Thursday, April 28, 2011
List ALL your trigger foods.
2. French Fries
Snack food or part of a meal? 1-2 are part of a meal, 3 is both, 4-5 are snacks.
Are they sweet or salty? 1-3 are salty, 4-5 are sweet.
Hot, cold or room temperature? 1-2 are hot, 3-5 are room temperature.
Carbs, comfort foods? I think they're all pretty carby. 1 is also a comfort food. And it is also awesome.
What are the sources of the Triggers Foods?
1. Pizza: Delivery, my freezer, the grocery store deli
2. French Fries: Silver Diner, IHOP, fast food restaurants, Whitlow's
3. Chips: The grocery store, my cupboard, and the bag
4. Cookies: My coworkers, Giant
5. Minis: My boss keeps them out in the reception area and his office!
Describe the most common foods and or situations where you reach for the trigger foods or snacks. I reach for trigger foods usually because I'm craving them. Or I'm craving the feeling of being out and in a restaurant: the comraderie, the atmosphere, the conversation, and the FOOD. I really grab the minis whenever I get the candy bowl within my sights, which is probably anywhere from one to five times a day. This is new. I used to have them off-limits in my head, but once I grabbed one and saw that no one blamed me, judged me or said, "Those are for guests!" it was ALL OVER.
Sometimes I emotionally eat. That's usually chips, and I'm normally at home. I am getting better about knowing I'm doing it. I'll announce out loud, "I am going to go emotionally eat now." But I haven't gone the next step of saying, "Okay, I recognize what I'm doing, so I won't do that."
Are you eating it to feel better? Sure.
Are you rewarding yourself? Sometimes...I mean, that's if we go out. I have a hard time thinking of anything that would make a better reward or celebration than going out to dinner. Lots of the things people suggest don't interest me.
Soothing yourself? Yes.
Are you bored? Frequently.
By getting the food how does it make what you are doing better? No. But I do feel better. I mean, it doesn't solve the problem, but it tickles the pleasure centers in my brain and makes me happy. There's something to the whole comfort food notion, indeed.
What should you be doing at that time? Jeepers, who knows? I don't. I made a list of things that I need to get done that I never think of when I'm bored, but when I look at it, they all look boring, too. I could nap, or go to bed. I suppose I could read. Maybe do some strength training.
Write out your strategy to avoid the Triggers.
1. Pizza: I just can't have it. Fortunately, that is easy. I can just not order it and not buy it. If I crave it, I can put some string cheese on one of those sandwich thins. 10 seconds in the microwave, and it's lovely! Maybe I can buy a little jar of pizza sauce to add to it.
2. French fries: I anticipate one trip to Whitlow's during the Challenge, because I have a Groupon. And they have the best effing French fries in the history of life, so I will eat those. Knowing that I can have those will make it easier to get the house salad at Silver Diner, and at IHOP, I'll get the healthier 2x2x2.
3. Chips: This is a toughie, too, because I'm not sure I can eat chili without corn chips, and I love having chili as a filling, hearty, not-too-many-calories, protein-ful meal. But I'm just going to have to. I used to not need them. I can be that way again.
4. Cookies: Tell my friend not to be "food pusher" (thanks, Sassacaia!). She'll understand. Keep them out of my house! Even though, I can't believe how good they are--and for only 99 cents!
5. Minis: This is probably the hardest of all, not because I like them best--I actually like them least--but because of their AVAILABILITY! I'm going to allow myself one of the Milky Way Midnights per day. If I make that the "rule," instead of "one everytime I drop off a document for signature," then I'll follow it. Because that's what I do. Make rules to follow.
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
My Knees Wednesday challenge is to write a blog. So I'm writing a blog.
The questions to answer for the blog were:
How has your year been so far?
Have you made progress in the areas you wanted to address?
To answer those questions, my year has been all right. I've really enjoyed the 5% challenges, I'm having fun, and though I'm not seeing much progress in my weight, I'm learning some things. I mean, this weight isn't a weight I haven't seen frequently over the last several years. I'd be sooo jazzed if I saw 134, which is only 3 pounds away. God, it takes so much to lose a pound at 4'10".
Have I made progress? Not really, from the weight perspective. But I've got a better workout routine that I like doing, and I'm doing cool things for me, like my voice lessons. So that's all good.
Saturday, April 09, 2011
I think a recurring theme in my blogs has been how depressed I get on weekends. It happened again today. I have such a routine on weekends that it seems to me that feeling depressed is part of that routine! So I read the paper and clipped some coupons. I got up during commercials for "It's Me or the Dog!" and washed some dishes. I eyed the pile of mail on the kitchen table and the hall table and fantasized about picking up the coffee table, too. When there was nothing left on TV, I had the feeling that I should do something productive, but didn't have it in me to pick something and execute it. So I took a shower and lied down with the little dog, who, light and fancy-free, fell asleep immediately, while I looked on jealously.
I tried to figure out what makes me so DOWN on weekends. I mean, they are WEEKENDS! Like billions of other people, I spend the whole week waiting for them. Then, when they come, I can't wait for Monday. How dissatisfying, to want to be at work when I'm at home, and at home when I'm at work.
Then, I started thinking about closure. I'm reading this book, "Watercooler Wisdom," and it talks about getting closure on tasks. The argument is that a lot of the stress in our lives is caused by things that would take very little to complete, but we just don't. So, for example, you should make sure that your voicemail is checked before you go home on Friday, or it will gnaw at you over the weekend. Make sense?
And I SUCK at getting closure.
I kind of do it on purpose. I make rules for things, because I feel that the less control I have over what I do, the better. Which seems kind of silly, but let me explain. Say I am going to go to the gym. I might make a rule that says how long I have to stay...if there are two slow songs on my iPod in a row, I can go home, for example. Or until I finish my book. Or until I burn x number of calories. This keeps me at the gym longer than if I DECIDE, "10 minutes" or whatever. It's better for me to not have control, to not have to decide.
But I do it in other realms, too. Like, I get up to do the dishes just on commercials. I read the paper in the order it falls out of the newspaper bag. I clip coupons only as long as there's something on TV. And this habit has the capacity to leave a lot of things undone.
By then, Sammy was snoring, so I couldn't wake him up, but I promised myself when we got out of bed, I was going to get closure on the things I was working on when I lied down. I fell asleep and had two dreams, both of which involved getting closure and Sammy. I don't remember the shorter one, but the first one was that I had a calendar of all his health problems, and we went through them one-by-one and fixed them. When the calendar had been completely flipped-through, we were done. It felt good.
Then, I woke up and washed the dishes, and finished the coupons. That felt good, too. I read the mail. I didn't clean up like I should, but that's okay. In the book, it doesn't say you have to get everything done, but to finish what you started.
To get closure.
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Yesterday, while I was sitting with the little dog, I went through the nutrition reports from December 2008 on. Then, I thought that I could create the grocery lists from weeks that were particularly good, but it turned out I couldn't. Oh, well. Instead, I just printed out my food log from days where I was in my calorie range and had a good balance between carbs, protein, and fat.
But I was shocked at how many red dots my reports had! And how few blue! That is, when you ate within your calorie range on a given day, it was in this colored strip on the chart, and the dot was blue. But if you were over or under, then it was a red dot. And my reports looked like it had measles, the chicken pox and poison ivy all at once!
I don't know if I would consider myself a visual person, or a visually-motivated person, but in my mind, I began to imagine all my dots as blue dots lined up neatly on that little colored strip, and I saw that as very desirable. So yesterday and today, I have a streak going of earning blue dots for the day. Maybe if I stop getting red dots, I will finally have some weight loss success.
Because, I mean, really? Nutrition reports from December 2008, and I've lost very little, if anything at all, if I haven't gained in that time? Doing SparkPeople? And by doing SparkPeople, I mean, "doing" SparkPeople. Obviously, my commitment hasn't been that strong. About as strong as my commitment to...I don't know...get a pilot's license. Seriously!
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
I picked Little Sammy up from the hospital this morning. I cried when they brought him to me. I didn't know you could love a dog so much. He did really well during the surgery, and he's surprisingly alert this morning. He keeps wobbling around only slightly more wobbly than usual. He IS an old man! I'm trying to feed him, but he doesn't want to eat, and I need him to eat for his medicine.
If I can get him to go sleep, I will go to the gym. I actually think he's asleep right now, but I've got him on the couch with me, and I can't leave him up there alone. I guess if that doesn't work, I'll go tonight when my husband is back.
Poor Sammy! He can't catch a break. I hope he stops growing things he's not supposed to. We'll get the biopsy results early next week.
I'm off the rest of the week for Little Sammy. I'm going to use this time well, but I don't quite know how.
I'm kind of back to where I was before when I was home alone that weekend. What should I do with myself? How can I best use my time? Besides snuggling with the Little Dog. Organize some closets? Freecycle a bunch of junk? Rosetta Stone? Learn how best to plan meals for a week? Any other ideas?
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