Friday, March 18, 2011
I'm home alone.
Not completely alone. Sammy's here with me. But my husband and my exchange son are gone. It's a little lonely and a little peaceful.
But I don't know what to do with myself. Here are my ideas:
1. Watch a ton of TV.
2. Vacuum my rug.
3. Go to the diner by myself with the paper.
4. Change the sheets.
5. Sweep and mop the bedroom floor.
6. Work on my Rosetta Stone.
7. Clean the water stains off my kitchen table.
8. Go to the gym (done that once already).
It all sounds so BORING. I wish that I had friends that could come over and play games and hang out with me. But I don't. Part of me is really cool with all this, and part of me is lonely and sad about it.
Anyway. I wanted to ask y'all what I should do with this time by myself. What should I do with this time by myself?
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Okay, so since I wrote my last blog, I've been eating like a maniac. I've so completely overeaten this week, I can't even believe it. How do I stop this? I don't even know. I go to bed at night saying, tomorrow will be better, and I wake up saying, today will be better, but then I EAT.
So, any suggestions you have would be most appreciated. Just by writing this, I feel more like I can get past this. I'm just completely creeped out, because yes, obviously, I've eaten more than my fair share of calories over the last few years, but I wasn't really thinking about it, you know? And now, I am, but I can't seem to stop it. It's disconcerting.
Anyway, I'm committing tonight to a healthy meal. I have cooked kale in my fridge. I hope it's still good! Tomorrow, I'm off work, so I can go shopping for the foods that have kept me in my calorie range in the past, like apples. I'm going to buy some more pop, because part of my problem has been stopping in the morning to get a soda at 7-Eleven, and then I wind up walking out with a bag of chips (justified by its small size), taquitos (which I'm pretty sure are made with crack, because I'm addicted), peanut M&Ms (which I'd been craving) or a sausage biscuit. Not all at once, but some combination of the above. Ugh.
Got to get off this train. I hope that tonight, I will.
Sunday, March 13, 2011
My bestie at work gave me a Rosetta Stone for my birthday. Yesterday, I tried to install it, and it wouldn't install! I spent 3.5 hours yesterday trying to figure this out, 1 and a half of which were spent with a very nice man named Vivek who tried to help me and couldn't. He asked me to contact "Level 2 support" today. I did, and after another hour and a half, they were able to get my program installed.
Here's the thing. My birthday was in October. It took me 5 months to do this.
If I had started the day after I got the program, I'd be well on my way to speaking Arabic. If I had started the day after I got the program, my bestie could have gotten me Level 2 for my anniversary or Valentine's Day or something. If I had started the day after I got the program, I wouldn't be regretting that I didn't.
And that got me thinking. What else might I regret not starting? I was going to skip the gym today, and go tomorrow, but maybe I'd wish I'd gone today. So I did.
And what else? Maybe I'll regret not cooking those collards. Maybe I'll regret not starting that book I borrowed from the library. Or the crossword puzzles I've been saving for when I "had time." Or finishing the newspaper, before it's not news anymore. Or getting into a serious, consistent strength training program. What do I want to get done? Well, I should start doing it!
I don't mean that I carry some sort of life-sucking amount of regret around; maybe just a little. I think we all do. One of the more obnoxious things in life are people who say, "I don't have any regrets." Sure, you do. You don't dwell on it, and you shouldn't! But everyone's hurt someone, made a big mistake, did the wrong thing. I believe in the butterfly effect, that if you changed the smallest thing, that the effects on life and world have the potential to be huge, but a person who says that can't possibly be thinking that when they look into the eyes of someone they hurt, or when they feel humiliated, or when they realize the mistake.
But I digress.
My point was that regret can be a useful tool if you let it. Or potential regret, anyway. It got me thinking about the potential that a list of those things could have. A daily list, of things I *might* regret not starting/finishing/doing on that day. Just a different way to state "Don't put off for tomorrow..."
Friday, March 04, 2011
Bed size~ Queen
Chore you hate the most~ Cleaning the shower
Dogs~ Little Sammy!
Essential start your day item~ Alarm clock
Gold or silver~ Why choose when you don't have to?
Instruments you play~ None. I had a guitar, but I was never very good.
Job title~ Academic Advisor
Kids~ Not now, maybe later. Please don't ask again.
Live~ DC Metro Area
Mom's first name~ Marsha
Nicknames~ Brenditita (from my colleague who doesn't quite *get* Spanish) , Sillyhead (from my husband)
Overnight hospital stays~ Just when I was born
Pet peeve~Misuse of the word "literally," as in "I literally DIED!" Um, no, you didn't. Also, improper noun forms, i.e. audaciousness (as opposed to audacity), maliciousness (as opposed to malice). Also, people who don't use their signals to change lanes and people who tailgate.
Quote from a movie~ "Well Ndugu, I'll close now. You probably can't wait to run and cash this check and get yourself something to eat."--About Schmidt
Right or Left-handed~ Right
Siblings~4, two brothers, two sisters
Time you wake up~ 6:30-ish
Underwear~ is in my drawer.
Vegetable you dislike~ beets
What makes you late~ Missing keys
X-rays you've had done~ at the dentist, and my foot once
Yummy food you make~ Cheesy stuffed eggplant
Zoo animal favorite~ Baby pygmy hippos, especially if they're named Aldo, like the one in Paris
Friday, February 25, 2011
Two nights ago, when I was getting ready to go to bed, I suddenly realized that I had only had one soda all day. Normally, I drink anywhere from 3-6. So I tried the same thing yesterday. And I'm working on today, so we'll see, though my husband bought my very favorite Diet Dr. Pepper. I may have two today. But it feels good to have done that, and actually, pretty good that it was by accident.
I've been wanting to give up soda for awhile, but when I try to, I get wicked headaches. Really, really bad headaches. And it's not the caffeine, actually. One time, I had a really bad headache, and nothing worked: not sleep, not potassium, not ibuprofeun, not even regular Coke. Then, I had a Diet Coke, and within 20 minutes, I was good. It's not the caffeine; it's the aspartame.
I haven't given up soda yet because something always gets in the way. I got close once. I got down to 10 ounces a day. I figured I would get to one can a day, then bought a two-liter and measured out until I could get down to zero. But something, and I don't know what, got in the way.
So this being quite by accident, and my not having a headache, means I can maintain this. And after a week (or a month--husband bought me a 36-pack) of one can a day, I can start doing the two-liter thing.
Maybe I won't have the second one. Slippery slopes...
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