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Monday, November 15, 2010

I'm not really sad. I wrote that to mean "Seasonal Affective Disorder." Ever since I moved north, I usually get it in February. Last year, I told myself everyday after December 22nd that the days get longer, and I would look up the sunset times sometimes just to see the days getting longer.

So it's too bad that I'm already feeling bummed out about it getting dark at 5pm. It just makes me sleepy and lethargic and bored.

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ANITA012 11/16/2010 1:33AM

    I know...This time of year can be rather depressing. I feel it too when it's dark for such a long time.
I have found that the "Daylight" bulbs that are energy efficient are worth every penny. Do yourself a favor and invest in some of those. Not only will you save money/energy, but the lighting really does make a big difference. I've noticed since my husband has switched the bulbs out for those, that I'm much happier.
Also...Even if the weather is a little cold, spend a few minutes outside each day. It will also help.
There are also some good fragrances that you can simmer on your stove that can help lift your spirits. Find some that you might enjoy and put them on. A nice scent can make everything feel cozier, and will help lift you out of the blues.
Hang in there...Spring and Summer will be here before you know it! emoticon emoticon

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IBECCA 11/15/2010 5:11PM

    I love daylight savings. all this spring forward and fall back
baaaa humbug! leave it alone.

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Maybe I got it this time

Thursday, September 16, 2010

I love this article.

And I think I understand now. I mean, the article was a little all over the place, about our denial about being fat, weight loss methods, how to calculate BMI, etc. But what got me was the part about the food. This part:

First, this is the example we are given. We're constantly told that we don't exercise enough, but we are more seldom told that we eat too much. Weight-loss infomercials rarely talk about food—usually they hawk fitness gizmos that miraculously helped people melt away their fat in just minutes a day....Weight-loss reality TV shows depict people killing themselves in the gym for hours a day, not weighing their food or talking about how hungry they are from eating less. Fitness magazines primarily talk about workouts, with headlines about losing your gut...It's no wonder we think a lack of exercise is what's to blame for our increased girth.

But what about food? People are always told that there is no such thing as good and bad foods, but can that honestly be true? Realistically, there are bad foods—we all know what they are....Food is deeply personal to us....For something that says so much about you, to admit that the food you choose to eat isn't so good might mean that you're not a good person either. It may signal that you're weak, that you lack willpower, that you don't care, or that you don't care what others think of you. Because food matters that much to us, and we want freedom to eat whatever we want. We don't want to be told what to eat or how to eat. We especially don't want to be told what NOT to eat. For some reason, there's not much stigma associated with a sedentary lifestyle, but people become very defensive and protective if you try to change, control, or analyze their food choices. It's easier to just say we don't exercise enough than to dissect something so personal to us.

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And I have blogged about that. I want to eat what I want, when I want. Why can't I? It made me think that I should feel a little hungry sometimes, and that I should ban foods that have little to no nutritional value. And I think that's the key. I need to suffer just a tiny bit. A tiny bit of suffering can yield me some serious results.

By suffer, I don't mean that I think this is a prison sentence or a diet or a non-lifestyle change. And I don't mean that good for you foods are inherently gross. But I can't eat pizza once a week because that's what I want. I can't go out drinking with my friends once or twice a week because I had a hard day. And if I do do that, I can't have three beers each time. I mean, of course I can, I'm an adult, but I can't do it if I think I'm going to lose weight.

I want to write about something else, too. Yesterday, I went shopping after work. I needed new pants for my job badly, and I'm wanting to methodically build a basic wardrobe. So I went to the stores. I said, I need to buy pants, I just have to, even if they're size 8 or 10s. When I started on SparkPeople, I wore an 8. Last time I bought pants, I bought 10s, just temporarily, you know? I mean, I have this one pair of pants that were really quite nice-looking, and I was so SURE they were not going to fit for long, so I never got them hemmed properly. They still have safety pins in the bottoms. And I wear them at least twice a week. When I went yesterday, the 8s barely buttoned. The 10s were too tight for work. I thought, "Oh, EFF! I can't do it. I can't buy 12s. I just can't." Then, I said to myself, "You need new pants. You really do. So, look, you have a choice. You can either be a size 8, or you can buy new clothes. Which one is it?"

And I hadn't bought clothes in so long because I didn't want to buy bigger sizes. I wanted to wait until I could get back into my 8s (because 10s were temporary). But I decided that I deserve to be well-dressed. I don't have to punish myself for being overweight. And that's what I was doing, even though I thought I was rewarding myself for doing better. I have several articles of clothing in my closet that I haven't allowed myself to wear yet, because I made a rule that I had to lose a pound for each new item. It obviously didn't work. I bought them in May of 2009. Yes. 2009.

I feel better now. And my new pants feel really good. And I think I may be on to something here.

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JODIANN421 9/19/2010 9:33PM

    You are going to do this. But don't punish yourself the whole time! You are doing great!! I wish you all the luck in the world :) emoticon

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My knees blog

Wednesday, September 08, 2010

The challenge today in the group "The Knees" is to blog about my weight loss. I don't know how I got started doing these challenges--I so rarely have gone to my teams--but after I did one, I guess I wanted to have a streak.

I used to be very slender. Of course, then, I didn't think I was as cute as I know now I was. That makes me sad. After I went to graduate school, I didn't have time to work out. I didn't have time to do anything. But now, I've been out of grad school for almost three years, and I'm still gaining weight.

Well, not now. But I'm also not really losing. I'm frustrated and I'm kind of sad. I'm working out like a maniac, but I get hungry and darn it, I eat! Even I try to be better and only eat when I'm hungry and things like this, but it's not having a lot of effect.

But I don't defy science, so I must not be trying hard enough, right?

I just want to be cute again.

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SONYARODRI29 9/14/2010 1:44PM

    Change is good. Even before I had my big weight gain...when I was "cute" and thin....I ate when I was hungry, and I never ate breakfast. I managed to stay a pretty healthy weight. Then the babies came, and life set in...and the weight came on. I tried doing what I did before, eat when I was hungry, skip meals, but nothing. NOW, I can't even THINK about missing breakfast. It's weird...I eat every 2 hours, fueling my body...I'm NEVER hungry, because I don't allow myself to "get hungry". I changed. I made a change. Small changes=big the long run... Good luck! emoticon

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KNH771 9/8/2010 6:36PM

    I don't really know about your program, so it's hard to give any specific comments on what you might change to get your weight loss going in the direction you want. I do want to congratulate you on maintaining though. emoticon People don't give that stage the importance it merits. While your body takes a break you are learning valuable habits that will carry you long term when you do get to your goal weight. Whatever you do, don't give up! Keep sticking with it. Track your food, track your exercise, and look for small areas where you can improve.

There's a quote that says "most people don't go far enough on their first wind to see if they've got a second one." Persistence really does pay off. One time I worked out at the gym every day for over a year without losing a single pound. Sometimes I worked out two or three hours. I dropped inches. I lost dress sizes. But the scale didn't budge. It was frustrating, but I hung in there and eventually the scale started moving again. Quickly. emoticon

Thank God I stuck it out! You will see the success you're after. emoticon

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JSBETHUNE 9/8/2010 6:13PM

    Sometimes there can be a medical reason for weight gain or loss. My brother-in-law had thyroid problems that gave him a very high metabolism. Once he had that fixed he is gaining weight so he is upset now. You might want to look into a medical reason. You also might be trying too hard and your body could be rebelling. Sometimes slow is better. You don't have to kill yourself every day and if you fail one day do not workout harder the next day to compensate. It can do more harm than good. Just keep working and work with your doctor as well. He might have some ideas that might work for you as well.

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I forgot what I wanted to write about

Saturday, July 17, 2010

I wanted to come here and blog about my feelings, but then I got caught up reading the blogs from THREE YEARS AGO. And you know, it's mostly the same. I have no self control. I don't want to make a lifestyle change. I say I'm going to the gym on weekends, but then I don't. I make excuses. I don't finish what I start. You'd think, having acknowledged all of this three years ago, I'd've made some progress in improving it. NOPE.

It's so frustrating. I eat right, I go to the gym, and nothing happens. And I still feel the same. Not any better than I did before. I'm exaggerating, of course. I feel much better not smoking, and going to the gym regularly instead of sporadically makes me feel good about myself, but still. I'm not exaggerating that much. I thought this stuff was supposed to WORK. I thought it was the only thing that WORKED. If it doesn't work, then what am I left with?

So I'm not perfect about my diet and exercise, but people keep saying, "You'll slip up, and it's okay to not be perfect, just keep going." But how long do you keep going when it's not working?

*Sigh* I don't know. I guess I have to try to be closer to perfect than I've been. Maybe I am just kidding myself. I haven't been logging my evening eating the last two weeks, and I know there's a reason for that. And maybe there's something to the lifestyle change. Who cares if I don't like the words? I can call it what I want so long as I implement it. I could call it George or little red wagon or boot scootin' long as I get trimmer and fitter.


Just making a note for myself

Sunday, December 07, 2008

Here's that cool cookbook they sent out.


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