Friday, September 14, 2012
I'm gonna start this off by quoting something my mom said once.
"You will never beable to count true friends on one hand"
I am so amazed at all the support here at SP, I find myself getting stuck when I log in to track my foods, exercises etc. So I want to say thank you to all the members here for the support you give to one another.
I have recently lost a good friend she was alot more like a mother figure. This wasn't something I wanted. Naturally I don't get along with women(No offense ladies) and the reason I feel is because I know first hand how devious some can be. One that I thought was true and thru decided she couldn't accept and or agree with a decision I had to make concerning my son. Now this is what I don't understand, someone who is so close to you that they know what has been going on at home and have been the ear that listens to solutions and give advice to you about what they think should be done all of a sudden because she put herself in the middle of the situation changes her tune about agreeing with me in the decision i made. If you are gonna get involved and support your friend that is what you should do right?
Friends to me being able to become part of each others family.
To run to when a hug is needed, and ear to listen and if asked advice. Not to judge
To stand by side whether you agree with them or not? Or am I wrong. If so it wouldn't be the first time. I have been going through pictures and it's hard to see them. I am still stunned and so hurt that her back turned on me. Especially when my decision was finally made. I had tried all other avenues, resources and had been told that I've done all I can. And for them to agree with my thought process and then turn around and out me in a public forum and disagree with my solution and to voice how she would NEVER NO MATTER WHAT make the decision I did.
So I know I'm rambling, this is what happens when I write. I'm hoping if you read this you'll understand.
So making friends isn't easy for me to do. I've had alot of them turn backs on me, I've even had some I HAD to walk away from. it's not that I don't want friends, it's just i'm so untrusting of people. I can say that I believe my mom is right. To this day I've one friend who no matter where we are, what's going on in our lives some how can not talk for a week and then when we do it's like we don't miss a day that is a real friend. We have our own lives and we don't get to spend alot of time together but I know she is always there. And if she doesn't agree with me she doesn't walk away. She just hopes for the best.
So I hope that with SP I may make at least one more friend that may be like this, or may be someones ear, shoulder when needed. Im no angel when it comes to friendship or anything in my life but I sure do try and be a great friend. So all the support that is among Sp members may you find a true friend that will walk with you in our journey to loose weight, become healthy, live longer and all other goals you each may have.