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Update for 2013

Monday, January 07, 2013

Well folks in November 2011 I blogged for the first time. (I am really shy when it comes to expressing myself it seems) Now, here I am trying trying again.

I have to say. I love this site. I know my journey to weightloss will take place while I am here. No matter what I don't give up. I may at times not be working this program to the best of my ability but I know this is the main tool that will bring me results while I continue through my trial and error.

I gained weight last year and I finally lost it again in September. I feel confident today that I can overcome my food issues. I heard this somewhere and for me it particularly rang so true. No matter what, you cannot out-excersise a bad diet. This is my problem, sweet and simple. I love fruits and I love vegetables and cook them for most of my meals. I also cook and consume all brown -- rice, pasta, bread. I eat good sized portions according to the recommendations but by the end of the day somewhere along the way, I will have picked 2 cookies, some ice cream, muffin, cake or whatever people offer that I say yes to instead of no. I know that I need to say no but somewhere I lose the resolve when it is in front of me. So no matter how much I exercised that day, how well I measured my portions, I destroy all my efforts in a slice of cake, and/or 3, 4 or 5 fun size candy bars which are around the office candy dishes. This is my main issue.

At this point, I feel a need to admit I have a sugar addiction. Admitting to this and surrendering is key, I am tired of this yo-yo cycle and I need to get off it. This is why I keep gaining and losing the same ten pounds. Today, is the day that I will say "not today". Just for today, I will stay away from the candy dishes and will can return the fun size candy bars people seem to want to leave on my desk just because.

Tomorrow I hope for good results as well but I can only concentrate on today so thank you to all my fellow sparkpeople. I am truly inspired by all of you, extremely grateful for your support and I hope the strength I gain from reading your comments, blogs, your successes, and spark people radio (which I love) will help me to effectuate the changes in my eating patterns.

I joined the Jumpstart Challenge, doing the video and elliptical workouts. I am tracking food everyday and feeling really good.

I will update you all over the weekend.

Again, thank you all for being here.

Beatriz

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DDHEART 2/6/2014 9:17AM

    Don't be shy, I loved your blog and I know I discovered that writing these blogs is very helpful as we work against our inner demons...like sugar! LOL

Yesterday I was watching a show I downloaded into I tunes. It is one of the weight of the nation shows from HBO (free tv episode downloads...check it out if you can) Anyway, the episode I watched while I exercised was the biology of weight loss and it was so good. It talked about the set point...not a new concept, but they did all this research following people in a hospital for month measuring all sorts of things and what they found was that we have our body fighting against us to get that weight back after we lose it and that along with the other factors is part of why we find ourselves not being able to pass up that cake or cookies etc. Now this could make us feel like we're defeated, but that's not the feeling that I got watching it. It somehow helps when I understand the reason. The woman they had in the program was found to require 300 cal a day less to maintain her weight loss than what would have been calculated simply....lightbulb moments...and she said she knows she has to struggle but she's doing it, keeping the weight off.

Anyway, if you get a chance check out the show and any of the other episodes, they are so good. And keep writing! It helps to keep us working together and together we are strong!

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LADYBUG1943 2/24/2013 5:32PM

    Blush! emoticon

I'm sad to report that reading about your sugar addiction made me think of the Weight Watchers dessert bar in the freezer. Proof that we dessert lovers can be triggered by almost anything, if she wants to be.

But.... I'm not going to go get it!

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FANGFACEKITTY 1/9/2013 1:31AM

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ONEKIDSMOM 1/7/2013 7:16PM

    One day at a time, forgiving oneself for any mistakes of yesterday, making one good choice at a time, and loving the good ones we made or even the slightly improved ones... is how it's done, long-term.

emoticon Thanks for the friend add... added you back. It's good to find kindred spirits.

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CHRISTINASP 1/7/2013 3:01PM

    Lovely blog. Best of luck with freeing yourself from the sugar addiction. I like it that you say 'just for today'.

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Time to Come Clean and Start Again

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

I donít know why but I canít seem to get this weight loss thing rolling. I start out tracking and exercising the whole time enjoying the experience but then the weight does not drop and even though I know that if I stick it out enough it will start to happen, I give up nonetheless. In August and September I logged in more than 1000 fitness minutes each month and waited and yet the weight loss didnít happen. I really now accept that for me it is mostly about the food and exercise will not make up for that.

Unfortunately, my giving up has brought me back to my all time high and I am now feeling the fallout from the abandonment of my goals. I want this, I really do so I need to figure it out and not stop until I do. Even if I wasnít losing, I was at least holding and by abandoning my efforts I have now gained.

So here I am ready to start again and hoping to find the key to unlock my resistance at consistency. I am hoping to blog more as a tool to help release stressors that derail my efforts. In the meantime I know that I want to be at a lower weight, I am not very happy at this current weight and am scared for my health. I really want to live my life happy, joyous and free and this weight is symptom of me holding myself back.

On Saturday morning I walked a Turkey Trot and finished in about 50 minutes. As they were calling out the 1st, 2nd and 3rd Placements for each age group, I marveled at the youthfulness of the older runners. In particular, the woman who took first place in the over 70 category for women: 92 years young and didnít look a day over 65. She ran it with her 68 year daughter. She is my inspiration folks!!!



My short terms goal right now is:

1. Eat more vegetables in every meal. After picking myself up again and reading my food diary, I realize too many sweets and not enough vegetables. Now, I want to have steamed green vegetables with at least 2 meals a day and some fruit;

2. Start a 10 minute cardio streak to do at home and walk 2 5ks for exercise on the weekends;

3. Track my food every day;

4. Prepare more healthy meals on the weekend to have during the week so therefore no excuses;

5. Update my status when I am doing well and when I am not with the tempting food in my office;

6. Learn how to blog my feelings so I can uncover why I am not able to stay focused on a healthier living style.

Thank you all for always being here. I am looking forward to all of us moving forward in our journey.

  
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FANGFACEKITTY 12/1/2011 12:53PM

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DWOOD86 11/30/2011 6:11PM

    I love your goals! It gave me some great ideas for the goals I want to set. Thanks for the post (I'll keep reading)! Good luck!

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SARCASTICGRL 11/30/2011 5:42PM

    I think it's the hardest part finding the motivation. I am struggling with that as well!! Good luck! You'll find great people on here to chat with when you need an extra push! Good luck!

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MAMAJENC 11/30/2011 5:31PM

    You look like you have great goals! Glad you are just starting again and not giving up! You can do this!

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