TONS of activity. I'm really proud that I walked my 10,000 steps and was actually surprised to see the number on the fitbit counter. It used to be that I would be EXHAUSTED by walking that much. Not now! And I'm really happy with that.
Today so far I'm high on carbs. I was also high on calories, at least for what I have planned for dinner (It's pizza night)> Mind you, this is before I'd gotten around to tracking my fitness, and before I've done the Strength training, so it might look better now. But if not, I'm choosing to be okay with that. Friday is Date night (or at least Pizza night, depending on when we get Nate to bed.) So that's alright. Especially since I was low yesterday, I'm okay with being a bit high today.
I'm going to do my strength training today, since tomorrow I'll be at my mother's for the weekend. The baby's stuff is almost packed already. I have to pack for me & hubby still. I'm dreading that, because I always have to be SO careful what I pack because of how judgy mom & mimi can be about how I look. I know, I know, it shouldn't matter, I shouldn't care. But it's easier to pack to expect how she is than to try to migate the unhappiness and depression that I always feel when they make some snarky comment that they seem to assume is helpful.
I get enough comments when I *gasp* eat more than once a day. This particular set of comments I can avoid. So I pack what I wear in a manner that will help with that.
I'm feeling stronger the last week. Once I get moving that is. I've been waking up feeling depressed lately, but once I get moving (Usually in the form of a walk) I'm doing well. I've noticed a real difference in my energy and strength levels. I'm happy with that.
Nate is talking! I think I forgot to write about that! He says Thank you! Or more specifically "tank ooo" It's SUPER cute. And he loves his shoes - the ones my mom got him when we went shopping about a month ago. :)
I think that's all the news that's fit to print. I'll try to get back here tomorrow to
blog, but mom doesn't have internet, so I have to write on my phone, which is harder. We'll see. If not, have an awesome weekend everyone!

  
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BONNIEMARGAY 7/26/2014 2:52PM

    Did you know it is an option to tell them they are being inappropriate when they shame you? I know, I know: it might not change anything, but it can be part of claiming your space as you give yourself healthier options.

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BIGPAWSUP 7/26/2014 1:36PM

    This is great. I'm so happy and proud of you.

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ODAYSKI11 7/26/2014 7:34AM

    Good for you for not giving up, for picking yourself up and starting again. I am feeling just the same way as you, and today I am starting again. So I will be following your blog and cheering you on!

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GLORIAMAJDI 7/25/2014 8:59PM

    Hope you are able to enjoy the time at your mom's. I know, that is really hard when someone is so judgmental of your eating and your appearance, especially since you are working really hard at this...you really don't need to hear it and you don't deserve that kind of treatment or attitude. Try not to let the stress bother you. I know you have probably already tried this, but I just have to ask, have you told her how hurtful that is? Or that it is none of her business how much/frequently you eat, etc? It can be hard dealing with moms....

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NILLAPEPSI 7/25/2014 8:43PM

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ONEKIDSMOM 7/25/2014 7:31PM

    Sounds like progress to me! Congrats on feeling stronger and doing your 10,000 steps more easily... and have a good weekend, even if you don't blog until you get back. Enjoy those young days with Nate... would you believe my boy turned 30 this year? It went incredibly fast, so hug him tight!

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Day 6 in Review, and Day 7

Friday, July 25, 2014

Well, with the exception of being under calories yesterday, I had a pretty great day. Good amount of water, lots of freggies, TONS of activity. I'm really proud that I walked my 10,000 steps and was actually surprised to see the number on the fitbit counter. It used to be that I would be EXHAUSTED by walking that much. Not now! And I'm really happy with that.
Today so far I'm high on carbs. I was also high on calories, at least for what I have planned for dinner (It's pizza night)> Mind you, this is before I'd gotten around to tracking my fitness, and before I've done the Strength training, so it might look better now. But if not, I'm choosing to be okay with that. Friday is Date night (or at least Pizza night, depending on when we get Nate to bed.) So that's alright. Especially since I was low yesterday, I'm okay with being a bit high today.
I'm going to do my strength training today, since tomorrow I'll be at my mother's for the weekend. The baby's stuff is almost packed already. I have to pack for me & hubby still. I'm dreading that, because I always have to be SO careful what I pack because of how judgy mom & mimi can be about how I look. I know, I know, it shouldn't matter, I shouldn't care. But it's easier to pack to expect how she is than to try to migate the unhappiness and depression that I always feel when they make some snarky comment that they seem to assume is helpful.
I get enough comments when I *gasp* eat more than once a day. This particular set of comments I can avoid. So I pack what I wear in a manner that will help with that.
I'm feeling stronger the last week. Once I get moving that is. I've been waking up feeling depressed lately, but once I get moving (Usually in the form of a walk) I'm doing well. I've noticed a real difference in my energy and strength levels. I'm happy with that.
Nate is talking! I think I forgot to write about that! He says Thank you! Or more specifically "tank ooo" It's SUPER cute. And he loves his shoes - the ones my mom got him when we went shopping about a month ago. :)
I think that's all the news that's fit to print. I'll try to get back here tomorrow to
blog, but mom doesn't have internet, so I have to write on my phone, which is harder. We'll see. If not, have an awesome weekend everyone!

  
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BONNIEMARGAY 7/26/2014 2:52PM

    Wishing you freedom from their shaming.

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Day 5 in review & day 6

Friday, July 25, 2014

Things are going well. Calories were in range yesterday, I just completely forgot to blog. I have not been remembering to measure though, so that's something to rectify. I'm under calories today, cause I didn't realize I'd walked 10,000 steps till it was past dinnertime! I'm having a smoothie before bed, but that's still putting me under.
And that's a NSV - not that long ago 10,000 steps would have felt like walking to the MOON! Today, I'm only a bit tired. Yea!! :)

Ok, I'm off for the night. Later!

  
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BONNIEMARGAY 7/25/2014 5:00PM

    Yes! You can do this!

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BONNIEMARGAY 7/25/2014 5:00PM

    Yes! You can do this!

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Day 3 review, and day 4

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

I chose to be over calorie yesterday. This was a choice I made. It was 80 calories, and it was a smoothie. I didn't have enough fruit, and I was a little snacky still. (Someone pointed out that this had to do with my lack of sleep from the night prior, thanks again for that!)
Most of my food were good, if not all clean, choices. I'm getting a handle on saying "no" to the junk food in the house, partly because I'm allowing myself serving size of things if I really want them, and I'm tracking them. This is reminding me how little I get for how many calories.
I got fairly decent sleep last night; though I noticed I'm not getting SOLID sleep till probably about 4am, and I get up at 10. Does anyone have any ideas about why this would be? I generally go to bed around 12 or 1. I'm at a loss. I'm going to do some research on sleep here on Spark later.

Today so far - I have felt pretty much AWESOME. I did some wall-pushups today. I'm up to 2 sets of 20. I didn't feel the burn till about #15 of each set. Yea! I felt so STRONG! I've done yoga, and had my walk. I HAD to go out today - my husband was working on the internet, and so it was down at the house. I chose to have a higher calorie drink, and I've already tracked it and decided that I'm cool with it, as long as it's a treat.

I've also started using more decision works - "I CHOSE" vs "I ended up having". I like how that makes me feel. In control, proactive. emoticon I think this mindset is REALLY helping. I am deciding what I do. And asking myself if I want "insert junk food" more than my health has been a BIG help too. Cause inevitable, the answer is NO. I'm noticing sweet things are quickly becoming TOO sweet, again. And this time as it happens, I'm going to LET it, instead of mourning that I can't have whatever bit of junk I wanted.

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Here's to healthy CHOICES!

  
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BONNIEMARGAY 7/23/2014 2:31PM

    Good for you!

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GLORIAMAJDI 7/22/2014 9:43PM

    Great idea on taking control of it - i.e., I CHOSE. But also remember these - I CAN and I WILL. You CAN do this, and you WILL. Treats are okay, and even good because they help us from feeling deprived....just don't be like me and go down the slippery slope of starting to eat treats all of the time! It's hard to kick the habit!

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NILLAPEPSI 7/22/2014 7:35PM

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