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Nothing Quite As Planned

Saturday, December 08, 2012


I'm in my gym clothes, but I'm not sure I'll make it there. I should have gotten there over two hours ago, if we're going to be real.

But, I finished working at 8:55am, and went downstairs to eat an orange and an avocado for breakfast. Not simultaneously, but one after the other. While I was down there, Little Sammy woke up, so I had to take him out, then pick up what he put down, then take out the garbage and found a secret mess he'd made, so cleaned that up, too, while I was trying to eat my orange. Then, I did the dishes. Then, I finally ate my orange.

By then, I was soooo sleepy, that I decided to try my hand once again at the 20-minute power nap. I did not actually roll out of bed until an hour later. I don't know if these actually require more practice, but I suck at them.

No worries, though, because I still had over 4 hours before my next shift of work starts. I changed into my workout clothes and headed back downstairs to eat the avocado, fill the water bottle and get ready to bounce. I was surprised to find Little Sammy awake and wandering the kitchen restlessly when I returned. I hopped over the barrier and began to cut the avocado and spoon it into my mouth. So good.

Well, Little Sammy found me, and he just stopped, and stood against my leg. When I moved to the food scale, maybe I just imagined it, but he looked sad. How can I resist such a face? I scooped him up, brought him to the bed, laid him down, sidled up next to him, and he promptly fell asleep. All he wanted was some attention.

Well, shucks. Now I'm stuck here in the bed, because the little blind guy can't be left alone on an elevated surface, but never fear! There is plenty to do without a TV present and stuck in one spot. I'm either going to work on a letter or go through the assignments in a self-help book I skipped through recently. Maybe I'll nap some more. Maybe I'll read or write something. I actually feel quite like Jo March in this situation...nice, quiet weekend. And, if I don't make it to the gym before it closes, I can always do ST or a Coach Nicole video, so it's all good. And the company I have couldn't be better. =)

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DRAGONFLY02 12/12/2012 9:10AM

    I like how you added that you didn't eat the avocado and orange together. Knowing my son, he would. He mixes the weirdest food combos. The other day he was eating pepperoni wrapped around chocolate peppermint bark. YUCK!! While I wasn't that enthused over his choice of food, he has had some other weird combos that I don't care about since he combines 2 healthy (albeit weird combos) foods and will eat it.

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CARLYG8 12/9/2012 5:39PM

    I am all for snuggling with my little guy. Especially today. It is raining, and the temp is supposed to steadily drop through the night and stay cold....blech! Good thing he loves to snuggle too!!!

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4LEEFCLOVER 12/9/2012 3:25PM

    Good plan B! A little extra sleep is good for you too!

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HOPESINGH 12/8/2012 4:38PM

    I wouldn't have resisted the little guy either! So sweet!

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New Beginning...

Tuesday, December 04, 2012

I finally have internet access. I missed you guys!!!

I think the house is functional for the most part. I am in no way unpacked or organized, but I have some clothes and kitchen stuff unpacked. And of course, my stationery and stickers (current sticker count: 2760).

I put my husband on a bus yesterday, so today was going to be my official start date of my 10 pounds in 7 weeks. Buuuut, I forgot to weigh myself this morning. And I don't have the tape measure...I just realized that I didn't pack it. And no printer to print one out yet. I may just get a new one later, but until then, I'll go with my weight measurement (tomorrow). At a minimum, though, here is the promised photo:

I'm wearing all black, so I guess it's slimming. emoticon

I start work tomorrow. I can't believe how fast everything is happening, but I am not very sad anymore.

I bought salad things. Lettuce, tomato, bell pepper, celery, radishes....

I need to also buy some other, heartier things to put in the salad. I tried to find a salad generator online and couldn't find one, but how cool would that be? You'd spin a wheel for base (arugula, romaine, spinach...) then veggies, then maybe even fruits, then nuts, seeds, meats, dressings...and so on. I think I'll try to make my own salad generator.

Tomorrow, I'll post my weight.

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RUTHXG 1/4/2013 2:54PM

    Mmmmm, salad! My housemate made a great one last night with carrots, apples, walnuts, lemon juice & mint.

I hope you're feeling a bit more settled, & I hope the job is going well. Did you have a good Christmas & new year's? How often are you & Aldo able to get together? Want to come see me sometime soon? I'd love to fix dinner for you!


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4LEEFCLOVER 12/6/2012 4:43PM

    Happy new home! Wishing you a smooth transition with your job, location, climate, community. Health and happiness to you and your family as you work your way through all the changes! This is a good time for plenty of rest and sleep as the solstice passes, and nature sleeps.

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THOMS1 12/5/2012 11:21AM

    I wish you happiness.

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CARLYG8 12/5/2012 7:49AM

    Glad to hear that you are settling in, making plans and doing well. You have been in my thoughts and prayers all weekend. ~hugs~

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HOPESINGH 12/5/2012 3:02AM

    What a great idea is that salad generator! Good luck, and enjoy the process.

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PINKNFITCARLA 12/4/2012 10:07PM

    Good luck at your new job and your new start!

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MADAMES 12/4/2012 9:24PM

    Good luck on your fresh start! I have moved many times, and it has always worked out for the best!

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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 12/4/2012 4:10PM

    whenever i need ideas for salads, i got to the website for this salad place I like and just look at their ingredients or their various salad combos. I love the Mexican salad from there but i can make 2x as much for about half the price. Here's the website in case you want inspiration!
Also, i dont know if it's in season everywhere, but the last month or two i've been getting AWESOME butter lettuce for my salads. I couldn't find it at the store today. But I love the taste of it.

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DARIALEIGH 12/4/2012 2:45PM

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RIDLEYRIDER 12/4/2012 2:44PM

  Welcome back and good luck!

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Friday, November 30, 2012

Many boxes are packed. We know which furniture I'm taking. I finished my last day of work. I got many presents and a severance. We know who the friends who are helping us load are.

It's been a whirlwind of a month. I've been a little sad, really excited, ready, anticipatory, happy, scared, amazed and excited (worth two mentions). As things start to wind down on this side, and I go careening to that inevitable point where I get in the truck, drive away from my house and my exchange student, then leave my husband at a bus station for I don't know how long, I am now feeling just one emotion.

I am so effing, overwhelmingly sad.

I mean, like, artistically sad. I understand why Van Gogh cut off his ear. I get why Kurt Cobain did heroin. I comprehend why George Harrison just wanted to be left alone. The profundity of my sadness is vast.

How can I do this? How can I go away?

I have dinner here in a little bit. I imagined a happy dinner with friends, food, adult beverages...a crappy weigh-in tomorrow, but general good feeling. This hit me like an oncoming car. I had no idea it would hurt like this. But it really, really hurts.

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AMYLONGHORN 12/1/2012 6:16PM

    You're a strong will be fine! Drive safe!! Love and hugs!

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RAINBOWCHOC 12/1/2012 1:56PM

    sending love from across the pond, it might help but if not it was sent with good intention

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PINKNFITCARLA 11/30/2012 11:21PM

    I can totally understand your sadness at such a big change. Hang in there and try to concentrate on the good things! emoticon

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ACCEPTHECHLNGE 11/30/2012 11:02PM

    I had no idea you are about to start a new life somewhere else. I went back several blogs and couldn't find why you are going and where you are going to.
I have been out of the loop for a while after finding out that my husband had kidney cancer.
Let me just tell you, in a day or two (via SparkMail), how I felt when I left the Bay Area (near San Francisco) after living there a little bit more than 30 years. I was miserable and didn't know how I would fit into the new world we were about to embrace.
Have a safe trip and stay in touch.

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GETSTRONGRRR 11/30/2012 9:11PM

    We've moved many, many times over the's tough when you're in the thick of it....always happier on the other side.

Good luck!

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CARLYG8 11/30/2012 8:48PM

    I know the next couple of days are going to be the roughest for you. When you start to feel sad, or scared, try and concentrate on all the new beginnings, the fresh start you have been given. It won't be easy, but you will be okay. ~hugs~

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KOKITTY 11/30/2012 7:02PM

    I can understand your sadness, you are leaving quite a bit behind. However, let the sadness wash away and allow yourself to feel invigorated and hopeful over the new path you're taking! It's going to be wonderful, and everything will fall into place with time. Take a deep breath and smile :)

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The Day

Sunday, November 25, 2012

This may be only a part 1, but this is my writing a goal blog to complement the last blog I wrote about Steve Pavlina and writing goals. Once my husband takes the bus to O'Hare after we move me to Indiana, this is what I will work for:

I am going to lose 10 pounds by February 12, 2013. To increase my accountability, I will take a photo each week and post it, and publish my measurements each week in a blog.

I think he says worry about steps until after you make the goal, but my rules/steps for this are to eat at least one salad per day (I'm going to find some cool recipes) and to exercise at least 5 minutes a day (likely more, because I'm going to join the onsite gym).

I will probably come up with more rules soon, since I'm giving myself only 7 weeks to lose 10 pounds. 8 if you count this week, and I will, but I'm not counting on being able to concentrate on this while I turn my world upside down.

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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 12/4/2012 1:39PM

    GREAT IDEA. Can I do this with you? When are you officially starting?

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MONAKIN314 11/26/2012 1:32PM

    You can DO IT!

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    You're coming to Indiana! emoticon

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Inspiration Day

Saturday, November 24, 2012

Today I finally caught up on my SparkPeople emails, so I went to my Steve Pavlina emails and tried to get through them. They are article-heavy, so it takes quite a bit of time to read each one. The ones I've been reading are for his "passive income series."

Anyway, he is talking about creating passive income, which is income that you don't have to spend an inordinate amount of time on, like rental income, or royalties. I just started reading it because it was in the email he sent me; I'd never considered passive income. I'm pretty satisfied with my field and enjoy the interactions I have with people as I work for "active income."

So I started to get a little sucked in; I mean, passive income sounds like a lot of fun, like, you don't have to get up and schlep to work. Checks just, like, come in the mail. How cool is that?

So he says you must set a passive income goal, and then you have to build in consequences for not meeting your goal, so I wrote down this very tiiiiiny passive income goal, but then he wanted me to build in consequences, and I realized my heart really wasn't in it. I didn't want to be the person he referred to in this blog:
, reading for entertainment's sake or looking for information to apply later. He didn't seem to appreciate those readers, but that's really what I am. I mean, if you look at the dates on these articles, you'll see that I wasn't exactly hanging on to his every word and waiting with bated breath for his next installment.

So I was reading this article:
, and I don't really want to focus on passive income right now (which is OKAY). But I realized that I could use many of the things he is saying to create a skinnier BeatleTot as well. The article spoke to me in a lot of ways, like with the sticky notes in places you'll see them idea. I find this idea cheesy and didn't see how it could work, until I read, "Even if I don’t acknowledge it consciously, my subconscious mind will be exposed to this goal repeatedly."

And: "Many people lose sight of their new goals within a week after setting them. They get sucked into various distractions, and the goal doesn’t take root. To prevent your goal from fizzling out, you have to keep giving it some attention, just as you would keep watering a plant."

Two very good reasons to put my goal out there.

An argument for creating consequences: "if you’re not willing to do anything of the sort, then how committed are you really? If you’re committed to your goal, then it shouldn’t be a big deal to line up some extra sting for failure."

He also suggests "positive stress," such as, "You can do a lot with a short status update on your favorite social media site, such as by promising a negative consequence if you fail to achieve your goal by your deadline."

And finally, says, "If you decide to skip this step, my honest expectation is that you will fail to achieve your goal. If you make it easy and safe to fail, you probably will."

It's something I have to give a bit of thought. Any stings for failure you guys have to suggest, I'm open to them. I am going to set a goal for myself beginning December 3rd, after my husband leaves me alone in Indiana. I'm going to be in a new environment with the only distractions being new ones I allow in. It's like putting the toothpaste back in the tube or horses back in the barn or whatever such idiom means it's harder to improve things than to just have them be right in the first place. So be on the lookout...a goal is forming quickly in my mind, and I'm going to post it in short order!

And check him out. He's good.

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MIWOLFF 11/25/2012 10:11AM

    Thanks for sharing... loved the perspective, particularly if you make it to easy and comfortable for yourself to fail. I need to remember that!



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DONNACFIT 11/24/2012 5:53PM

    Thanks for sharing..good luck on all your new ventures...when it comes to the sting of not meeting a scale really "bites"

I'll have to check out the link..lots of great inspiration in your blog!

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